Tyler Rutherford

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

What's up? My name's Tyler. I've made a goal with myself to post on TikTok as much as I can.

What's up? My name's Tyler. I've made a goal with myself to post on TikTok as much as I can.

I want to build a community for men out there, especially men like me out there. I've had a very traumatic life and went through some crazy things. And ever since then, I felt kind of lost. And I know many men out there that have went through the same thing can feel that exact same feeling.

I want to build a community for men out there, especially men like me out there. I've had a very traumatic life and went through some crazy things. And ever since then, I felt kind of lost. And I know many men out there that have went through the same thing can feel that exact same feeling.

Even if you haven't been through that exact traumatic experience or been sexually assaulted, I want to reach out to men and make a change in the men's space. Let's push this. Let's build an awesome community together, guys. Let's do this.

Even if you haven't been through that exact traumatic experience or been sexually assaulted, I want to reach out to men and make a change in the men's space. Let's push this. Let's build an awesome community together, guys. Let's do this.

It's crazy. I expected a little bit, not maybe quite as much as I've gotten. And it's heartwarming to read. I know that I achieved what I wanted to with the podcast when I get something like that, just to help someone else.

It's crazy. I expected a little bit, not maybe quite as much as I've gotten. And it's heartwarming to read. I know that I achieved what I wanted to with the podcast when I get something like that, just to help someone else.

I think about it all the time, like my plan to just never say anything, because that's what was going to happen, and I was doing pretty damn good at it for quite a while.

I think about it all the time, like my plan to just never say anything, because that's what was going to happen, and I was doing pretty damn good at it for quite a while.

It was one of the worst feelings to get it forced out of me, but now I'm so happy I did because I know how bad I feel sometimes. And I can't imagine how crazy my mind would be trying to process all this at 52. I still feel the pain of holding it in for seven, eight years, however long, letting it out at 16. And that's young. I'm still a kid.

It was one of the worst feelings to get it forced out of me, but now I'm so happy I did because I know how bad I feel sometimes. And I can't imagine how crazy my mind would be trying to process all this at 52. I still feel the pain of holding it in for seven, eight years, however long, letting it out at 16. And that's young. I'm still a kid.

Compared to these guys holding in 60 years, I can't imagine, no.

Compared to these guys holding in 60 years, I can't imagine, no.

The gym is a great release from everyday stress, a release from life. In the last few years, I honestly have felt kind of lost and I just feel like I'm always scrambling to find myself. And the one place where I feel like I can really find myself is in the gym. The gym is my safe space and where I go to feel safe.

The gym is a great release from everyday stress, a release from life. In the last few years, I honestly have felt kind of lost and I just feel like I'm always scrambling to find myself. And the one place where I feel like I can really find myself is in the gym. The gym is my safe space and where I go to feel safe.

I just recently pulled the trigger on a personal trainer certification just because fitness is my one passion, I'd say. And I just love to make money off of it. Hopefully I'll be finishing that soon and can get a job as a personal trainer.

I just recently pulled the trigger on a personal trainer certification just because fitness is my one passion, I'd say. And I just love to make money off of it. Hopefully I'll be finishing that soon and can get a job as a personal trainer.

I'm not surprised, honestly, but I mean, all prisoners are gonna do that. He can continue to try. Ain't shit gonna work. I mean, I really don't see anything happening. Worst comes to worst, he wins some sort of appeal and I have to go to trial. And now that I'm older and I've grown to balls to talk out to millions about my story, he's really screwed himself at this point.

I'm not surprised, honestly, but I mean, all prisoners are gonna do that. He can continue to try. Ain't shit gonna work. I mean, I really don't see anything happening. Worst comes to worst, he wins some sort of appeal and I have to go to trial. And now that I'm older and I've grown to balls to talk out to millions about my story, he's really screwed himself at this point.

And I think if we go to trial, I'm just going to put him away for even longer. So I'm not worried about any of that, really. He can keep trying.

And I think if we go to trial, I'm just going to put him away for even longer. So I'm not worried about any of that, really. He can keep trying.

I was talking to my mom last night about his computer. And I was like, I wonder what ever happened to his computer.

I was talking to my mom last night about his computer. And I was like, I wonder what ever happened to his computer.

She was like, oh, they got into it a few months ago. And I was like, you mean to tell me our government... It took them three years to get into his computer. I was like, that there alone just tells me the potential he wasted. The fact that you were smart enough to crack down a computer so hard, our own fucking government could not get into it for three years. How did he do that?

She was like, oh, they got into it a few months ago. And I was like, you mean to tell me our government... It took them three years to get into his computer. I was like, that there alone just tells me the potential he wasted. The fact that you were smart enough to crack down a computer so hard, our own fucking government could not get into it for three years. How did he do that?

The fact that you did that and then put yourself in jail? I mean, I think we would have been one of the richest families in the world if he would have not touched me. Like, if he could have just not been a pedophile, we would have been so successful. I tell mom all the time, he really fucked shit up. Smartest person I know, I'll still say it to this day. By far. I'm not saying in all senses.

The fact that you did that and then put yourself in jail? I mean, I think we would have been one of the richest families in the world if he would have not touched me. Like, if he could have just not been a pedophile, we would have been so successful. I tell mom all the time, he really fucked shit up. Smartest person I know, I'll still say it to this day. By far. I'm not saying in all senses.

