Teddy Atlas
Appearances
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, like that's weird.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It made me realize that some of the deals I used to make for God weren't realistic. When I was a kid, I used to make deals for God. Let me die before my father.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And then you get older, you have kids, you're blessed.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Why did you make that deal? You know what I mean?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Thank you for not taking me up on it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah. Thanks.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah. You know? Yeah. You miss him? I miss him in moments when I'd like to know what to do. And I remember when I would drive with him on the house calls, he didn't listen to music. He was a guy, he read books to his, when he got older, he read books till blood vessels broke in his eyes. He only read nonfiction books. Science, he loved science. Wars, generals.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I mean, I cheated on a couple book reports because I didn't do the reading of the book the night before. I had a freaking book report to put in that. I got a book report to do on the War of Stalingrad. Really, the War of Stalingrad. And who the freak could... Tell you where you get an A. I got an A. Yeah. I just wrote what he told me. He told me generals. He told me times. He told me strategy.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He told me about the winter that came and destroyed the Germans. Yeah. And the Soviets were tougher. You got an A. And the Soviets were tougher than the Germans. And the Germans picked on the wrong opponent.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I was already in the boxing business. I didn't even know it. I didn't even know it. Matchmaking, very important. They mismatched. They made a mistake with picking the opponent. And so when we would be driving in the car, my father would be in a trance. And Dad... He wasn't ignoring me at all. He was just with his thoughts. He was wherever. He wasn't even hearing the radio no more.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I always wondered where he was. I did. So I asked him one day and just, so we're driving. I said, I want to know. So I said, dad, what do you think when you're basically in this place that I know you're somewhere? What do you, what do you, where are you? What do you see? I actually said, what do you see? And he said to me, I see what could be. I see what could be. And I'm like, oh, All right.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
When it saved me.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I was a stupid, violent kid that was angry. Not exactly know why I was angry. I'd fit in real good in today's society because there's a lot of angry kids out there that I don't think they know why they're angry. I was just out there getting in fights, and I got this stupid thing from that.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I was just running around doing stupid things, bad things. I hurt people, some people physically, but I hurt my family. You know, that's BS. You only hurt yourself. That's a good way of alibying it. But at some point, the truth usually finds its way. I'd like it to look like I was just hurting myself, but it wasn't, obviously.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So I was just out on the streets with kids that didn't grow up in the neighborhood I grew up. I grew up in a neighborhood where a father was a doctor. And I walked down the street. The funny thing was down the hill was a very tough neighborhood called Stapleton. And most of the people down there on the corners wished they could get up the hill. And I wished I could get down the hill.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So I went down the hill. And I hung out with all these friends that became lifelong friends. And I gravitated to that because I figured out later a little bit, but I wanted family. We were disjointed family. My father was a doctor. He didn't have time for nothing but being a doctor. I think when you're great at something, you sacrifice something too. When you're really great at something.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So great that maybe God made you great and you're too great for your own good. And I don't know, it took me to these stupid, dangerous places. Dangerous for me, but dangerous for other people too, because I got to the point where I was doing robberies on the street. I was fighting everybody. And you know what the most dangerous part about it was?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I came to this realization on my own, all by myself. I figured out, I was really, as they, you know, these kids from the project, some of them, they got nothing. First of all, I learned, you don't have to be poor to be poor. You don't have to be deprived of certain things to be deprived. Because at least to think you're deprived.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I was poor in a way that I didn't have the only thing I wanted to have, him. So here I am where... I'm out there doing these things, and what made me more, I was more dangerous than some of these psychopaths. Well, I was a psychopath too, I guess, the way I was behaving. But some of these psychopaths that really had nothing, you know, really would, you know, they obviously would kill you.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I was dangerous almost in the same way, but for a different reason. I know it's ridiculous what I'm about to tell you, but I figured it out. because I felt it. I thought I was on a righteous path. I thought I had a right. Because it was gonna get me my father back. Why? Why? I mean, you're a scientist, you couldn't figure this one out.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because all the people that had him were injured people, fractured people, screwed up people in some ways, but hurt, damaged people. So if I get damaged, I'll get them. So I was on a crusade, really, a righteous crusade where I thought it was okay. I had permission. I had permission to do these terrible things, quite frankly, and to fight everyone.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And then it came almost to a crash, doing all that, winding up in Rikers Island like an idiot. Not understanding the damage I did to this poor man that, you know, he was a great doctor, and he's got to see his son and hear about, you know what I mean? Like, God.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I was out on that day, you know, with the guys that I grew up with now, you know, the guys from the projects, as I described, and I was with one of them who, he's dead now. So I was with him, and we were...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
we, we were in a neighborhood, the neighborhood we grew up, that I hung out in, and they, and he grew up in, Billy, he came from the, from the project, and we got into a thing where we cut, somebody cuts off, we cut them off, you know, jumped out to fight, and, um, you know, it turned out there's like five or six of them, and two of us, and, um,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know, we fought, you know, right on the side, right there. Only about a block from where I used to hang out. And maybe a block and a half. And right in front of like a Spanish bodega. And it really does happen in slow motion. I actually saw the guy. I was fighting the guys that I had to fight. And then all of a sudden, I was able to get one guy out of the way a little bit.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And, um, I really, I noticed the guy go into his pocket and, um, I knew why he was going in his pocket, you know? And, um, When he came out of his pocket, I knew what it was right away. It was weird because in the neighborhood, guys used to hang out. They were into this, you know, they get into fads like right on the streets.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And they went to, at that time, they went to this cheap knife, but it was, they thought it was, well, we thought it was cool. It was a 007. And the cool thing, whatever, was that you could flick it. You can learn, and I learned how to flick, you know, but I never carried a knife. But when my friends would have it, I would just, you learn how you could flick it open.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Not a switchblade, but flick it with your wrist. And I was like, here I am in the middle of this freaking fight, and all of a sudden, oh, it's a 007, you know? And so I'm like, you got to make a decision, you know? And... I got a split. I could either not do nothing, which didn't seem like a great option. I couldn't run away. Why not?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because you gotta live with yourself afterwards and that's more difficult to live with than whatever it is at that second because that don't go away.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It just don't go away. That thing, nothing to do with being brave.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Nothing to do with being brave, really. It's got to do with just common sense in life. For me, whatever you deal with, it's done. Okay, deal with it. Go to bed, whatever. But you do that, that other thing, you're gone. That never ends. This thing ends.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
The only thing I had at that point in my life, in my stupid mind, was a reputation that I would stand up to certain things. That was like, and that for me was worth something, whatever, because I didn't feel any worth to anything else. That was the only thing I felt a connection of worth to, so. So stood your ground. So I say, no, I made a decision. Yes.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I stood my ground, but I actually, things do slow down. They do. And I actually said, it's a double seven. He's got to flick it. But he's got to flick it. I get a split second. Either, like I said, either I do nothing, whatever, or I get to him before he gets it flicked. I went to get to him before he got flicked. And just as I... Got close to him. I did him a favor.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I walked right into a counterpunch. Because I cooperated with him. I went right to him. And just as I, he practiced more than I did with the 007, apparently. Because he was like, boom, boom, boom, boom. And anyway. Anyway.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah. Well, not immediately. It took me a minute. I'm a slow learner. I put my hand up. Right, wouldn't you? I guess so. And it went into my face. And that was it. It was gooey. It was warm and gooey. And I was like... I don't know what this means, but I don't want to know. But I think I know.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
No, you know what I thought about him was... You don't know who anyone is until they're tested. And I learned that. Cus used to tell me, but I learned it. He used to say, I remember one time Cus, I was a 17, 18-year-old kid up there, and, you know, thought I was whatever I thought I was.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
and he said you got a lot of friends and um i said yeah because you know i was on the street hanging out with 100 kids at night sometimes on the street corner so i was like i don't know too many people that hung out with 100 kids on the street on the corner on a friday saturday night and um i was like yeah i got a lot of friends he goes really yeah really he said um
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
How about if I told you you might not have any? Most likely you don't have any. And he goes, and then he just started this thing. He said, everyone's got to be tested. You, me, everyone. Because you don't know about nobody until they're tested. He goes, you know nothing. He goes, you know nothing until you know, until something happens to test if they were really a friend.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And then he told me this story about a guy, a guy came to him and he was upset. What are you upset about? He goes, I'm upset because I just lost a friend. You know, after 20 years of friendship, we're not friends no more. So Coach looks at him and he goes, Let me ask you a question. What made you think you were ever friends with him? Now the guy gets insulted. He goes, did you hear me?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He goes, I just told you, 20 years I've been friends with this guy. Why would you say that to me? He said, well, I'll say it again. What makes you think he was your friend? He goes...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Whatever happened in the 20 years other than chasing girls, because I figured that one out fast, chasing girls and drinking together and whatever else you're doing out on the street, whatever gave you the inclination that, He was a friend. He goes, when did he risk himself to be your friend? When was it dangerous to be your friend? When was it uncomfortable to be your friend?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And you know what the guy said? You can figure it out. You're a scientist. He said, today. And today came for me. And today, today, today, today kept coming for me. Today. And that day, my friend Billy had turned out while I was fighting these, whatever, five, six guys. And where was Billy? He was on the roof. He was on the roof. He was on the roof. He was my best friend. And...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So anyway, they take me to the hospital, and here's the thing with my father. But one thing Billy did do for me when he got off the roof, thank God, he dragged me into this bodega, laid me on the floor, and started putting towels And the towels, I vaguely remember this, they filled up with blood. I mean, completely drenched, like you put them under a shower.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I heard the bodega owners screaming, screaming, like, whatever. And everyone's screaming and there's chaos. And I'm like, I don't know, I'm calm. Weird. I'm like real calm. And I'm just in this place Everything's calm. And all of a sudden, I hear Billy, he's screaming, call the ambulance, call the ambulance. And nobody's doing nothing. Everyone's frozen. I'm starting to understand already.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
