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I may have a different personality today. I may seem different to you. And that's just because I took a puff of an inhaler filled with epinephrine. My heart's beating out of my chest 120 BPM. Something like a Barry's Boot Camp, but instead I'm sitting still, barely breathing because I have bronchitis. Because all of this, all of this, you know what I'm talking about. All of this, who's this diva?
It's making me ill. It's affecting my body. My body is now failing me with all this attention. Just kidding. Just kidding. Because I took five days of steroids, 40 milligrams of prednisone, which fucked me up. And now I'm withdrawing from an assortment of medications, which you know that I'm on. Shall I recap? I'm withdrawing from, from prednisone. My last dose was yesterday.
I'm withdrawing from Lamictal. I'm withdrawing from Gabapentin. And I'm withdrawing from codeine cough syrup. Who knew that could fuck you up so bad? I was given it. I was given it in the urgent care and I wasn't warned. about how it may affect me, about what the repercussions might be. Every four hours, it says on the instructions label. So, you know, I didn't miss a dose.
I was a nurse for God's sakes for eight years. I know how important it is to stick to the schedule as I taper off my own medications willy-nilly. I was asleep for two days. Like what is going on? I've never been this tired in my life. This is the COVID tired that people are talking about. I'm not getting enough. I'm not getting enough oxygen to my brain. I'm hypoxic. It's making me exhausted.
There's no perfusion. I'm losing brain cells. more than I would otherwise, living and breathing the same air as you all, the gem population, which thank you for coming back time and time again. And welcome back to another episode of Long-Winded. I appreciate you for now. So my body's failing me. And if it's not my body, it's my mind.
Because as you know, I've had a harrowing journey with antidepressants. I've done it all. The SSRI, the SNRI, the benzo, the ketamine, the drug of love. That's helped me a little bit. All right. If I don't try and self-sabotage and ruin it because I hate myself. So I've landed on the mood stabilizer, Lamictal. Try telling that to every vitamin shop you go into.
Having to talk to the nurse practitioner via FaceTime. Why are you on Lamictal? I'm massively depressed, lady. The one drug that's ever worked for this mysterious and complicated brain decreases your immune system. It depresses it. You can't fight anything off. You had the flu? Who cares? Another five days of Tamiflu didn't get you anywhere. Coughing up. Coughing up. Coughing up. Green. Clear.
Coughing up. Coughing up. Mucinex DM. Vicks Vapor Shower Tab. Robbie's banging on my chest. Harder. Harder. At the bottom. I gotta cough this up. Well, I had no reserve because my antidepressant is turning against me. It's the body or it's the mind. It's your right to be happy and healthy. They say, no, it's not. You must choose one. You must choose one. And that's what my psychiatrist said.
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