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Miranda July Wants Women To Read Their Inner Lives In 'All Fours'

Thu, 19 Dec 2024

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Filmmaker and writer Miranda July, whose novel All Fours is on many best books of the year lists, and was described in the New York Times as "the year's literary conversation piece." July spoke with Terry Gross about issues in the novel, like separating from a spouse you're growing distant from, perimenopause, and having an affair. And jazz historian Kevin Whitehead reviews a newly released recording of a concert he attended in 1978, by pianist Sun Ra and his Arkestra.Learn more about sponsor message choices: podcastchoices.com/adchoicesNPR Privacy Policy

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19.195 - 35.356 Terry Gross

This is Fresh Air. I'm Terry Gross. My guest Miranda July was a bit afraid of what people would think of her after publishing her second novel, All Fours. The book is partly about sexuality and has some very explicit sexual scenes. But that's true of many books.

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35.776 - 58.673 Terry Gross

Her larger fear was the theme of a woman reaching midlife and entering perimenopause, the time in a woman's life when she's transitioning into menopause and is experiencing some of the many symptoms associated with that time of life. For her main character, it's the fear of losing her libido, dealing with mysterious moods and anxiety, and the thought of being seen as an old woman.

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59.634 - 79.406 Terry Gross

But the book has gotten the opposite reaction she feared. It's on many of this year's 10 best lists, including the New York Times, in which it was described as this year's literary conversation piece, and in The New Yorker, where it was described as a study of crisis, the crisis of being how middle age changes sex, marriage, and ambition.

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79.987 - 104.339 Terry Gross

July's moving, very funny book is at once buoyant about the possibilities of starting over and clear-eyed about its costs. When our critic John Powers reviewed it, he said, I gasped in surprise at All Fours, Miranda July's hilariously unpredictable novel. All Fours is sometimes described as a book about perimenopause, the transitional stage before menopause.

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104.839 - 119.142 Terry Gross

Yet this flattens it into sociology and self-help. July's mind is far too unruly and interesting for that. John goes on to describe the book as perverse, unrepentant, sometimes dirty, and often laugh-out-loud funny.

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120.62 - 138.113 Terry Gross

All Four's story revolves around a 45-year-old woman, a slightly famous artist, writer, and performer, who decides to take a break from the routines she's stuck in and drive from her home in L.A. to New York. Her husband thinks it's a good idea and even suggests the best route for the drive.

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138.613 - 162.443 Terry Gross

But about 30 minutes away from home, she stops at a gas station and feels this electric connection to a young man there, and he seems to feel it too. They end up having an affair in a motel room she rents and redecorates, and she spends the entire three weeks there. Their affair is both sexual and chaste. They're both married. He won't engage sexually, which would be disloyal to his wife.

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162.983 - 186.954 Terry Gross

But they touch and dance, and the intentional eroticism becomes all-consuming for her. But then the three weeks are up. She returns home and has enormous trouble reentering her life as a wife and mother. Miranda July is also a filmmaker, actor, performance artist, and visual artist. Miranda July, welcome to Fresh Air. It's such a good book. I really enjoyed reading it.

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187.695 - 196.402 Terry Gross

And I'm looking forward to talking with you about it. So you were afraid to write this book and what people would think of you. Elaborate on what your biggest fears were.

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197.763 - 224.335 Miranda July

I mean, I think fear in general was also why I wrote the book. Like, I... Upon turning 40, which was a few years before I started writing it, it seemed like this grim time was suddenly approaching that was very vague, like this time of a woman who's no longer young.

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225.908 - 255.554 Miranda July

And I wanted to not write about that because so many women I admired, so many writers had written about more important things, right? Like they had not focused on the people trying to shame them or the shame they felt themselves. They focused on important subjects. But the more that I... I got older and I started writing this book at 45.

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255.974 - 267.081 Miranda July

And the more that I talked to other women and gynecologists and naturopaths, the more I felt that this subject actually wasn't separate from those more important things.

