Allison Holker

Like, you know, you get to be your stage performer, but then you get to be you, you know, behind closed doors with the people you love and care about the most. Yeah. And it's kind of like almost like a protective shield. And I always saw Steven doing that. Steven would be Steven with our family and then he'd be Twitch for the people.

Like, you know, you get to be your stage performer, but then you get to be you, you know, behind closed doors with the people you love and care about the most. Yeah. And it's kind of like almost like a protective shield. And I always saw Steven doing that. Steven would be Steven with our family and then he'd be Twitch for the people.

And sometimes they would intertwine, you know, they would kind of veer back and forth in our home space. But Steven at home was extremely introverted and Twitch to the people was extremely extroverted. And what I've come to now learn about him is that those things can exist and be real, but sometimes I think he masked his lows when he was maybe dealing with his depression as Steven.

And sometimes they would intertwine, you know, they would kind of veer back and forth in our home space. But Steven at home was extremely introverted and Twitch to the people was extremely extroverted. And what I've come to now learn about him is that those things can exist and be real, but sometimes I think he masked his lows when he was maybe dealing with his depression as Steven.

Like I need time to recoup my energy from being Twitch all day. And not just from exuding all this energy, which I thought it was like, oh, he's just tired. Like he just had a big day of putting on this extroverted energy that he just needs times to rest and like kind of recoup the energy back. But no, he was actually masking that he was actually really sad and depressed sometimes.

Like I need time to recoup my energy from being Twitch all day. And not just from exuding all this energy, which I thought it was like, oh, he's just tired. Like he just had a big day of putting on this extroverted energy that he just needs times to rest and like kind of recoup the energy back. But no, he was actually masking that he was actually really sad and depressed sometimes.

And maybe not every time, but some of the times it was actually his depression taking over him that he would mask that energy with.

And maybe not every time, but some of the times it was actually his depression taking over him that he would mask that energy with.

And I think sometimes now when I look at depression or these traits that he had, I wish that he would have had help with therapy or someone he felt safe talking about the conflictions that he would have with himself and his personality and maybe learning better tools to keep some of himself full in his own cup instead of always trying to pour out into everyone else.

And I think sometimes now when I look at depression or these traits that he had, I wish that he would have had help with therapy or someone he felt safe talking about the conflictions that he would have with himself and his personality and maybe learning better tools to keep some of himself full in his own cup instead of always trying to pour out into everyone else.

Stephen was someone that people...

Stephen was someone that people...

trusted you you were in a safe place when you spoke with him and you could he would never judge you for what you were going through and that's what was so beautiful about him is he he opened his heart to anyone and everyone anything you were going through and and he would make time for you and he'd make space for you and he would just listen he was such a great listener and

trusted you you were in a safe place when you spoke with him and you could he would never judge you for what you were going through and that's what was so beautiful about him is he he opened his heart to anyone and everyone anything you were going through and and he would make time for you and he'd make space for you and he would just listen he was such a great listener and

And you would always walk away feeling so much better. And I know if he would have told himself the things I've heard him say to other people, he could have helped himself. But with that role he took on, I think he was really scared of people not wanting to do that anymore if he maybe was honest about what he was going through.

And you would always walk away feeling so much better. And I know if he would have told himself the things I've heard him say to other people, he could have helped himself. But with that role he took on, I think he was really scared of people not wanting to do that anymore if he maybe was honest about what he was going through.

Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm.

Because then just knowing his personality and how much he loved that and cared for people and some of the things he's now said and things I have read that he's wrote, it's he feared if he wasn't that hero for other people and if he maybe was honest about what he was going through, maybe they'd question going to him.

Because then just knowing his personality and how much he loved that and cared for people and some of the things he's now said and things I have read that he's wrote, it's he feared if he wasn't that hero for other people and if he maybe was honest about what he was going through, maybe they'd question going to him.