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Chapter 1: Why does feeling worthless not matter?
I almost didn't record this today because I felt fucking worthless. Like for me to even say that out loud, it don't make no fucking sense. Like this is the point of do it regardless. Cause like, it's just sounds dumb. This is one of the moments where it's like, yeah, no matter how you feel, you feel like shit. Okay, cool. Me too, girl. But come into yourself.
has a lot more tied into it than feeling good about it. You don't have to feel good to commit to yourself. Like I said, I felt worthless today. I felt like this as soon as I hit the record button. But now that I'm speaking and taking the action, I instantly feel different. And to even say that I felt worthless sounds so stupid. But the action just fixed it. So hi, friends.
I want to talk about committing to yourself. Because there's things that happen in life that Everything's happening all the time. A lot of things have been going wrong recently. A lot of things have been going right. But now I'm in a period of like everything I'm intentionally trying to do is going a little crooked, pissing me off.
Chapter 2: How can you commit to yourself despite external circumstances?
And external circumstances do not get to dictate how you commit to yourself and treat yourself. Even when it comes to this discipline, I don't even know what angle to start going into this from, but like the discipline of like, I'll be fucked if something external is gonna change the way that I treat myself. It's taken a long time for me to finally create a cage around myself.
where no matter what happens outside of me, I do not let it crumble inside the cage. Like no matter what happens, the cage is built and structured around me. No matter what falls around me, it ain't going to crush me. I do kind of want to hit on like the beginning part because the feeling of feeling worthless, there's so much physical proof and like so much that's like
Chapter 3: What is the 'cage' concept for self-discipline?
disproving that but you're still going to feel it sometimes who gives a damn if you feel that you can still do what you want to do that's the part of the cage thing like no matter what happens you're still going to stay on track and stay on plan there's no excuse to not take care of yourself at all Like genuinely zero. Like, oh, this thing happened today.
So I'm not gonna do what I need to do for myself. What the fuck is that? Genuinely. Like it doesn't matter how irritated, pissed off, sad, whatever I am. I'm still doing my skincare. I'm still taking a shower. I'm still doing what I need to do for the day. I'm still working out and I'm still eating on track with my meal plan. And the meal plan that I'm on right now
Big thing with that is like, no matter what is going on in life, no matter what's fucking up or like going to not according to the plan that I want it to go, I'm still doing it because yeah, everything's going to shit in certain aspects, but my body's right. And I feel confident about my body. So feelings and emotions are so fucking annoying.
And they're so much more annoying because of how people talk about them and tell you that emotions are everything. And your feelings dictate every single thing in the vibration shit I've talked about in previous episodes. People act like there's so much weight on emotions, like they can't be changed. Take a different action. Do something. What am I going to do?
Sit down and be sad and not do what I need to do for tonight and record my podcast? For what? Like, oh, this feeling made me not do what I was supposed to do. What the fuck do I look like? A pussy? That's very pussy to do. That's very, like, not respectable, worthless. Boo hoo. I'm not good at dealing with obligation.
Whenever I feel obligated to do something, I feel like someone has their fucking hands around my neck and they're suffocating me and I can't breathe and I want to kill them. Like whatever the obligation is that I have to have, whether it's just texting somebody back, I don't want to fucking text or just from little things to big things.
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Chapter 4: How to maintain self-care amid chaos?
I feel like someone's got their hand on my throat, and I want to kill you. I want you to get off me. I want you to, like, go away. I don't want the pressure on me. I'm very big about obligation. I don't do well with it. And it causes, like, a level of anger that I can't explain. I've never met someone who, like, deals with the same thing and feels the same thing.
I seem fucking psychotic to a lot of people, but so what? So be it. Okay. I don't like to be dicked around and told what to do. Okay. So if that makes me crazy, so be it. Because I want to fuck you up for trying to tell me what to do. Okay. Fine. Do I want to record this podcast right now? Fuck no. For many reasons, but I'm still doing it.
This is the literal view of it of like, yeah, you can be feeling whatever you're feeling. You can still do what you have to do. And I want to go back to talking about the cage thing, like setting a cage around yourself with no matter what falls around you and like what goes wrong, you're still safe inside your little cage.
