Allison Holker

Yeah.

Yeah.

And he told me to move forward with it.

And he told me to move forward with it.

Steven would be Steven with our family, and then he'd be Twitch for the people. Steven at home was extremely introverted and Twitch to the people was extremely extroverted. And what I've come to now learn about him is that those things can exist and be real, but sometimes I think he masked his lows when he was maybe dealing with his depression as Steven.

Steven would be Steven with our family, and then he'd be Twitch for the people. Steven at home was extremely introverted and Twitch to the people was extremely extroverted. And what I've come to now learn about him is that those things can exist and be real, but sometimes I think he masked his lows when he was maybe dealing with his depression as Steven.

I think I always grew up thinking that if I just power through, and same for him, we wake up and we say our gratitude and we say our affirmations and it really does pump you up. Yeah. That's why I'm saying I still do it to this day. And I see so much beauty behind it. And he was the same way.

I think I always grew up thinking that if I just power through, and same for him, we wake up and we say our gratitude and we say our affirmations and it really does pump you up. Yeah. That's why I'm saying I still do it to this day. And I see so much beauty behind it. And he was the same way.

We had like dry erase markers and we'd constantly be writing on our mirrors and writing stuff to each other to pump each other up. And, you know, if we were tired or sad, we'd be like, oh, let's go read this book together. Let's listen to this podcast together. And we both loved that and generated so much of who we are from that.

We had like dry erase markers and we'd constantly be writing on our mirrors and writing stuff to each other to pump each other up. And, you know, if we were tired or sad, we'd be like, oh, let's go read this book together. Let's listen to this podcast together. And we both loved that and generated so much of who we are from that.

And I still do think there's so much beauty in it, but we didn't have the balance of it. I'm trying now in my life to learn better tools of you can be a positive person while also admitting that you're having a sad day. I wish I could have been a stronger person knowing signs when they were right in front of me, but I didn't know.

And I still do think there's so much beauty in it, but we didn't have the balance of it. I'm trying now in my life to learn better tools of you can be a positive person while also admitting that you're having a sad day. I wish I could have been a stronger person knowing signs when they were right in front of me, but I didn't know.

I didn't have the tools learning about depression before as I never really thought it was something that we were going to have to deal with. So I didn't have the proper tools of really looking back and stepping back and seeing that, wait, this has maybe got a little bit carried away. Maybe there's something deeper happening here. Like the hygiene, he wasn't working out anymore.

I didn't have the tools learning about depression before as I never really thought it was something that we were going to have to deal with. So I didn't have the proper tools of really looking back and stepping back and seeing that, wait, this has maybe got a little bit carried away. Maybe there's something deeper happening here. Like the hygiene, he wasn't working out anymore.

He didn't want to be hanging out with friends anymore. I would be inviting people over. He'd be like, I really want people coming over. A lot of people might hear that and be like, so why would you do this? And also they could say to me, why didn't you see it better? It's like, but you justify things when you're with someone because I loved him so much. I was like, it's okay.

He didn't want to be hanging out with friends anymore. I would be inviting people over. He'd be like, I really want people coming over. A lot of people might hear that and be like, so why would you do this? And also they could say to me, why didn't you see it better? It's like, but you justify things when you're with someone because I loved him so much. I was like, it's okay.

I sometimes think he doubted himself so much if he deserved that love because he was receiving so much of it that he thought he had to outpour it. Just give it to as many people as I can. To make him almost convince himself maybe that would make him deserve the love. That, yeah, you have to learn for yourself to understand that you deserve, you deserve so much love for who you are.

I sometimes think he doubted himself so much if he deserved that love because he was receiving so much of it that he thought he had to outpour it. Just give it to as many people as I can. To make him almost convince himself maybe that would make him deserve the love. That, yeah, you have to learn for yourself to understand that you deserve, you deserve so much love for who you are.

And you don't have to earn any of it. You can just receive it.

And you don't have to earn any of it. You can just receive it.