Allison Holker

When the cops first told me what had happened, I did not believe them. I thought they had gotten the wrong person.

When the cops first told me what had happened, I did not believe them. I thought they had gotten the wrong person.

I think it was a very big turning point for him. I feel like his heart was never really in the same place when he came back. There was something missing in his eyes. It just kind of feels like he opened something up to himself that he never healed and never fully escaped. I will always celebrate Steven. I think he was a wonderful person, and I'm really sad what he went through.

I think it was a very big turning point for him. I feel like his heart was never really in the same place when he came back. There was something missing in his eyes. It just kind of feels like he opened something up to himself that he never healed and never fully escaped. I will always celebrate Steven. I think he was a wonderful person, and I'm really sad what he went through.

But I also have to be careful because I can't celebrate so much of his choice. And that's a really fine line I have to walk as a mother right now is because they are very hurt by their father's decision. And they have a lot of triggers that they have to be in therapy now to really work through.

But I also have to be careful because I can't celebrate so much of his choice. And that's a really fine line I have to walk as a mother right now is because they are very hurt by their father's decision. And they have a lot of triggers that they have to be in therapy now to really work through.

But what I am impressed with is that they are doing the work and they are putting in the time and they are finding joy in life and they are finding laughter again. But there's a lot to unpack for them that they'll have to deal with for the rest of their lives. Can you talk about the tree emoji the night before he died? This will be something I will always be confused about.

But what I am impressed with is that they are doing the work and they are putting in the time and they are finding joy in life and they are finding laughter again. But there's a lot to unpack for them that they'll have to deal with for the rest of their lives. Can you talk about the tree emoji the night before he died? This will be something I will always be confused about.

We had had so much trust in our relationship that we never had ever had locations on our phones. I had never even looked at his phone. I don't even know what his codes are. I don't know any of his passwords. I don't have a bank account shared with him. I never had. I wouldn't even know how to...

We had had so much trust in our relationship that we never had ever had locations on our phones. I had never even looked at his phone. I don't even know what his codes are. I don't know any of his passwords. I don't have a bank account shared with him. I never had. I wouldn't even know how to...

look at anything like that's how much in our relationship was just like if he told me something i just believed it and so when the cops were asking me all these questions well have you looked at his phone where is you know his locations have you looked at his bank accounts i was like i don't have access to any of it on the third day after he passed you were cuddling your daughter zaya and you say stephen paid you a visit

look at anything like that's how much in our relationship was just like if he told me something i just believed it and so when the cops were asking me all these questions well have you looked at his phone where is you know his locations have you looked at his bank accounts i was like i don't have access to any of it on the third day after he passed you were cuddling your daughter zaya and you say stephen paid you a visit

Yeah. And said, I'm so sorry. And I love you so much. I'm sorry. And Stephen's face faded away. I felt a lot more settled. I wasn't fully healed or anything like that, but I felt settled that he was watching over us.

Yeah. And said, I'm so sorry. And I love you so much. I'm sorry. And Stephen's face faded away. I felt a lot more settled. I wasn't fully healed or anything like that, but I felt settled that he was watching over us.

Yes. There's been moments of Stephen visiting both Wesley and I multiple times. He still visits us and still talks with us.

Yes. There's been moments of Stephen visiting both Wesley and I multiple times. He still visits us and still talks with us.

Have you talked to God about this? I know a lot of people, when they experience death, they question God. But this wasn't God's choice. This wasn't God's doing. He still wraps his arms around us and he still supports us. And he still sees us and he still sees my children.

Have you talked to God about this? I know a lot of people, when they experience death, they question God. But this wasn't God's choice. This wasn't God's doing. He still wraps his arms around us and he still supports us. And he still sees us and he still sees my children.

He's really proud of my children. And I do think he's proud of me. He's told me he is. And he wanted me to do this. I was so scared that is this the right choice? Because I hope people read the messaging of what I really want this to be.

He's really proud of my children. And I do think he's proud of me. He's told me he is. And he wanted me to do this. I was so scared that is this the right choice? Because I hope people read the messaging of what I really want this to be.