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Allison Holker

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The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

When I went to the cops the first time, they wouldn't even let me in because I'm not sure what the rules are everywhere, but in LA, you can't report an adult missing shorter than 24 hours. So I had called and tried reporting and it wasn't working. I had ran there because I was like, this is just different. And they wouldn't even open the door to me to report him a missing person.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

When I went to the cops the first time, they wouldn't even let me in because I'm not sure what the rules are everywhere, but in LA, you can't report an adult missing shorter than 24 hours. So I had called and tried reporting and it wasn't working. I had ran there because I was like, this is just different. And they wouldn't even open the door to me to report him a missing person.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

And I just knew something was wrong. I just, I knew this isn't my husband. He hasn't just not come home. He hasn't just like take off and, you know, miss dinner with my kids. He doesn't just do any of that. So I knew something was really, really wrong. And I was convinced he was hurt. I was convinced he had been in a car wreck or I didn't know.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

And I just knew something was wrong. I just, I knew this isn't my husband. He hasn't just not come home. He hasn't just like take off and, you know, miss dinner with my kids. He doesn't just do any of that. So I knew something was really, really wrong. And I was convinced he was hurt. I was convinced he had been in a car wreck or I didn't know.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

I had no idea, but I was convinced he was in a hospital or he had been wrongfully arrested. But they wouldn't accept me for 24 hours. And then when I finally made the report, you know, now I look back and I'm like, unfortunately, these reports are probably being made, unfortunately, way too often than they should.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

I had no idea, but I was convinced he was in a hospital or he had been wrongfully arrested. But they wouldn't accept me for 24 hours. And then when I finally made the report, you know, now I look back and I'm like, unfortunately, these reports are probably being made, unfortunately, way too often than they should.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

And so I now know that they were just doing their jobs, but it felt like when they were asking me questions, they were like, you don't, He's probably just ran away at a bar with friends, doesn't want to see you, you know. And it just felt like they were shoving this man away, like, you know. But really, you know, they were doing their jobs and they were doing a really good job.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

And so I now know that they were just doing their jobs, but it felt like when they were asking me questions, they were like, you don't, He's probably just ran away at a bar with friends, doesn't want to see you, you know. And it just felt like they were shoving this man away, like, you know. But really, you know, they were doing their jobs and they were doing a really good job.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

But it just to me at the moment felt like you're not doing enough. You're not looking for my man. He's probably hurt and he might die in this moment that we're not looking for him. And to this day, I can never really express to someone trying to navigate how to find someone that you love so much and you don't know where to look. It's very scary.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

But it just to me at the moment felt like you're not doing enough. You're not looking for my man. He's probably hurt and he might die in this moment that we're not looking for him. And to this day, I can never really express to someone trying to navigate how to find someone that you love so much and you don't know where to look. It's very scary.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

We had had so much trust in our relationship that we never had ever had locations on our phones. I had never even looked at his phone. I don't even know what his codes are. I don't know any of his passwords.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

We had had so much trust in our relationship that we never had ever had locations on our phones. I had never even looked at his phone. I don't even know what his codes are. I don't know any of his passwords.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

I don't have a bank account shared with him I never had I wouldn't even know how to look at anything like that's how much in our relationship was just like if he told me something I just believed it and so when the cops were asking me all these questions well have you looked at his phone where is he knows locations have you looked at his bank accounts I was like I don't have access to any of it and to to me I look at that as being a trust thing the cops they were like

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

I don't have a bank account shared with him I never had I wouldn't even know how to look at anything like that's how much in our relationship was just like if he told me something I just believed it and so when the cops were asking me all these questions well have you looked at his phone where is he knows locations have you looked at his bank accounts I was like I don't have access to any of it and to to me I look at that as being a trust thing the cops they were like

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

Why don't you have access to any of that? And so those things kind of trigger you when you're going through those things of like, I don't know why I would have those things. I never thought about it before. But really at the end of the day, the cops were a huge support system to me and they were really patient with me and kind to me and they were kind to my children.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

Why don't you have access to any of that? And so those things kind of trigger you when you're going through those things of like, I don't know why I would have those things. I never thought about it before. But really at the end of the day, the cops were a huge support system to me and they were really patient with me and kind to me and they were kind to my children.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

And I'll always be forever grateful for the way they tried handling that situation with me.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

And I'll always be forever grateful for the way they tried handling that situation with me.

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

When we lost our dog, Crypto, which was Stephen's best friend, it was a few years ago, and I remember the vet telling Stephen, and he came home and conveyed the message to me, our dog, Crypto, had a couple of times tried leaving our home and disappearing, and it's because our dog was very sick. And what the vet had told us was that

The Jamie Kern Lima Show
Are You Hiding Behind Happy? Allison Holker Reveals All Pt 2:The Power of Sharing Your Struggles, Creating Community & Healing Together

When we lost our dog, Crypto, which was Stephen's best friend, it was a few years ago, and I remember the vet telling Stephen, and he came home and conveyed the message to me, our dog, Crypto, had a couple of times tried leaving our home and disappearing, and it's because our dog was very sick. And what the vet had told us was that