People get frozen in situations. People, the fear, fear, fear, fear, fear. It's just... paralyzes people. And I was going into a fear business. I was learning. I was learning. I was getting a learning, early PhD.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he... Fear. Yeah.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And all of a sudden, genius. Billy, genius. Really. Street kid. He jumps up on a freaking counter, jumps over the counter, grabs the phone, calls 911, says a cop's been shot. And forget about it. It was crazy. All I remember after that, I'll tell you a couple of things I remember. Lights being put onto a stretcher, bounced around, rushed. I felt everyone's anxiety, except mine.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I had none, but I felt everyone's anxiety, everyone's fear. It was all around me. It was like, oh, this is interesting. I know that's stupid, but like, well, this is interesting.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You really have an eye for fear. That's fascinating. You're really studying it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Well, I had no choice. I got introduced in a crash course. And they put me in the ambulance. And this is what I remember, to your point. I'm sorry it took so long to get to it. I am. Although I'll probably do it again before this conversation's over. It's all about the journey. Yeah. We'll get there. We'll get there, pops. So I hear the cops say, we might lose him. And I'm like laughing to myself.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I'm not laughing because I'm not, again, I'm not John Wayne. John Wayne would have laughed. But I'm like, lose. You guys are stupid. You know, I didn't say that. But I'm like, lose me. My father's the greatest doctor in the freaking world. There's nothing to worry about. You people are all uptight and whacked out here with fear. Yeah. And there's nothing to worry about. Dr. Atlas is my father.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So anyway, so they're taking me to the, and they said, we don't have time. I hear a couple of things I remember. Don't have time. Take them to, and they take me to U.S. Public Health Hospital. Marina Hospital was called at the time, but U.S. Public Health. And it's in Stapleton, so it's close. Thank God.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So they're taking me, and I hear them on the radio, you know, saying this stuff about we got to move, we got to move. And I start talking. And they're telling me don't talk. But I like to talk a lot, you know? And so, again, fear. There's no fear when the fear's been removed. It's the only time you're really free in life. And I know that sounds absurd, but really, it is.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It's the only time you're really free in life. I was... Close to death? When you're devoid of things that normally hold you back, that normally influence you in ways that are... Not of the influence that always positive influence, where you're in a pure place, where you're in a purely free place from all inhibitions, from fear, from anxiety, from joy. Joy can screw you up.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And you're free from all these things. And I'm in this place.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, I'm like, I said, just get me Dr. Atlas. And they say, we don't have time. No, no, no, no, no. You don't, you have to get Dr. Atlas. You have to get him. This was the, damn it, this was the, you know what I mean? I finally freaking hit the number and I'm not getting paid. And then all of a sudden, I'm out. How many stitches?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Well, I think it was 400, 200 inside, 200 outside, or whatever it was. That's a lot. And look, I have to, I have to, After 50, the number doesn't matter no more. I don't know, whatever, 60, 70, 80, 90, whatever. So I was fortunate. I was fortunate. And, of course, I was fortunate they told me afterwards I'd missed my jug literally by like a centimeter. I mean, whatever.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And so then we wouldn't be having this conversation, obviously. i'm glad you made it yeah i'm kind of glad too and and it just missed my eye which thank god it's bad enough i have a scar match me with a patch i mean i mean it's enough that i got this freaking thing and um and look it goes all the way you know i mean it's you know it's it's pretty long and um
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I don't know, I was out and then somehow I sensed like they had the curtain closed, you know? And it's amazing how vivid this is. And the curtain's closed and I see a shadow. I felt a presence. I did. And I felt him. He's a powerful guy. And I felt him. And I just see like a shadow, you know? And all of a sudden the curtain gets pushed back. And I can't really see, it's dark and I'm out of it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But not completely out of it. And pushes the curtain back, comes in, and his hand, even though it's all bandaged, you know, whatever, but his hand surveys It felt safe. It felt warm and safe. I was happy. He got there.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah. Remember, I gave you a little bit of introduction to my father. You know him now a little bit, right? Yeah.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
What did he say about the job?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He just said, this is what he said. I remember to this day what he said. That I do remember. I don't know if it was six or five people, but this I do remember.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He said, they did a good job. You're going to have a scar the rest of your life. And he left.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He gave me a quote and he drilled into my head. I became his guy, you know. He loved me. I loved him. He said to me, Teddy, no matter what a man says, it's what he does in the end that he intended to do all along. That's what I learned from Cuss. The rest of it is BS. And, um,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
A lot of people say things. You just have to give them a minute to let them show you eventually what they really meant by it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I also learned from him that everyone's afraid.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because it's a way of saying, another great saying, you'll get a kick out of this. Anyone who's in a situation where fear should be prevalent, where fear is actually necessary to survive the situation, anyone who says that they're not afraid, they're one of two things. They're either a liar or they should go to a doctor, find out what the freak's wrong with them. He was right about that.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know, we live in a taboo society where that word to a certain extent is taboo because it invokes weakness. You know, we are just layers of what we saw and learned since we were kids. We all are. We're products of those layers. I learned that on my own through some help. At the end of the day, you know, fear... People will find their way of avoiding that term. So they use the word anxiety.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
They use the word, you know, butterflies, apprehension, you know, a million different words. I find all those other words to be cousins of fear. And fear... Fear causes a lot of things in life. It causes a lot of problems. And it also solves a lot of problems. Without it, we couldn't be great.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
If we are great, if we ever have a chance to be great, or at least to aspire to be great.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, you couldn't be great without fear because fear allows you to be great. Brave. The most important word for me in this whole conversation, right, neighborhood, would be selfishness. It allows you to be, for a moment, less selfish. One of the things I learned, I guess, partly on my own, everyone thinks my greatest teacher was Cuss. He was a great teacher, mentor.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
My greatest teacher was my father, the one who never talked. And I realized one of the things to be better towards great is if you can submit less than we submit. See, one of the things that I'm afraid of, one of the things I was always quitting in my business, it's kind of not a good thing.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, it hurts more.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, in the moment. You're right, 100%, because something's hurt for a long time afterwards. And something like regret. Regret is the worst thing in the world because it's a solitary sentence.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know, it wasn't easy to accumulate them. It was a little bit hurtful. But so submit less because we submit every day. And if we can get to a place where we submit or compromise ourselves less.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
we'll get to a better place you know again one of the one of the words for me that attaches to things that give you that wind up hurting you in life and have hurt me in life uh one of those boogeyman words is the word of convenience that's attached to everything you know people people
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
disappoint you not because they want to disappoint you or let you down or betray you because they want to betray you. They do it because it's more convenient to do than the other thing. An old man once told me, he said to me, I was trying to rationalize something. I was trying to make an excuse for something. I was trying to make myself better than I was. I was trying to say it was okay.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he just looked at me, and he liked me. And he said, Teddy, there ain't no such thing as being a little pregnant. Because either you're pregnant or you're not pregnant. Either you're real or you're not real. Either you're truthful or you're not truthful. Either you're tough or you're not tough. Either you're committed or you're not committed. Either you're in or you're out.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
That applies to a lot of things, including loyalty.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
That's quite a statement. But the lifeblood of humanity for me is loyalty. It's what goes through the veins. Everything has to have some veins in some form. And if humanity has veins, what runs through the veins of humanity instead of blood to keep it alive is loyalty. Without loyalty, we're dead. We're vessels. I never understood what a ghost ship was. You know what?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
As I got older, I know what a ghost ship is. It's people. It's people that are empty. They got no loyalty. Therefore, they got no humanity. Therefore, they got nothing. Therefore, freak them. Freak them. And you know why they don't have loyalty? Convenience. And you know why? Because it's hard to be loyal. It's actually hard. Mm-hmm. I'll be a son of a gun.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You're telling me, yeah, it sounds great. Give it to me. Give it to me. Paint me with it. It's great. Yeah, I'm loyal. Yeah, this is good. I'm ready. I'm on that team. I'm ready. Put me in, coach. I'm ready. Okay, now you're going to have to get hurt here. What do you mean get hurt? Oh, it's going to be painful.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I mean, to be loyal, you know, you're going to be in danger because the person that you committed your loyalty to for a reason, because obviously you did something in your life, whatever, whatever, you're actually going to get hurt to be loyal to them. You're actually going to—hold on a minute. Wait, hold on a minute, Coach. Hold on. Call time out of here. Let me think about this, coach.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I might need more practice. I'm not ready for the game. I'm not ready to go in the game yet. Give me a little more practice, coach. And it hurts to be loyal. It freaking hurts. But without loyalty, we're... We're ghost ships. We got no strength. We got nothing. We got nothing. We got nothing.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I guess it was the second time in my life I felt betrayed. The first time was when I was whatever, young, 17, and I got arrested. I was with all these older guys, tough guys, whatever, supposedly. And the detectives separated us. That's what they do. And they asked me who did whatever, who's gunned, this, that, all that, the particulars of obviously what we did. And it was me.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And they said, you sure? You don't want to change that? Because your friends changed it. And these cops, they were nasty, but they were cops. The way, you know, you're going to wind up in Rikers and they're going to be doing this to you. And I won't even say the things because then why say them, you know? Figure it out.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But, you know, they're trying to get what they're trying to get and, you know, you want to change it? And no. No. But I felt very betrayed, you know? And especially when I was standing in the cell at Rikers looking at the airplanes leave LaGuardia Airport and then hoping I was on one. I was making like a deal with God that let me be on one of those planes and let it crash. I'd take a shot.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
