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Chapter 1: Who is sharing their personal story in this episode?
Hi friends, surprise, I'm home. I'm sick too. That's why I didn't post last week, my bad. Sorry and all, I was under the weather. Oh God, the wheeze sounds so bad. You're just gonna have to hang with me this week. The wheeze is gonna be what it's gonna be. Welcome her, invite her to hang out with us, okay? No, it ain't the cigarettes. I caught like a lung infection thing.
I'll get into it because it's a very spiritual thing behind it. But I want to talk about what's happened the past two weeks. Because I left you off when I went to Miami. It did not go how I thought it was going to go. But I had a full-fledged spiritual awakening. I was awoke. It was like the doctor said, clear. And I jolted my shit spiritually. So where do we begin?
I want to talk about feeling stressed. How to not feel stressed because that's something I've kind of conquered recently. And I'm not saying you don't feel angry, pissed off, irritated, upset, emotional, whatever. Not stressing out about things. Here's how to do it. I had a conversation with my dad the other day. He's over here. I'm so stressed out. I'm so stressed out.
I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm so stressed about it. My dad works on cars for a living. He has his own repair shop, mechanic shop, car dealership, whatever you want to call it. He fixes cars for a living and he is insanely good at it. Like the best in the United States.
There are cars that get taken to his shop from different States, get transported because he can look at a car and know what's wrong with it by looking at it or test driving it. He knows what's wrong with it. And he knows how to fix it. He's worked on cars his whole life since he's 12. He knows cars better than anybody. And every day I've heard my whole life, I'm so stressed out to go to work.
I'm so stressed out. And I was sitting there with him and I was like, I'm tired of hearing this shit from you. I'm so stressed out. What are you stressed out about? Genuinely. Because we were talking about spending money. And he's like, I'd love to go buy a Versace shirt like you do. And I'm like, I'll buy you one. Do you want one?
he does well for himself but he's over here so stressed out about money and spending money and i was like dad why are you acting like you make money in a hard way You over here, I'm so stressed out, I'm so stressed out. You know everything there is to know about cars. When you walk into work tomorrow, oh, what's the big deal? Somebody's gonna bring a car in that needs work or needs to be fixed.
Why are you so running yourself stupid, worried, stressing, like you aren't gonna be able to fix it easily? You got the skills, you know what you're doing. Why are you over here? I'm so stressed, I'm so stressed. For what? You make money pretty easily. It's not like you're me and you're telling me to go fix the car. I don't know shit. I could change your oil, I could change your tires.
I could give you some wiper fluid. I could fill up your windshield wiper fluid. that's about all I know. I could drive you wherever you need to go. But when it comes to fixing cars, I don't know shit from shit. He's over here and knows everything. I was like, why are you acting like you're me going to fix a car? What's the big deal? Tomorrow, somebody's going to bring in a car.
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Chapter 2: How can you stop feeling stressed?
So I'm just going to listen and do it, I guess. And I didn't have any hesitation, doubt, or nothing. I was like, if everything goes to shit, so be it. I was like, let's listen to this little soul I got. Let's see what this little bastard really wants to do because he's jerking me around and he's trying to kill me. So what does he want to do? What does the authentic me want to do?
What does my soul want to do? What does he want to get up to? And I started asking that and listening to that. And that is when my life has entirely changed. Like where I'm talking about, I got 300 million views in a month on TikTok and my podcast is blowing up. I'm back charting number three. Like everything's happening again because I'm not forcing podcasts.
I'm not forcing talking shit that I don't want to talk about. I'm not forcing anything. If my soul don't want to do it, I'm not doing it. And I'll pay the price. I'll whatever the cost is, whatever the consequences, I'll take it because the consequence of forcing through it is killing myself. So this is how I've been living.
This was Ben T, and that's the only way I've been able to get rid of this drug. And I was grateful for it. I kind of thanked it. And I quit the substance. And I've been going through my life for the past two months. Things have been great. Things have been lining up insane. My voice that I've been shutting off and... breaking my own heart to not hear. It's been the nicest form of connection.
My relationships with everybody are way different. People I've had to cut off have made their fucking way out or I've cut them myself. And everything in my life is aligning. Everything's going great. It's the weirdest thing. And I was like... I want to revisit cocaine and do it from a whole different standpoint. Like I've been so in touch with my energy and my intuition and everything.
I'm like, let's heighten it. Like, let's see what happens. I'm not going to force myself to do it. But when I go to Miami, if I want to do it, I'll do it. And when I got to Miami, I was enjoying everything, having a good time. And I was like, let's try it. I want to rewrite this whole narrative of this drug and the grip it had on me. I want to do it and not go back to it and be dependent on it.
I don't need it anymore. I don't need this thing. I want to choose it because I want to try it. I want to see what's tea. And I did it in Miami. Had a blast. Genuinely had a good time. The night, well, the morning when we got done partying, when I went back to my hotel, the comedown I had was not because of the emotional anything.
My ability to emotionally regulate and understand what's going on with my body is totally different now. The comedown emotionally was not the problem. It was my voice shut off. I'm getting chills talking about this shit. And I started to panic. I couldn't hear my soul and I couldn't feel it. And I was so exhausted from being out.
And I was like, you know, when you get to that point where it's like, it don't matter what else I shove up my nose, I'm going to sleep. You hit a wall of like exhaustion. Yeah, I hit that. So I'm like, you know what? I'm not obligated to stay. I'm not forcing myself to stay. I'm going to go ahead and leave. Everybody's sorry. Love you so bad. Had a great time.
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