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268.222 - 291.382 Terry Gross

Well, one thing about getting older is I think Wikipedia has relieved the burden of that because for most people, their birth date is on the Wikipedia page. And so you can't really hide it even if you want to anymore. And I resent the fact that women especially are supposed to hide their age. Like, why can't we own it? Why can't we proclaim it?

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293.023 - 298.725 Terry Gross

Why should we have to reinforce the idea that a woman getting older is a really terrible thing?

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300.794 - 320.435 Miranda July

Right. I mean, we shouldn't have to reinforce it for sure. But it does, like, I think people, I don't totally want to blame women when there's real repercussions, you know, economically, just in their sense of what's possible in the world, you know, so it's a tricky thing.

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321.914 - 349.614 Miranda July

line like I yes I sort of obviously I'm on the side of declaring it but I am kind of often I'm just being honest here because so much of the book is about like not trying to be less ashamed than I actually am Not trying to seem less ashamed. Because I feel like then you can't evolve. Like if you're hiding the place where you're actually at, then it's hard to get to the next place.

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381.148 - 381.128 Tanya Mosley

45.

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381.848 - 384.59 Miranda July

I mean, like, why was I thinking about this at 45? But I was.

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389.261 - 401.458 Terry Gross

There's a line in your book where you're buying something from an older woman. And you think about how you sometimes really hate old women. Well, it's not – yeah.

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401.478 - 411.204 Miranda July

We're going to have to decide, are we saying you – Oh, I'm sorry. The character. The character. The character. I mean, we can get into that. But, you know, the narrator's saying.

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411.724 - 430.351 Terry Gross

So the character, this is where the character has gone to the hotel. She's felt this like erotic charge from this younger man. She's 45. He's 31. Who she met at, who she looked at at a gas station and he looked back at her. And then they met briefly in a diner.

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431.571 - 445.136 Terry Gross

So she's unpacking her suitcase at this motel and the reading is about what she's thinking as she's unpacking her clothes and which one she's going to leave in the suitcase and which one she's going to actually unpack and wear.

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448.251 - 485.484 Miranda July

Right. Yeah. So she leaves the sort of more androgynous styles in the suitcase. Right. Every old thing had a modern counterbalance. Past age 40 you had to be careful with vintage. I didn't want to be mistaken for an elderly woman wearing the clothes from the 1960s of her youth. Young people especially had trouble making distinctions between ages over 40.

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486.825 - 510.321 Miranda July

When I got my first Patti Smith tape, Horses, at 22, Smith was only 49. But I didn't think of her as a contemporary person. I wasn't even sure she was still alive because the cover of Horses was a black-and-white photograph. Instead of knowing this was a stylistic choice, like vintage clothes, I unconsciously associated the record with the deep past of black-and-white movies.

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511.301 - 532.476 Miranda July

If anyone asked, I would have probably managed to assign the album to the right decade, but most of life is a vapor of unconscious associations never brought to light. A good way to check your outfit is by running past the mirror, or better yet, make a video of yourself running past your phone. How old was that blur of a woman? Was she from the past or was she modern?

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533.077 - 554.209 Miranda July

And where was she going in such a hurry? I walked around Monrovia in a red shirtwaist dress and white wedge heels. The commercial areas weren't really built for walking, but there were some nice residential neighborhoods. Several times I passed teenage girls wearing backpacks, their breasts inflated by the hormones in cow's milk and barely covered by tank tops.

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554.969 - 563.896 Miranda July

Whenever I saw them coming, I pretended I was from another country, projecting the air of someone so foreign she could not understand or be hurt by anything American.

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565.58 - 575.088 Terry Gross

Did you share a similar almost fear of older women or a dislike of them that your character has?