No, because I didn't understand what proud was. I didn't understand nothing. I just understood that... Rules are rules.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I didn't even know there was an option. I didn't think... I know the cops said you could do this, but there was no option. My father never had an option, but the betrayal, the private betrayal was like... And so when cuz... We were partners. Me and Cuz. Cuz was retired. This stupid kid goes up there and all of a sudden I start training fighters. First I want the gloves. Cuz put me in the gloves.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I want the gloves that I had injury, whatever. But bottom line is I still want to fight. I want to turn pro. I want to fight. That was the plan. And... And Cuz had a different plan. Cuz was like, you can't. And he had it set up a little bit, whatever, without getting into it. Hey, he did me a favor. And I'd like to think he knew he was doing me a favor. And you know what? I do think he was.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He was doing himself a little bit of one too. But he was doing it for the greater cause because he believed
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
in this thing of boxing he he believed that it changed lives he believed that it was worthwhile he believed that there was a power to it beyond the left hook the big picture of boxing yeah he believed in it yeah he believed that to be a champion you had to be special you had to be smart you had to have character you had that you had to be a better person and that you couldn't make a champion if you didn't make him a better person first
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And that this could strengthen people. The sport could strengthen people in those ways. So he was married to it. And he was old and he needed, there was no one in the gym. It was empty. And it was above a police station, which was crazy. And he needed an heir to the throne. He needed to pass it on to someone. And he saw something.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And all of a sudden, he saw that my career as a boxer was less important than having me become his air to the throne and become his trainer, his man, his guy to continue, that we could do a lot more for him and for everyone, not just for him, but for everyone. It was more like to keep it going. Like it couldn't die. It couldn't die. And his cousin was afraid that it would die with him.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he committed his whole life to it. He didn't get married because of boxing. So he saw me as, you know, the little bit of, you know, the seed to plant for more people. things to grow before that plant died. And so he, all of a sudden he says, you can't fight. And I had people tell me that I could go somewhere else and fight. And I could. But I couldn't. Because I'd be disloyal.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Loyalty is everything. Yeah, so I couldn't leave cuz. And he kind of knew that. And so, you know, I couldn't leave him. And he said, you have an ability to teach. He said, knowledge means nothing. He said, see these Britannica? He had Britannica Encyclopedia, the whole set in our library. He said, you see these? Yeah, I see them. All the knowledge of the world, whatever, is in these. All right?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Means nothing if you don't have somebody to convey it to people. Otherwise, it just sits on a bookshelf and looks good. He goes, you have the ability to convey knowledge to people. You're a teacher. You were born to be a teacher. You'd lessen yourself by only being a champion fighter because you'd only take care of one person.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You could take care of all kinds of people, and you could do this, and you could do that, and you could do this. So we go on this venture. It took a minute because I didn't believe him at first. But finally, I am. I'm there. I'm training fighters. And then he gets me to buy in. And I was a teacher and I start teaching these kids and there's no one in the gym that's dead.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And all of a sudden there's 10 kids, 15, 20, 25, 30, 35, 40, 45, Catskill Boxing Club, which was never there. Now it's there. And I'm training fighters. I'm taking them down to South Bronx to get experience. One of his former fighters, Nelson Cuevas, down to South Bronx. I'm taking them down there to get smokers, to get fights when they're ready. I'm wearing out dungarees.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I'm getting holes in my dungarees. I was fashionable before it was fashionable to have holes in my dungarees. I could have made a lot of money with that. Because I was on my knees with these little kids, 9 years old, 10 years old, 8 years old, 10, 12, 13, 14, 15. All these kids, and I'm teaching them, and I'm building a gym. And cuz only came once a week because he was semi-retired.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And when he would come once a week, he knew. He couldn't give me money, but he gave me more than money. He gave me praise. And he said, look what Atlas is doing. He's creating champions. And I was like, whoa, yeah. Wow, I'm doing good. And then all of a sudden, after four years of that, because I was up there seven years, eight years, eight years,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
after about three and a half, four years of that, we get a phone call that they get this kid in prison and try on prison, uh, from one of the guys that knew Cuss, Matt Baranski, uh, and, and there's a state, there's a correctional officer named Bobby Stewart who used a box and Cuss had helped him out a little bit, little bit. And, um,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And they knew we had this gym now that was really starting to become something because we were winning tournaments and everything else. They're going, we got this kid, Mike Tyson. He's 12 years old. He's 190 pounds. He's a mess. But Bobby Stewart got involved with him, the former fighter, and he's taken a liking to it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And now where he didn't behave at all and he didn't listen to anyone, now he's listening. because Bobby's got a carrot and the carrot is his teacher boxing and now he's at the point now where we want you to take a look, you and Teddy. All right, bring him down.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Well, I want to see his birth certificate because he's 190 pounds, 12 years old, and all solid. You know, really? But yeah. Just physically, just as a physical specimen. Big guy. Yeah, and listen. Coach was right, I was a teacher. He was right. And he was testing me even that day. He said, what do you think? So I said, well, we ain't gonna know nothing in the bag. Who the frick cares about that?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He knocked the bag down. We gotta put him in. We got no one to put him in that way. They didn't have anyone that way. We gotta test him. Everyone's gotta be tested.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
and so you gotta put him in, responsibly, but let's put him in, just responsible, but let's put him in with Bobby Stewart, former pro fighter, had 14 pro fights, smaller than Tyson, when he was fighting, he was 175, but still, he's 28 years old, Tyson's 12, come on, and he'll work with him, right? So we do, we put him in.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Tyson, he recognized the moment, he understood this was an audition, this was a chance, You know, this was that TV show, Change Your Life. And he understood that if he passed the audition, he could possibly change his life. He wasn't sure what. How could he be sure what exactly? But it was better than what he had. And so he was on audition. So he wanted, he innately understood what we wanted.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
would wanna see, ferociousness, toughness, character, desire, and of course, ability. Well, we saw the ability, power, speed, but it was unbridled, it was untaught, it was raw. He didn't know really much at all, but we saw that. But he wanted to show more. He knew that wasn't enough. Again, innate intelligence. He had to show desire. He had to show toughness. And so I was being responsible.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
After two rounds, that's enough. Normally, I don't put a guy into boxing until maybe four months, five months, six months, eight months, ten months. It depends what it takes to learn on the floor before it's responsible to put him in the ring to actually take on incoming real live shells instead of blanks. And... So normally I wouldn't have him in.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I knew after today, he wouldn't be in the ring again if I trained him. I would teach him first, and then he'd get back in in a few months. But for this day, it was the only way it's kind of like, I used to make this analogy and Cuss loved it. He said, what's training a fighter? What do you look for training a fighter, Teddy? You know, he asked me this ridiculous question just to test me.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I say, it's like going to Macy's. He loved it. I said, it's like going to Macy's window. He goes, what do you mean, Macy's window? You know, cuz was like, boom, boom, boom. So what do you mean Macy's window? Oh, you go to Macy's window and they get the window with everything you want to see. Everything in there. And it looks great. Everything. And yeah. And then what?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Well, then you ask what's in the warehouse and they tell you nothing. And cuz says, that's it. That's a trainer. And I wanted to see what was in the warehouse. Because I saw what was in Macy's window. I saw the power. I saw the speed. So he goes two rounds, and he gets a bloody nose. Here's the weird thing. Not weird. Very telling. We knew what we were doing.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Not bragging, but we knew what we were doing. Because he got a bloody nose because he got hit. After that bloody, he never got another bloody nose. You know why? He didn't get hit. Because he learned. He was still strong, but he was smarter now. Anyway, he goes two rounds, and I saw, and I'm being responsible, because if he goes more, it's not responsible. I saw what I needed to see.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I saw speed, I saw power, I saw athleticism. And I saw, I didn't believe him. I thought he was lying to me. I'm just telling you. I thought he was lying, trying to act tough when he wasn't really feeling tough. It didn't matter. Cuz questioned me on it afterwards. What did you see? And when I said, he goes, young master. You know, again, he wasn't paying me money.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So he had to give me something, right? And that was better than, that was currency. Young master. I'm the young master? Whoa. Young master, you know what I mean? I felt like that guy Kung Fu, you know? Like in the movie, like Kung Fu. Grasshopper, when you're ready, when you can take this out of my hand, you can leave. That's powerful. Yeah, it was. It worked. Cuz knew how to work me. And he did.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And it worked. And so, but you know what? I didn't mind being worked. I kind of knew I was being shuffled a little bit.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, because he got the job done, but he did it his way. And he did it for a myriad of reasons. But at the end of the day, it was all good. And... I just had to understand that eventually later on.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah. That day, you know, that day was funny because when Custer... What did you see, Teddy, with him? After two rounds, I got up with a ring. I knew I was going to train him. Obviously, we weren't going to say no. And he still had about four months to serve and we were going to work it out.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And... When I got up on a ring apron, that's my gym. I'm the boss. You know, people later on in life call me a dictator. You know what they said? Yeah, you're right. I didn't deny. People thought, you mean I'm right? Yeah, I'm a dictator. I'm a trainer. I'm the boss. I'm in charge. You wouldn't be here if I wasn't. What the frick you need me for if I'm not freaking in charge, you idiot?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, yeah, damn right. Well, what do you think? It's a shared responsibility? No, it's my responsibility. That's why you're here. Yeah, I am in charge. And you shouldn't be here if you don't understand that. So I get up there and I know that I'm going to be training them. I got to show them who the boss is. You know, I'm being really frank about this. So I get up there and say, that's it, out.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
