Nala Ray
Appearances
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And so again, it's just like this tier, you know, they're asking for stuff. It's like supply and demand. Like they're asking for me for more and more and more. And at this point I've already gone so far. Why not take the next step? It's such a slippery slope because if you're like, Oh, well I've already done nudes. So like they've already seen me naked. Like why can't I just do a video nude?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
You know what I'm saying? Like what's the difference? Again, it's just a slippery slope. So then you continue to compromise to what your customers want and you make more money off of it.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Uh, my consistent, consistent number was 230,000 to 300,000 a month. That was like the most consistent I was.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And we all, like all of us kids had no idea why, like we were just like, oh my gosh, my dad is gone now. He's not in the picture anymore. And then so slowly after that, my dad started reconnecting with my mom again, supposedly like they fell in love again, and then they remarried two years later.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
You know, I, you know, what was happening was I was like very starved for attention and like, I like being noticed. So for me, it was a big insecurity thing and they would compliment me like nobody would, you know, obviously it's not the right kind of complimenting, but it was still complimenting. And I was like, I'll feed off of that. So I continued to take it.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And now I didn't start porn until like, So my parents found out that I was doing OnlyFans.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Like seven months in, they found out I was on OnlyFans.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So my dad found out because at the job he was working at the time, his shop guys told him that I was on OnlyFans and that they had seen a video of me. So he calls me and I was like, well, I'm not going to deny it. Yeah, I'm on OnlyFans. I'm making this much money per month. And he was like, oh my God.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And then one thing my dad told me was he was like, well, if I was your age, I'd be doing the same thing. So that's how he found out. And then my mom, I was out at dinner with my parents one night and the waiter comes up to me and is like, are you Nala Ray? And I was like, oh God, like... No. And it's hard because I'm like bright red hair in a small town.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So like all my mom did was Google that and she just found everything. So she wrote me a really nasty email, like not even like talking to me, just like wrote me an email and was like, like, this is not what God has for you. Like that.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
really condescending like i'm really disappointed in you like i can't believe you quit your other job blah blah blah so because at the time i was just lying to them like they think that i'm still at the other job so and now they don't know so the people that birthed you that were claiming to be in love your mom says not it
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So this is the crazy part. My mom did not know that was my dad's response because when we met up in person the day before I moved to California, my dad had to act like he was disappointed in me. So my dad and I had a relationship at that time. My mom and I did not. But in front of my mom, my dad couldn't act like that because then he would be in trouble. You know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So it was a really crazy story and but like a happy story for us kids because we're like, oh, great, mom and dad are back together again. So at that point, I was like 11, almost 12. My dad shortly after that started getting into ministry and like we started going to church. And then very shortly after that, he became like a Baptist pastor.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So I protected him and was just like going along with his spiel towards me. Like he was like being condescending in person because he was around her. But on the inside, had already said that to me. You know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
buy him stuff with the money so you were making i used to send my dad money like over like two hundred thousand dollars worth of money like in total you said in total yeah oh my gosh over months like because ever when i moved to california my dad would call me like the only one in my my family i spoke to was my dad and so he would just call me and it was like every time we got on the phone it was like
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Hey honey, like I'm really struggling right now. Could you like send me some, like, I just really appreciate it so much. Or Hey, like my other two siblings were going through like some lawyer cases, like one for a kid and then one for a divorce. And like, I was just like, hair. Yeah. Like take the money, bro. Like here, take it. But like, I just wanted a relationship with my dad.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So I didn't see what he was doing was like wrong.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And for me, I was just like, you know, I can support him. Like I'm making good money. Like why, why shouldn't I? But my, none of my family knew that that money was from me. My dad was telling him it's just from him. Whoa. So like that really split my family too of like not liking me and all that stuff.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Cause they, they just thought I like left and like said, peace out when really I'm funding their lives, you know? So that really hurt my feelings a lot because then my dad said my dad specifically told me like, hey, if your mom found out, she'd be so sad. She'd be so disappointed if she found if you if she found out like I was sending money and not talking to her.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I'm like, well, what do you want me to talk to her about? Like she she clearly she made it very clear to me that she doesn't want to talk to me. So like, why would it disappoint her even more? You know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So it just didn't make sense. But I just kept letting it go and letting it go. But yeah.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I don't know. I know my dad was on like steroids and stuff and my mom didn't know about it. My dad liked buying guns, like stuff like that. But that gets into our later story with him. But yeah.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