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577.958 - 613.788 Miranda July

I think I was catching myself around this time. I kept sort of noticing what I was thinking about older women and noticing the way that I might dismiss someone or not give them sort of the full benefit of an interior relationship. life or an erotic life or think of them as like a sad character kind of for no reason, right? Like this is just like someone I'm seeing in passing. And

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615.615 - 638.395 Miranda July

By the time I was writing the book, I was aware, like, oh, that fear or hatred of older women is, of course, self-hatred, you know, because I will become that. And to some degree, I already am that to people younger than me. You know, so it's like a kind of slippery zone.

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639.316 - 662.192 Terry Gross

Your character is experiencing things differently. and fears that relate to perimenopause. But some of the things she's experiencing, she doesn't know relate to perimenopause until she actually goes to her gynecologist. Was it that way for you that you had symptoms of perimenopause that you were attributing to other things?

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664.525 - 687.888 Miranda July

Well, I had a different experience from the narrator. I actually had this amazing doctor, Dr. Maggie Ney, who started talking with me about it in my early 40s. I may have been just 40. And she's like, look, we're going to take your blood and see where your hormone levels are at. And that's just to get a baseline so that

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688.408 - 715.688 Miranda July

As you get older and your hormone levels drop, we'll kind of understand the speed at which that's happening and when you might want to do bioidentical hormones if you want that. And I always remember at the end of describing all this, which was a longer conversation, she said, I'm so excited for you. And she didn't mean that, like, as a joke.

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716.148 - 742.466 Miranda July

And I, not knowing anything else about this, never having had a conversation about it in any other time in my life, not having had a conversation about it ever before with anyone, I just smiled. I just dumbly smiled and was like, huh, yeah. You never know what's coming next, you know? Like, this is exciting. Like, go from ballet slippers to pointe shoes, you know? Like, it's always something.

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743.787 - 752.143 Miranda July

I don't know. It didn't seem inherently bad. But then, as I would talk to my friends, I was like the only one who knew anything.

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753.621 - 777.419 Terry Gross

So one of the things the book is about is the feeling that you need to change your life, but not knowing how to do it and knowing that there will be consequences and rewards if you do. And part of the consequences will be for the other people in your life. If you're leaving a marriage, if you're breaking up a home in a way that will affect your young child, um,

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778.58 - 805.156 Terry Gross

And I know you've experienced similar things, and this might be too personal, but was there a lot you had to weigh before changing your life, knowing that it might be the right thing for you, but there would also be consequences that everyone in your family would be facing, including you, because I'm sure there'd be a downside as well.

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807.546 - 846.539 Miranda July

Yeah, I mean, my changing life moment, it wasn't like I alone in my head was coming up with that I had to do this. It was like an ongoing conversation with my husband at the time. And very slow, and we both... I think as much as we didn't want to traumatize our kid, we also didn't want to traumatize ourselves. And we were very attached to ourself and the triangle of our family.

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846.679 - 878.779 Miranda July

So what exactly had to change and what could stay the same changed. I feel like it's still changing. I mean, kind of as long as we're a family, which will hopefully be forever, you know, you've got three changing people in it whose needs are changing and who are trying to be honest. And I guess that was the big shift was like, oh, we're not going to pretend we're not changing anymore.

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879.06 - 906.726 Miranda July

And that a lot of those changes have nothing to do with each other anymore. You know, or this thing that we've built. But, you know, as much as you worry about the kid, my biggest worry was that they wouldn't get to see me as I really was. And I say they because they're non-binary. There's just one kid there.

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908.407 - 927.043 Miranda July

because I started to realize, oh, there's a whole lot of myself that happens outside the home with my best friend or in my studio alone being creative or just me alone in the world. Like, I feel like I'm starting to feel like this part that used to just be like,

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927.703 - 960.33 Miranda July

me on a break or you know at work this may be the lion's share of me this might be kind of what I have to offer them as far as um one way to live one way to be but actually when I go home I'm being like a smaller version and not kind of like I um just less interesting to even to myself, like, cause I was biting my tongue a lot. Um, and no one was asking me to do this by the way.

