Viking Barbie
Appearances
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you know, my mom going through my trash. There's a lot, there's a lot to unpack. Right. Um, but yeah, so, you know, so I took it and I, I went and that's when I was like, okay, well now I can't get high on the pills.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I honestly didn't like it. Um, it was too heavy. It was dirty feeling. It didn't have that like crisp, like, you know, if you like painkillers, like that crisp, like when it first hits for it,
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. And you could just clean the house. Like that's how I feel. I get energy from it. Heroin's not like that. You're just like, you know, chin to chest, you're out and you're just basically heavy numbing. Yeah. And I didn't want to do it. I was like, this stuff sucks. I remember saying that. And then like when I went to, you know, go take pills, it was not working.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And I was like, okay, this sucks. oh no so just from doing it one time fucked up your whole like fucked up my system and then like trying to take it away even after one time i swear it was like the either the worst come down or you're already feeling symptoms i can't figure it out like it was horrible That's terrible.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, so yeah, I started doing that shit and I was like, and it eventually start liking it, you know, but it's like, you're almost liking it for what you think it is. It's kind of like an abusive relationship, you know, like rather than what it really is. Like when you're sick, you're like, Oh, I can't wait. And then the second you get it, you're like, that wasn't even that great.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And take me from there. And that was when I was like really like hiding everything, you know, because it was like before when I was on the pills the first time before I ever relapsed again and like got off.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
i would always tell people like oh i'm a junkie like i'm i don't give a like don't ever come for me like i am never going to rehab like i was like proud of it but once you quit there's something that happens where like and why quit i mean like i thought i was sober i was doing cocaine every day like that was what i thought like my friends california sober yeah my friends still joke with me like you were never sober at that time like you were literally doing coke every day i'm like hey that's like a cigarette you know what i mean yeah
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, but like for me, like I got sober off the pills, they had caused so much problems and so much pain. And so I was kind of embarrassed, like to tell anyone that I relapsed. I didn't want to tell anyone. So like, then it just got worse. And when you start hiding shit is when it really gets bad.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Well, I had a miscarriage. OK. Yeah. But I didn't ever want kids. I just like wanted to like have that one because like the hormones started kicking in. Right. That shit will trick you, by the way. You're like you can stay pregnant for more than like six weeks. Like you're like, all I want to do is be a mother. Maybe.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
but I definitely don't want not now but if I had a shit one out when I was 18 imagine that kid would be fucked up right now that's kind of where I was at but to be fair I did detox solely for the fact that I was so some points there yeah a lot of women can do a lot of people drug addicts don't do that um but yeah so you know that's why I got sober and then I was like oh I can't tell anyone I relapsed like that's embarrassing like after all that you know
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So I was going through the whole, you know, liar addict shit. Um, the house was filthy. It was pretty gross. I mean, I'm already, I'm not going to lie. Like I'm a bit of a slob naturally. Cause my father was like, I grew up like with a slob, you know what I mean? Like, and that's not even any shade.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
It's like the man would like piss and Gatorade bottles and like throw them in the backseat of the car.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah, that was definitely, um, that was, and that's kind of how like I am like naturally I'm kind of sloppy. You know what I mean? Like I'll just have my whole nightstand just, and I'll like put like the last piece of trash to let it like, you know what I mean? Like make sure it doesn't fall, you know? But, um, so I got better about that, but I'm still kind of like that.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
But this was like a whole nother level. Because if you're already not a clean person and then you become a junkie, I mean, it's like...
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
There were moments where, you know, like I smoked what I thought was heroin off the floor, but it was like dog turds.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I feel like everyone does that. At least cocaine doesn't look like dog turds.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Especially when you're smoking the dog turd and you know it's not. No, it's not heroin. The little almond roca. I'm like, I know this is an heroin because it doesn't taste like it. I know it's burning weird, but I'm so desperate to believe it is.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. Some heroin might have gotten on this dog. So, yeah, I mean, I've done all kinds of weird shit.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And I also have a love affair where we exchange what's wrong with us every day.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
all day long aaron's always like it's kind of interesting like you wake up every morning the first thing you say to me isn't good morning it's like oh this is wrong or that's wrong last night i slept weird my arm feels funny i have a tickle here and he's like i've never in the whole time we've known each other and you've not had something wrong he's like and now you have bunny and she can tell you all the things wrong with her we just beat off of each other but it's funny because we have a balance because i calm you down and then you calm me down i know because you sound crazy
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
yeah but it's like but then i you sound crazy too bitch so like sometimes i'll be like man is this what it's like is that because this isn't possible she can't possibly have all the you know yeah no i'm like it's totally it's totally both of us we are just we put the fun in dysfunction yeah okay
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Well, there was one we did, I think like a few years ago in Nashville, but that was pretty far away. Yeah. It was not really like intimate.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Some people like it. Right? Jelly made me burp in the mic when I was recording. He's like, you have to do that. You always do that before you start spitting. Um, so yeah, um, it was pretty gnarly. Uh, I mean, there was, there was maggots in my laundry. Like that's how, and most people, my dude's going to be like, why do you always tell everybody all this?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Because, well, I had a laundry pile that was all the way in the kitchen, shoved against the wall, all the way up to the ceiling. Like, cause we just kept buying clothes. Cause I mean, I was stripping, you know, I didn't, I didn't want to wash them.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. The sink was right there. And so all the dishes were piled up and the maggots got from the dishes to the laundry. Wow. So it was.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Top tier. Yeah. And this is like the fourth one. Okay. So we would get a place, run it into the ground, stop paying rent. We would get evicted. We would find some way to stay there long enough and then like find another place. Cause I'd make just enough money. I always made enough money, like just to get a nice, another nice place. And I would always like, you know,
