1. What to do when you’ve done everything you were supposed to do and ended up in a place you don’t want to be. 2. Why the question “What do you want?” is terrifying – and how to start answering it authentically for yourself. 3. The power of imagining what does not yet exist in order to make space for new possibilities. 4. The gift of a “midlife crisis” 5. What a mother’s job really is. About Celeste: Celeste Ng is the number one New York Times bestselling author of Everything I Never Told You and Little Fires Everywhere. Her third novel, Our Missing Hearts, is available now. Ng is the recipient of fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts and the Guggenheim Foundation, and her work has been published in over thirty languages. TW: @pronounced_ing IG: @pronounced_ing To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices
Chapter 1: Why do we feel stuck in life?
Welcome to We Can Do Hard Things. We are here with the incredible Celeste Ng. I've been really, really psyched to have this conversation. Celeste, welcome.
Thank you so much for having me. I'm thrilled to be here.
I have read all of your books, Little Fires Everywhere, and your new book, Our Missing Hearts, which my son and I read together. And I will tell you, Celeste, it just feels like
All of the things that I'm working out in my life or on this podcast or wherever in my little heart, all the things I'm wrestling with, whether it's in my family or in my personal life or in my public self or in activism or in motherhood, you're just always working it out in your latest book, which makes me know you're always wrestling with something like five years before I am, which makes me so grateful to you.
And each of your books just feels like this, it's not answers, but just beautiful explorations of these questions in the form of a character's life and love and struggles and decisions.
I saw this teacher say on Twitter the other day that she was so sick of students saying that nonfiction was real and that fiction is fake, that she now says that nonfiction is learning through information and fiction is learning through imagination. Yeah. Oh, I love that. Isn't that great? So your imagination has taught me so much, Celeste. So thank you for your work in the world.
Oh, thank you. That is maybe the nicest thing that a writer could hear. I write my books always not because I have answers at all, but because I'm working through those same questions, like you said. And so to hear that the books reached you and resonated with things that you're also wrestling with, that is really the nicest thing that a writer could hear.
Well, let me just introduce you formally for maybe the three people who are listening who don't know who you are. Celeste Ng is the number one New York Times bestselling author of Everything I Never Told You and Little Fires Everywhere. Her third novel, Our Missing Hearts, is available now.
Ng is the recipient of fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts and the Guggenheim Foundation, and her work has been published in over 30 languages. Celeste, what I really want to talk to you is about some of the themes that are throughout all of your books, because many of the themes that we're wrestling with on We Can Do Hard Things all the time.
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Chapter 2: What makes the question 'What do you want?' so terrifying?
It's funny because I think like anger, at least for me in my own experience, like when I get mad about things, it's sort of like this opaque fog that comes in. I don't know what I'm mad about. Am I mad at my husband? Am I not mad at my husband? Am I mad at my sister? Like, what am I mad at? And then I'm like, oh, sometimes I am mad at them. Right.
But sometimes I'm mad at something larger that is not necessarily their doing or their fault. And it's hard to know what to do with that. Yeah. Yeah.
That theme runs through all of your work. I feel like in everything I never told you, something that was fascinating to me was the Betty Crocker cookbook that was handed down from mother to daughter. It was actually based on your mother's Betty Crocker cookbook that she came over when she was 22 from Hong Kong. But in addition to the recipes that it had, it also had
these quotes throughout that told women what to want. These ideas of this is how you reach your peak fulfillment as a woman. So one of them was, is there any satisfaction more intense than looking at a set of jellies and preserves you made yourself? Oh, for fuck's sake. So like these cookbooks are telling women what they should want.
And of course, women's inability to find their fulfillment in those things is what Ferdinand called the problem with no name. And just as you're saying, Celeste, with this moment that we're in right now, it does feel like so many women in this country have this anger. that they don't know exactly what it's about.
And still in this moment, the question, what do you want to a woman might be the most terrifying question that can be posed. And so we don't want Betty Crocker to tell us, but we're not real sure we can answer it. And so in this moment where we have the ability to fulfill our potential ostensibly, there is still this problem with no name that is different. Do you know what it is?
For our generation, what is the problem with no name of right now?
Yeah, I think you're really onto something there. I don't absolutely can't claim to have the answers, although I wish I did. But I think you're right on in saying that part of it is that we know what we don't want. We don't want that. We don't want things the way they are. We know there is a problem. But Because we haven't yet made it through to whatever is beyond that, we don't know what's there.