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960.41 - 981.37 Miranda July

Like it's, um, it's very personal. I know a lot of people who the freest they feel is, is in their home and you know, the world is terrifying, but, um, And so I began to feel like something I had to do for my child, like I need to change these circumstances so they can see who I really am.

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983.177 - 1011.576 Terry Gross

So this may be too personal, but please don't answer it if it is. You and your former husband, is that the right way to describe it, lived together for a while with your child, but more as friends than as a married couple. How did that work? I think a lot of people would be curious about that.

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1012.216 - 1039.925 Terry Gross

Because I think there are a lot of couples who separate who remain friends, but they don't want to be romantically involved anymore, and they want more freedom outside of the home. But I could see where there'd also be a lot of discomfort and tension and nervousness around each other. So if there's anything that you can offer about how that arrangement worked out? Yeah, I mean...

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1044.186 - 1070.018 Miranda July

It is interesting. I feel a little different since the book came out. I've now read so many emails and messages and comments on my sub stack about... And women at this point or women doing things differently are trying to figure this out that I no longer I'm like, is there a way to answer this question that isn't specific to me?

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1070.098 - 1103.364 Miranda July

Because I actually don't feel like I think at the time I felt very unique and very like no one's doing what I'm doing and both worried by that and sort of proud. And now I'm like, no, no. And this is incredibly widespread, at least lots of thoughts about it. And then people trying to figure out how to do it. I mean, the thing of living together... It's what you're used to.

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1104.084 - 1135.418 Miranda July

Obviously, that's not going to work if you're incredibly embattled, you know. But if you're not, then it is kind of an opportunity to see who the other person is a bit more. Like, wow, this person who is like my longtime friend. But I never could quite see what they were like when they're dating, you know?

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1135.738 - 1160.251 Miranda July

Not that, like, you're necessarily getting any details or anything, but just, like, their energy, you know, because you were the person they were dating, and now you're not. And, like, yeah, there might be some sadness or strangeness about that, but... You're also like, look at you. You're a person. Like I never really gave you all of that. And meanwhile, you're also getting it too.

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1160.791 - 1174.52 Miranda July

Like they're seeing you as a person more completely and nothing you do is threatening in the old way. You know, the way every new thing and change is like sort of threatening when you're in a couple sometimes. Yeah.

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1176.562 - 1196.52 Miranda July

And if you know it's going to be a lifelong relationship, you know, partly because of the child, but also because, you know, life isn't that long and you've already invested so much time and energy with this person, like maybe that's sort of interesting to get to see and be seen, you know, in this different way.

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1197.728 - 1207.736 Terry Gross

My guest is Miranda July. Her novel All Fours is on many best books of the year lists. We'll talk more after a break. I'm Terry Gross, and this is Fresh Air.

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1399.542 - 1421.682 Terry Gross

This is Fresh Air. I'm Terry Gross. Let's get back to my interview with writer and filmmaker Miranda July. Her films include You, Me, and Everyone We Know and Kajillionaire. Her new novel, All Fours, is on many 2024 best of lists. It's about a woman wanting to shake up her life. She's thinking of leaving her marriage and is having a very erotic affair.

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1422.422 - 1446.833 Terry Gross

When she discovers she's entering perimenopause, she fears the best part of her life may be ending and she may lose her libido. She worries about getting older. There are parallels to Miranda July's life. I want to ask you about being the parent of a non-binary child, which is the position more and more parents seem to be in. How old is your child now? Twelve.

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1447.654 - 1473.991 Terry Gross

Yeah, so they use the pronoun they, them. What are some of the things you have to deal with as the parent of a non-binary child in terms of even questions like, do you want your child to take hormones? Do you want them to have a puberty block or do they want to have it? Is your voice going to take precedence over theirs or do you hope to be on the same page?