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you know smooth get my way in there i would dress nice that day and i'd put some tanner on my white face you know what i mean right and sorry i'm trying to get adjusted in this fucking new studio over here so like we'd always find a new place to just destroy and every time we thought we were going to keep that one nice but it never happened um and it's funny i remember the last place that i when i'd gotten arrested that we were living in like the guy's like well you just sit here in the kitchen let me know what you think it was like a nice like he'd just done the house up walked outside and i was like
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Thanks. We're going to talk about it. Lighting up heroin smoking in the kitchen. This guy's outside thinking we're like these like great tenants. You know what I mean? And I was like, God, we were just the worst. It's crazy when you think about the shit that you do whenever you're under the influence. Yeah. I mean, we got engaged like that.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And we had a whole wedding planned that no one could get a hold of me for to get flowers or anything. My mom had to basically like, you know, get me in a corner to try and get me to plan this thing. And I ended up having my wedding day while I was in rehab. So the day I was like, well, it's the day princess.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
When was that pivotal moment? I went with my best friend to a show. She worked with me and like we danced for these cops, believe it or not. I even remember that show. Like it was really fun. We were laughing. We were having a good time, like making jokes with these guys. They were cool. And then we left and we were counting money on the side of the street and other cops pulled up.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
This was over in fountain Valley in orange County. And, um, They were like, get out of the car. And we're like, oh, we're not doing anything. We're just counting money. We're dancers. And he goes, well, we're the strippers. There's narcotics. And I was like, how offensive.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. So my poor friend and her friend who drove us, who was a preschool teacher that we were paying.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
nice though like and neither of them had drugs on them they weren't like there for that you know meanwhile I had like heroin and coke on me and like I just bought like like a really nice like brand-new like 40 sack a black tar you know what I mean like it was all shiny and new you know I didn't even get a dip into it you know and like the cops started looking and usually I had it my bra he didn't even look him like our bras but for some reason I
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you know it's like that universe thing like it happened to be and i was like it's fine he's not gonna look in this spot and it was like i would have never done that and he found it of course oh no yeah so that was a whole fucking it was the worst because what did you get charged what were the charges
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um possession of large usable amounts of um narcotics heroin and cocaine or whatever the judge said when i was partially deaf when he said it yeah my i had like all the fluid coming out of my lungs into my ears in court i couldn't hear anything um so yeah went to jail that night my friend took my money to my boyfriend at the time she's like dude
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
she's like it was the weirdest thing she's like I went to go drop your money off and I hadn't seen you guys in a while and stuff he was being so weird like and like the whole thing came out like she didn't even know I was doing heroin and she's like I always just thought you had really dirty fingers and I couldn't figure out why oh no
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you know like it's like there's just so many things and then she was fucking pissed because you know i'd been lying to her and then like he was acting crazy she said it was like the because he needed the drugs and i had them on me or whatever um but yeah oh he was jonesing yeah damn and then my mom came and got him and she took him off she's like you're going to rehab like kind of thing and he was like he's a cancer he was like okay
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like he didn't even like really fight it. Um, she strip searched him, my mom, and he's a full grown man. And he was like, okay. And she's like, let me see the shoes. And he was like, fuck, there's like shit in his shoes. Um, so like when I was getting out of jail, she was like, well, I took your boyfriend off to rehab. So we're, we got to find you a place. And I had no intention of getting sober.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I was like, I am not fucking getting sober. Like, I just want to like get high again, even though I've been kicking for days in jail. And it was like they arrested me before the weekend. It was a three day weekend. I didn't even like it was literally like five days.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
and it was what was that like horrible it was the worst experience like the worst detox like the moment i got in there there were girls in there that had actually you know they're drug addicts too or whatever they've been through it like oh what are you kicking and i'm like heroin she's like oh okay and she's like smoking or shooting and i was like smoking and she's like oh you're fucked and i was like what do you mean she's like it's way worse detox so it gets in your bones it gets in your lungs it gets everywhere she's like you're then shooting shooting's way cleaner
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
wow yeah i would never known that yeah so i didn't either so i was sitting there like oh cool like yeah thank you bitch thank you for the anxiety um and it was just like days of just being like puking and shitting you don't know what to put in the toilet you're like completely just like hallucinating my skin was coming off oh it was weird like i
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
talking after you're getting over a sickness too is like hold on I gotta pull my shorts out of my vagina these shorts have been doing this to me all day it's been very uncomfortable how is those shorts I'd want to be in your vagina too oh well come on down so Yeah, I detox for a few days and it was horrific. Went to court, threw up the whole way to court on the bus.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Everyone was lifting their feet because the whole bottom of the bus was full of my puke. Oh, no. You know, their guys were on the bus, too. And they're all hitting on me still are like, so where are you going? I'm like, dude, are you fucking serious right now?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
They're like, fucking just give it to me. Especially those types. They were like hand, they were like giving me a little, you know, they had like little pencils. They'd like smuggled. They're giving me like their, you know, number to write, write them. And I was like, one was cute, but the point is.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
basically i got to court my like i said i was deaf like i could not hear like it was so weird all the shit like went into my ears and i was throwing up on the courtroom floor i was you know locked with another girl and he was like man like everybody even my public defender like she came to my cell this woman that's like a public defender was like i want your mother's number and i was like what do you mean like she's like i'm gonna call your mother like your teeth are gonna
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
