Suave (David Luis Suave Gonzalez)
Appearances
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
We go through the door, and you, like, in this space... High Stage, Spaceship, Smoke, DJ. It was like going into an OutKast Rack video. For real, it was like being in a video. But then the crowd, the energy. It's like, whoa. I met my friend's friend. He's like, what's up, bro? You good? You with me? But I see the buzz in his waistline, like, I'm like, shit, everybody in here has a gun.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Shit. Another day in this world. Five o'clock in the morning. Just getting up. Bella. Bella, I'm going to whip your ass, Bella.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
If somebody bump into me, I got to be the one to bitch up and be like, oh, my bad. You know, because I'm probably the only one there not packing. You get loud with somebody in Atlanta, you might get shot. Seriously. So I'm like, no, I'm cool. I'm out. I don't like being in them places where I feel defenseless.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Something jump off, dude. What was you even doing in that room?
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
You know, I'm not hanging with little Ray Ray and Rahim from down the block. I'm not. Now, when I came home, I wanted that. I wanted that 17 year old life. I wanted what I missed when I went to jail. Minus standing in the corner. But I like I like that shit. I like that smoke. I like I like that urban excitement where I could be in the corner and hit gunshots. But I'm not involved with it.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Somebody might say, well, that's a dangerous game. They could violate you. Truth. Those are the consequences that come with you making certain actions, man. So I do a lot of stuff that I'm not supposed to do only because I want to feel human.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Man, Bella just snuck in the bed and tucked in under my arms when I was sleeping, got hair all over my black sheets.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
This dude was like my brother. I got him a job. He told me straight up, I'm not going to work for them. No, you know, they're not paying me enough. And, you know, I left the conversation there because the guy was like my brother, right?
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
But then I'm thinking, like, he had no restrictions. He had no parole. So he free to go anywhere he want to go. That's dangerous. Know why it's dangerous? Because he could say, I don't want to work no way.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
See, but I keep telling you, I'm institutionalized. And what I mean by institutionalized, I do things in patterns, A, B, C. I can't do things with A and then C because I'm like, what happened to B? What was B? What I was supposed to do in B? That's because I'm institutionalized. When you're not on parole, you can say,
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I'm going to sleep all day, and then tomorrow, I'm going to go ahead and smoke some weed. I can't do that shit.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Yeah, I probably would have been in a fucked up predicament because I like to do fucked up shit.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I'll get her these little outfits. I think it's so cute. I don't think Bella understands she's a girl. So I'll put pink on her to let her know, like, look at yourself in the mirror. You are a girl, Bella.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I wouldn't say safer. I say it's more structured. That's fair to say. I gotta have structure. I can't be like free to go, just do what you see, what you think is best. It's not gonna work. It won't work for me. Because I know, and I really, I hate to say this on tape, man, but it's the truth. Like I know that if I didn't have that safety net up the rope, I don't know.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I'll probably be in some other shit, man, because I'm real emotional and I like to act on those emotions. And I realize that. Nobody got to tell me that. So it's like a balance. It's like a balance. Like, we're keeping you safe, bro.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
When it comes to friends, I don't even know what that is. I come from a place where there is no friends.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
No, no, I know. Because later on, they throw it in your face.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
He calls his apartment... A high-class prison cell. I don't need a whole lot. It's better than a house for me.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Sometimes, and you know, I don't even tell people this, but sometimes I just take a sheet or quilt, put it on the floor and lay on the floor.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
In prison, you got to get up and the guard walk around and make sure you're physically there. They blow a bullhorn like 10 minutes before they come around. Count time, count time. That's what they would yell every morning. At home, it's almost the same thing. I get up, Bella and me are on time together.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Well, I appreciate the cannabis, right? But also I just want to make you aware and the whole team that if I do take some cannabis, whether it's medically or not, you are like saying we see you in about six months because that's like a direct violation for parole. Shit. Oh my God. I'm sorry.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
And that means... Basically, you're still incarcerated. You're just serving your time out in society.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I can't travel without permission. I can't move from one house to another house without asking permission. He really can't have any interaction with the police. I can't be around certain people. I can't go to certain establishments.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I can't drink. I cannot smoke a little bit of weed or smoke me a Philly blunt.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Can't do that because if they take the urine and it come up hot, it's a violation.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