So this is like one of my things that I'm doing right now is like, no matter what's happening, I'm still in front of this fucking camera recording my podcast. A lot of times, like you think things are an issue and they're not your issue. Like they're not your thing to deal with. Like the other day,
i woke up and immediately checked my phone which i never do and i was reminded quickly of why i don't do that because i was immediately hit with so many people texting me with like business issues and problems and things that people needed me like responses they needed shit i had to do for all these people and i just ran into it like i woke up frantic
Didn't make sure I was all right and went running toward all the problems everybody was throwing at me. It's like I woke up and there was a bunch of fires I had to go put out. And I immediately like discarded myself, let go of the cage. Cage fell off and it fucking destroyed me and how I was feeling, what I was supposed to do and the goals and the plans that I have for the day.
I immediately went and started dealing with everybody else's shit. helping them with all their problems and all the problem things like business-wise that like people were coming to me about. It's like that shit could have waited a fucking minute. It could have waited until I woke up and got myself situated. And it made me have a day where I was absolutely pissed off, like furious, irritated.
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Chapter 5: Why shouldn't external opinions affect you?
Chapter 6: How does obligation affect personal freedom?
Whenever I feel obligated to do something, I feel like someone has their fucking hands around my neck and they're suffocating me and I can't breathe and I want to kill them. Like whatever the obligation is that I have to have, whether it's just texting somebody back, I don't want to fucking text or just from little things to big things.
I feel like someone's got their hand on my throat, and I want to kill you. I want you to get off me. I want you to, like, go away. I don't want the pressure on me. I'm very big about obligation. I don't do well with it. And it causes, like, a level of anger that I can't explain. I've never met someone who, like, deals with the same thing and feels the same thing.
I seem fucking psychotic to a lot of people, but so what? So be it. Okay. I don't like to be dicked around and told what to do. Okay. So if that makes me crazy, so be it. Because I want to fuck you up for trying to tell me what to do. Okay. Fine. Do I want to record this podcast right now? Fuck no. For many reasons, but I'm still doing it.
This is the literal view of it of like, yeah, you can be feeling whatever you're feeling. You can still do what you have to do. And I want to go back to talking about the cage thing, like setting a cage around yourself with no matter what falls around you and like what goes wrong, you're still safe inside your little cage.
So this is like one of my things that I'm doing right now is like, no matter what's happening, I'm still in front of this fucking camera recording my podcast. A lot of times, like you think things are an issue and they're not your issue. Like they're not your thing to deal with. Like the other day,
i woke up and immediately checked my phone which i never do and i was reminded quickly of why i don't do that because i was immediately hit with so many people texting me with like business issues and problems and things that people needed me like responses they needed shit i had to do for all these people and i just ran into it like i woke up frantic
Didn't make sure I was all right and went running toward all the problems everybody was throwing at me. It's like I woke up and there was a bunch of fires I had to go put out. And I immediately like discarded myself, let go of the cage. Cage fell off and it fucking destroyed me and how I was feeling, what I was supposed to do and the goals and the plans that I have for the day.
I immediately went and started dealing with everybody else's shit. helping them with all their problems and all the problem things like business-wise that like people were coming to me about. It's like that shit could have waited a fucking minute. It could have waited until I woke up and got myself situated. And it made me have a day where I was absolutely pissed off, like furious, irritated.
I literally just wanted to like take everybody's head and bang them together like a coconut. Like I just wanted to crack them. And that's how I felt the entire day. And then I ended up going to the gym very late at night when I should have went in the morning. And I was pissed off that I had to go at night, but I forced myself to go anyway. And I still ate on my meal plan.
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Chapter 7: What is the importance of prioritizing self over others' problems?
ruined my day my mood and fucked up my goals too many times for me to keep letting it happen like i don't care who had problems today okay i got my own problems but unfortunately my problems are the shit that nobody else can help me with like everybody's problems they can get help The problems I got, I can't get no help. I gotta be the one to do it.
So what the fuck do I look like going and helping them with all their problems when somebody else can do it or they can fucking figure it out for theirself? You know? I have learned that getting overwhelmed and getting irritated is a good thing, though.
And I kind of get excited when I get pissed off when nothing's going right and I'm overwhelmed because it makes it very clear what I need to tolerate and what I need to do and what I don't need to do. And I become very ruthless and I don't give a shit. And then people's opinions. Like, I don't give a fuck. I have zero tolerance when I get irritated and overwhelmed. Zero. Like, less than this.