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1474.952 - 1493.796 Terry Gross

Do you want to just follow what they want knowing that they're not an adult yet and that their mind could possibly change? There's so many questions I think that the parents of non-binary children have to deal with. And especially now in a world where that's being like demonized in politics.

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1499.185 - 1528.572 Miranda July

Yes. I mean, that's like a whole other book that I didn't write. The child in the book is non-binary. And I remember... sort of wrestling with like, should I have the child be he, and it would be he for a while, then she, none of these things are feeling right. You know, it is a fiction. I'm making up all kinds of other things.

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1528.812 - 1553.643 Miranda July

Surely I can just, the gender of this child doesn't have to map onto the gender of my child. But I went home one day and asked my child, I just described this situation. I said, what do you What do you think? Should I just have them be they them? I mean, I don't want, you know, it's not you, you know, so I don't want that to feel invasive to you.

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1553.663 - 1589.395 Miranda July

And they said, I think everyone in the book should be they them. Which was such a kind of 2.0 answer, like sort of like just questioning the construction of gender in general. And I said like, okay, yeah, I'm not there yet. Point taken. And then I just went with they, them. And there's maybe one point in the book where it's kind of acknowledged that

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1591.192 - 1623.705 Miranda July

Potentially, it's the same hormones that the narrator is taking, estrogen, you know, that a non-binary trans feminine child might one day take. But beyond that, you know, as a mother... It's not my story to tell, especially because as with any child, it's a changing story. And you don't like you.

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1624.705 - 1649.868 Miranda July

None of us want to put something out there that's going to haunt the child, you know, which is not to say like. They're ever not going to be trans. I don't mean that. But it's like it's a private journey. My own, you know, deep inner gender and sexuality journey is a private journey. So it's tricky. There's so much...

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1653.18 - 1682.865 Miranda July

information and conversation that, uh, is missing and that I would love to give any, any, um, parents or grandparents who are listening, um, But it's just too public for just me as a mother, not an educator, not a writer. Yeah, I'm just too protective of the sanctity of their childhood.

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1683.385 - 1710.405 Terry Gross

Of course, yeah. Have you changed a lot having more space in your life on your own? Because I would imagine you co-parent with your former husband and that you don't have your child every day to take care of. And in some ways, that's a real loss. And in other ways, it gains you some independence and personal time.

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1711.286 - 1730.028 Terry Gross

And I wonder what that shift in time and that shift in the balance of independence versus having somebody dependent on you all the time has changed you for better or worse, has changed your life. Or for better and worse.

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1730.825 - 1769.179 Miranda July

So, yeah, the four days, every other four days, I'm alone, you know, or wherever, whoever I choose to sleep with. Like in my 20s. Like it's really... Like, you really have to stop and think when you have that time alone where you're not responsible. Like, what actually am I doing here in this life? Like, what do I feel? And you keep...

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1770.92 - 1796.278 Miranda July

And just because you've unburdened yourself practically, you know, with from this construction or these these real responsibilities doesn't mean they just automatically lift off your shoulders. Like most of my issues come from within. Right. So suddenly you're like, oh, it wasn't all the construction of marriage or that. the patriarchy or those, it was those things, but they're inside me.

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1797.639 - 1834.597 Miranda July

And I'm still running for dear life or replacing those constructions with new ones, you know, anything that'll fill up my time, take my time, please, you know, Instagram, whatever, like, and so to actually be willing to take on that freedom, it's a real practice. And I don't mean to make it sound hard or scary. It's only hard in the way that a new habit is hard.

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1835.717 - 1843.122 Terry Gross

My guest is Miranda July. Her latest novel is called All Fours. We'll be right back after a short break. This is Fresh Air.

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1921.252 - 1947.946 Terry Gross

This is fresh air. Let's get back to my interview with writer and filmmaker Miranda July. Her latest novel, All Fours, is on many best of the year book lists. So I want to talk about your formative years. You gravitated toward punk as a teenager. And what drew you to it? And what were your first experiences listening to punk rock or, you know, going to clubs?