You paying the parole board a monthly fee to supervise you.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Today is probably the first time I take my car down in six months. Out to a drive. I'm fucking nervous. I'm shaking. I get anxiety.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
For a lot of people, driving is something they look forward to doing. Not me. Not me. I hate fucking driving. I hate it. I don't know how to deal with my anxiety when I'm behind the wheel. My anxiety take over to the point where I just want to crash the car somewhere and stop and get out and leave it running. So I just don't drive. I just don't drive.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I am really, really, really afraid to get stopped by the police. The minute they stop you and they find out you're on parole, you're getting handcuffed, now your car is getting searched. And if you don't report that traffic stop to parole, It's a violation of your conditions and they can lock you up.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
We got a file for complete commutation from the pardon board.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
It's almost like hitting the lottery. You got to have the attorney general's vote and then unanimous vote, basically, before it gets to the governor's office. And then he got to consider it. Like, not easy at all.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Sometimes I do think that I was better off locked up. That's hard to say, but it's the truth. You know, it's the truth. And whoever been locked up 31 years or more and tell you otherwise, it's lying. They lying. I'm still living. I still live like I'm in prison. Like locked up. Like I'm in my fucking jail cell. You know, that's the scary part for me. Because I haven't been able to shake it off.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Listen, I'm going to tell you, don't laugh at this, please. You can laugh.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
So we started off singing karaoke with Hector Lavo, and we had a few drinks. Oh, no.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
And guess what song we end up singing? Menudo. Suete a mi modo.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
And then she recorded me dancing to Marc Anthony. Dancing salsa? I was drunk.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I'm having two or three of my friends that we've done time with. You know, my friend said something to me. He was like, damn, we walked the prison yard together for decades. And now we're sitting in your backyard drinking beer and eating burnt hot dogs. And they taste good.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
I don't have the desire to meet with guys that I did 30, 40 years.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
But a lot of it has to do with, y'all not on parole. I'm on parole. It's like a reality check. Like, bro, you really not free, bro. You really not free. You just alone for the ride.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Sometimes it feels like, wow, damn, man, I deserve that chance more than you. I get that feeling sometimes like, you got a chance and you ain't doing shit with it, man. I deserve that chance more than you.
Suave
Parole & The Pursuit of Happiness - Ep. 2
Sometimes, if, oh man, why is I'm saying this on tape, man? But sometimes it just feels, it just feels like, damn, I'm fucking jealous. Like, the fuck?
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I do. I have a big ego. Yeah. I can say that now because I'm more comfortable with it. I remember I had a conversation with Julieta about a year ago. And we was talking about, damn, everything good that happened always end up with some bad shit. I always feel guilty about it. And Julieta told me, man, man, listen, you have the right to be happy. I'm like, you know what?
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I'm going to celebrate this. It'll be 20 years from now. You can't take that away. I don't care if it's 20 years, 30 years, we won. If I could inspire other young people to believe that they could do the same, why not?
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
You know, we're not talking about traditional students. We're talking about people that are still living in shelters. We talk about people that are basically homeless coming to school. So the school is a safe haven for them. They come to school early because they don't want to be in the streets.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
Being surrounded by younger people They looking at me like a father figure. They do.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
You're saying that you sing like Usher, right? He said that. We can't be shy now. Are you ready?
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I'm telling you, bro. I'm telling you, bro. You know how much ice cream you can sell out here, bro? You'd be rich selling ice cream out here versus being jailhouse. I'm rich in the yard.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
And I'm going to leave it at that. I ain't going to preach to you no more.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
All right, bro. Love you, bro. And you better call me again, bro. You better call me soon.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I get phone calls every day, at least 20, 30 phone calls a day from prison. And, you know, guys that never seen a Pulitzer. Right. Calling me, telling about, man, you representing all of us. This is a win for all of us. And it is. When I get phone calls from politicians, you know, they want me to go speak because they're trying to pass a bill for for lifers.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
And they think that I'm the poster child. I'm like, at first I used to get pissed off because I'm not a poster child. But now I've realized that like somebody has to be the voice. And this is what it means to being the voice for the voiceless. Bro, no matter how much you try to run from it, you are the voice for those that you left behind. And I'm not running from it. I'm embracing it.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I'm embracing it because I still got hope that them brothers and sisters are going to come home one day.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I just feel sometimes that... Being free is not what everybody think it is. It's really not. And it's not really, everybody hype it up. Like, you're free. You can do whatever you want to do. All your pains and misery are gone. That's bullshit, man. My miseries and pains are just starting. Like, seriously, I never had this much misery and pain in my life when I was in prison. I didn't.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I was shut out from the world. You know, cold. Shut everything down. And out here, you can't do that because you got people looking for you. You got people that want, they lean on you for their support, for their comfort. I don't want to live up to nobody's expectations and none of that. You know, I'm done with that. I am not happy. I'm glad I'm home. I'm glad about that.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