No, no. You know, this is Tyson. No, let me go. I want to do another round. I want to do another one. I want... I said, out. Did you hear what I said? Because I knew that he was going to test me. He was testing me. I said, get out. He got out. But were you impressed with the fact that you wanted to keep going? Yes, and I recognized what it really was. So Custer asked me, what was that?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Custer wanted to know what the young master saw. So Custer said, what was that? I said, it was an act. He goes, you saw that? Did he really want to go? I said, no. I said, he didn't really want to go. But he knew that we want him to go. And he made himself ready to go in order to satisfy. And that's just as good. And Gus said, damn right, it's just as good. All that matters was not, not, not,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
How he got there, but that he got there. That's all that matters. That he got there. That he got to the place to act like a fighter. To do what we want him to do. To be ready to persevere. To go beyond the comfort level. To do another round. He didn't want to. Damn right he didn't want to. But he knew we want him to. And he knew in order to pass the test, he had to do it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he said, you're right. He goes, now it's going to be your job to teach him to make him a fighter that don't get bloody noses, that don't get hit, and will get to that place without being coerced to get there, to get to that place on his own. instead of using the things that he had to use to get to that place today.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Those things are not going to be available one day when you, and listen to this, you talk about a man being prophetic, because it's pretty good. You talk about a man being on a job, on money. Lex, he says, how do you think he finishes the sentence? He goes, because someday, because, you know, you're going to have to make sure that he learns these things.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because, you know, he'll be your first heavyweight champ. What did you just say? He's 12 years old. He's been arrested 30 times. He's getting out of jail, out of juvenile detention, try on. He's a mess in a lot of ways. There's a lot of things we find out later, a lot of problems, weaknesses. He goes, and that's part of your job. That'll be part of your job. But he really said that.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And then he turned to him, he goes, you want to come live with us, young man? You want to be a fighter? Yeah. Yes. Even that, Cus said to me later, what do you think about that? I said, The way he said yes. Yeah, the way he said yes. Yes, sir. He said, what do you think about that? And we're talking. I said, ain't going to be that polite in a little while down the road.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Again, he knew that that's what he felt that he needed to project himself as, to present himself as, to get to where he wanted to get to. He goes, yeah. Yeah.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
No. Again, the easiest answer would be yes. Teddy Ellis. Genius. Wow. Wow. Teddy, wow. No, no. No. No. But, again, it was my job.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I just... My job, it was simple, simpler than Cuss's. Cuss knew too much. I knew nothing. I just knew rudiments of boxing. I knew what it took to be a fighter and how to execute it, the steps of executing it. So I took those steps. The rest of it, you get blurred by those other things. I wasn't blurred by those other things. It was just get him in the gym.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
make them mentally stronger, make them face things, and teach them how to slip punches and create holes and fill those freaking holes with devastating punches. And what are you going to do? I'm going to teach them to fill holes and fill them with punches with bad intentions. And that became the moniker. And then Tyson would say that. I'm throwing punches with bad intentions. Yes, you are.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And, you know...
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
to make him face things. Make him face where he's lying to himself, where he's submitting. We start this conversation with submission. Submit less. Submit less. Submit less every day. Submit less. Because I only come to the gym once in a while. And if I had him sparring, he would come because that was his project. That was the heavyweight. Now he came, you know, and put life in Cuss.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Cuss had life. He was losing a little life, but that made the light bulb bright again. It did. And it was great to see. I felt proud of that. I felt connected to that. And that's why when it all went bad and Cuss took the side, the only side he could take, the side of the next heavyweight champion of the world, but he left me, his partner, the young master. And of the second time I get portrayed.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I'm like, for a while I thought everything Gus taught me, said to me, was a lie. I didn't want to be any part of it anymore. Until I got a little more mature and I got a little past that, where I was able to understand, I was able to understand that
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Just because somebody that you perceived as great in every area, you find to be weak in certain areas, doesn't mean that they can't still be what they want to you.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It's something that can be understood or forgiven.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It's hard. as hard to get to that place and forgive somebody in that kind of way that I felt betrayed because Cus told me the most important thing was loyalty. Cus told me he loved me because I was loyal. Cus told people that the reason that he went to court was because I didn't give up anybody, even though it meant putting me in the risk of going to jail for 10 years.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And Gus felt that he admired those traits. And so I assumed that he would show the same traits. And he took a deal. He took a deal. He took a deal. He signed the papers that those so-called fans of mine signed.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know, he took a deal to, you know, to have the future heavyweight championship turned out and to let me, you know, to let me go, to sign the deal, to let me take, you know, take the weight.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I served my purpose. I got him to the way he needed to get. Brought life back in the gym. If I wasn't in the gym at that particular time, Tyson never would have been in the gym. There would have been no gym to bring him to. When they called up and made that phone call to bring him to the gym, there would have been no activity. There would have been no boxing program. There would have been...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
no trainer training him 24-7 the way I was, where Cus wasn't capable of doing that at that point in his life. But then again, it's not poor Teddy. I get the benefit of a career. I get the benefit of knowledge. I get the benefit of a life. I get the benefit of learning, of becoming hopefully a better person. I get the benefit of being betrayed again. But
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You can learn to forgive weakness when you realize how easy it is to be weak.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And when you realize that, somebody asked me, how did you get to the point where you could forgive, right? It's a pretty good question, pretty simple, pretty basic, pretty important, right? And I didn't understand, I understood, but I did understand immediately for me. I said, how can I not forgive somebody? It becomes easier to learn how to forgive
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
when you're still trying to forgive yourself, when you're still in the process of trying to forgive yourself for all your own inherent weaknesses and betrayals of people like my father in different ways that we forget very easily because it's handy and it's a way of surviving.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It's a lot easier to figure it out, rationalize it, to find forgiveness when you realize that you still haven't figured out completely how to forgive yourself. I'm still trying to figure that out. And so that helped me figure out how to forgive cusses.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
because to figure out how to forgive me, I had to understood why I did these things, where the weaknesses came from, where the selfishness came from, where the convenience came from, that they really existed. But they didn't exist for malice. They existed for me not being prepared to understand that I could be stronger, to want to be stronger. And then I looked at Cuss,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He wanted to be stronger, but he got to a point in life where he had been strong for a lot of his life. He was strong with me. He was strong with a lot of things in his life. And does everyone deserve a pass in life where he got to a place where everything was in one place? basket, the basket of boxing.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He once told me that he never got married because it would have been selfish to a woman to have gotten married when his whole life was boxing, that he couldn't give to a kid, he couldn't give to her. And then I thought about it. He had no money, really. And Jim Jacobs and Bill Caden took care of the bills, so he didn't really need money that way. But
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
What was the payoff for that kind of life, that kind of commitment, that kind of sacrifice? Really, what was the payoff? The payoff was to have champions, to have a champion that would keep your name alive. You know, that word legacy, like what does it mean? Sometimes it's just a word, sometimes it's more than a word. It's a reprieve. It's a pension plan.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It's being given a pension on your way out for the rest of your life, for your life wherever you're going. You're going to wherever you're going for eternity. It's the only thing that you take with you is what you left behind. And for Cuss, it was all about leaving behind a mark, a mark of champion. Yeah, it was attached to ego. We all have it. Yeah, it was attached to some selfishness and all.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But yeah, it was also attached to wanting to leave something great behind. Yeah. to know that you were part of it, that you existed for a reason, that you sacrificed for a reason. And all that freaking pain I brought my father, I was searching for something. Yeah, I made it into a righteous search.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I made it into, I did, and I made it into, it was okay because it was righteous, but it still did damage. It still did damage, it still hurt people. It still betrayed my father's trust. And Cuz betrayed mine, but he didn't do it maliciously. He did it out of, again, My father came home. This is how I'm going to connect it. My father came home from work one night at 12 o'clock, and I was waiting.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And like I said, I was over 9, 10 years old. And he got mad at me. He goes, go to bed. What are you doing up? I said, I'm waiting for you. I'm waiting for you. And he said, well, go to bed. I said, no. What were you doing? He said, I was at the hospital. Why were you there so late? You know. He answered me. He said there was a patient. It was a sick patient.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I said, he must be better now because you're his doctor. Because my father can fix anything. My father, nothing got in the way of the truth. Nothing. Nothing. Even blowing his son's bubble. Matter of factly, he said to me, no, he's not going to get better. He's going to die. And, um, So as a nine-year-old kid, you're a kid, you're selfish. Not in a bad way, but you want what you want.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I said two things. First I said, how? You're his doctor. How? It can't be. And then I said, I just said it almost angry. Then why were you there? Like you should have been here with me. Yeah. And you know what he said to me? Because you don't give up on life. Go to bed and give up on life. And that's, I finally connected the dots. This idiot that didn't graduate high school.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I finally connected the dots. I was asking cuts to give up on life. You don't give up on life. You don't give up on aspirations of life. Life is all forms of life. It doesn't have to be a physical form of it. It's life. It's having a reason to be alive. It's having a reason to have tomorrow. And Custer's only reason to have tomorrow was to have another heavyweight champ.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And Teddy Atlas, even though we were together all those years and we were partners and we trained together and we were, you know, the only thing we didn't do was what they did in the Indian movies where they cut the finger and they became blood brothers. That's the only thing we didn't do. And I felt like we did that without cutting. Yeah. And now here we are. And he freaking betrayed me.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And then all of a sudden I connected to Das. I was like, he didn't betray me in that cold sense.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I want to be the great gracious guy right now. Say, oh, I'm so human that a man's man enough to say, sorry, that's it. We're good. I want to be, really, that's the best presentation of Teddy Atlas I could put out there. He's a good guy. He forgives. He's a good guy. He's a stand-up guy, and he's a good guy. I'm not sure.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
