Precious Muir

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It's very difficult to explain. And this is, I really want to make this point as well, which I'm really, I've noticed a lot of people have said this to me. And I want to make this really clear. Because I said I saw something and I didn't see something else doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Doesn't mean it didn't happen. They show you what they think you are okay with.

It's very difficult to explain. And this is, I really want to make this point as well, which I'm really, I've noticed a lot of people have said this to me. And I want to make this really clear. Because I said I saw something and I didn't see something else doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Doesn't mean it didn't happen. They show you what they think you are okay with.

Playboy and Diddy Parties, for me, my experience was slightly different, right? So when you're a Playboy bunny... What you are feeling amongst the of the situation when you're there, you have to please the people that have paid thousands of pounds to be a part of these events because they're raising money for charity or whatever else they're raising money for.

Playboy and Diddy Parties, for me, my experience was slightly different, right? So when you're a Playboy bunny... What you are feeling amongst the of the situation when you're there, you have to please the people that have paid thousands of pounds to be a part of these events because they're raising money for charity or whatever else they're raising money for.

So you feel like you need to make sure that these, you know, high rollers are having a great time. With the Diddy Party, it was more of a networking thing for me. So there is sex everywhere. Lots of girls were getting half naked, completely naked in the pool. Loads of drinking and drug taking. Drugs freely offered to you? Freely offered. As you arrive. Would you like some Coke? Do you want some?

So you feel like you need to make sure that these, you know, high rollers are having a great time. With the Diddy Party, it was more of a networking thing for me. So there is sex everywhere. Lots of girls were getting half naked, completely naked in the pool. Loads of drinking and drug taking. Drugs freely offered to you? Freely offered. As you arrive. Would you like some Coke? Do you want some?

I say no, then it's a big deal. Oh my God, why don't you do drugs? Why don't you take drugs? I'm like, because I don't do drugs. I never have, I don't...

I say no, then it's a big deal. Oh my God, why don't you do drugs? Why don't you take drugs? I'm like, because I don't do drugs. I never have, I don't...

really want to participate you guys have fun enjoy enjoy and I would have to play it off I would have to like kind of make it a funny situation to not make them feel uncomfortable but the moment I used to take my phone out if I'm just texting a friend or whatever they would be looking at me they would be like oh what are you doing on the phone like what are you doing like in a joking way so but there were cameras there

really want to participate you guys have fun enjoy enjoy and I would have to play it off I would have to like kind of make it a funny situation to not make them feel uncomfortable but the moment I used to take my phone out if I'm just texting a friend or whatever they would be looking at me they would be like oh what are you doing on the phone like what are you doing like in a joking way so but there were cameras there

I worked with them for two and a half years, almost three years. I was going to events. I was signing calendars. I was doing photo shoots. I modeled the lingerie company brand. And so, yeah, I had an opportunity to travel around the US. And I was able to work with the company for quite some time.

I worked with them for two and a half years, almost three years. I was going to events. I was signing calendars. I was doing photo shoots. I modeled the lingerie company brand. And so, yeah, I had an opportunity to travel around the US. And I was able to work with the company for quite some time.

There were CCTV cameras. There were... Cameras in the bedrooms? There was cameras in the bedrooms, in the hallways, everywhere. The property of... The value of it is expensive, right? So they're having these cameras around to secure the property, I'm assuming. In bedrooms? I'm assuming.

There were CCTV cameras. There were... Cameras in the bedrooms? There was cameras in the bedrooms, in the hallways, everywhere. The property of... The value of it is expensive, right? So they're having these cameras around to secure the property, I'm assuming. In bedrooms? I'm assuming.

Yeah, I just want to focus on that also. It is not specific just to him. It's about individuals in the entertainment industry using their power and abusing their power for the next generation, the younger talent.

Yeah, I just want to focus on that also. It is not specific just to him. It's about individuals in the entertainment industry using their power and abusing their power for the next generation, the younger talent.

And the opportunities that I got through working with Playboy really offered a lot of other opportunities that came up in other avenues of modeling. It allowed me to meet and greet other people at these fantastic, fabulous events.

And the opportunities that I got through working with Playboy really offered a lot of other opportunities that came up in other avenues of modeling. It allowed me to meet and greet other people at these fantastic, fabulous events.