to fall out like it was the weirdest thing all these people actually gave a shit that you usually don't you know what I mean like well they could see that I think they could see well first it was my first like real offense right and like I you know I was attractive you could tell and you could just tell I was on that road right I mean and they were just like fuck this girl's gonna fucking ruin her life yeah and um she ended up calling my mom and telling her everything
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And I was like, this is fucking lame. Like, what is this? You're like, I'm a grown ass bitch. What's happening? What is happening? Um, and so my mom was waiting when I got out of jail and then she basically convinced me to go to, um, to Orange County, which is where I'd have to go to court all the time. She's like, you can't leave Orange County. You'll never go to court.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
You're going to get, you're going to reoffend, you know? Right. Um, and so I'm like, that's awesome that your mom had your back. Yeah, she really did. Um, and I was just like, oh fuck. you know, like, and of course my mom didn't know what, what drug addiction was like that. Like her alcoholism is drug addiction.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So we were all at the thing and she gave me like some wine to sleep, which I mean, I probably needed to be honest. She's putting me in rehab. She's like, you're going to rehab the next day.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. She was trying to figure out how to like knock me out. Cause I was still kicking. We like, I remember sleeping in bed next to her and I was hallucinating so bad that I thought we were on a pirate ship and the sheets were like the masts. And I was like, you're not able to sleep. You know what I mean? Yeah. you go from being on heroin to being highly alert.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like your brain doesn't sleep anymore. So it was just a weird, it's like it puts a cloak over you. Yeah. So she was trying to give me, she had like little pills too. She's like, take this, like giving me shit. I think she was trying to keep me from taking off. Right. So we ended up, um, some lady and the lobby told her of a place called the rock center.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And it was like, um, and, and garden Grove, it was like this like low bottom indigent rehab, you know, um, It was a really dope place. I had a blast. It was basically like, you know, being in a coed, uh, like a college full of dirt bags, you know what I mean? Which is perfect for me. Like we had a really good time.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I had the best time there. It was so fun. Everyone was like, I was the craziest person, which kind of was a letdown. I'm not going to lie. At first I was like, now I'm like super sane. But like at that time coming out, like I was on another level. Like everyone was like, whoa, like they're making, they're like, dude, you're not going to make it.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
You're, you're about, you're like a foot out the door. There's no way you're not going to get discharged. You know what I mean? And they were just, cause I was like, you know, in there just, I was weird for one, you know, I said weird shit, like really weird shit. I would talk about death a lot. I did a lot of like burning myself and like, you know, telling people about it, which is not, you know.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Right. But I was trying to like kind of fill that void. Right. You know what I mean? And the boys there weren't that cute, but they all looked cute to me at the time. And I didn't bang any of them, but... I wanted to make out with all of them. Right. I was like making out with everybody. Um, it was like trying to keep, I just want to feel something. Yeah. Give me something. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, and then, you know, at that point I ended up, I ended up making it. Part of the reason was because they said I wasn't going to make it. And I don't like anybody telling me what I'm not going to do. So I did make it.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, I ended up at the sober living upstairs. I managed the sober living, which is basically you just log people in and out. It's not really a managing it, but I was like in charge. So I was actually trusted, which was new. Got a little car. Um, where's your boyfriend at this time? Still in rehab.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I was making out with the dude because I was, but yeah, I was, I was so on another level and, and it was funny because we dropped him off at rehab before we went to take me and me and him were making out in the lobby. I had vomit in my hair from, and he was like, I love you. And I was like, yeah, you know, like this whole thing. And then like I got to rehab and I was devastated.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
All I talked about, I love him. He's the love of my life and all that shit. And the second, like we hung out and I was sober and like, I was just like, he would do weird shit. He gave you the ick. Yeah. And it was just, it was messing with me because poor thing. He really did love me. You know what I mean? And he was like, he, everything was fine. He didn't change. You know what I mean?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like, but I was just like, I didn't feel it at all anymore. Well, the veil was lifted. Yeah. I was like, I never had fallen in love with him. Um, I knew I wasn't, even when we first started dating, I knew he was just pretty and he was, and he was fun. Right. I mean, and he was wild like me, but I was like, with the drugs, you think you're in love, you know what I mean?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So I was like, back to that where I'm like, I don't want to have sex with you. And I didn't know.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. So and I probably that had something to do with it, you know, like subconsciously, you know, you're like, oh, I don't want to go back to that life. Right.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So I ended up meeting someone else there and then we ended up together and that was like started out really great.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um we were both sober we both sponsored people we both did like the whole thing um and then you know he started going out you know what i mean and that's when things got shitty you know what i mean because like i wanted to stay sober um i even relapsed on alcohol with him at one point and then i was like i don't want to do this anymore like first of all i'm the designated driver
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um i you know this isn't what i want to do like i we would go out and like you know i would drive and he would get to drink and so i was like this isn't fun for me right you know what i mean so i was like and then he started getting worse he started doing other things and he brought coke home and i was like okay i'm done like it was just a fucking spiral so i literally was like i'm just gonna like we're gonna stop you know what i mean all together
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, and actually I think he pushed it even further. He disappeared one night and he never did anything like that. And so all night long, I didn't know where he was, but he's, you know, he was definitely like a puppy dog type. So he would like hit me up every once in a while, like to tell, like most guys just disappear.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I was like, I could get ahold of him enough to know he was alive and I was able to get out of him where he was.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
right so then i came and grabbed him what was he doing he was with um he well he was working the weho crowd and some guy they have doing a bunch of fucking meth and like the dude was paying him to hang out i don't fucking know oh you know what i mean he was getting the old trombone no i don't think he was doing that but like you know what i mean like i i know you know my mind it gets weird on meth especially yeah with dudes they say you're only one you know