If you keep up with me on social media, you saw that I flew with my sister and my cousin the other day to New York to go get a sandwich and come back. And I posted a whole series of it on TikTok and it was a blast. We had so much fun. And everybody that was like watching the videos and keeping up with it, I was posting in real time. Everybody had a blast. Everybody had so much fun.
And the trip went great. The videos all blew up. Everybody had a fucking blast. Everybody watching it and everybody who went had a great time. And then I wake up the day after I get home. This is an example of the cage thing. So I woke up and I saw that someone made an article. Some dumb fucking shit wrote an article. A news article.
about my trip and they titled it like, Oh, influencer gets trolled. Influencer gets like backlash and like made fun of for going on a trip to New York for a sandwich to come in home. Used to, I would have gotten pissed off. I woke up and I saw my phone blowing up. Everybody's telling me there was an article. So I go look at it.
Used to, I would have gotten pissed off and I would have let it ruin my whole day. But I've already been in this irritation kind of like mode. So I was like, okay, somebody wrote an article. And tried to flip the whole narrative like it was a negative thing. What the fuck do I care? What does that genuinely like actually do? Nothing.
So I got up, did my skincare, ate my meal, went to the gym and stayed on my meal plan for the day and worked. That's the whole thing of like the impact. Like shit don't impact you when you don't give a fuck. So like when you get irritated, I get excited when I get irritated because like it ain't going to bother me. I don't give a damn what people are saying. I have shit to do. I have priorities.
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Chapter 8: How does Leo Skepi handle social media negativity?
And like, what is someone writing an article going to do? What does it impact? Nothing. The only way it becomes impactful is if you let it change what you do and fuck you up and get you off track. Like if I would have woken up how I used to and let that article get to me, I would have ruined my whole day and I would have felt like it was a much bigger deal than it was.
Like people making videos about me all the time. I don't give a fuck because I don't let it change what I do with my day and the actions that I take. Whether I wake up and the internet loves me or I wake up and the internet hates me, I'm going to do my fucking shit I need to do for myself anyway. That's the cage. That's how to stop giving a fuck.
It's to give more of a fuck about what I'm trying to do and what's important to me. A lot of people ask me, how do you not give a fuck what people think? It's not that I just don't care. It's that I care more about myself and what I'm trying to do. Like the whole trick is like not how to stop caring. It's how to care more about something where everything pales in comparison.
I'm more concerned about my meal plan, the gym, my business shit, making money, going on my trip for my birthday than I care about someone writing an article. It impacts me zero. So... Like with emotions and me feeling worthless when I said I was gonna make this. Okay, what does that impact? Nothing. I can still take the action and to say, oh, it's so impactful to feel that way.
It only feels impactful if you let it fuck you up. Like if you let it trip you up, that's when you're like, oh my God, it was so catastrophic. It was such a big thing. Like the other day I found out a friend of mine isn't a fucking friend of mine. And it was just another fucking friend doing some fuck shit. And I'm like, okay, so another one bites the dust. Next.
Instead of sitting there and crying and boohooing and being all upset about it, reading into it for fucking what? I got shit to do. It's a lot more important. I've had enough friends betray me. It ain't nothing new to me. For people to be too fucking weak, have no integrity, no character and be fucking worthless. I wouldn't even spit on you if you was fucking on fire. That's normal.
I've been through it so many times. Why am I going to act like it's the first time? Why am I going to get all upset about it and let it stop me? What the fuck do I look like? I say that all the time. Like, what the fuck do I look like letting this bother me? Another thing that I've been kind of dealing with recently is like, I feel bad for how people make me feel about them.
And then I don't give a fuck. It's like that weird thing of like what you did. was not good and it hurt me or whatever happens. And it's like, now I'm in a place where I feel bad because of how I feel about you. That's not my problem. And that's another thing with the cage of like, okay, you feel guilty. You feel bad for how someone made you feel about them.
How do you not expect me to feel like this about you after what you did? Okay, so am I the asshole for voicing it? No. I'm going to tell you how I feel about you. I feel like that's more respectable and better for me to let it out than to just sit here and pretend. I don't pretend. I don't have time, tolerance, or patience to pretend. But another way that I frame the whole thing of like...
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