Sarah Haider

I think that's why people feel so connected to it or people feel so driven to seek it despite the fact that it can be horrible. Because of this afterglow aspect of it, even when it is a bad trip, it can be useful.

I think that's why people feel so connected to it or people feel so driven to seek it despite the fact that it can be horrible. Because of this afterglow aspect of it, even when it is a bad trip, it can be useful.

No, no, no. Not at all. I wasn't thinking about work at all. I think it was just that I felt trapped in a lot of ways. I felt trapped intellectually. I felt nihilistic about the world around me. And the podcast had something to do with that. Not fully, but it played a part in that day after day, we would be staring into the abyss. We would be

No, no, no. Not at all. I wasn't thinking about work at all. I think it was just that I felt trapped in a lot of ways. I felt trapped intellectually. I felt nihilistic about the world around me. And the podcast had something to do with that. Not fully, but it played a part in that day after day, we would be staring into the abyss. We would be

No, no, no. Not at all. I wasn't thinking about work at all. I think it was just that I felt trapped in a lot of ways. I felt trapped intellectually. I felt nihilistic about the world around me. And the podcast had something to do with that. Not fully, but it played a part in that day after day, we would be staring into the abyss. We would be

reading these articles that were designed to make you a little mad because, of course, they want to provoke conversation. They want people to be a little bit riled up. And in paying attention to these things...

reading these articles that were designed to make you a little mad because, of course, they want to provoke conversation. They want people to be a little bit riled up. And in paying attention to these things...

reading these articles that were designed to make you a little mad because, of course, they want to provoke conversation. They want people to be a little bit riled up. And in paying attention to these things...

as part of what we were doing, as part of our quote-unquote job, I was forced to stare at that abyss day after day and contemplate it deeply all the time, but not deep enough that I could do something about it, not deep enough that I could find a solution, just deep enough that it would unsettle me in some way.

as part of what we were doing, as part of our quote-unquote job, I was forced to stare at that abyss day after day and contemplate it deeply all the time, but not deep enough that I could do something about it, not deep enough that I could find a solution, just deep enough that it would unsettle me in some way.

as part of what we were doing, as part of our quote-unquote job, I was forced to stare at that abyss day after day and contemplate it deeply all the time, but not deep enough that I could do something about it, not deep enough that I could find a solution, just deep enough that it would unsettle me in some way.

significant way, and then we'd have to move on to the next topic, the next unsettling culture war discussion. So something about doing that, I think, over and over again, it was not a healthy practice, but it also led me to have a definitely not a very positive view on human nature, on our... culture as a whole, on our society.

significant way, and then we'd have to move on to the next topic, the next unsettling culture war discussion. So something about doing that, I think, over and over again, it was not a healthy practice, but it also led me to have a definitely not a very positive view on human nature, on our... culture as a whole, on our society.

significant way, and then we'd have to move on to the next topic, the next unsettling culture war discussion. So something about doing that, I think, over and over again, it was not a healthy practice, but it also led me to have a definitely not a very positive view on human nature, on our... culture as a whole, on our society.

And I didn't want to think like that because it's a really terrible way to think, not just because it feels bad while you're feeling all these negative feelings, but also because it takes away your drive to be that positive force in the world.

And I didn't want to think like that because it's a really terrible way to think, not just because it feels bad while you're feeling all these negative feelings, but also because it takes away your drive to be that positive force in the world.

And I didn't want to think like that because it's a really terrible way to think, not just because it feels bad while you're feeling all these negative feelings, but also because it takes away your drive to be that positive force in the world.

I think the ayahuasca didn't really change the way that I felt about that. I think it made it impossible for me to pursue. You know, it almost said as if it took the option away from me.

I think the ayahuasca didn't really change the way that I felt about that. I think it made it impossible for me to pursue. You know, it almost said as if it took the option away from me.

I think the ayahuasca didn't really change the way that I felt about that. I think it made it impossible for me to pursue. You know, it almost said as if it took the option away from me.