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1949.423 - 1977.505 Miranda July

I mean, I think I wasn't ever like, I'm not like a music head. So the thing that drew me to punk, especially as a teenager, was first of all, it was an all ages scene. Like the clubs, like I could go to them. They weren't, they didn't have alcohol. And not only that, but the whole premise was you don't have to be taught. Like you can figure it out yourself.

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1978.386 - 2007.174 Miranda July

And that was great for me, who did not want to be taught by anyone anyways, and wanted access to a space, a world, a literal... I mean, I put my first plays on in a punk club in 924 Gilman, a sort of seminal all-ages punk club in Berkeley. And that was... So great. Honestly, I would wish that on any teenager to have the freedom to do something outside of school.

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2007.774 - 2015.858 Miranda July

That's while punk seems sort of lawless, it actually was a structure. You know, it did formalize what I was doing.

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2016.898 - 2020.36 Terry Gross

You actually moved to Portland to be part of the Riot Grrrl scene.

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2021.451 - 2038.541 Miranda July

Well, I moved to Portland to be with my girlfriend at the time, and Riot Grrrl kind of had just happened. I'd say I sort of missed it slightly. But certainly the feminist underpinning was all there.

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2039.79 - 2049.036 Terry Gross

One of the jobs that you had early on while trying to support yourself, I guess, while you were doing your art, was working at a peep show. How and why did you get that job?

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2050.277 - 2075.937 Miranda July

Initially, let's see, my girlfriend and I broke up. She moved out. We had to cover her rent. And I remember my friend at the time, like, how are we going to get this money really quickly, you know, that we were missing? And she said... well, one of us is going to have to strip and it can't be me because I have glasses. And I was like, okay.

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2077.879 - 2109.146 Miranda July

And so initially it was this club that I think is still there called Mary's. And In Portland. But then I've had these kind of lifelong problems with my eyes, and there was smoking in the bars back then. So I couldn't really handle the smoke. So that's why I moved to the peep shows, which is just like a box. You're not really sharing air with anyone.

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2109.346 - 2110.927 Terry Gross

And you're separated by glass, right? Yeah.

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2111.628 - 2111.868 Miranda July

Yeah.

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2114.418 - 2130.447 Terry Gross

What did you learn doing that about sexuality or about men, about yourself, about what it means to get really turned on looking at somebody who's basically on exhibit behind glass? Yeah.

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2131.764 - 2162.646 Miranda July

Yeah, I mean, my main goal was to make as, you know, much money. It still wasn't that much, but to make this amount of money in a short time so I could work on my, you know, what ended up being like my first book of short stories, my first feature film. You know, I needed the time was how I was thinking about it. Yeah, I mean, I wouldn't. recommend that job to my child or anyone else's child.

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2162.746 - 2169.029 Miranda July

But on the other hand, like most jobs at that age are not so great.

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2169.249 - 2172.531 Terry Gross

Were you able to see the Peep Show as a form of performance art?

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2174.17 - 2196.796 Miranda July

No. No. I don't think – I thought of it as my job, my not great job that was – I think when I quit that job, I started working unlocking car doors for a company called Pop-A-Lock. Right. You know, when you lock your key in your car and that doesn't happen so much anymore.

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2198.677 - 2220.41 Miranda July

And that job really, I really hated because I had a beeper and like I could be beeped in the middle of the night to like have to go. Unlock someone's car, which I was, you know, I'd been trained, but I always managed to get it open. But sometimes it took like a while.

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2220.43 - 2238.856 Terry Gross

I have one more peep show question. So when men were staring at you and telling you their sexual fantasies, did you find it at all flattering or really creepy? Like what was your experience of that watching them? Like they're there to watch you, but you're watching them.