See, this is the, okay, so this is the thing that I needed to explain to people. So $14 million grossed, right? That is like the money I made OnlyFans. It's $14 million. So off the top OnlyFans takes 25%. So you make a net now that's much lower. It's probably down to like 9 million. So then on top of that, I worked with an agency who was like pimping me out basically.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
they're like making you more money making me more making them more money but like they were chatting to my people for for me like and they took a big chunk of that so like 40 off of everything off of my net now yeah so they took 40 off and then i was living in california and you know how expensive california is just state taxes alone my first year was 70 grand just state oh my gosh
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Um, we were, uh, pastoring like very tiny churches, like maybe total of like 45 people in a congregation.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Not even anything else. And I was like, whoa. So then you have California taxes that come into play. Right. And then whatever's left, I get. So it goes through like three tiers of big chunks being taken off. And then it's like, here's the rest.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Just like working with influencers. Gotcha. And I really wanted to be as far as possible away from my family. Yeah. Like you mean working with influencers on OnlyFans, like working with OnlyFans and TikTok and like because I was really getting big on TikTok at that time. So I was just like, oh, and I just wanted a new atmosphere. I was like, I knew I could get more work done.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I knew I'd feel like I'd probably be somebody there. And I kind of was like, I lived in a $4.3 million home. I drove a Porsche. I could rent any exotic car that I wanted. I had any designer bag that you could think of, like from all over the world. I went traveling all over the world by myself. Like it was like the life, you know?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And so, and that was also in tiny small towns in like the South. And, um, there was, we went through three like pretty big church splits. I couldn't tell you what the reason was for those like church splits. Honestly, I really don't know, but it definitely felt like one divorce after another, you know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So it was back in 2023. We met in the end of September. I was scrolling through TikTok and he was live battling. He had like a bulletproof helmet on. He had his like four level plated vest on and he was like battling. So like a battle is like split screen between two creators and they're like, you know, going for as many points as possible. And so I jumped in his life. I loved his energy.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
He was like throwing his chair saying like pop off. And dude, I was obsessed. I was like, I love this guy's energy. So I didn't think anything of it. So I just started sending gifts and we won that battle. And I was like, oh, yeah, and I'm very competitive. And so is he. So we were just like, yes, like it just gives you like a dopamine rush when you win a battle. Like I'm telling you, it's crazy.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So shortly after he just messaged me on TikTok and was like, hey, thank you so much. I was like, yeah, whatever. You know, like he doesn't know how loaded I am. Like I'm just like, whatever, bro. I just did it for like the fun of it. And then I saw he was live the very next night, did the exact same thing, won multiple battles in a row, like sending big gifts.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And then he reached out to me, sent me his phone number. I sent him my phone number. I didn't think anything of it. So then the next night I get a FaceTime call from him and I'm outside like both staffing and I'm like,
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
bow staffing yeah what is that like you uh it's like a big stick that you swing around and do ninja moves with oh yeah okay okay so i'm obsessed with bow staffing cool cool and um he facetimes me and i'm like why is this guy facetiming me like this is so weird like i didn't want to talk like i was just gifting you and so i pick up the phone i'm like out of breath and he's like
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Hey, I was like, hi. Like, what do you want? Like, what's up? And we just started talking. We stayed on the phone that night for like nine hours, just on FaceTime. Like he doesn't sleep. And like, we just stayed up so late just talking.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
asking each other awesome deep questions and I felt like such a connection with him and like it wasn't even about liking each other it was like I didn't have any friends in California like I know you know how fake it is but like on the other side of that when you're not a Christian it is just as fake Right.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And like you just feel like everybody like wants something from you and like nobody's actually there for you. So I didn't have like any friends and we continued to talk on FaceTime the next week, week and a half, like continued those awesome talks. And. I don't know, it really blossomed into like, we just became like best friends.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And so like a month later we decided to meet up in Nashville with some other friends, like other TikTokers. And we just like met for the first time in person. Like, obviously we're like, dang, he's cute. And she's like, he's like, dang, she cute. Like, you know what I'm saying? But nothing happened. It was like we stayed in two separate hotel rooms and we just like got to go out in person.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Because you continue to like, get to know the people of the church and start to love them. And then all of a sudden, like you're seeing this side of them that wasn't there in the beginning, like fighting, arguing, like disagreeing with your family. And then all of a sudden wanting your family out of the church. So yeah, it was pretty hectic as a kid, as like a younger preteen.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
He's the exact same as he is like online as he is in person. I love that. Got this like country twang. And I was like, dude, I grew up in the country. So I love that. And so...