If it was held at Hugh Hefner's house or it was at a golf retreat, we had those opportunities there that allowed the bunnies to be exposed to executives in the industry who can book you for something else. So, yeah, it was a really good opportunity. There were positives and there's negatives. We were always advertising Playboy. I mean, everything we had was, it was all over us.

If it was held at Hugh Hefner's house or it was at a golf retreat, we had those opportunities there that allowed the bunnies to be exposed to executives in the industry who can book you for something else. So, yeah, it was a really good opportunity. There were positives and there's negatives. We were always advertising Playboy. I mean, everything we had was, it was all over us.

We had the hats, we had the socks, we had the, you know, the shirts, the jackets, the jumpers, you name it. Like, we were branded from head to toe. Yes, you're like early influencers, really, what we class as influencers now. We were ahead of the game. Like, we were doing things way before all this Instagram came about. Now, you've described it as a unique job. I think unique's a phrase.

We had the hats, we had the socks, we had the, you know, the shirts, the jackets, the jumpers, you name it. Like, we were branded from head to toe. Yes, you're like early influencers, really, what we class as influencers now. We were ahead of the game. Like, we were doing things way before all this Instagram came about. Now, you've described it as a unique job. I think unique's a phrase.

It is a unique job because I don't think I know anybody else doing something particularly like this. There is a casting process and the casting process is basically like any model job. You have to go in, you have to meet somebody who is going to basically book you for this gig. You have to go in lingerie or a bikini. You take some Polaroids and they'll then decide if you're suitable for the role.

It is a unique job because I don't think I know anybody else doing something particularly like this. There is a casting process and the casting process is basically like any model job. You have to go in, you have to meet somebody who is going to basically book you for this gig. You have to go in lingerie or a bikini. You take some Polaroids and they'll then decide if you're suitable for the role.

I arrived in New York 2005 and it took me a couple of years to find my way. And I initially started going to parties in 2007.

I arrived in New York 2005 and it took me a couple of years to find my way. And I initially started going to parties in 2007.

Well, when I got signed to the New York agency that I did initially when I was 18 years old and I moved to New York when I was 19, you know, 19 going on 20. And for me, it was part of the industry that we were made aware of very quickly. Socially, you needed to go out there. So we went to socialise to meet people that we could possibly never meet in our lives.

Well, when I got signed to the New York agency that I did initially when I was 18 years old and I moved to New York when I was 19, you know, 19 going on 20. And for me, it was part of the industry that we were made aware of very quickly. Socially, you needed to go out there. So we went to socialise to meet people that we could possibly never meet in our lives.

And our agents and managers at the time would encourage us to go to these events. They wouldn't force you, but they would be like, well, Precious, if you've been invited, I think it's good for your career if you go. But there is a more sinister side to it. Yeah, of course. I mean, with every good there is bad.

And our agents and managers at the time would encourage us to go to these events. They wouldn't force you, but they would be like, well, Precious, if you've been invited, I think it's good for your career if you go. But there is a more sinister side to it. Yeah, of course. I mean, with every good there is bad.

And so people need to understand the entertainment industry is a very difficult one to navigate, especially when you don't have the right people around you, or you don't have the right people directing you in the direction of safety, looking out for your, you know, not just... get that job, book that job so I can get my percent, you know.

And so people need to understand the entertainment industry is a very difficult one to navigate, especially when you don't have the right people around you, or you don't have the right people directing you in the direction of safety, looking out for your, you know, not just... get that job, book that job so I can get my percent, you know.

They are encouraging you for your safety and doing the right thing. Back then, we didn't have that. I don't feel I had that. I had to figure it out very quickly on my own.

They are encouraging you for your safety and doing the right thing. Back then, we didn't have that. I don't feel I had that. I had to figure it out very quickly on my own.

Yeah, I mean, my exposure to the industry was... Industry parties, and then came the Diddy parties at the Hamptons. And then later on was the Playboy Mansion. That was the progression of my 10 years in New York. And yeah, initially, when I was exposed to this industry, it was a smaller event. I was told to, you know, to come to this amazing party. It's going to be great.

Yeah, I mean, my exposure to the industry was... Industry parties, and then came the Diddy parties at the Hamptons. And then later on was the Playboy Mansion. That was the progression of my 10 years in New York. And yeah, initially, when I was exposed to this industry, it was a smaller event. I was told to, you know, to come to this amazing party. It's going to be great.