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2243.822 - 2282.716 Miranda July

I mean, at the time, like for some context, like I was a lesbian. I had like very, I think like bleached out short hair and I would wear a wig that was like my normal pretty girl wig that was like longer brown hair. And so the whole thing was, was sort of like, I am so far from this, you have no idea. Like, I'm... Yeah, so it just kind of felt like... Like, I'm not even me.

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2282.736 - 2284.297 Terry Gross

You think you're looking at me, you're not.

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2285.238 - 2298.989 Miranda July

That kind of thing? Yeah, just like... Yeah, and I could see exactly how... Like, I remember at the... At Mary's, knowing that there was, like...

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2302.132 - 2335.702 Miranda July

that there was a kind of guy like if I put on what's the song like in your eyes the light the heat like what is that Genesis or something I don't know in your eyes I think it's called that that would really just be like oh my god like this song which is so great and this girl you know like that that would sort of generate this like man feeling. And that there was another song, Brown Eyed Girl.

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2335.722 - 2362.414 Miranda July

Even though I don't have brown eyes, that it like cultivated a feeling of like, just a brown eyed girl up here, you know, like girl next door kind of feeling. And that that was another thing that the customers liked to feel, you know, it was kind of like a homey feeling. Yeah. So I think...

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2364.972 - 2391.865 Miranda July

But, you know, these things aren't so different than life itself, like noticing qualities in the rest of life, which I was doing all the time anyways. I mean, like in my first collection of short stories, I think there's only one story that has a peep show in it. So the amount of noticing I was doing at that in my 20s was across the board. And...

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2393.846 - 2400.552 Miranda July

Most of what I was noticing was not in that club or in Mr. Peeps.

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2401.252 - 2414.304 Terry Gross

What were some of the conversations that you know about about your book that you found most interesting? Like what were some of the themes that you're glad your book provoked? You know, the themes in the conversations.

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2415.885 - 2438.501 Miranda July

I mean, the things that make me most happy to read are like women who, while they were reading the book, felt kind of exposed. Like, oh no, this is like my whole inner life exposed here in this book. And, you know, I've had people tell me that like they were reading it on the plane and they felt like they...

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2439.983 - 2465.786 Miranda July

at a certain point had to put it away not because of the sexual content but because like they were sitting next to their husband and it was all their all their true feelings that they weren't saying um and that's always kind of astonishing to me like oh writing can do that like i i um I get a lot of messages from older women who say like, oh, this all happened to me.

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2466.426 - 2488.321 Miranda July

My all fours time was 20 years ago. But I'm stunned to realize that I wasn't alone. I thought I was uniquely crazy or irresponsible or something. And so they're just, it's like a reframing of their life to have the community from the book.

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2489.422 - 2495.285 Tanya Mosley

Well, I look forward to your next book. Thank you so much for being on our show. Thank you so much, Terri.

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2496.446 - 2501.128 Terry Gross

Miranda July's latest novel is called All Fours. This is fresh air.

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2572.694 - 2593.406 Terry Gross

This is Fresh Air. Jazz historian Kevin Whitehead is going to review a newly released recording of a concert he attended in 1978 by pianist Sun Ra and his orchestra. Kevin says the colorful Philadelphia bandleader didn't always connect with traditional jazz audiences, but he'd found a second home doing so in Baltimore. ¦

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2633.345 - 2648.353 Kevin Whitehead

Pianist Sun Ra called his sprawling orchestras orchestras, and like Noah's Ark, they crammed in an improbable amount of vibrant variety. He had his earworm melodies like that one, Watusi, with its percolating Afro-Cuban percussion.

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2649.534 - 2660.26 Kevin Whitehead

The orchestra played squalling free jazz barrages and sang genial vocal chants connected with Sun Ra's personal cosmology involving space travel and an interplanetary exodus.

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2685.071 - 2708.184 Kevin Whitehead

June Tyson, longtime singer and costumer for the orchestra, who decked them out in striking, spangled outfits that looked good when the chanting musicians did a ring dance in front of the stage counterclockwise like the ancestors. At the other end of time, Sunrise Keyboard Synthesizer could become a rocket taking off for, and maybe arriving at, a more hospitable planet than this one.

