Clark Fredericks

Swords, a dozen knives. If you've been kids for 40 years, wouldn't you have on every chair a holster? Wouldn't you have under every table a gun? You got to be like, I've pushed my luck. Something's going to happen eventually. So I was prepared to go into that house and get shot. Again, I'm not looking to die, but I just, it's, I just don't care.

Swords, a dozen knives. If you've been kids for 40 years, wouldn't you have on every chair a holster? Wouldn't you have under every table a gun? You got to be like, I've pushed my luck. Something's going to happen eventually. So I was prepared to go into that house and get shot. Again, I'm not looking to die, but I just, it's, I just don't care.

You know, I'm, I'm willing to put my life on the line right now. And I go up to his door. I rip his screen door open and I'm standing there in his doorway. It's like nine 30 at night. And, uh, And this is the part that gets me. But, you know, like we're trying to think that predators, pedophiles are normal, are human. They're not human. This guy isn't human.

You know, I'm, I'm willing to put my life on the line right now. And I go up to his door. I rip his screen door open and I'm standing there in his doorway. It's like nine 30 at night. And, uh, And this is the part that gets me. But, you know, like we're trying to think that predators, pedophiles are normal, are human. They're not human. This guy isn't human.

You're a 12-year-old boy and you're whispering in his ear just another minute so I can make sure I come, you know. And you're beating your dog in front of him to death to keep him silent. So people... view him as human. He's not, that's like, can you get more evil than that? That's evil. That's not a human. And this guy looks calmly over his shoulders.

You're a 12-year-old boy and you're whispering in his ear just another minute so I can make sure I come, you know. And you're beating your dog in front of him to death to keep him silent. So people... view him as human. He's not, that's like, can you get more evil than that? That's evil. That's not a human. And this guy looks calmly over his shoulders.

I'm standing in his doorway and goes, Hey, how are you? And it just seemed like the most incredible thing to say at that moment. Like, get down on your knees and be like, dude, I am so sorry. I know why you're here. I am sorry for what happened. I'm sorry for what I did to you. I always thought you or somebody else would show up. Let's talk. Please forgive me. I'm sick. I need help.

I'm standing in his doorway and goes, Hey, how are you? And it just seemed like the most incredible thing to say at that moment. Like, get down on your knees and be like, dude, I am so sorry. I know why you're here. I am sorry for what happened. I'm sorry for what I did to you. I always thought you or somebody else would show up. Let's talk. Please forgive me. I'm sick. I need help.

Whatever it may be. No, just, hey, how are you? That like set me off. Like, Whether I had a plan of action or not, when he said that, I had a plan of action. I go, hey, how am I, motherfucker? Let me show you how the fuck I am. And that face I kept behind closed doors, the face of... The smile that I showed the world was gone. The face behind closed doors was out.

Whatever it may be. No, just, hey, how are you? That like set me off. Like, Whether I had a plan of action or not, when he said that, I had a plan of action. I go, hey, how am I, motherfucker? Let me show you how the fuck I am. And that face I kept behind closed doors, the face of... The smile that I showed the world was gone. The face behind closed doors was out.

He's seeing the face he made of rage and hate and violence that he instilled in me. He's seeing that on my face. He's the first one to see it. And I raced across his living room. We got into a violent fight. I'm stabbing at him. He's punching me. At one point, I put a knife right through my hand. I sever all the ligaments and tendons in my hand.

He's seeing the face he made of rage and hate and violence that he instilled in me. He's seeing that on my face. He's the first one to see it. And I raced across his living room. We got into a violent fight. I'm stabbing at him. He's punching me. At one point, I put a knife right through my hand. I sever all the ligaments and tendons in my hand.

And the fight really only lasted a couple minutes, two, three minutes. He slipped in the blood that was both of ours on the floor. And he was sort of like up against a wall. And I knelt down in front of him. And I looked him in the eye. And I said, it's not so fun with little boys now, is it, Dennis? And I slid a stroke. And that was it. And... You know...

And the fight really only lasted a couple minutes, two, three minutes. He slipped in the blood that was both of ours on the floor. And he was sort of like up against a wall. And I knelt down in front of him. And I looked him in the eye. And I said, it's not so fun with little boys now, is it, Dennis? And I slid a stroke. And that was it. And... You know...

I would say I've had two people who have reached out to me over the years, one female, one male, who said they were abused and said they would never think of doing what I did. Whether they were actual abuse victims or not, I don't know. Every other abuse victim. has reached out to me and said, you did exactly what I've dreamt of.

I would say I've had two people who have reached out to me over the years, one female, one male, who said they were abused and said they would never think of doing what I did. Whether they were actual abuse victims or not, I don't know. Every other abuse victim. has reached out to me and said, you did exactly what I've dreamt of.

And, you know, you can look at their profile on Facebook or Instagram and see if they're liberal or see if they're Republican. And it doesn't matter if they're male, female, Republican, Democrat, you did exactly what I've dreamt of doing to my abuser. Because the horror of what they put you through is so traumatic. The only thing your mind can think to do to even to score is to kill him.

And, you know, you can look at their profile on Facebook or Instagram and see if they're liberal or see if they're Republican. And it doesn't matter if they're male, female, Republican, Democrat, you did exactly what I've dreamt of doing to my abuser. Because the horror of what they put you through is so traumatic. The only thing your mind can think to do to even to score is to kill him.

But you don't heal from abuse. You don't heal from trauma by adding more trauma to your system. That's not how you heal. I stopped an evil piece of shit, not a human, an evil piece of shit from ever harming another child. Is that a good thing? Yes. Did it in any way heal me? Absolutely not. You know, like...

But you don't heal from abuse. You don't heal from trauma by adding more trauma to your system. That's not how you heal. I stopped an evil piece of shit, not a human, an evil piece of shit from ever harming another child. Is that a good thing? Yes. Did it in any way heal me? Absolutely not. You know, like...