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
one unit away from an experience. But yeah, so I was like, but either way, the thing I was concerned with was like, why is he out all night? What's going on? So of course, you know, and I went to full borderline episode, which I hadn't had in forever. You know, like I'm like, I waited up with the extension cord. I'm like beating him with the extension cord. Like I was going, losing my mind.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So bad. and then um i went and then i started doing like the self-harm thing in myself in the bathroom i was like what is happening like yeah that's when i was like no more alcohol nothing i'm even gonna stop doing it we went back to meetings and then it came back around again it just it it kept being like me trying to save this person who was just constantly going out and i was like
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I am scholar, a gentleman, no. I am, well, getting over being sick, so excuse my man voice. But yeah, just I sing, I do comedy, Shakespearean things, you know, everything. I don't even know what I am anymore.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I had to basically make a choice. You know what I mean? Like either I stay sober or this guy's going to take me out, you know? Right. Which was the best decision ever because then I was able to like actually work on me kind of because I met someone else instantly, but that's a Libra thing. There's a Pat. No, that's a trauma thing. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So the guy I'm with now, um, I met right out of that relationship and we're actually like business partners and stuff. So it's like, it works really well. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Daddy Warbucks. Um, and you know, it just kind of works out because we're both, first of all, he doesn't, he's basically me with a penis.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
He, um, he hit me up, um, on Instagram and I had like 5,000 followers and he was like, yeah, let's talk about how you got into your, your Insta thought.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yes. So, um, he was like, Hey, um, why do you only have 5,000 followers?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And I was like, and I was thought he was going to hit on me and he wasn't. And he was like, I have this thing I want to start. That's like a Snapchat premium where you have like multiple girls and like they pay for your Snapchat and you could get like $10,000 a month. And at that time I was like $10,000 extra a month. Like man, I was like jerking dudes off for that.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um but you know um only jerking off though only the hand nobody here judges only the hand is a slut i like to touch aaron with it like it's your wooden paw yeah like it's made of stone i'm always like i'm such a clean girl with this hand you know
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, so yeah, he, he was like, well, would you do a Snapchat takeover for me at a big Snapchat that was like 80 K Snapchat, which was huge at that time, you know? And I was like, I don't know what that is, but I'm willing to do it. And he's like, you just go on there and answer questions and do whatever. And he's like, you should have like millions of followers.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I was like over at the strip club shackle for simplicity. Like, So he was like, you know, let's, he's like, let's work on this. And he's like, grow your Instagram. And I was like, he didn't even know what to do at that. You're like, okay, how do I do that? He goes, we'll take some good pictures. And I was like, okay. And he's like, not the ones you're taking. Those look terrible.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
He's like, you got to go to like a really good photographer. Like he was trying to guess. And so I started lining up photographers, started like just posting pictures. And then he made a separate account. That's where Viking Barbie is.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
account was born like I had the Kaylee account then he made the Viking Barbie account and he's like what do you want your name to be and I was like well I usually say Viking Kaylee or Viking Barbie like I've had that a bunch of times yeah and it used to be Norco Barbie so I think we can just do Viking Barbie now yeah and so he was building that one I was building and we were like both and then I just started doing both
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And it started like it grew, you know, I did expeditiously. Yeah, I grew. It started with Karma RX. That's my wife. We love Karma. Shout out Karma. We met.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And she was the first collab I did a girl girl. He's like, Oh, this chick's making like 60 grand a month, you know, or 40 grand a month on snap. He's like, this is the person you should talk to. She's dating like a friend of mine or something. And I was like, okay, I'm down.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So like I met her, we talked on the phone for four hours the first night we talked and like, we were like basically in love.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
and so I was like when we met like we were just inseparable ever since I mean it's been like six years you know what I mean and we're just constantly like you know which karma and I have the same birthday so it makes sense yeah she literally is a day before me I have a thing with I'm a Libra so Aquarius and I've got Aquarius no but you're a Scorpio Libra that's why you're a cusp every single astrologer is like you're basically a Scorpio
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
yeah i can see it yeah um so that that happened then my account started growing we started bringing other girls on i start he goes hey i don't want to be the weirdo who's like training these girls would you be down to manage them i don't want to be the creep yeah he's like i feel weird doing it they're gonna think it's like a weird thing he's like he saw me managing the stripping agency for the guy that that i was working for yeah he just like went like little donald duck eyes
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And he was like, Hey, could you do that for me? Dollar signs. Yeah. So I started doing that, um, training the girls, teaching them what I do, showing them how to grow a brand, all that stuff. And I just knew like instinctively with this job, apparently it was really good at selling and like, like being, getting creative ideas. Like I'm very creative.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I'm just not good at ripping people off. I wish I was because I would be so much, I would be richer, but I'm just not good at it. Like I'm very, what you see is what you get. And like, this is what I got to sell. You know what I mean? Like you're not going to see me trying to trick you.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like, come on, you know, Johnny sins isn't a plumber. Right. I mean, like, but you know, it's kind of one of those, uh, yeah. Anyways, he, um, he was down to do that stuff too, you know, like do shows with me and stuff, which was pretty cool.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Some guys are not like, I'm, you know, I could do that. It's like weird or like, you know, um, but he's kind of a freak, you know, right. And we'll never tell anybody. He's like, he's got Scorpio Venus. That's all I'll say.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, so he's like down to do that stuff. It works out. Um, but yeah, we grew the brand together.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