If he truly did it for himself, that he really did it because he felt that It was true.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But if he's persuaded by other things... He was in the middle. I know I'm taking it too deep. I know it, but what am I going to do? He was in the middle of 12 steps with the, you know, getting out of drugs, alcohol, 12 steps, which is a commemorable thing. Really, it is. And he's taking the steps. A part of the steps was to admit or to apologize to all people you offended in life. Okay. But...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Are you doing it for the 12 steps or are you doing it because you really, truly have come to terms with believing what you did was that hurtful to me and that it matters to you that it was that hurtful to me and that you were wrong in doing it? I know that's deep. I know that I'm a freaking idiot. You're a teddy. You should be better than that. He's better than you.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, maybe he is better than me. Maybe he is, really. Seriously, maybe he is. And I took it. He put his hand, I took it. We hugged. He said, I love you. Yeah, yeah. But I want to believe. But what did Cus tell me? No matter what a man says, it's what he does in the end that he intended to do all along. So to this day, today,
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Was it really genuine or was it reflexive of that moment for him to get what he needed for that step? Or was it truly for what I needed? That he really cared that what he did to me caused me to do what I did? Because I did something that was pretty damn bad to him too. Is he able to... Deal with that and put that where it has to be put.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Is he able to put that or is it just he did something he had to do and maybe he's sorry he did it? I know, look, I appreciated that he, I would have rather been in a private place.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, he's emotional. I get emotional a little bit, too. But he's emotional, and he can be... I can see why people have a fascination and a love affair with him right now. Because he was... Because, you know, he was the meteor that went across the sky. If they didn't see it, their parents told them about it. There was a meteor that came across the sky one day.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And the meteor's walking around in the room now. And that's the meteorite. And it actually landed here. And that's it right there. And now he's come a long way. And now he's more human. And he's lovable and compassionate. And he cries. And I get the fascination. I get the love affair. I get it. Because inherently, we're people that want to forgive. We're people that... We want to be good.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And part of being good is to forgive people and to show compassion to people. And when somebody's been damaged, to acknowledge they've been damaged, to acknowledge that you know they've been damaged and you care about them being damaged. And how do you show care? Through admiration. you know, in some ways, almost through adulation.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he's getting adulation from people like, you know, which is to an incredible level. And it's because it's a phenomena, but, but I get it. I understand it. And, um, I don't know if he gets it. I don't know if underneath all of this, he's a complex guy. He's a sensitive guy. I don't know, and I am too.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I don't know if underneath it all, where he's really truly at as far as that day that he said that to me.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, and listen, that's fair. I know dimensions of human nature too well. To not know that he still has to have certain... Because I have those strong feelings. What? It's not fair for him to have them? Damn right it's fair.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Now, he could look at it if he was to be held to his word that night, that he just acknowledges that what happened he deserved because of what he, you know, the position he put me in and he put himself in, what he did. And I wouldn't change nothing.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I regret that I had to. Yeah, I regret very much that I had to. I regret very much.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I hated him for putting me in that position. That, you know, how dare he think that somebody's feelings are that trivial. That the way I would feel about myself and the way the girl would feel about herself that was 11 years old at the time, how she would feel about herself. How dare he think it's that trivial that, you know, that I shouldn't be ready to both die and kill for that.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
The word came back to me. But of course, what does it mean? But the word came back to me that Cuss said you were right, but if he took the side of Teddy, he would destroy potentially a great fighter.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Cuss was afraid to go there where he used to not be afraid. Because it's kind of like you're never afraid of going up. And I get it. When I train a fighter now, if I come out of retirement, I train a fighter now, I feel in camp like I'm on death row every day. That if every day I try to retrace my memory and say, did I feel this way when I was younger? I don't remember feeling this way.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I feel every day a dreadful feeling that if I don't get this right, I betrayed everything. I betrayed the fighter's trust. I betrayed what I'm supposed to be. And then one day I tried to figure it out. Why do I feel this way? It's so intense. I was in camp for two months training a guy for the world title a few years ago, fighting the hardest puncher in the world at the time, Adonis Stevenson.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And the fighter was Ukrainian. And I was brought in to train him for that fight. And he trusted me and changed his whole style. Trusted me. Oh, my God, I went to bed every night like praying, dread, waking up dread, my stomach down to here, saying, what if I fail him? What if everything that I told him was going to happen don't happen? What if I fail him?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
What if he trusted me and I betrayed that trust? And the thing with Cuss was – You know, he used to be stronger than that. And then I tried to figure out why I got this way and why it was so dreadful to me and why I felt like I was on death row every day training a fighter. Like, did I do enough? Did I do it right? Will we accomplish what I promised him we would accomplish? Would I keep my word?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And then I started thinking, how did I become this weak? How did I freaking become, I was a pretty strong freaking guy. How did I become this weak? And then finally I think I figured it out. You know why? Because I was always working to get up. But once I finally got up, now I was looking down. And I finally hit me. I said, I didn't want to lose. I said, there was nothing to lose on my way up.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Now all of a sudden there's something to lose when you're up there and you're looking down. And that's where he was. And that's where Cuz was. Cuz was at the end of his rope. He accomplished two world champs, all this stuff, right? Everything. And he did it right. Now all of a sudden, it wasn't about moving forward. It was about not falling down. Holy cow. I was like, I got it, cuz. I got it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I got it. You didn't want to fall down. Oh, my God. You didn't want to fall. And this was his last chance. You don't give up on life. This was his last chance to live forever. to make everything he did worthwhile, to have the youngest, it wasn't just heavyweight champ, you gotta remember, he was the youngest heavyweight champ ever. And to have that, it was okay to die now. And how's loyalty?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
someone named Teddy Atlas is going to get in the way of that. That's a tidal wave that there ain't no wall that's been made high enough to stop that tidal wave. And now I'll stop myself. Yeah, there is.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But it would have to be an awful big one. And you know what?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Who are we to say that we could ever build that wall that big? Who is any of it? Who am I to say?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
If I answer the way I feel, then I'm making myself John Wayne again.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
No matter what a man says, what he does in the end that he intends to do all along. I didn't make that up, cussed it. And when this all went down... Those words came freaking echoing into my freaking ears. I didn't want them. Cotton doesn't help. And they freaking kept coming into my ears. And what do you think? Still an immature kid at the time. You know, I was young.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Still an immature kid at the time. What the freak do you think my response was? You were full of... But I got past that.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Listen, I forgive him because he gave me more than he took away from me. If I can, what kind of man am I if I can at least acknowledge that and be grateful for that? He gave me more than he took from me.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I'm grateful for that. I'm also grateful for what I gave him. That I had, you know, that I did give him something. And at that point in his life, you know... a place to still have test tubes and chemistry experiments. You know, a laboratory where you could still create fire. And I helped give him that.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I was part of that lab and making sure that lab was there and just that there was the existence of test tubes in the place because you can't freaking do experiments without test tubes.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, I guess so. And I just hope that what I said earlier is really my thread through this whole thing. When you say, can you forgive Cuss? I'm still trying to forgive myself. And If I can have hope that I can forgive myself, I think that hope has to start with the power to forgive someone else.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
How can I ever forgive myself for all my failings and figure it out if I can't start and practice it by forgiving someone else for some shortcomings? And for me, That's the only sense of sometimes a very hard thing to make sense of. That's my North Star. That's my compass. Just to make me laugh, you know, me and him did everything together. And we get lost in the city. We get lost in the Bronx.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he'd get all frustrated. And he said, Atlas, you're a great trainer, but you turn you around, you spin you around, and you're lost. And I said...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
me or we because i was the only one who would argue with him and and it was really funny sometimes and i said we or me you were we or he goes i don't care cuz you're lost i'm lost what are you talking about and then all of a sudden cuz couldn't give in he just couldn't admit he couldn't give in you know what he said to me all of a sudden he goes i'm
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
When I was in the Army, if I had a compass, I could get out of the woods. I said, we're not in the woods. We're not in the Army. We don't have a compass. Cuss. Cuss. Just don't argue with me. One time we're driving. I want to get back to Casco. We just finished at the Bronx. It's been a long day, you know, visiting the Murderers Inc.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
houses and everything else that he took me through for the 1800th time, and he would fall asleep. You know, he was getting older, and he would just fall asleep in the car. So what do you think? I went a little faster, right? Because before he went to sleep, he said, don't speed. So I don't consider myself... I try to be an honest guy, and I try to be a freaking... But...