There's going to be lots of people that you can network with and there's opportunities there. There could be casting directors looking for new models for something. Like, you need to go. So here's me in Manhattan. The party consisted of a lot of people that are in the entertainment industry, a lot of people that are in hip-hop, in the music industry.

There's going to be lots of people that you can network with and there's opportunities there. There could be casting directors looking for new models for something. Like, you need to go. So here's me in Manhattan. The party consisted of a lot of people that are in the entertainment industry, a lot of people that are in hip-hop, in the music industry.

And I met a few of the inner circle friends that are very close to Diddy and the same people I saw throughout the 10-year period of hanging out with this inner circle of entertainment industry people. And yeah, the first real initiation, I guess, was me taking a sip of alcohol that basically changed my life.

And I met a few of the inner circle friends that are very close to Diddy and the same people I saw throughout the 10-year period of hanging out with this inner circle of entertainment industry people. And yeah, the first real initiation, I guess, was me taking a sip of alcohol that basically changed my life.

The way I was approached these situations after that, like I literally was not able to let my guard down after that. That experience of me being drugged. set me up for the rest of my period of time in New York. I knew that for my safety, I had to be fully aware of what I was doing every step of the way after that really horrific incident that happened to me.

The way I was approached these situations after that, like I literally was not able to let my guard down after that. That experience of me being drugged. set me up for the rest of my period of time in New York. I knew that for my safety, I had to be fully aware of what I was doing every step of the way after that really horrific incident that happened to me.

I don't really remember too much after obviously being drugged because I was immediately felt a reaction. Now, as a person who doesn't do drugs, as a person who only casually drinks, I'm more of a champagne girl than vodka and cranberry. It really hit me and affected me in a very bad way. And the reaction that I received when I drank that one sip was...

I don't really remember too much after obviously being drugged because I was immediately felt a reaction. Now, as a person who doesn't do drugs, as a person who only casually drinks, I'm more of a champagne girl than vodka and cranberry. It really hit me and affected me in a very bad way. And the reaction that I received when I drank that one sip was...

one of the most horrific things I've ever been through in my entire life. It was so scary at the time because I didn't know what was happening to me. I didn't know exactly how to deal with it. And because I was reacting in such a bad way,

one of the most horrific things I've ever been through in my entire life. It was so scary at the time because I didn't know what was happening to me. I didn't know exactly how to deal with it. And because I was reacting in such a bad way,

thank god somebody saw me and the venue security guard came over and helped me in the situation but I don't know if if I had just been left with the people that I was with what could have happened to me I honestly don't know if I hadn't been saved by that person where it could have gone the rest of the night it could have turned into something else

thank god somebody saw me and the venue security guard came over and helped me in the situation but I don't know if if I had just been left with the people that I was with what could have happened to me I honestly don't know if I hadn't been saved by that person where it could have gone the rest of the night it could have turned into something else

So this is the thing. Think about the logic of it. I was new to the industry. I didn't know really anybody at that time. I did go and see a doctor. I was checked out, but I did not report it to the police. And this is what I really... I really regret in my life that I should have, at the time, gone to the police.

So this is the thing. Think about the logic of it. I was new to the industry. I didn't know really anybody at that time. I did go and see a doctor. I was checked out, but I did not report it to the police. And this is what I really... I really regret in my life that I should have, at the time, gone to the police.

I know it sounds really bad, but because I wasn't violated in any way, I just thought that, let me just get through this. Like, let me just get past this part. Like, I was drugged, I'm OK now, I wasn't hurt, like, sexually violated. I wasn't encouraged to make a police report and I should have at the time gone to the police and made that police report.

I know it sounds really bad, but because I wasn't violated in any way, I just thought that, let me just get through this. Like, let me just get past this part. Like, I was drugged, I'm OK now, I wasn't hurt, like, sexually violated. I wasn't encouraged to make a police report and I should have at the time gone to the police and made that police report.

I can't, just, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I can't, just, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Yes, because it's a situation you just can't... You can't understand until you're in it.

Yes, because it's a situation you just can't... You can't understand until you're in it.

And how people get through it and have gone through something even worse, I don't honestly know how they can. Honestly. Because in my career, I've spoken about this and I'm very comfortable in speaking about it because... I tell you what, the fact that I was drugged and I was unable to protect myself, I was unable to figure out how can I get through this situation.