Don't think I'm putting him on a high horse. I'm just saying with as much as he did, I can still admit he was pretty damn smart.

Don't think I'm putting him on a high horse. I'm just saying with as much as he did, I can still admit he was pretty damn smart.

I want people to know I'm not... I'm not down in the dumps, but I'm also not perfect. I'm not at the end of my road. I'm still probably not even 75% of the way down. I'm probably around the middle, I'd say. I'm probably around there. I don't know. It's hell a lot of the time. It really is. I mean, I wake up and I feel like shit immediately. I just know the right things to do to stop that now.

I want people to know I'm not... I'm not down in the dumps, but I'm also not perfect. I'm not at the end of my road. I'm still probably not even 75% of the way down. I'm probably around the middle, I'd say. I'm probably around there. I don't know. It's hell a lot of the time. It really is. I mean, I wake up and I feel like shit immediately. I just know the right things to do to stop that now.

I just got to get there. I just want people to know that I'm not perfect. And anyone else out there that's going through some similar stuff, you just... Just got to keep working on it. I mean, I know it sucks. It really does. I'd love to not have to constantly work on myself and just not have this trauma and be quote unquote normal. But it's part of life and you just got to deal with it.

I just got to get there. I just want people to know that I'm not perfect. And anyone else out there that's going through some similar stuff, you just... Just got to keep working on it. I mean, I know it sucks. It really does. I'd love to not have to constantly work on myself and just not have this trauma and be quote unquote normal. But it's part of life and you just got to deal with it.

So you got to work hard to be happy.

So you got to work hard to be happy.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

What's up? My name's Tyler. I've made a goal with myself to post on TikTok as much as I can.

I want to build a community for men out there, especially men like me out there. I've had a very traumatic life and went through some crazy things. And ever since then, I felt kind of lost. And I know many men out there that have went through the same thing can feel that exact same feeling.

Even if you haven't been through that exact traumatic experience or been sexually assaulted, I want to reach out to men and make a change in the men's space. Let's push this. Let's build an awesome community together, guys. Let's do this.

It's crazy. I expected a little bit, not maybe quite as much as I've gotten. And it's heartwarming to read. I know that I achieved what I wanted to with the podcast when I get something like that, just to help someone else.

I think about it all the time, like my plan to just never say anything, because that's what was going to happen, and I was doing pretty damn good at it for quite a while.

It was one of the worst feelings to get it forced out of me, but now I'm so happy I did because I know how bad I feel sometimes. And I can't imagine how crazy my mind would be trying to process all this at 52. I still feel the pain of holding it in for seven, eight years, however long, letting it out at 16. And that's young. I'm still a kid.

Compared to these guys holding in 60 years, I can't imagine, no.

The gym is a great release from everyday stress, a release from life. In the last few years, I honestly have felt kind of lost and I just feel like I'm always scrambling to find myself. And the one place where I feel like I can really find myself is in the gym. The gym is my safe space and where I go to feel safe.

I just recently pulled the trigger on a personal trainer certification just because fitness is my one passion, I'd say. And I just love to make money off of it. Hopefully I'll be finishing that soon and can get a job as a personal trainer.

I'm not surprised, honestly, but I mean, all prisoners are gonna do that. He can continue to try. Ain't shit gonna work. I mean, I really don't see anything happening. Worst comes to worst, he wins some sort of appeal and I have to go to trial. And now that I'm older and I've grown to balls to talk out to millions about my story, he's really screwed himself at this point.

And I think if we go to trial, I'm just going to put him away for even longer. So I'm not worried about any of that, really. He can keep trying.

I was talking to my mom last night about his computer. And I was like, I wonder what ever happened to his computer.

She was like, oh, they got into it a few months ago. And I was like, you mean to tell me our government... It took them three years to get into his computer. I was like, that there alone just tells me the potential he wasted. The fact that you were smart enough to crack down a computer so hard, our own fucking government could not get into it for three years. How did he do that?

The fact that you did that and then put yourself in jail? I mean, I think we would have been one of the richest families in the world if he would have not touched me. Like, if he could have just not been a pedophile, we would have been so successful. I tell mom all the time, he really fucked shit up. Smartest person I know, I'll still say it to this day. By far. I'm not saying in all senses.

Don't think I'm putting him on a high horse. I'm just saying with as much as he did, I can still admit he was pretty damn smart.

I want people to know I'm not... I'm not down in the dumps, but I'm also not perfect. I'm not at the end of my road. I'm still probably not even 75% of the way down. I'm probably around the middle, I'd say. I'm probably around there. I don't know. It's hell a lot of the time. It really is. I mean, I wake up and I feel like shit immediately. I just know the right things to do to stop that now.

I just got to get there. I just want people to know that I'm not perfect. And anyone else out there that's going through some similar stuff, you just... Just got to keep working on it. I mean, I know it sucks. It really does. I'd love to not have to constantly work on myself and just not have this trauma and be quote unquote normal. But it's part of life and you just got to deal with it.

So you got to work hard to be happy.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.

At the end of the day, I'm literally a son of a killer.