It's hard to know what we do want because we don't exactly know what's possible. Like, I have a lot of sympathy for the women of Marilyn's generation. That's the mother in my first novel, who's got the Betty Cracker cookbook. Because in a way... They knew enough to know that they didn't want what they had. They didn't want just the jars of jams and jellies.
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Chapter 3: How do imagination and fiction open new possibilities?
we don't know what to do about it. And it feels like then there's nothing to do. And I, you know, I certainly have felt that way myself. And one of the reasons that I keep turning to, you know, to fiction, but also just art generally music and poetry is that I feel like it kind of reminds me like, okay, people have gone through something like this. I'm not alone.
which is also such a powerless feeling. And then also it's reminding me like, oh, maybe there could be something else. It's just holding, it's like putting a little placeholder in for what we can imagine later.
It feels so important to, enter that space of maybe what could be through art. And then I think there's also a space of just at least knowing not this, like figuring out what is the sandbox that you're being put in? Because when my kids were little and they were bugging me, I would just put them in this space. Like we have this little space, like some plastic things. I'm like, build a thing. And
To me, it feels like as women or any marginalized group has to figure out like, what's the sandbox you're being put in? Because that Betty Crocker was just a sandbox. And that sounds ridiculous. Make a perfect egg to some of us that will bring fulfillment. But like, what's that version of ourselves now?
Because all of the, you know, freaking house obsession, decorating every corner of our house perfectly and obsessing with that or body as project. beauty as project. It's all just another Betty Crocker cookbook. It's just putting us in the sandbox. So we're not concentrating on the real stuff.
It's fake power. Yeah. I think that's a really interesting way of looking at it. And that's right. It's sort of this sense that in a sense, it's almost like saying, here are the rules of being a woman or being a person of color, whatever your situation is, here's the rules.
So if you just do all these things, work within these parameters, or as you said, sort of be in that little sandbox and you do all those things right, you follow the recipe, you will find fulfillment. Right. And in a sense, I feel like maybe what we are questioning is the whole idea that there is a series of rules that can universally be applied and provide everybody fulfillment. Right.
Whether it's make your eggs right or, you know, decorate your house perfectly or get the perfect skin, whatever it is that you're doing. Right. Have it all. Exactly. Have it all. I was like, we didn't even talk about, you know, the whole things about parenting and the ways that you're supposed to be, you know. everything should be perfect all the time for your child.
And we want that, but we're also human. And I feel like that's not possible, right? All those ideas in a way is sort of saying like this, this might not be possible. It's not that there can be one set of rules that is going to make everyone happy. And I think that could be kind of a scary thing because in a sense, if there's no formula that you can follow to do it, what are, what do you do? Right.
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Chapter 4: What is the 'midlife crisis' gift?
Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
We're more comfortable with that as like the Mia situation. We're more comfortable vilifying or shaming that other thing instead of just admitting to ourselves. Yeah, I would actually like to have that too, but I can't have that because I have this.
Yeah. I think that's so true. I have a good friend of mine from grade school on, his father used to irritate him throughout our entire adolescence and into adulthood and still now by saying, life is choices. Anytime he ran up to something, his father would say to him, life is choices. And it became a joke.
And now I say that to my kid because of like, you know, your uncle so-and-so, he says life is choices. But it's true. I mean, in a way, It's sort of what you're talking about, which is not just saying like, oh, well, that's bad. You can't have it. But just to say, you can't have it all. And that is so counter to what I was hearing when I was a teenager.
For the best of reasons, I grew up in the age of girl power, right? Where they're like, yes, you can be sexy, but you can also be super tough. And you could be in a rock band, but also you could be, you know, like all of the things. You can have a career and also have as many children as you want. And I get why that was the message.
And I don't think it was a bad thing in and of itself because you do want people to feel that these are options to them. But it is also that idea of like, you just might have to choose some of them. You can't always have them. And it doesn't mean that one is better than the other or wrong, but just that taking one path will mean that you cannot walk down the other path.
And important to acknowledge that because you have a theme also that I love so much, which is this whole idea of like the road not taken. And when we haven't examined that and embraced the and both of that, we can totally put it on our kids. Again, with Elena, she gave up her career. She gave up her ambition. And then she drove Lexi crazy by pushing her towards perfectionism. So-
That road not taken in motherhood feels like an important theme with your work.
Yeah. I feel like what it comes down to for me is almost just sort of acknowledging that we are humans and we're finite and we're flawed and limited. And those aren't bad things. That that is just part of, again, sort of what... What being human is, it means you cannot do everything and you cannot do everything perfectly and you're not even going to want to do everything.