And how people get through it and have gone through something even worse, I don't honestly know how they can. Honestly. Because in my career, I've spoken about this and I'm very comfortable in speaking about it because... I tell you what, the fact that I was drugged and I was unable to protect myself, I was unable to figure out how can I get through this situation.

I literally lost one side of my face was gone. I could not feel I could not hold myself up. I was not able to protect myself if anybody in that room wanted to do something to me. I stopped it, right? I was able to stop the situation. But only because of that guy, the security guard, and I need to stress venue security guard, was able to help me get out of that situation.

I literally lost one side of my face was gone. I could not feel I could not hold myself up. I was not able to protect myself if anybody in that room wanted to do something to me. I stopped it, right? I was able to stop the situation. But only because of that guy, the security guard, and I need to stress venue security guard, was able to help me get out of that situation.

If it wasn't for him, I don't know what would have happened to me. And so that's why I say like, The drugging is the issue because when you are drugged, you are taking that person's ability to react to the situation and then you're taking advantage of them. It does feel like there's a shift happening right now and you've been speaking out a lot.

If it wasn't for him, I don't know what would have happened to me. And so that's why I say like, The drugging is the issue because when you are drugged, you are taking that person's ability to react to the situation and then you're taking advantage of them. It does feel like there's a shift happening right now and you've been speaking out a lot.

I really am just speaking out because the fact is the industry is changing. not safe for young talent. And when young talent come into the industry, we need to be there to support them and to be guiding them and advising them in the right way. And I feel like there's some people... that are not speaking up truthfully.

I really am just speaking out because the fact is the industry is changing. not safe for young talent. And when young talent come into the industry, we need to be there to support them and to be guiding them and advising them in the right way. And I feel like there's some people... that are not speaking up truthfully.

I would never say that somebody else that went to these events and had an incident happen to them, well, I don't believe them because I didn't see it. I don't believe them. I think everything in that industry that's come out about Incidents, individuals, I believe them. I truly believe them. Because unless you're in it and you understand what you're in, you don't know.

I would never say that somebody else that went to these events and had an incident happen to them, well, I don't believe them because I didn't see it. I don't believe them. I think everything in that industry that's come out about Incidents, individuals, I believe them. I truly believe them. Because unless you're in it and you understand what you're in, you don't know.

When you're around people that nobody says no to, you have the finances to get anything you want. And remember, these people are human beings. Humans are flawed. So you put this celebrity on a pedestal, And you think this person can never do anything wrong? No wrong whatsoever?

When you're around people that nobody says no to, you have the finances to get anything you want. And remember, these people are human beings. Humans are flawed. So you put this celebrity on a pedestal, And you think this person can never do anything wrong? No wrong whatsoever?

The reason why I kept going back to social events like this is because it was encouraged by my agents at the time that this is how you make a way in the industry. This is how you make your connections. It is very overwhelming to do this. People don't understand how brave you have to be because, you know, people want to hurt you for saying the truth.

The reason why I kept going back to social events like this is because it was encouraged by my agents at the time that this is how you make a way in the industry. This is how you make your connections. It is very overwhelming to do this. People don't understand how brave you have to be because, you know, people want to hurt you for saying the truth.

And so this is why I'm very limited to who I speak to, where I go about this circumstances, because I have to be worried about my safety. But I'm never going to not talk about my experience because somebody is trying to scare me into not saying something. I know that it's my truth. I know what I saw. I know what I experienced. I know what I went through.

And so this is why I'm very limited to who I speak to, where I go about this circumstances, because I have to be worried about my safety. But I'm never going to not talk about my experience because somebody is trying to scare me into not saying something. I know that it's my truth. I know what I saw. I know what I experienced. I know what I went through.

And all I'm trying to do is bring awareness to young talent so it doesn't happen to them. That's it.

And all I'm trying to do is bring awareness to young talent so it doesn't happen to them. That's it.

No, this is the thing. I don't think that it makes sense for me, the period of time that it's gone, I don't have a police report and I wasn't sexually assaulted, right? So I have to think logically. I know I would love to. I would love to. I don't think also the civil, right? Civil is just for payout, right? It's compensation.

No, this is the thing. I don't think that it makes sense for me, the period of time that it's gone, I don't have a police report and I wasn't sexually assaulted, right? So I have to think logically. I know I would love to. I would love to. I don't think also the civil, right? Civil is just for payout, right? It's compensation.