and um it just kind of took off from there we had violent summer she got huge we at the time we had worked with like allison parker she was huge at the time we worked with her um and then um yeah it you guys have to go dakota emily yeah well snap started dying and i remember just thinking like oh okay what are we done you know what i mean but i'm i'm not i don't trip though like i'm just kind of like all right on to the next whole thing yeah what else do i do you know and
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. I mean, and the reality is like I was making so much money though. That's the one thing that was a little scary because I was like, Whoa, how am I ever going to make this much money? This is like ridiculous money. You know, he's not tripping because he's a businessman. So he's got like five things he's doing, you know what I mean? Like he's not even worried about it.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, but definitely I was a little bit like, okay, what do I do next? You know? Um, and then only fans and like all this stuff. And so we did our own platform before we ever went on only fans.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
You know what I mean? Like, yeah, we're not doing only fans. It's all about nudies. So we still have nudies. We still, uh, I still proposed everything, you know, you get all the videos for like a monthly and all that stuff. But then I was like, Hey, can we get the girls like a free only fans at least?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you know what I mean like they're missing out on some money and then he agreed to it and then we all had like so now it's just a whole thing just a whole fucking snowball of money yeah and then and then I started rapping which you know I know surprised people but you know you've actually you have a song with tech nine like let's not fucking diminish it you I did a cover with jelly roll hello I mean we don't talk about jelly roll here I'm just kidding um yeah no it's it's kidding daddy I love you um
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, yeah, but basically like, um, and crooked, crooked eye. He's pretty dope. He's like more of an underground type dude.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yes. And, um, I, you know, I, I really want to get back into that too. I've been, I've been working on some stuff. Um, but you know, I, I kind of took a hiatus to heal. Um, yeah, let's talk about that.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
cleanse this week and this shit really works dude like it's fucking crazy let's talk about your journey oh so i started about a year ago um what had happened was i kept going to therapists and they kept diagnosing me like i would talk my way into a new diagnosis every time i walked in and i was like which you've been diagnosed with what go ahead and tell people
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
On one account? I think it's like 11.3 and the other one's 3 million. And then so altogether like 13 million. Yeah. Um, it's a lot of motherfuckers checking out your titties. Yeah. Um, I do that as well. Yes. I show those as well.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, I was diagnosed as, uh, having borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder. Um, which I was, which was news to me because I was like, um, what? I'm not the good guy though. You know what I mean? Like, and I really like spoken like a true narcissist. Right. So like I never, I never willingly went out.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like I guess during my bad years when I was on drugs, I did mean things to people, but I've always been like trying to help everybody. But I guess, you know, like I, I didn't know there was like other things like the way I am in relationships and the way I deal with like a partner and things like that. So, um, I was shocked, but I was willing to accept it. You know what I mean?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I was like, all right, this is what I am. And then I started kind of accepting this story that, that was being told to me. I was like, Oh, you're, you know, you're borderline. You're a narcissist. These are what they, this is what you do when you're this way. This is what you, you can't be cured. This is who you are.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I mean, and neither does any other narcissist. But the point. Exactly. That's not me. No, I'm the good guy. This is the thing. If your mind and I've told you this before, I've said this to you before. If you're if they have to use a placebo study every time they test a new drug. And the people that have the placebo effect, it's it's actually not that different.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
They're like, well, there was slight slightly elevated in the non placebo group. Right.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Tells you how powerful. I mean, they've done studies where they've had someone work out and then people pretend to work out in their mind. And there's only slight difference in the people who physically did it.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So like I was like this, you know, if I keep telling myself this, it's going to be it's really going to be real. It's going to be ingrained. I started reading books about I was obsessing over it. Then I started noticing the behaviors being my out. You know what I mean? Where I'd be like, well, I'm just a narcissist.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And it was kind of funny and all that stuff until it's not funny because you're having a bad day or you're having like, you know, and then you start like, it's because I'm like this, it's because this is who I am, you know? And then you're treating everyone around you like shit because they're like, oh, hey, can, can you maybe take accountability? And you're like, I don't take accountability.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I'm a narcissist. Like, you know what I mean? Like it becomes a story, you know? Right. So, um, I met this guy, Glenn, who obviously like you, I, you know, introduced you to, to, um, and he does like nervous system, like work on your nervous system and he doesn't believe in any of that shit.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
right and thank god yeah because it's bullshit guys i'm sorry and i don't want to like i know i'll get heat for this because there's so many people are like no it's not a choice and it's not a choice to like have those traumas but i do believe and this is my belief and this is what i learned from him is these are trauma responses and everybody can have a pattern of behaviors from these trauma responses absolutely and i believe that too
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
so and you can you know it's like oh the gray matter the brain is is uh affected if you're a narcissist there's things that can improve gray matter right you can do anything you want you are the master you're the alchemist you could do whatever you want so like will whatever you want manifestation talk about it today so i started going i'm not those things that's a behavior pattern and we started
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So basically he started like training me and reprogramming me and helping me reprogram myself to be like, Hey, um, these are these personalities of defense that are coming out to protect your inner child. It's not you. And because of that, their behaviors, and if they're behaviors, what can you do with behaviors? You can change them.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
It is actually Viking doll dot private. I know Viking doll dot VIP. And the reason it's Viking doll is because Mattel came for me. They sent you like a cease and desist. And then they went and we didn't desist. So they ended up going to OnlyFans and making them shut me down, which is kind of shitty because there's actually somebody on there using my name.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So I'm like, I basically just went into it like, I believe this wholeheartedly. I believe it as hard as I believe those diagnoses.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah, she did not want to go into that dying light. She was just like...