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I don't know we clicked and continued to click but then like I told him I was like you know I'm on OnlyFans right like if like you know what I'm saying like I don't know if you know about that but like I am and like so in my heart I was like you know if he's gonna be done with me he needs to know this like he needs to know this and so I don't get hurt you know and he's like well I don't care
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So, and we just continued being friends. And later on, he had some questions about it. And I know it's like a hard territory to like go through, you know, because like if someone doesn't know who OnlyFans is, like what OnlyFans is, and he's not on that side of the internet, like it's a pretty broad world. Like it's pretty crazy. Like the promiscuity of it is wild. So... I don't know.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
We started talking about, you know, liking each other. And he made it very clear to me that he wouldn't date somebody who's on OnlyFans. And I was like, no, that's fair. That's very Christian. Like, but the one thing that Jordan did from like almost day one was like texted me Bible verses. And he would outright speak.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
He was very open about Christ with me and just like always telling me like, you know what? God has a better purpose for your your life. And you're so much more worthy than this. Like just speaking so much love over me, like God's love over me. And it was like. I'm just so thankful that Jordan listened to that call from God. You know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Like he was the one planting the seeds when nobody else was like, not even my own family. So Jordan just continued to plant those seeds. And in December, um, that's when I decided to give my life to Christ. I was like in my living room all alone and I was like staring at my fireplace and like this memory will be burned into my brain forever. Like that's, Just staring at the fire, sobbing.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And like sobbing was a really abnormal thing for me because I didn't feel anything. I was like heavy pot smoker at the time. So I was like numb, like numb to the bone. So like, I don't know, like I was staring at the fire crying. I was like, God, like you need to tell me something. And my Bible was out because like the week before I was cleaning out the shelves and I found my Bible from 2009.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And so I started looking through it and there's all these highlighted passages and like writing all over the Bible. And I was just like, God, you need to give me something because I have nothing right now. And then God just like so openly spoke to me and was like, I was all you ever needed. And that answered all of my questions, like everything that I was like, why?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Why is my materialistic thing bringing me nothing? I feel no love. I have no body in my life. Like why? He was just like so peacefully, just like I was all you ever needed. And again, like that just answered all of my questions that I had and I felt so peaceful and I didn't get saved right then and there. I just knew that I heard from Christ.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And so from there, like my heart really started getting softened and I really started getting convicted and I didn't know how to deal with all of that. But yeah, Like that Sunday, I told Jordan what had happened that night. He flew into California. We went to church that Sunday together and I got saved and I got baptized at that church. Fearless?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So that's where I got baptized and saved. And it was it was an incredible experience.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Well, like I completely thought that I was never going to get married. Like I was like, I've chosen this life. And like, I know that like a good, respectful man won't want to marry me. And like everyone outside of that, I don't want to marry like other than a good, respectful man. So I'm like, I'm just not going to get married. I won't have kids. I guess I'll just be this rich old woman.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
You know what I'm saying? Like I was completely okay with that.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Yeah. Like that's all I thought. I was like, well, you know, maybe I'll just have my fun in this life. And that's about it.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So I'm saved. Jordan asked me to be his okay well first what happened was um you know after Jordan had told me like he's not gonna date somebody who's on OnlyFans I'm like no I completely agree like you shouldn't like that's that's not right um so for me like God had been convicting convicting my heart and I'm like oh I have to get off of OnlyFans Like I spoke to his mom.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
His mom was such a prayer warrior for me in that time too. And I spoke to her about it. I was like, you know, like my heart is like waving right now. Like I don't know what to do. He's like, this is my only form of income. I'm really scared. Like, what do I do?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
you know and she walked me through like this like all of these like kind of options you know and she was just like you know no matter what you do you know like god loves you but you can't keep this door open of sin like it's literally it's taking you further away from christ yeah and i was like i got it because you know sin separates you from christ god never left us like we left him
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So I was like, okay. And I just continue to see this image on my head of this door of like black behind it. I was like, I got to shut that door. What is that door? It's OnlyFans. So after I spoke to her, I like, he was at the beach. I drove to find him on the beach and I just outright told him I'm deleting my OnlyFans. Like, and it was like this joyous moment.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Well, before they got divorced, there was no sense of spirituality before that. Like none whatsoever. We never attended churches or anything like that. So it was just like,