Well, what didn't I see? These events, it's like a movie, right? You walk into this

Well, what didn't I see? These events, it's like a movie, right? You walk into this

extremely lavish lifestyle right it's like a music video everything it just looks like a million dollars right it just is beautiful there's there's champagne there's beautiful women there's beautiful men there's the architecture of the building is just like wow like you're just in awe of it all behind all of this is the craziness as well so you're experiencing both sides Don't get me wrong.

extremely lavish lifestyle right it's like a music video everything it just looks like a million dollars right it just is beautiful there's there's champagne there's beautiful women there's beautiful men there's the architecture of the building is just like wow like you're just in awe of it all behind all of this is the craziness as well so you're experiencing both sides Don't get me wrong.

I had a good time up until certain points of like each event and stuff because it is so amazing. Like, for example, you're right next to somebody you used to watch on television. Like you're right there going, oh, my God, this is insane. I could just touch them if I wanted to. That's how close I was to these household names.

I had a good time up until certain points of like each event and stuff because it is so amazing. Like, for example, you're right next to somebody you used to watch on television. Like you're right there going, oh, my God, this is insane. I could just touch them if I wanted to. That's how close I was to these household names.

as models and as new talent, we were amongst these people who are very well established. And so... There is an appeal to that. There is a feeling that you feel, wow, I'm accepted. I don't know, you feel like you're one of the crowd of fabulous people that you had imagined to be a part of. I mean, there is nothing in this world than Hollywood. That is a whole different world.

as models and as new talent, we were amongst these people who are very well established. And so... There is an appeal to that. There is a feeling that you feel, wow, I'm accepted. I don't know, you feel like you're one of the crowd of fabulous people that you had imagined to be a part of. I mean, there is nothing in this world than Hollywood. That is a whole different world.

It is eye-opening and surprising and exciting, but then it's also scary because you have no idea... Why do these older men fancy me? I look like a 20-year-old. I look much younger, actually, to be honest. For example, I would talk to some of these rappers or athletes and they would be much older than me.

It is eye-opening and surprising and exciting, but then it's also scary because you have no idea... Why do these older men fancy me? I look like a 20-year-old. I look much younger, actually, to be honest. For example, I would talk to some of these rappers or athletes and they would be much older than me.

I don't think I was insecure, but I was just like, why do they like... I look like a girl, like a little girl. Like, what interest does this grown man have with me? And I would always question that because... All of the rappers that you see, all of the athletes, they love girls that look... They don't necessarily like them looking... like older women. They like the young face, the nice body.

I don't think I was insecure, but I was just like, why do they like... I look like a girl, like a little girl. Like, what interest does this grown man have with me? And I would always question that because... All of the rappers that you see, all of the athletes, they love girls that look... They don't necessarily like them looking... like older women. They like the young face, the nice body.

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It's very difficult to explain. And this is, I really want to make this point as well, which I'm really, I've noticed a lot of people have said this to me. And I want to make this really clear. Because I said I saw something and I didn't see something else doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Doesn't mean it didn't happen. They show you what they think you are okay with.

Playboy and Diddy Parties, for me, my experience was slightly different, right? So when you're a Playboy bunny... What you are feeling amongst the of the situation when you're there, you have to please the people that have paid thousands of pounds to be a part of these events because they're raising money for charity or whatever else they're raising money for.

So you feel like you need to make sure that these, you know, high rollers are having a great time. With the Diddy Party, it was more of a networking thing for me. So there is sex everywhere. Lots of girls were getting half naked, completely naked in the pool. Loads of drinking and drug taking. Drugs freely offered to you? Freely offered. As you arrive. Would you like some Coke? Do you want some?

I say no, then it's a big deal. Oh my God, why don't you do drugs? Why don't you take drugs? I'm like, because I don't do drugs. I never have, I don't...

really want to participate you guys have fun enjoy enjoy and I would have to play it off I would have to like kind of make it a funny situation to not make them feel uncomfortable but the moment I used to take my phone out if I'm just texting a friend or whatever they would be looking at me they would be like oh what are you doing on the phone like what are you doing like in a joking way so but there were cameras there

I worked with them for two and a half years, almost three years. I was going to events. I was signing calendars. I was doing photo shoots. I modeled the lingerie company brand. And so, yeah, I had an opportunity to travel around the US. And I was able to work with the company for quite some time.

