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I was addicted from the first line of cocaine I did. I have the alcoholic gene where it's like I can just go and go and go and go and go. Like...

I was addicted from the first line of cocaine I did. I have the alcoholic gene where it's like I can just go and go and go and go and go. Like...

and uh and being on stage and being in that lifestyle and being all that it was always like i wanted to be the best at everything so it became be the best drug addict be the best alcoholic and when you're trying to be the best drug addict and best alcoholic it means you do more than anyone else yeah you know um and cocaine's a funny fucking thing because when you first start doing cocaine it's like

and uh and being on stage and being in that lifestyle and being all that it was always like i wanted to be the best at everything so it became be the best drug addict be the best alcoholic and when you're trying to be the best drug addict and best alcoholic it means you do more than anyone else yeah you know um and cocaine's a funny fucking thing because when you first start doing cocaine it's like

yo like you want to do like you want to do like let's do okay on the table right here in front of us and it quickly turns into by yourself in the bathroom you know or like if you had a couple drinks oh yeah you just wanted oh yeah but i was like a dark addict you know what i'm saying i was by myself doing eight balls by myself i did that one night not not to party

yo like you want to do like you want to do like let's do okay on the table right here in front of us and it quickly turns into by yourself in the bathroom you know or like if you had a couple drinks oh yeah you just wanted oh yeah but i was like a dark addict you know what i'm saying i was by myself doing eight balls by myself i did that one night not not to party

Just to fucking... Just sitting behind a microphone, just like, all right, I'm making this... You know what I'm saying? Like, all night. I mean, it was bender after bender after bender. Like, I was an up-for-three-days type of person and addict. And it went on for, you know, like, over a decade of my life. And...

Just to fucking... Just sitting behind a microphone, just like, all right, I'm making this... You know what I'm saying? Like, all night. I mean, it was bender after bender after bender. Like, I was an up-for-three-days type of person and addict. And it went on for, you know, like, over a decade of my life. And...

To the point that there was really scary times, really times where I was able to hide it. Because the whole thing is I was functioning. I was a functioning addict alcoholic, right? But to pass out, to finally pass out after being tweaked out on cocaine for two days, my...

To the point that there was really scary times, really times where I was able to hide it. Because the whole thing is I was functioning. I was a functioning addict alcoholic, right? But to pass out, to finally pass out after being tweaked out on cocaine for two days, my...

thought in my head was that i had to slam a bottle of whiskey you know to do it so it's just like the cocktail that kills you you know yes absolutely um i used to do cocaine and xanax that was my shit yeah so i'd get so low that i had to come back up and then i'd have to go back down again i don't my heart is fucked yeah a hundred percent a hundred percent yeah

thought in my head was that i had to slam a bottle of whiskey you know to do it so it's just like the cocktail that kills you you know yes absolutely um i used to do cocaine and xanax that was my shit yeah so i'd get so low that i had to come back up and then i'd have to go back down again i don't my heart is fucked yeah a hundred percent a hundred percent yeah

Like my, my heart is fucked because it's just like needs stimulation so much that now I'm like, like I said, I've drank fucking four shots of espresso today and a C4 and I'm like, but my, I don't know. I don't know. Like that's kind of like I operate in those ways and. It's not great. But but regardless of that, so like I have been going, going, going on this journey.

Like my, my heart is fucked because it's just like needs stimulation so much that now I'm like, like I said, I've drank fucking four shots of espresso today and a C4 and I'm like, but my, I don't know. I don't know. Like that's kind of like I operate in those ways and. It's not great. But but regardless of that, so like I have been going, going, going on this journey.

And I basically like one day after, funny enough, why I also have so much love in my heart for Bella, who we were talking about earlier, is like that was the reason I got sober. was the end of that relationship. That relationship ended, funny enough, at Coachella. So fucking L.A.

And I basically like one day after, funny enough, why I also have so much love in my heart for Bella, who we were talking about earlier, is like that was the reason I got sober. was the end of that relationship. That relationship ended, funny enough, at Coachella. So fucking L.A.

Yeah, it was so gross. It ended at Coachella.

Yeah, it was so gross. It ended at Coachella.

It ended at Coachella, like literally at the festival. And I had a friend who lived out in the middle of Joshua Tree and had just had like Airstream trailers.

It ended at Coachella, like literally at the festival. And I had a friend who lived out in the middle of Joshua Tree and had just had like Airstream trailers.