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Like it was like, oh my gosh, I'm free. Like I felt free and I was like, no way. So I'm deleted my only fans. Um, and then very shortly after like a week and a half after we were like in a dog park and he just asked me to be his girlfriend. And I was like, oh, that's so cool. It was just so cool to like just be gifted things like by Christ. You know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Like because I at that point, I love Jordan. Like I was like, dang, like this man has helped me through so much, has been there through all of this hard stuff.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
and um at that point what happened was like my dad stopped talking to me because i what i told him like hey i told him i was quitting only fans and like i got saved and he's like oh well that's great but you should stay on only fans at least another year and a half because you need to make yourself comfortable you know like this world's expensive and i was like what the heck are you kidding me like did you not just hear what i said like
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Because what's crazy is through that situation, my I was talking, I started getting more in contact with the siblings, like my siblings. And they started telling me that, like, I was like, oh, hey, by the way, I was the one who gave those those funds. And they were like, no way.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
doing our own thing as a family and but then after that he like slowly started getting into ministry like slowly going to church slowly started bringing his family into church they got married in the church that we were going to at the time it was a baptist church um and then we left that and that's um i was going to christian private school at that time very tiny tiny school uh for four years from like eighth grade no fourth through eighth grade um and then we went right back into homeschooling so
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Like, but then like the numbers didn't add up as far as like, as much as I had given him, the numbers didn't add up to what they got. So like my dad was like pocketing most of it. Yeah. So long story short, like we found out once again, my dad was cheating on my mom through that situation and they started like divorcing. Like they started the divorce process again. This was like,
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
seven, eight months ago. Oh, wow. So it's crazy. It's so rad. Crazy. But through that divorce process, my mom and dad got separate houses and my dad broke into my mom's home not that long ago with like a gun and knife and pepper spray and got sent to jail. So he's now like, and he had like so many guns that were like scratched off the registration or whatever on it.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And so he got even more charges because of that. So he's now like facing like they, the, the sentence was life. So, yeah.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Not only that, but I got in a car accident that same week. Um, there were so many things that happened. Uh, the, uh, we were also in, um, we were in tax season again. So I quit only fans. I'm no longer making that money. And my taxes were due and I owed like $300,000 in taxes. And I was like, Oh my God.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I was like, oh, I get it now. Like, cause going through OnlyFans, I really didn't go through much. Like my life was pretty okay. You know what I'm saying? Like there wasn't trials and tribulations on OnlyFans. Like if there was a problem, I paid for it. Yeah.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
what i'm saying but now like this is like real life stuff hitting once again and i was like no way i knew it was the enemy like but i continue to pursue christ in other things too like reading the bible worshiping praying my prayer life got so much stronger through that time because i was like wow i really need to see christ right now because the devil is trying real hard
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
But my, um, I got really convicted also about like my modesty and I was like, oh man, I need to go through my, I went through my entire closet or should I say closets? I went through all of my closets and just threw bags and bags and bags of stuff away. Like, cause I was like, well, I can't like give this to another woman because because then she'll wear it and like, it's still promiscuous.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So I was like, let me just throw it all away. So like, I went through that. Um, I was, I stopped smoking weed. Um, I like, especially with my cussing, like I cuss like a sailor. So like now I was like, oh man, I cannot be speaking like this. Like I'm a Christian. I represent Christ. Like the Bible specifically talks about having a foul language and how it's like,
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
It's not what God wants for you again. So there were so many little things in my life that really needed to change. It wasn't just only fans, but being obedient to God in all of the things helped me get so much closer to him. And it built my faith so extremely like the joy I have inside from like making, it wasn't even making sacrifices towards him. It was literally just saying no to the world.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I mean, he was already pastoring churches and stuff and we were traveling to other churches so he could be the pastor of it and stuff like that.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
You know, like, cause Jordan said something to me that blew my brain. I was like, he was like, you know, the devil can give you things too, but he has a budget. And I was like, wow. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like the devil can give you money. The devil can give you fame. The devil can give you a lot of things to keep you away from Christ. You know what I'm saying?