There were CCTV cameras. There were... Cameras in the bedrooms? There was cameras in the bedrooms, in the hallways, everywhere. The property of... The value of it is expensive, right? So they're having these cameras around to secure the property, I'm assuming. In bedrooms? I'm assuming.

Yeah, I just want to focus on that also. It is not specific just to him. It's about individuals in the entertainment industry using their power and abusing their power for the next generation, the younger talent.

And the opportunities that I got through working with Playboy really offered a lot of other opportunities that came up in other avenues of modeling. It allowed me to meet and greet other people at these fantastic, fabulous events.

If it was held at Hugh Hefner's house or it was at a golf retreat, we had those opportunities there that allowed the bunnies to be exposed to executives in the industry who can book you for something else. So, yeah, it was a really good opportunity. There were positives and there's negatives. We were always advertising Playboy. I mean, everything we had was, it was all over us.

We had the hats, we had the socks, we had the, you know, the shirts, the jackets, the jumpers, you name it. Like, we were branded from head to toe. Yes, you're like early influencers, really, what we class as influencers now. We were ahead of the game. Like, we were doing things way before all this Instagram came about. Now, you've described it as a unique job. I think unique's a phrase.

It is a unique job because I don't think I know anybody else doing something particularly like this. There is a casting process and the casting process is basically like any model job. You have to go in, you have to meet somebody who is going to basically book you for this gig. You have to go in lingerie or a bikini. You take some Polaroids and they'll then decide if you're suitable for the role.

I arrived in New York 2005 and it took me a couple of years to find my way. And I initially started going to parties in 2007.

Well, when I got signed to the New York agency that I did initially when I was 18 years old and I moved to New York when I was 19, you know, 19 going on 20. And for me, it was part of the industry that we were made aware of very quickly. Socially, you needed to go out there. So we went to socialise to meet people that we could possibly never meet in our lives.

And our agents and managers at the time would encourage us to go to these events. They wouldn't force you, but they would be like, well, Precious, if you've been invited, I think it's good for your career if you go. But there is a more sinister side to it. Yeah, of course. I mean, with every good there is bad.

And so people need to understand the entertainment industry is a very difficult one to navigate, especially when you don't have the right people around you, or you don't have the right people directing you in the direction of safety, looking out for your, you know, not just... get that job, book that job so I can get my percent, you know.

They are encouraging you for your safety and doing the right thing. Back then, we didn't have that. I don't feel I had that. I had to figure it out very quickly on my own.

Yeah, I mean, my exposure to the industry was... Industry parties, and then came the Diddy parties at the Hamptons. And then later on was the Playboy Mansion. That was the progression of my 10 years in New York. And yeah, initially, when I was exposed to this industry, it was a smaller event. I was told to, you know, to come to this amazing party. It's going to be great.

There's going to be lots of people that you can network with and there's opportunities there. There could be casting directors looking for new models for something. Like, you need to go. So here's me in Manhattan. The party consisted of a lot of people that are in the entertainment industry, a lot of people that are in hip-hop, in the music industry.

And I met a few of the inner circle friends that are very close to Diddy and the same people I saw throughout the 10-year period of hanging out with this inner circle of entertainment industry people. And yeah, the first real initiation, I guess, was me taking a sip of alcohol that basically changed my life.

The way I was approached these situations after that, like I literally was not able to let my guard down after that. That experience of me being drugged. set me up for the rest of my period of time in New York. I knew that for my safety, I had to be fully aware of what I was doing every step of the way after that really horrific incident that happened to me.

I don't really remember too much after obviously being drugged because I was immediately felt a reaction. Now, as a person who doesn't do drugs, as a person who only casually drinks, I'm more of a champagne girl than vodka and cranberry. It really hit me and affected me in a very bad way. And the reaction that I received when I drank that one sip was...

one of the most horrific things I've ever been through in my entire life. It was so scary at the time because I didn't know what was happening to me. I didn't know exactly how to deal with it. And because I was reacting in such a bad way,

thank god somebody saw me and the venue security guard came over and helped me in the situation but I don't know if if I had just been left with the people that I was with what could have happened to me I honestly don't know if I hadn't been saved by that person where it could have gone the rest of the night it could have turned into something else

So this is the thing. Think about the logic of it. I was new to the industry. I didn't know really anybody at that time. I did go and see a doctor. I was checked out, but I did not report it to the police. And this is what I really... I really regret in my life that I should have, at the time, gone to the police.