But if you say describe happy, I should be able to describe happy. And I can't. I can't. I won't even know how to start to describe happy. Even with a Pulitzer, even what I can't describe it because I'm not.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
You know, as much as I like to fake myself out and think that I'm ready to for this life, I wasn't ready. You know, I'm learning how to get through it. But I wasn't I wasn't ready. Nobody gave me a crash course like this is what's going to happen. You know, you got to pay bills. You're going to confront this. You're going to be heartbroken. You're going to have doubts about this.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
It's just hard, you know, and. And sometimes from the outside, it looks like I'm living a good life and now, but I'm really not, you know, I'm just getting by.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I'm walking in and I'm looking. And I'm looking at all these expensive suits. I only paid like $90 for my suit.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
What's going on for you? This is my first time here like in 45 years when I came out with another kid.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I'm happy that I'm here sharing with my family because I was in prison. This is history.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I don't know how to deal with relationships. I dealt with that relationship the same way I dealt with a cellmate. Me and you are not getting along. You got to move the fuck out the cell. Then you start getting phone calls. What time you get off from work? What are you doing? Oh, I don't know. Mentally, it's like, I'm not ready for this.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
You want to fuck with me, that's how it's going to go down. That's the dude y'all wanted, y'all got him. I swear to my mother's grave.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
We go outside, and in my head, I'm thinking, tonight is the night that I realize I'm free. I'm really free. It was like one of the movies that I watch in prison that you know is a sad movie, but at the end, you know when they sit like in the steps and they see the sunlight, you know it's like something magical is gonna happen.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I know what it is. Yeah, this is your man Swap. Yeah, I'm just chilling in the tub, man. Ready to take a shot of bath. But I just want to introduce y'all, man. Yo, this is the adventures of Swap Gonzalez and his Pulitzer. So, yeah, I'm in the tub with my Pulitzer. I'm ready to give my Pulitzer a shower because, you know, we got to stay clean, man.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I'm not a pussy. I'm not a pussy at all. What make you think you could try me and I'm not going to react? Because if I get triggered, somebody's going to get hurt. Real hurt. Not fake hurt. Real hurt.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
Season four in life. Listen, season one, I was living life. I wasn't having fun. I was fucking boring. I was, I wouldn't say stressed out, but I was out of touch with my community, if you want to call it that. I'm living the hood, but I was out of touch. I chose to do that. Now it's like, man, fuck, I'm gone. I'm gonna have some fun. And I know that it can lead to destruction ways.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I know that already. And I'm trying not to, you know, cross that destructive path. But I'm having fun on all levels. I'm having fun. So with season two, I'm hoping that people get it, man. Like, we human beings, we just been... deny certain things because of our incarceration. I'm a human being. I'm only 30 right now. I came home when I was 21.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I've been awarded like three different awards. Well, there's been a couple of new stories.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I was given a second chance for a reason. Making music. Making music. That's something that I'm doing, you know. You ain't wanna hold me back.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
I started my own true crime, true story episodes of podcasts with different people. As Lieutenant Governor, what is your position on juvenile lifers coming home and being on parole for life?
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
It was pack house, really. I'm talking about, we had to turn people away.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
Ashley Biden, as in that Biden, the former president's daughter. She lives in Philadelphia and has been an outspoken supporter of criminal justice reform. Okay. And she's like, So that's where we are today. You could say that it's a new day for Suave. But really, it's a whole new life. You know, Mr. Pulitzer is killing it.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
At this point, I don't give a fuck who go to jail or not. Y'all poke the teddy bear, not y'all got the grisly bear. And the reason? The reason, as the cliche goes, is that you can leave prison, but prison never really leaves you.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
No, this is the thing. Motherfucker, if a white man come in here with a Grammy Award and tell you that cheesesteak is not right, excuse me, sir, we're going to make it right for you.
Suave
Roses and Manure - Ep. 1
That shit plays in my egos. I was like, yes. You love it. I do. You love it. Listen, I ain't gonna lie. And, you know, the young people tend to have this swag with it. Yeah. My old head's got a Pulitzer that's bigger than a Grammy. It's bigger than Jay-Z and Beyonce. I was like, whoa. They was like, you should collaborate with Kendrick Lamar.