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2729.528 - 2750.92 Kevin Whitehead

This music comes from newly released recordings of Sun Ra in 1978 playing one of the Left Bank Jazz Society's weekly Sunday concerts in Baltimore. Some Left Bank regulars dislike the jazz avant-garde to the point of scolding musicians who went too far. And yet this show was Sun Ra's fifth for the Left Bank in under two years, making him very much a house favorite.

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2751.823 - 2775.359 Kevin Whitehead

He did draw his own audience, but the Left Bank's African-American standbys dug him too, knowing a comic persona and a black carnival act when they saw one. Sun Ra was serious, but it's not like he didn't know he was funny. His wisdom was couched in puns and wordplay. But Sun Ra's warm welcome was really because his rocket to the future flew straight through the jazz of the 1930s and 40s.

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2794.614 - 2795.157 Kevin Whitehead

Thank you.

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2816.414 - 2833.24 Kevin Whitehead

I attended a few of Sun Ra's Left Bank concerts, and this one got even odder than usual when documentary filmmaker Bob Muggy's overhead movie lights came up after the first set, as if the gods were checking in from above. Some of Muggy's footage turns up in his fine film Sun Ra, A Joyful Noise.

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2834.281 - 2850.763 Kevin Whitehead

In the 70s, Ra started reviving then-obscure 1930s swing tunes by his early idol and one-time employer, bandleader Fletcher Henderson. Those vehicles for trumpet sensation Michael Ray let the orchestra traverse time as well as space. This is Yeah Man.

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2884.562 - 2908.495 Kevin Whitehead

Sun Ra and his orchestra played three sets that evening in 1978, and the double album, Lights on a Satellite, gives a fair sampling of their range and includes a few tunes they didn't record so much. There are good features for tenor saxophone hero John Gilmore and altoist Marshall Allen. At age 100, Marshall leads a posthumous Sun Ra orchestra that also has a new CD called Lights on a Satellite.

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2909.436 - 2920.675 Kevin Whitehead

That modern band has its moments, But there's only one Sun Ra as a leader or keyboard player. Here he is on organ for round midnight, just playing the melody his way.

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2952.329 - 2967.534 Kevin Whitehead

The producer of this and dozens of historical jazz records, many of which we've praised here on the show, is Zev Feldman, who likes to fill out album booklets with extracts from interviews he conducts with witnesses whose memories are not always accurate or pertinent.

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2968.598 - 2985.931 Kevin Whitehead

The Sun Ra booklet contains a few contradictory or just plain wrong statements, some made by Feldman himself, about such easy-to-verify stuff as what day or days the orchestra played that weekend or at what time. Those famous ballroom shows were all Sundays from 5 to 9 p.m.

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2987.252 - 3007.944 Kevin Whitehead

In the booklet, someone guesses Sun Ra played three or four times for the Left Bank Jazz Society when it was 13 concerts in 11 years. Producer Feldman calls himself the jazz detective, but it's a detective's job to sift through conflicting accounts to tell us what really happened, not just throw it all out there before racing off to another case.

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3009.085 - 3013.107 Kevin Whitehead

Valuable music like this deserves more scrupulous documentation. ¶¶

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3025.888 - 3048.102 Terry Gross

Jazz historian Kevin Whitehead reviewed Sun Ra, Lights on a Satellite, live at the Left Bank. Kevin's latest book is Play the Way You Feel, The Essential Guide to Jazz Stories on Film. If you'd like to catch up on fresh air interviews you missed, like this week's interviews with Billie Eilish and Phineas, or with Ronnie Chang of The Daily Show and the series Interior Chinatown,

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3073.076 - 3076.257 Terry Gross

Our engineer today is Adam Staniszewski. I'm Tariq Rose.

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