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It was the five or six guys.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Probably. Probably did. You know, whatever. And all of a sudden he wakes up. He was speeding. I lie. No, I wasn't. Don't lie. I'm not lying. He lied again. You were speeding. Now, come on. This guy, he's, you know what I mean? He's unbelievable. So I got a freaking, you know, he's David Copperfield. I want to know the trick. I want to know how he freaking, he made this thing disappear.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
When you ask that question, you know, I remember Customato when I was with him up in Gatsby for all those years. He used to say to me, Teddy, you learned through osmosis. I believe there's truth to that if I know what osmosis is. Yeah. But it sounds good.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So I said, where are you talking? How do you know? He goes... Because I timed you. I looked at the post number and I'm like, what? I looked at the post number on the side of the road where we were, whatever miles. And I never knew they even existed. Yeah. I look and I said, yeah, there's little numbers. You start timing and then fall asleep. Yeah. He timed it.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he goes, we couldn't have got from here to there in that amount of time unless you were going 75 miles an hour. And I'm like- All right, I'm a smart man. All right, I'm impressed. Don't try to get the mile per hour part right. It's enough that you got me. That's enough. Yeah, I said, and I'm not going to do that. And just, he helped me in crazy ways where
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
there would be times where I wanted to be, you know, where you wanted to be whatever, right? Convenient, weak, submit, right? And then all of a sudden, all of a sudden, in my mind, cuz was there with the stopwatch. And I'd be like, you know, no, you know, where I was about to say yes to whatever that particular situation was.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I think so. So far, I can only go so far. It's kind of like that old joke where the guy jumps off the Empire State Building, he's falling down, and he's going 80th floor, 70th floor, 60th floor, 50th, and he gets past the 50th floor, and they're looking him out the window, and he goes, how am I doing? So far, so good.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I know he was sensational. I know he was the greatest mix of maybe speed and power ever. I know he was one of the greatest punchers from either side of the plate, left or right. There's been great punchers with just the right hand like Ernie Shavers and Deontay Wilder and Max Baer.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I don't know if there's ever been anyone who could punch as good as he did on either side with either hand other than Joe Lewis and a few others. I don't know if there's ever been such a combination of speed and power to that pure level that he had, and it was a pure level.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I don't know if there was ever as good a fighter as Tyson was where maybe one night he was great when he wasn't tested, but he might have been ready to be tested that one night against Michael Spinks when he took him apart in 90 seconds. I think I saw a great fighter that night. I don't think you can be great unless you have all the requirements of being great.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah, yeah.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But I learned through osmosis with my father. He wasn't a big talker. He was a doer. And when you're around someone who lives a certain kind of life and does certain things, it penetrates. He was a doctor. I'm going to sound like an idiot right now because I'm being a son. But he was the greatest diagnostic doctor ever. Yeah. I mean, if I say I ever knew, what's that mean?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
To not rely to be strong on your own. Too often he relied on other people's weakness, whether it's by being intimidated or whether it's because his talent was so much greater than theirs that it was like putting a monster truck in there with a Volkswagen, and the Volkswagen was going to get crushed.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
No matter how much horsepower the Volkswagen might have had under the hood and you put under the hood, it was going to get crushed. The monster truck was not going to allow it to be a contest. to be able to find a way when your talent wasn't enough. He didn't find a way when his talent wasn't enough.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I'm not making statements if I'm not ready to put some evidence, you know, like if we were in a courtroom, exhibit A, when he fought Buster Douglas, Buster Douglas matched his will and didn't get intimidated, stood up to him. He didn't do what most people did. He didn't submit even a little bit. Not that night. He had in the past, but that night he didn't. Why?
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because Buster had a secret weapon that night, his mother. Buster's mother had died a few months previous. He loved his mother very much. Buster had always had talent, big heavyweight, talented, could punch, technically solid. It was all those things. Always was. But he quit in fights. He did less than he should have done. He never lived up to his ability. He gave in. He submitted.
Lex Fridman Podcast
#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He wasn't strong enough. He never had a reason to be strong enough. When his mother died, he had a reason. Nothing could hurt him as much as his mother dying hurt him, Mike Tyson included. That night, Mike Tyson could not hurt him as much as his mother had hurt him by dying. That night, he had a reason to be strong for his mother, and he was strong. He was everything he was supposed to be.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And more. And he stood up to Mike. And Mike, for the first time, maybe ever, was in a fight where he had to overcome something. Where he had to be more than talented. More than a puncher. More than a guy with scintillating speed. And he wasn't. And then that night got followed by another night with Holyfield. Holyfield wasn't as talented as him. As big as a puncher.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But Holyfield had the character. He was strong in ways that Tyson wasn't strong. He was strong in a way where he could find a way. He was willing to find a way. He's willing to go to the cliff. to truly die before he's submitted. You know, a lot of stuff is just words. They're going to have to carry me out on a shield. Yeah, sure, okay. Yeah, until it comes time to be carried out on a shield.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Sometimes there's people that actually mean it.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Well, all right. Let's just say, arbitrarily, I don't have his record for me. Let's say it was 55-5. I know he had about five losses. All right, let's say it was 55-5, right? A lot of knockouts. I have a saying, a fight's not a fight until there's something to overcome. Until then, it's just an athletic exhibition, contest. Yeah, who's a better athlete? Who's got more quick twitch fibers?