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Chapter 5: What does a mother's job really entail?
Because I cannot do all these things because, as you said, Amanda, I'm a human and I can only do so much. Other people are also there and we will help each other. For me, that's what I'm trying to change my mindset to because I think it's ultimately a more sustainable way of being. And it's better parenting.
It's better parenting because that's exactly what we want our kids to know and believe and live as, right? We want them to not have to feel like they have to be perfect. We want them to live without shame and burden and martyrdom. So then why are we doing it and calling that good mothering?
Yeah, that's so right. Because I feel like what are the things we're trying to teach our kids in school and in life? Trying to teach them, get along with other people, work as a team, ask for help when you need it. If you're going to win a game, great, win graciously. If you're going to lose a game, be a good sport, lose graciously.
In a sense, what you're trying to teach them to do is to be with other people and to be part of a society, right? Whether it's the society of their team or their school or just the largest society. Yeah. And so one of the things that I'm, you know, I'm trying to walk the walk as well as talk the talk.
And it's hard, but I'm trying to sort of normalize for my kid that I am fallible and that I make mistakes. And so he's delighted when he catches me in a mistake. He's also, he's like kind of a tween. So we're getting into some tween things. He's like, why'd you do that thing? How come you didn't? And I'm like, okay. Oh, you're totally right. You're like, because I forgot.
And he's like, he gives me this look like, I didn't know you could forget. I'm like, yep, because my brain is tired.
Yes. Because I got a lot of stuff going on.
But thank you for reminding me. In a way, I am trying to think of it as also empowering him to be part of this group and not just to be like, you got to hold it all together. And if anyone ever sees any sign of weakness, you failed. Right. Because that's a really hard way to be. You can't hide your weaknesses forever.
And feeling like you have to, in a way, is what gives us, you know, the kind of strong man figure that pretends that he's infallible and knows everything. And without him, everything will crash. I'm the only one, right? It's not always a man. It's often a man. It's often a man. I take that.
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Chapter 6: How does societal pressure shape women’s identities?
And there's sort of warring impulses, at least in me, of feeling like I don't want to tell you these things. I want to keep you protected as long as I can. Right. Because you don't want to tell your child, hey, so there's some people out there who are going to want to hurt you. Nobody ever wants to tell their child that. But at the same time, I also worry if I don't tell you this.
I don't want you to learn it out there. I don't want you to learn this when something happens, right? And so it's a sort of delicate balance. And I feel really lucky that I have a kid who It's pretty mellow, but he does think about these things. And so when we we've talked about this.
So, for example, when the Black Lives Matter movement started taking off and we were talking about what happened to George Floyd, I tried to explain it in sort of age appropriate terms. And and also yet to give him a sense of like, hey, these are things that happen. They've been happening for a long time and we're trying to fix them. But this is kind of the ongoing work that we need to do.
even though you're not Black, this is something that affects all of us, right? And then to talk to him a little bit about experiences that I had with racism so that he has a sense of what's out there and not to scare him, but just to slowly kind of paint in the context around the world that he's got. Like, I think when you're a young child, You've got like a small world.
And then as you get older, you zoom out, like your aperture gets wider and your picture gets bigger and it fills in more around the outside. And if you zoom out too fast, sometimes, you know, you get kind of whiplash. But if you kind of gently paint in more and more of the picture, I don't know that I'm doing it right for sure. But, you know, I think that's sort of the...
the struggle that many parents have is how do you kind of balance what they can handle with what they need to know? And it's very slowly kind of talking about it as it comes up, but also talking about it. It would be way easier to just be like, well, let's just talk about the movie that we watched and not talk about this over dinner. But sometimes we do.
And I'm fortunate that my partner at dinner, sometimes if we start talking about this, he will join in and he'll say, you know what? Like, these are things that I had not had to think about for a while because I'm a tall white man, but it's still important to me. And here's why. Here's why this kind of system is bad for all of us. And it's always unclear with kids.
You're not always sure how much of this is sinking in. But I feel like in some ways, creating the space for that conversation to happen and making it so that he's aware that these are things that exist, then he will be ready to have those conversations when we do really need to have them. At least that's my hope.
Do you think that writing fiction makes you a more compassionate person? Because I was listening to you say at one point a while back that if you have a character, like you were in a workshop or something, I think it was about Elena. It all comes back to Elena for some reason.
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