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
But God does not have a budget. You know, he is the owner of all things good. So like I knew that God was going to bless me through whatever, because even in the Bible, it says like, I will provide all of your needs. It doesn't say I'll provide all of your wants, but I will provide all of your needs. And what are needs like a house over our head, food in our stomachs, water to drink.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Those are needs. And if God promises he will provide, he's going to do it because otherwise he's a liar and he's not a liar.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
March. Yeah. We got married on Easter Sunday.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
Yeah. We got married in our backyard.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
No, it didn't feel random at all. It was just kind of like it kind of all of a sudden we started becoming spiritual. But then after that, we were going to church and he said he felt a calling on his life to be a pastor. So, you know, we just had to support him. So.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
So for me, like I just recently went back on the whatever podcast to clear those topics up. Because if people don't understand social media, let me clear it up for you. It's a lie. Social media is clickbait. You know what I'm saying? Like to get you to watch things, you sometimes and most of the time have to do crazy things, say crazy things, wear crazy things. Like I was wearing ears.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
You know what I'm saying? Like I was wearing furry ears, had like my boobs hanging out. Like I was literally full sending it. I had bright red hair. I was acting crazy. You know what I'm saying? But I knew like, I know what it takes to get viral. Like I'm, I've been on social media at this point for years and years and years.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
I've been on so many podcasts and I was like, for me, if I'm going into a podcast, like I'm going to say radical things. You know what I'm saying? Cause I know one, I know men's minds. Like I know that in their mind, if they think I'm going to cheat, they think in some way they have a chance with me. You know what I'm saying? So again, like it goes back to, I just wanted to make money.
The Bryce Crawford Podcast
How Jesus SAVED EX OnlyF*ns Model (EP 54)
And that's just using people. So for me, when I see that clip, cause it pops up a lot, I'm like, man, I don't even recognize her. Like I feel so bad for her, you know, but like, I'm really good at business. Like I'm really good at being viral. Like I'm just really good at it.
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That's how I feel too. It was like such a gift. Again, that was like one of the gifts that God gave me out of being obedient. Like he gave me a husband, which I never thought I either deserved or whatever half. So like, I don't know for people out there, I want to spread so much awareness. And like, I can only speak from like the only fan side, but like,
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I've seen so many clips from OnlyFans girls saying these wild things, you know? And I'm like, clickbait. You know what I'm saying? Like, I was there. I know. Like, they say things. I used to say things to get your attention and for you to subscribe. You know what I'm saying? Like, that was the main purpose. And they bite it. You know, the consumers eat it up.
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So, like, again, whether I said it or not, which I did, obviously. Me saying it like you still bought it. You know what I'm saying? And for me, I clearly stated in that podcast that I had been single for almost two years. Who am I cheating on? I was literally like, I'm single for almost two years. Oh, I like to cheat. I'm like, how does that make sense to you?
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So I'm like, again, you're not even listening to the context. You're listening to like the hook and you're biting it.
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I feel like one of the first people to push back. Because like before me, there's not girls talking about their experience on OnlyFans. Like I don't see it anywhere. So I'm like, you know what? I've got to make a difference with Christ on my side. You know what I'm saying? Like let's win this victory. Because if I could spread any kind of awareness, it would be do not get on OnlyFans.
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And to the men, do not buy from OnlyFans. Like you're buying a lie here. One, you're not even talking to the girl. So like that's out of the picture. You're not speaking to the girl. I guarantee it because almost every girl is being signed by an agency who is being pimped out by those guys. You're literally talking to like a 30-year-old man in India who's sending you their nudes.
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So it's a lie. You're thinking you're starting this relationship with this girl or this guy on OnlyFans and you're not. All they care about is the money that you're giving them. And for like the people on OnlyFans, because there's both guys and girls, like it's the easiest way to make money.