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Who's more developed? Who's in better this? Who's more developed in those physical areas? But a fight is not a fight until there's something to overcome. Okay, so if you go by my definition, not Webster's, My definition, which I think means something. Mike Tyson was only in five fights in his life. The five fights where there was something to overcome, and he didn't overcome it.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Now, I know people hate me for this, including Tyson. I understand. Hate me. Oh, you're a hater because you weren't with him. You didn't make the money because this, because that, because you got betrayed. I think I'm better than that. I hope I'm better than that. I believe I'm better than that. I'm not a hater.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I've broadcast fights for 25 years on ESPN where there were some people in the corner I did not like. And if they did a good job, this guy's doing a great job. And then there were guys that I liked and I had friendship. He messed up. And we weren't friends no more. Friendship got to be tested. Remember that? So we weren't friends no more. But why did I do that? Because it was my job.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know what I mean? Are you a doctor? You know what I mean? Like, what does that mean? But other people have told me this. Yeah.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It was more important for me. When it's all over with, the only thing you're left with is, I mean, we're going to be dust, all of us, right? The only thing we're left with is what carries on, our reputation, right? You know, legacy, whatever that is. But our reputation. That's all we're left with. And that's all our kids are left with. I want it to be as good as it can be.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I've always had an ability... I've done a lot of things wrong, and I've had a lot of lackings. But the one strength I've had, if I had a strength, is to understand somehow... through osmosis, I guess, to learn the lesson that what's important is not what's in front of you for those five seconds, for that moment in life. It's what's left behind you when those five seconds are gone.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Whatever it is that you're dealing with, whatever that moment is, whatever, that moment, What you do in that moment, the action of that moment is going to stay with you and be you. It's going to become you. What you face for that moment, it's gone. It's gone in the air in an instant. It's gone. It's done.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Whether you stand up there and you get shot in the head and the guy freaking blows your brains out or you're freaking, you stand up here or you're fighting a guy who's like a scary guy to fight, but you fight him and you beat him or he beats you up. But how you fight. represented yourself in that moment is all that matters. That's going to live. What happened don't matter.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He built two hospitals. And he built a hospital before the Verrazano Bridge in New York. connecting Brooklyn to Staten Island. And he built it so people could get proper hospital care that couldn't afford it, period. And everybody looked at him as eccentric. Yeah, nice. Yeah, because... He would literally sneak patients, not sneak them in. He was Dr. Atlas.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It don't matter that you got shot in the head. I know that sounds absurd. But if you believe that it was important to stand up and take the chance to get shot in the freaking head rather than to live like an empty vessel, you know what? That's all that freaking matters. And somehow that got freaking wrapped into this freaking head of mine. Like, that's what matters. That's all that matters.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know how many times I went and I, there were things, whether it was with this one, with Tyson, with that. I didn't want to be there. I was scared to death. But I was more scared I was more scared. Living with regret. How I would have felt. Yeah. I don't want to be in solitary confinement the rest of my life with that freaking guy in the cell next to me called regret.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I don't freaking want to be next to that guy. If I want to freaking go down that road, I'll watch Papillon. You know what I mean? And I'll get my fill from that. But I don't want to freaking live it. I'm afraid of what my children would think of me if I fail in those areas. Why? Because that's forever. When I'm closing my eyes for the last time, I don't want to have that fear.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I don't want to have that fear. You know, whether I'm going down there or whether I'm going up there. You know, I laugh because I was around guys years ago that used to, when we'd talk about that, you know, injustice, And we get a kick out of this one guy who's been around the block a few times. When he say, hey, Teddy, I ain't worried about that. I got friends in both places. That's a good line.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Yeah. And I thought it was good. Listen, Mike Tyson, you want me to say he was a great fighter? Then you want me to betray what I really, you know what I mean? You want me to do that? I ain't doing it for, listen, I could do it to be a bigger Teddy Atlas and I know it would work for me. I know it would do great promotional work for me. I know it would make me more popular in certain areas.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I know it. I'm not that dumb. Not that dumb. But I also know what else it would do to me. And I don't want it to do that to me. I think he was a great talent. I think maybe the night with Michael Spinks, maybe he could have been that fighter. But he didn't never really get tested. But he might have been ready no matter what to be tested that night. That's how good he was.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Even though he was a guy who used to be a light heavyweight. I get it. But he was still a guy who beat Larry Holmes, who still had something left. Michael Spinks. And a great puncher. And an Olympic gold medalist. And a special fighter. One of the great light heavyweights of all time. You know what Mike Tyson was? He was a meteor.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He was a meteor that struck across, and not too many meteors, and we still talk about him. And unlike Halley's Comet, he came back, and he's walking around, and he has become greater after his career, more loved, more beloved, more awed, and he's been forgiven. He found the fountain of forgiveness. I don't know. I wish I could find that.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
where he has been forgotten for all his shortcomings, all the things that he may have done, may not have done. We don't know. Only him and God know. But he's been forgiven of all that, and he's been not only forgiven, he's rised above it and above that and been brought above that. He's been brought to the pyramids of the greatest athletes in the world.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And in every way, in every way, as a person, as a fighter, as a historian, as a figure, as a celebrity.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Even a philosopher.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Everything. Yeah. So I will take it back. All right, all you guys out there, you forgive me? He's the greatest of all time if you encapsulate all that. If you encapsulate everything I just tried to describe and explain, if you put that all, he's the greatest of all time. Yeah, he is. But he still might be 0-5. In a record of 55 fights, he might, in Teddy Atlas' book,
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He could do what he wanted to a certain extent. But he would bring patients in without administering, putting through administration. So there was no charge because they didn't have anything. They were street people. I remember being, my only way to be with my father was to go on house calls. Yeah. or to go to the office. And so I went on House Calls.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Again, I got friends in both places. So it's okay. Wherever I go, I have company. Somebody there will like me. Despite me saying this, he might be 0-5 because of five fights where there was something to overcome, which really defines a fight. He didn't find a way.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I know. I'm going to cut you right off because you asked a million-dollar question. I wish you didn't, but you did. You did. When do I get paid? That's why you get paid. I get it. You took the words out of my mouth. That's why you are where you are. And that's why I'm here.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I'm going to, again, full disclosure, it's important, right? I'm going to cheat. I'm going to take some of Cuss's wisdom. All right? A little bit of mine. Yeah. Cuss told somebody that If Teddy Atlas got his way, he might have been a better person, but we would have risked him not being a great fighter.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Now, I believe, and I thought Cus did, and I think he did up to that point in his life, that part of your strength of character made you a great fighter, and truly a great fighter, and part of that battle to be a better person, that fight, if you will, to be a better person, to overcome the things, to be a better person, part of that fire you have to go through to be a better person,
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I really truly bought into it. And I, I'm in for life. That is really the only way to be a great fighter. And, I don't think that's what Cuss meant. I thought he meant, I think he meant that Cuss knew more than I did of what was about to come and what would come and what the world was, how people would try to steal him, how people would take him, how people would steal his guy.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
The last thing he had, really, The thing that he lived for. Because he lived to have another heavyweight champ. The greatest fighter ever, Cuss. And Cuss is mine. He could be.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I believe that Cuss knew that he could put forward a guy that had the ability to be the greatest fighter ever without fully completing the mission of what it takes to really be great, but that he wouldn't be around to have to witness it. And that he wouldn't, he was willing, he would, oh man, this is awful.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He's willing to concede that he might be dead in order to have eternal life, in order to have greatness, which Cus does have greatness. And part of that greatness is attached to Tyson. And he deserves it. He deserves it. Cus was a great man. And I wouldn't be here partly without him. But that was part of the calculation. I know that's deep, but I know that's, oh, God, I hate myself right now.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And he did House Calls, by the way, till he was 80, and $3. I mean, it was better than McDonald's, you know what I mean? I mean, the deal. $3, and you got medicine, you got everything.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But because he knew he was getting out free. He knew he was going to not have to be there. He was getting off easy. Oh, Teddy, how do you say someone's going to be dead? They're getting off easy. Well, I'll say it again in case you didn't hear me, all right? He was going to get off easy and not have to face where he came up short because he did his job.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because he put forward the greatest fight of all time, and you guys screwed it up. And he knew that that might happen, but you guys screwed it up. And whatever, that's your fault. I'll tell you, Tyson will be mad at this, but that's on Tyson. How can you say that, Teddy? He loved me. I'm not saying he didn't love you, but he loved some other stuff, too.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I don't know if Tyson could ever come to grips with that, and it's not his job to. But it's my job not to hide from it. I know custom dimensions that other people just only think they know.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Well, he sent a message to me. Cus sent a guy to me. My wife was pregnant. We were living in an apartment in Catskill on Cordeskill Road. We went through all this, you know, and I was getting ready to move to Staten Island. And we still were there for a little while before we did, you know, after all this went down.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He sent a guy to me, to the house, secret, whatever you want to call it, my wife, me. So I listened to him. Cuss said, if you leave, I'm a messenger, you know, whatever. If you leave, This was in the aftermath of the gun, the whole thing. You got to remember, Tyson was a ward of the state. He was put in Cuss's custody. Cuss was looking to adopt him for obvious reasons.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And, but he used to, right around the holidays, there was just certain things that I didn't understand, but I understood later, where we would just drive certain areas, and he just, all of a sudden, opened his door, and he would pick up these homeless, and, you know. Help him. I'm 10 years old. Yeah. You know, move over. Move over, you know. Mm-hmm.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
So he had control and he loved him. How dare I say anything less? I won't. But it made sense too. But he was a ward of the state still. Do you know what that means? There's rules.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
means the state's still overlooking it if he ain't living the right life you know you gotta remember he came out of you know he came out of a jail so reform school but if he ain't living the life he could be taken away from cuz what's not living the right life well he he wasn't in school no more they didn't know about it um He had some things that were going on. We won't get into that right now.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
In school and different things, whatever. And he had his trainer put a gun to his head. That ain't so good. If a report came back to them that that happened, he would have been taken away from Cuss. That couldn't happen. Nobody knows this. I talk about it a little bit, but never probably... Because why would I? I don't know. Why am I doing it now? I don't know. Because... I don't know.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because I am. Because it's now. Because it's now, maybe. Maybe because it's now. I don't know. So he sent this man that, you know, obviously we both knew. And he said, here's the deal, Teddy. if no talk about this, wants it to, you know, disappear basically, you leave and he will give you 5% his word. Can you imagine? He will give you 5% of Tyson's earnings for the rest of his career.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
But I don't regret it one bit because it wouldn't have happened anyway. See, that's where I can be honest with my, people say, oh, he's a stand-up guy because I told him to shove it where the, you know, you know, in that place and tell cuz to shove it in that freaking place. You know, I was mad. Teddy, Teddy, don't get angry. Don't get angry. Are you out of here? Are you serious? Get out of here.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Tell him to go shove it over. And, you know, my wife was like, huh. But, and then people like, why didn't you take the deal? It wasn't a deal. It was an escape clause.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
for cuss it was it was a it was an insurance policy that his you know that this kid wouldn't be taken away from and thank god he wasn't i wasn't gonna go and say nothing they didn't have to worry about cuz forgot who i was cuz forgot why he went to court for me because of those because of those characteristics that he said he loved and he noticed and that that he admired
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I didn't lose those characters. He forgot that that was me. He forgot who he was talking to. He didn't have to do that. How about that's why I told him to shove it up his ass. Not because of the other insult. And then when people said to me, oh, you would stand up. Because it was around a little bit. It was around in the circles. And then when people, oh, stand up, Teddy.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He didn't care about the money. I said, stand up, Teddy. What are you talking about? How about... How about just realistic, Teddy? How about I live in a real world that I was never going to get that money? So I'm standing up to something that I knew never existed. So I ain't stand up. Not in that way. I am in other ways, maybe. But don't put a medal on my chest for that.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Because that never existed. It was never meant to exist. But he didn't even understand. That was the one thing that really disappointed me in Cuss. I was like, Cuss... You've really allowed this to get to you. You've allowed it to really fog up your thinking to the point where you're smarter than that, you're better than that.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
A couple. Yeah, a couple. Yeah, whatever he can fit in. Three, four, you know, whatever it was. That's a big heart. And then he took him to the hospital, dropped him off. So, you know, I would ask questions after it was all over with. I'd say, Dad, they're sick. He goes, well, not in a way. Well, you put him in the hospital. So he said, yeah, and he tried to explain things to me.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
That you would actually think you got a freaking offer me of freaking pieces of silver. You really think that? That's what you, freak you. Like, all that you told me that you love me and that we were, I was the young master and all this, and you think you were going to buy me? And I was going to, and that was going to keep me quiet? How about I would keep quiet because I would always keep quiet?
