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Episode 378 - Nick Middaugh

Mon, 17 Mar 2025

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Nick has a career of over a decade’s worth of civil service spanning fire, corrections, and public safety, and he is also a survivor of CSA, more commonly known as Childhood Sexual Abuse. -Male sexual trauma is seen as a common issue that goes relatively ignored within American society. The suspected ratio of boys who experience some form of sexual abuse varies from one in six to as high as one in four by the age of eighteen. -Despite society's acknowledgement of the prevalence of this issue, the average length of time between male sexual abuse and disclosure is twenty years, not accounting for abuses that never get reported. -Childhood Sexual Abuse is a form of trauma, and while these childhood trauma statistics were not CSA specific, they are certainly related and may display some of the predispositions male CSA survivors encounter: victims of childhood trauma are; 2.4 times as likely to experience ongoing anxiety, 3.6 times as likely to be depressed, 7.2 times as likely to become alcoholic, and 11.1 times as likely to become intravenous drug users. https://www.nickmiddaugh.com/ Today's Sponsors: Montana Knife Company: https://www.montanaknifecompany.com/ LMNT: https://drinklmnt.com/CLEAREDHOT  

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Chapter 1: What is the main topic of this episode?

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What's going on, everybody? We are back. Another episode for you this morning. I try to do this when there is a potentially sensitive nature of the topic, so I'm going to give a little bit of a spoiler alert. Today's episode is largely based around somebody's abuse, a man named Nick Middaw, to be specific. If you are somebody that...

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experience their own abuse or is triggered by somebody talking about that, use the episode with caution. Not saying avoid it. It's just a really heavy topic. And I know that it has its hooks in some people and can elicit reactions from some people that they may not want to relive on their own.

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They do a better job if they're doing that with more of a little guided process through counseling and therapy. So... Again, today's episode is largely about Nick's experience and journey through that and what he has done after that. And I will leave it at that. So before we get into it, though, let's pay the bills real fast. Stick with me.

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Today's episode is brought to you by Montana Knife Company. Obviously, they have their roots here in Montana. founder, Josh Smith, who will actually be the guest of the show next week, talking about their new tactical line that they have, not getting ready to come out, more of a restock, but we'll get into that next week. Born and bred in Montana, roots in Montana, definitely a global brand.

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They have a bunch of knives. Go to montananifecompany.com and check out the knives if you want to. You want to talk about a brand that gives back. They did a fundraising effort come hell or high water, hundreds of thousands of dollars for the people who were directly impacted in both North Carolina and in the fires in Los Angeles.

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And one of the other knives that they have that's getting ready to come out Is the Blackfoot 2.0. It's not like a new release. They're getting restocked here. But you're going to get a one-year RMEF membership paid for by MKC when you buy one of these things. RMEF, Rocky Mountain Elk Foundation. Now, if you're not into elk hunting, I totally get it. That's not going to mean a lot.

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But the RMEF, their headquarters is actually down in Missoula. I've been to it. It's really cool. They had the world record bull elk on display. I don't know if I'd have been able to keep my shit together if that thing walked out in front of me. It's a great organization, conservation-based, and it's helping to preserve hunting rights, specifically when it comes to elk.

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You buy one of these Blackfeet 2.0, it's coming out on the 20th, which will actually be this week. That's perfect timing. 7 p.m. Mountain Time, 9 p.m. Eastern, 6 p.m. Pacific. See how I do the math like that in my head? That's what's going to be offered. Go to MontanaKnifeCompany.com and just scroll through what they have. They have outdoor knife. They have workman knives.

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They have tactical knives. They have chef knives. They have apparel. They're starting to get in some technical gear. It's pretty damn ridiculous. Like I said, Montana-based, Montana-raised, but a global brand. If you are lucky enough to get one of their knives or you see one of the knives that you want to buy... The best way that you can help me out is in the checkout process.

Chapter 2: How does Nick Middaugh's childhood trauma affect him?

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Yeah. An adult on paper. I look back at that fucking hilarious.

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Right.

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But hey, I could join the military, get issued a machine gun, which actually I'm pretty thankful for. That was pretty awesome.

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Yeah.

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Yeah. Yeah. It's important.

5410.966 - 5431.623 Nick Middaugh

So yeah, man, I mean, I'd just be in class and I'd be like, so, and also part of the story is like, I was born with degenerative hearing loss and tinnitus and You were born with tinnitus? Yeah, I was born with it. It's the first I've heard of that. That sucks. Yeah. Yeah. Due to the, um, it was like nerve damage during childbirth or whatever. Um, I wear hearing aids, they're called lyrics.

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Um, and they, they sit next to your eardrum. Can't see them. It enables me to hear. But, um, Can you Bluetooth to your phone? No, I can't.

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But there's hearing aids out there where you can. That'd be dope. You could listen to music and people would think you're listening to them. Shit.

Chapter 3: What challenges do male survivors of childhood sexual abuse face?

5447.9 - 5457.403 Nick Middaugh

Yeah. No. Um, when I get annoyed with my kids, I just shut them off. I just, not really, but it's a method. If I really want to get some good sleep, I do it with my hearing aids off.

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How much can you hear without your hearing aids?

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Um, at this stage of the game, because it's a continual loss, um, I'm not sure what the actual reading was. Probably not much. Yeah, not good. Like 50%.

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You said it's right up against the eardrum? Yeah. Do you put them in there or does a doctor? I put them in.

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5478.345 - 5484.086 Nick Middaugh

You know, Michael, why don't you pull up Lyric hearing aids just so people can see them because they're actually really cool.

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How do Michiganians spell Lyric?

5486.286 - 5488.126 Nick Middaugh

Lyric. L-Y-R-I-C-H-I-N-G.

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Michael, why does our goddamn screen do that? I don't know. It's really annoying though. There it is right there. Boom. Holy cow. It just kind of looks like a shooting ear pro. Yeah. Out of sight, out of mind. Around the clock. Yep. Waterproof, I'm assuming?

5504.072 - 5506.014 Nick Middaugh

No. So the only thing I can't do is swim underwater.

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