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And that's the thing is like, he even says, you know, he always says it to you. I'm sure it's like you get to keep those parts of yourself. You sometimes it comes in handy to be kind of a bitch, right? You know, those are protecting you in some way. It's when you're being triggered and they're coming out and hijacking you. And that's what happens when you're having a narcissistic injury.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Uh, narcissistic injury. And that's what happens when you're having a borderline episode. Um, you know, it's your system being hijacked, you know, essentially. And, and it also, let me also add that like health and diet and things like that play a huge part into it because it's hard to control your nervous system. If you're eating things, you have inflammation, whatever, but that's another day.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, but yeah, so I mean, after about a year of going through these nervous system, like we would go into my timeline and like find these triggers and like do these meditations and like, I would just cry and it was like these crazy like releases and, And I would feel like a thousand pounds lighter.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And then I started noticing the things that used to trigger me in those areas weren't triggering me so much anymore.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Because I was literally being re-triggered from something that didn't exist anymore. It was old.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. And you're never going to be like super, you know, bunny's never going to be like, Oh, that's not who you are.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Right. And that's, that is power, you know? And that's what I've realized. I've never felt more powerful than now. Like I feel like a fucking badass, right.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
no but i i mean nikki minaj built her whole fucking brand off barbie yeah but she has a deal with them same thing happened to her i found out believe me that was the first thing you know not that i'm on that level to where i should like well nikki minaj you know like she's like bitch yeah um but yeah so i don't know they they definitely came for me for that they came for me with something else uh one of my other like merchandise things so
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
when it like comes up and you're like, you can feel where it's at and you're like, Ooh, what's that? And then it doesn't go here. Right. And then I'm not going like, you're the problem.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like, and that's what would happen. Like when I would have a narcissistic injury, let me just go into that. You know what I mean? Somebody does something that I would perceive as a threat or disrespect or whatever. And it's someone that I'm supposed to love. And my eyes literally go black because I'm not there anymore. I'm completely in the moment of this person's hurting my little guy and
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like, and it's just like a whole, like, I'll look you dead in the eyes and be screaming guttural, you know, like you're nothing, you know, just like insane.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. Like, and there's been a few times where I've done it over something that's so ridiculous. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
It's so short. And Aaron was like, there was one time and he just sat there and looked at me and he was just like, I've never seen someone get so mad over something like this before.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
and i'm just hard because you you feel even if you don't want to think like it has some like attack on you there's some part of you yeah that feels something well when people attack my business right and so that's what i'm like you have you have self-worth about right i mean so i mean there's so many things you can unpack yeah talk shit about me all day don't care can fucking but come for my business i'm like no
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
No, bitch. That's what's taking you out of the out of the gutter, though. Right. It's like, yeah, it's almost like it's like family. You might as well. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
see someone and then they try and someone will try and argue with your fight with you like they used to and they can't yeah because you're just like you have a shield of protection i'm not here anymore like i'm that person's not here anymore yeah um there are some things i still bat you're always you're not a hundred percent healing is a lifetime dedication process this i don't know how people when they're like i'm healed because i'm never going to be healed
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. Well, you're the one thing about healing is you're self-aware now. You know what I mean? So you're able to go, fuck, I can't even act like this anymore because I already know. You know what I mean? So it's kind of one of those things where it's like even Aaron was saying like, hey, you didn't do the dishes like it's your turn. And like I I'm like a little brat.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
right i mean don't tell me what to do and i don't like to do things i don't do chores i don't care if we live in filth you know what i mean like you know who i am bitch i had maggots in the laundry yeah i smoked cat turds yeah so like i get and then he's like hey could you just and he tries to ask me and there's even that little moment where i feel threatened and i feel it happen you know like
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I have that problem with authority too. Yeah. It's like an authority thing. Like, and you feel, and men, I don't like men. This guy's telling me like that. I did something wrong. I'm bad is what I hear.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
When I do merch, I have to like figure out like how to get around that. Just sign Viking or something like that. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
when i don't know i want to be a bridesmaid yeah i was just inviting myself to the wedding actually i want to be the flower girl i always joke with him when he wants to do another life step he's like we should probably get a joint account and i'm like when i get my money right and i've been saying that for years and he's just like fuck you yeah it's like i'm done that's like how jay and i are we fucking he's the same way a life step i love how you said that when we do another life step
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. I mean, and that's the thing is most girls would be jumping to try and lock this one down. Yeah. This dude's like, he's just getting richer. You know what I mean? Like I can't keep up with them. Right. You know, hello. Yeah. I know the feeling.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
That's literally what it's like. And And I, and I'm all for it. Cause then it's like, man, just think of it. You have to be a pretty big, bad motherfucking man to be able to submit us to begin with.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And then also be in your mask and be in that masculine level so much that we're also like kind of putting our feminine, even rich. Right. Like I can't be rich enough. I'm like, he's like, Hey babe, I just said yes. Like two more $20 million deals. I'm like, what? Like how?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
no the you know she's a scary bitch gangster like seriously people i have you know friends that i talk to that aren't there yet and they're just like oh yeah but i still want to do this and i'm like i don't want to play anymore yeah yeah she doesn't she doesn't stop until you do what you're supposed to right and so if you'll get every lesson over and over and over again over and over and you'll have it'll just hit you back to back and people like
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