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Isn't that interesting? Yeah. And why did he think that? No, no, really.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Fear? Yeah, but yeah, fear is at the essence of everything. It's connected with everything. Fear of losing what he was going to lose. But it was more than fear. It was him not believing in the things that he told me he believed in. He didn't even know that. He believed in me because I was his... Stand-up guy because I didn't sell myself. Because I didn't freaking turn evidence.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I didn't make a deal. And that's why he went to court. That's why he stood up for me. And I appreciate it. And that was what he lived by. And that was his, you know, those were the blocks of being a man. It was so much for those blocks.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And that's the only way you ever find out, 100%. But the only way you ever find out if somebody is more than that is to test. And it was Cuss.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Cuss told me, Cuss said, and the tests come in different forms. Yeah. I said, all right, cuz. This was his test. And some people pass this test because they're able to pass that test. Because it's not really a test. Not for them. Because it doesn't speak to their weakness. But it's the test that speaks to the weakness. That's the one. So this one, I get it. I get what it spoke to, cuz.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know what? At the end of the day, I forgive you.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I feel bad for you. I feel bad that you were put in that position after you lived your life that way and that you taught that and you preached that from the mountaintops, that you had to be, that you had to be, I'm not gonna use the word, but that you had to fail yourself.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And that you had to somehow know that before you died. I just pray that you didn't know that. And you still don't know that. Because you were great.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You were great.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And you've given me something. You've given me something to aspire towards. To try to be less weak. Try to be better. And try to be as good as you want it to be. I wish I can someday. More importantly, I wish I could make my father, you know, feel, just feel good up there.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He didn't talk much unless you asked him something. And that kind of works. And don't talk unless someone asks you something. And he explained to me that, he said, I said, well, why are you putting him in the hospital? And of course the sickness was the alcoholics, but why are you putting him? It wasn't an alcohol rehab. And it wasn't for the purpose to dry out. He wasn't trying to cure them.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Just do everything you can to the best of your ability every day to like yourself.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Give yourself a reason to actually say, I'd like to be friends with that guy.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Loyalty is your chance to have a fulfilled life.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Loyalty is your chance to have strength. To have all the things you need to have a good life.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
To be a good parent. Be a good husband. Be a good grandfather. Hopefully be a good role model.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Loyalty is... Loyalty is... If you can find something to drink... to take into your body, to make you prepared for life, to be all the things that you want to be, to be strong enough to be those things. Loyalty would be the thing you would drink. And when I say loyal, I mean unequivocally, I mean unconditionally. Not conveniently. Obviously, you know that.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
If you could be loyal, you could be a good person. You could be a person that you would actually like to be around. Because you could be a person you could rely on.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And I think that's one of the greatest assets that a human being can have.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You think of what you learned from it. Use it as a roadmap to remember and to think back of how you got there and how you got to the place where you got betrayed and how that person got to that place.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Try to remember that in your own journey.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Just by remembering that I'm still trying to forgive myself for the things that I came up short with. And if I haven't figured that out yet, it's probably okay to say... They didn't figure it out yet. They didn't get it. They didn't figure it out. And if I couldn't figure it out and I'm still trying to figure it out, maybe I could get over that. initial stabbing of what it feels like.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It does feel kind of like a stabbing that you feel when you're betrayed initially and that you can only think of anger, revenge, hatred, and those things. I'm not proud of that, but I felt all those things, you know, and I still feel them sometimes. And then I go back and say, hey, you're still working at forgiving yourself for some things. Try to remember that, kid.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know, memory is an important thing. Forgetfulness is pretty important, too. And try to remember why we forget. Why do we forget? Because it wasn't something you felt proud of.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Let's put that before we anointed him for sainthood by Teddy Atlas. So I was like, we finally get to the point. Why are you putting him in there? Well, because it's the holidays. All right, why you put them in there? Well, the holidays are good for certain people and bad for others. And it was always before the holidays. It was before Christmas or whatever. And New Year's, whatever.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You know, it's funny you ask that. I never used to think about it.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I know people in both places, you know. I know.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
You're going to be all right. Don't forget that. Yeah. I know people in both places. Yeah.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I've been given credit for being brave in certain spots in life. I hope I can be brave when it comes time to leave life. I hope I can be, you know, and that's, you know, that's just as real and honest as you can be about it. I hope I can be, you know, so far so good. You know, when I've had to be certain things that I was scared to freaking death, I found a way to be them for the most part.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And so I figured when that day comes,
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
It's my pleasure.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Thank you. Thank you for having me, and thanks for listening.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And so I said, why? And he said, because they remind people, certain people, of what they don't have. that other people enjoy the holidays because of what they have. Family, you know, whatever. And it reminds them that mine is that. That's pretty profound. Yeah, and then... I don't remember because he didn't use the word suicide, but I got it.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
He basically, I forget how he said it, but I just got it. I don't know how he got it. I don't know. But I just got it like, so they don't hurt themselves. That's what came across. In every way. I don't think he ever articulated, ever verbalized that, but yeah, they don't hurt themselves. And how does that work? Well, just basically, they're going to be around people. They're not going to be alone.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
They're going to be around people. They're going to get fed. They're going to be warm. right? And it's going to be for three days, two, three days, whatever. And it's basically, it's, it's a bridge. So the funny thing is a 10 year old, I, I wanted to, I want to be connected to him. So I, I, I enlisted myself in the job when, when, when he used to drop them off, he would take them, get them in.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
Right. And, um, And then the thing that I know, again, he didn't say nothing, but you notice things. And if you care enough. You don't notice nothing if you don't care. But if you care, if it's important, you notice. And this guy was important to me. I didn't know what a hero was. No clue. I loved Mickey Mantle. I loved Willie Mays. I loved Muhammad Ali. I...
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
I never, ever connected in my mind as heroes. Never.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
The word love? One thing that was not allowed. The greatest memory I have my father showing me love was we were down in Florida at an airport and we were, I was born in Miami, don't ask me, I was passing through. And the rest of my family's born in New York, so I was supposed to go back home, right? And I wanted to stay with my mother for whatever reason.
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#406 – Teddy Atlas: Mike Tyson, Cus D’Amato, Boxing, Loyalty, Fear & Greatness
And so he, you know, he, of course, conceded to it. And he's, okay, you know, whatever. And very quiet. And this is a man who never showed emotion to anyone. I mean, for the most, you know, really. All of a sudden, he just turned and kissed me on the forehead and left. And I was like, that's different.