Ari

I'm just picturing you actually just chasing storms.

I'm just picturing you actually just chasing storms.

Yeah. I love it. I want to talk about your book. So I have a story for you. We... have been on tour. We came from St. Louis to here. And right before I got your book, the day we left for tour, I didn't even get a chance to look at it. I just put it in my bag. We were in a rush to go. After the St. Louis night, I got off stage really unwell. When we did an altar call,

Yeah. I love it. I want to talk about your book. So I have a story for you. We... have been on tour. We came from St. Louis to here. And right before I got your book, the day we left for tour, I didn't even get a chance to look at it. I just put it in my bag. We were in a rush to go. After the St. Louis night, I got off stage really unwell. When we did an altar call,

You know, I'm just two years saved. I'm new to all this. I'm leading people while still trying to figure things out. You know, that's just the truth. And so I'm ministering to these girls and I have one girl in my arms who has a brain tumor and she's crying and she's looking in my eyes with such desperation. Mm-hmm.

You know, I'm just two years saved. I'm new to all this. I'm leading people while still trying to figure things out. You know, that's just the truth. And so I'm ministering to these girls and I have one girl in my arms who has a brain tumor and she's crying and she's looking in my eyes with such desperation. Mm-hmm.

And I'm praying for her and I'm coming boldly to the throne of grace and I'm praying in faith. But I get off stage and I just felt so unwell. And I get back into my hotel room and I almost had a rage and anger in my heart. And I didn't know what was going on. And I didn't feel like I could even go to Jesus. In my head, He knows everything we're thinking.

And I'm praying for her and I'm coming boldly to the throne of grace and I'm praying in faith. But I get off stage and I just felt so unwell. And I get back into my hotel room and I almost had a rage and anger in my heart. And I didn't know what was going on. And I didn't feel like I could even go to Jesus. In my head, He knows everything we're thinking.

But in my mind, I'm thinking, I can't call anyone right now because what will they think? I just talked about how Jesus saved my life, but I'm so angry at Him right now. Why did that girl have to suffer? Why do I have to watch at every single show how tormented these kids are? I am so sick of it. I'm pacing back and forth in my hotel room.

But in my mind, I'm thinking, I can't call anyone right now because what will they think? I just talked about how Jesus saved my life, but I'm so angry at Him right now. Why did that girl have to suffer? Why do I have to watch at every single show how tormented these kids are? I am so sick of it. I'm pacing back and forth in my hotel room.

I'm on the floor crying, being like, no, I'm not going to go to Him. Because what will God think? He's probably going to be like, why are you questioning me? Why are you questioning me when I saved your life? So all these thoughts are ruminating around my head. And I'm just so unwell. And I remember even somebody told me before, they were like, don't you ever question God.

I'm on the floor crying, being like, no, I'm not going to go to Him. Because what will God think? He's probably going to be like, why are you questioning me? Why are you questioning me when I saved your life? So all these thoughts are ruminating around my head. And I'm just so unwell. And I remember even somebody told me before, they were like, don't you ever question God.

So that was in my mind of like, OK, yeah, I can't. And so I'm harboring all these feelings. I'm at the airport. And I just can't stop thinking about this girl. I start crying again. I'm thinking, how can I even go interview him right now? I'm like, whatever. Let me just start reading this book. I take the book out of my bag. The Benefit of Doubt. I looked down.

So that was in my mind of like, OK, yeah, I can't. And so I'm harboring all these feelings. I'm at the airport. And I just can't stop thinking about this girl. I start crying again. I'm thinking, how can I even go interview him right now? I'm like, whatever. Let me just start reading this book. I take the book out of my bag. The Benefit of Doubt. I looked down.

It was, you know, those God moments. And it was one of those moments. And I was like, oh my gosh, that's what I'm going through right now. I'm doubting God. And the first thing, I opened the book and it was a note from you. And this is why I love you so much. You have been such an impact in my life because... You are your realness and you just don't sugarcoat things.

It was, you know, those God moments. And it was one of those moments. And I was like, oh my gosh, that's what I'm going through right now. I'm doubting God. And the first thing, I opened the book and it was a note from you. And this is why I love you so much. You have been such an impact in my life because... You are your realness and you just don't sugarcoat things.

You are so real about anxiety and depression and what you go through. And I just want to let you know how much of an impact you've had on my life.

You are so real about anxiety and depression and what you go through. And I just want to let you know how much of an impact you've had on my life.

Thank you so much. Thank you.

Thank you so much. Thank you.