everything always happens bad to me. And I'm like, that happened to me too. I stopped doing all that stupid shit. And guess what? Yeah. Like now my life is amazing. It really works that way. It's not like some woo woo. You know what I mean? So it's like, and the moment I stepped away and was like, I'm done with this person or I'm done with this situation. And I really did let it go. Everything.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
It was like just abundance, you know, but, and you know, when you're supposed to let something go and they say like, you're supposed to let it go when it feels like you don't want to let it go the most.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Like when you feel like you're holding on so tight, that's when you let it go. And I was like, that's how it was for me with everything that I moved forward and let go of. Yeah. Including my personality traits that I thought were my identity.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
You can apply also to you. Like, remember that? Have you seen that thing where they're talking about a dangerous man is a man that has the ability to inflict devastation but chooses not to? I mean, it's no different for us. Yeah, absolutely.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I've been, I've been throwing pennies in that wishing well many times, but at the, at this point I'm like, I don't wish a bitch would because I know who I am. I know what I'm capable of and I don't want to do it. I don't want to be there. So I send everything out the way it is. And if the universe wants to send me somebody who want to play,
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Preferably some Eastern European ones with large breasts. I would love to mentor those.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um she loves them but i do like i love women in general and i think i've always been protective of women you are you're a good friend i i feel like that's one thing that i've always there's been moments i haven't been a good friend so i'm not gonna say because we all do that at times but i do believe that like these days it's kind of hard to beat
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I mean, like, yeah, I'm there for people. I don't always I'm not always calling you. I'm not the one who's going to be there all the time. Right. But I'm the one that if you need me, that's the person to call. And I think that's where it counts. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, well, I want to start getting creative again. Um, you know, I, I just want to get back into like my creativity. I did like a whole like astrology reading where we talked about my human design and like I'm very sacral and that's where creativity is and I haven't felt as creative during this whole healing process.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So I'm trying to like tap into that and meditate to like, come on, bring me the idea. Get me back into idea mode because I'm such like an idea guy, you know? Um, and I have been getting them again and I just have to jump on them when I get them. Cause sometimes I'm like, Oh, is that the one I was supposed to take?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
You know, because sometimes when you heal, the thing they don't tell you about healing is is how little you're going to give a fuck about other shit that you thought mattered. So like the money, the obsessively trying to be better than everybody because you think you have to.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Let's go. Well, you know, I've risen from the ashes multiple times, I guess, because, you know, you think you're like done, but it always kind of like comes back around and you're just like, it never ends. You know, we obviously know that. Um, I was born in Texas, uh, San Antonio, Texas, which actually just got a house over there too.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So I really need to find the desire to be creative and to do things because I love it and not from trauma. And I think a lot of us girls who've done really well in this world, it's a lot of trauma-based girls who are just go, go, go, go, go.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you know what i mean absolutely i don't want to be unhappy i don't care how much money i have i'm just over it i love it though i love what you're doing so you want to get more creative what about music I'm definitely going to be going. I just did a song with Savannah Dexter. I just have to get everything.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
It needs to go to TikTok. Well, we're going to do a video at the same time for both our songs. So that's why I'm putting this one out. So we can do that. Even though she was like, oh, my God, this song's a little racy.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. But I mean, I just want to get back into it. And I think everything will just kind of flow. I know that Bury Yourself got, you know, it got pretty big. It went viral on TikTok. Yeah, it went viral like a few times.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I think it's VikingDoll.VIP. Yeah. And then my other account is VikingBarbie.com. That's nudies.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um i've got a youtube viking barbie music and um my instagram is viking.barbie so tell leave me alone yeah so they haven't came for you for the name on instagram on instagram because technically i'm not monetizing the name gotcha so you're allowed to use a handle but once you start monetizing it that's why they came for my my only fans but i feel like there's something i could do and this is the level like can i change my name to viking barbie
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
TikTok, I think, is viking.barbie too. Yes. I don't know what to think.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
There's a lot of fakes on there. Go to my verified accounts. Yeah. Yeah. What was the other thing you asked?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, my mom was a stripper and, uh, my dad was like, he was a bodybuilder, but he was like, uh, I want to say career criminal as well. You know, he, I kind of, I guess I've described the story before, but, um, he did, you know, a lot of wild things. My mom helped and then, um, accomplices. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. Yeah. I was actually when I came down that time, I was going through the worst depression I'd ever had. Yeah. I was like crying every five minutes.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And I think she, well, she had me around 19. So, you know, it was like a pretty young, you know, wild family. And I got older. We moved around a lot. They kind of split up because he was dealing with some stuff with like the mob and she didn't want me to be involved with that.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Basically what had happened was the CIA or whoever was dealing with the case came and she heard him say like, oh, they better not come looking for me because they might find me. And like it was when he was like supposed to get on the stand for some stuff. And my mom was like, yeah, we're going to go. This is my exit. Yeah. So we left for a while and then I went to go stay at some family's house.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And then my dad came and got me. We moved to California and my mom was gone for a while. And then she came back and my dad started doing movies. So he ended up being in like Batman and Robin, Bulletproof. Okay.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. He was Bane and Batman and Robin the, um, one with all the veins. Um, yeah. So that was pretty cool experience. Um, And yeah, where was I?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. And then and then he passed away around the time I was around 12. I want actually I want to say like 11. And then my mom and I ended up moving to the valley and she remarried. And then she like stuff happened with that. She married again. So there's like two relationships. And then I ended up at around 17, like running away from home. And, um, when did the drug addiction start?