I know it sounds really bad, but because I wasn't violated in any way, I just thought that, let me just get through this. Like, let me just get past this part. Like, I was drugged, I'm OK now, I wasn't hurt, like, sexually violated. I wasn't encouraged to make a police report and I should have at the time gone to the police and made that police report.

I can't, just, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Yes, because it's a situation you just can't... You can't understand until you're in it.

And how people get through it and have gone through something even worse, I don't honestly know how they can. Honestly. Because in my career, I've spoken about this and I'm very comfortable in speaking about it because... I tell you what, the fact that I was drugged and I was unable to protect myself, I was unable to figure out how can I get through this situation.

I literally lost one side of my face was gone. I could not feel I could not hold myself up. I was not able to protect myself if anybody in that room wanted to do something to me. I stopped it, right? I was able to stop the situation. But only because of that guy, the security guard, and I need to stress venue security guard, was able to help me get out of that situation.

If it wasn't for him, I don't know what would have happened to me. And so that's why I say like, The drugging is the issue because when you are drugged, you are taking that person's ability to react to the situation and then you're taking advantage of them. It does feel like there's a shift happening right now and you've been speaking out a lot.

I really am just speaking out because the fact is the industry is changing. not safe for young talent. And when young talent come into the industry, we need to be there to support them and to be guiding them and advising them in the right way. And I feel like there's some people... that are not speaking up truthfully.

I would never say that somebody else that went to these events and had an incident happen to them, well, I don't believe them because I didn't see it. I don't believe them. I think everything in that industry that's come out about Incidents, individuals, I believe them. I truly believe them. Because unless you're in it and you understand what you're in, you don't know.

When you're around people that nobody says no to, you have the finances to get anything you want. And remember, these people are human beings. Humans are flawed. So you put this celebrity on a pedestal, And you think this person can never do anything wrong? No wrong whatsoever?

The reason why I kept going back to social events like this is because it was encouraged by my agents at the time that this is how you make a way in the industry. This is how you make your connections. It is very overwhelming to do this. People don't understand how brave you have to be because, you know, people want to hurt you for saying the truth.

And so this is why I'm very limited to who I speak to, where I go about this circumstances, because I have to be worried about my safety. But I'm never going to not talk about my experience because somebody is trying to scare me into not saying something. I know that it's my truth. I know what I saw. I know what I experienced. I know what I went through.

And all I'm trying to do is bring awareness to young talent so it doesn't happen to them. That's it.

No, this is the thing. I don't think that it makes sense for me, the period of time that it's gone, I don't have a police report and I wasn't sexually assaulted, right? So I have to think logically. I know I would love to. I would love to. I don't think also the civil, right? Civil is just for payout, right? It's compensation.

Well, what didn't I see? These events, it's like a movie, right? You walk into this

extremely lavish lifestyle right it's like a music video everything it just looks like a million dollars right it just is beautiful there's there's champagne there's beautiful women there's beautiful men there's the architecture of the building is just like wow like you're just in awe of it all behind all of this is the craziness as well so you're experiencing both sides Don't get me wrong.

I had a good time up until certain points of like each event and stuff because it is so amazing. Like, for example, you're right next to somebody you used to watch on television. Like you're right there going, oh, my God, this is insane. I could just touch them if I wanted to. That's how close I was to these household names.

as models and as new talent, we were amongst these people who are very well established. And so... There is an appeal to that. There is a feeling that you feel, wow, I'm accepted. I don't know, you feel like you're one of the crowd of fabulous people that you had imagined to be a part of. I mean, there is nothing in this world than Hollywood. That is a whole different world.

It is eye-opening and surprising and exciting, but then it's also scary because you have no idea... Why do these older men fancy me? I look like a 20-year-old. I look much younger, actually, to be honest. For example, I would talk to some of these rappers or athletes and they would be much older than me.

I don't think I was insecure, but I was just like, why do they like... I look like a girl, like a little girl. Like, what interest does this grown man have with me? And I would always question that because... All of the rappers that you see, all of the athletes, they love girls that look... They don't necessarily like them looking... like older women. They like the young face, the nice body.