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um yeah because i'm like a sensitive hoe now you know with all this stuff yeah we're gonna talk about all that because we're both on healing journeys and lord help us yeah it's like how am i supposed to like um mask up you know what i mean and like you just berate him yeah arcade through this yeah um so yeah i uh where was i dad passed away at 11. Yeah. So my mom ended up remarrying a few times.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I ran away from home, which I think that happened with you too. Um, I was like 17.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Yeah. Like definitely like in symbiosis and like a lot of ways, even, even the relationship we have, which is kind of weird to me, the same age difference, the same kid, the same, like it's just like a very interesting thing. Um, Um, so yeah, I basically, um, ran away. I was with some boy, you know, cause that's all that I wanted to do was live in a romance novel. Me too. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
So boys were always my fucking weakness. Yeah. I mean, I wish I would have banged around a little bit. Um, just saying, I was thinking about that. I'm like,
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
and I could have banged some beautiful ones and then I was just like in one for eight years you know and no offense to him but you know he was cute at 18 or 19 but you know they get old long in the tooth long in the tooth I hate it some of the dudes I like back out I'm like how are you so bald now like it's just so crazy what happened yeah no he doesn't see this I feel bad
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um but yeah we were basically like using partners um but like just like it was fun at first you guys were using what using partners because like we were we kind of met in like this I was in a relationship that was normal we met he took me away from that relationship we ran away we were doing a bunch of coke um we were staying in like seedy motels I was stripping with a fake ID um which I was kind of doing that but when I was like I want to say the first time I stripped was like at 15 um
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, so like it was kind of that kind of relationship and it was all a blast. Like it was really fun in the beginning.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, yeah. So we, I mean, it was fun and then it was fun until it wasn't fun. And usually that, I mean, it was really when the opiates came in that it wasn't fun anymore because how old was that? I was, I want to say I started doing them around 19. Um, and it was still kind of fun.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
And then because I was doing like painkillers, you know, and like Lord nerves.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
But I started like, then I started kind of like slanging from my house instead of going to the strip club and dancing. And I had someone doing like being a runner for me.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
and uh she would come and like drop it off and pick it up and like literally have pictures of me naked in my bed just sitting there like a godfather with my coke bags like just waiting like i just got super lazy you know like all i did was sit in bed drink take pills do coke eat it was fucking fun but
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
I mean, you, that's the thing. I just became like this, like shut in. You know what I mean? Because I didn't really want to leave. I just wanted to be high. It was pretty awesome.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
yeah um and and but then it's like over time you just kind of start everything erodes you know like the relationships erode the you know and then this relationship that was so great he starts stealing coke from you secretively and like i and then you're like wait a minute like i thought i could trust this person and there's all kinds of other weird shit that happened that i won't put him on blast for um please do unfortunately i've only been with like three dudes in my whole life so everyone be like oh that's that one you know yeah he's like remarried
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, his new wife's watching this. Right. She's like, honey, I never knew. Yeah. Oh, she knows. I bet. Um, but yeah, never. Um, yeah. So it's just, um, it, it got like really like crazy, you know? And like, there's just the strip club lifestyle and stuff like that. Um, I started dancing at parties that was like, that made it even easier for me not to have to like work too hard.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
You know what I mean? So it's like, I go a couple hours a week and I make a couple thousand dollars and And like, I was not a hustler. Like I'm a hustler now when I got sober, but like, I know you were a hustler, bitch. I was not a hustler. I was with drugs. Like I would do what I had to do to get high and I would sell them. Maintain your lifestyle. Yeah.
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
hey you want to dance oh no all right I would make a hundred dollars bitch like at the club like it was bad and I was only like 19 like there was a problem right but once I started dancing it was like they were at my um you know at my will you know it's like I'm the only stripper you got you better pay me right it worked out really well because I didn't have to hustle
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
Um, but yeah, so that, that all transpired. And then, um, then I met a girl, we ended up, you know, hitting it off. I was like dating a girl while I was with this guy and she was a heroin addict and I ended up being sick one time and I just had to like,
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
um not be sick and she was like oh I don't want to give you how many pills were you taking a day the first round I was taking 40 pills a day but god um norcos and then doing like probably about a gram of coke a day um but I got clean and then I went and relapsed again wow and then I was doing less
Dumb Blonde
TBT: Viking Barbie
you're not gonna take this kind of thing and um i was like yeah like just hook it up like i gotta go to work um give me a hit like one hit and i'll fucking go and she ended up like i end up talking her into it and you i i don't believe that talking her into that yeah and she still feels bad about it but um you know that's a whole nother thing we ended up breaking up over like a lot of