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but you're selling your soul to it's not even to the devil but you're just like selling it to this to money like you're literally selling yourself to get money you are a prostitute you you are literally like no better than that and like in that moment yes but like there's so much redemption and it doesn't matter who you are or what you have done
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jesus loves you and jesus will and can save you so there's nothing like you're never too far gone and that was such a testimony for me because i'm looking at myself in this like mirror like you know god you don't even know what i've done and god's like dude i've known i knew before you did it you know and i still love you you know and that was a crazy like that was just awesome
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But yeah, Jordan and I started this company, Be The Change to eventually start our non for profit race to change. So because we feel very called to go do mission work. We started sponsoring a kid through World Vision, and that was our first kid. He sponsored kids before, but this was my first child to sponsor.
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And it like it made me want to cry. I was like, Oh, man, I want to go meet these kids. And I actually want to go help in person because I have such a heart for kids. And Jordan wants to do like the building of churches, building wells, like all that kind of like manual labor.
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So that's like the reason behind be the change is mainly because anyone at any time in any industry anywhere in the world could be the change. You have to stand up wherever you are
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and be that change and we're seeing this like small ripple effect going on in all the industries right now not just porn but like the movie industry like someone randomly got saved and it's not proclaiming christ and like foot big football teams are randomly giving their life to christ it's not random but you know what i'm saying like it's out of the blue uh in the music industry like it's so beautiful to see god like having people all over the world planting seeds in every industry
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All over the world. And you're like the head marketing director for OnlyFans in Australia just quit her job and gave her life to Christ.
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And our slogan is like, it all starts with you because it does. Nobody can make you do that. It is a day to day walk with Christ, picking up your cross daily and following him. So again, it just starts with you and you could like if Jordan was disobedient to God, we would not be here. You know what I'm saying? Absolutely.
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Like if he didn't obey God to come and talk to me about the gospel and share what God's love looked like. we would not be on this couch right now. So Jordan started that change, which then affected me, which then affected, I've had so many OnlyFans girls reach out to me and be like, one, how do I get saved? And two, how do I get off of OnlyFans? And what do you do after OnlyFans?
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And so Jordan and I also started a company, it's the Be The Change TikTok agency. So, cause I go TikTok live now for work. And so- We are we started the agency to help pull OnlyFans girls off of TikTok and help that are off of OnlyFans and to get them on TikTok live because you can make a lot of money on that. And it's good, clean work.
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You know, you're just talking to friends and family kind of thing. Like, it's really fun. So. Yeah, we feel like a really big calling to help people no matter what and not just help, because like even God says, like in the parable, like about, you know, if you can't just pray for someone to get food, you need to go get them food.
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You know, if there's someone is cold, like, don't just be like, oh, God, please give them a coat. Give them the coat off your back. You know what I'm saying? So help provide for them. And I think that's like really strong message too. And like starting like an agency, um, is just helping people get out of that lifestyle and into a new one while they're healing and stuff.
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It didn't seem like it. Cause like they were married first before they got into Christianity again for the second time married and then slowly started being in the church more and more. And then that's when my dad felt the calling on his life to be a pastor. So, um, like as a kid, like when he was pastoring, I couldn't tell you one sermon that I remember or anything like that.
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I just remember like all of us kids were like had to do things in the church. Like we have to show face for the church. You know, we have to be there super early in the morning, greet people as they're coming in, be on the worship team, be in Sunday school, like leaders of all these little tiny things. Like there was a puppet class.
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Like we had to be involved in that because again, we're the pastor's family, stuff like that, you know? And it just felt so forced. It wasn't like, I actually want to be here. I actually want to do this. This is like, my dad and mom are telling me to do this. I have to do this.
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Fourth. No, I'd say I was in fifth or sixth grade to 18 years old.
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I didn't have friends. It was just my siblings. You know what I'm saying? Being at home a lot. I started working a job at 15. I wanted to be out of my house so bad. Like I hated my environment. I felt so alone and so isolated and just kind of like a caged bird, you know, and I just wanted to leave so bad because again, it just felt like
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we have to do all of these things um and then I had my first boyfriend when I was 16 he was going to the church he ended up like was just crazy and like slashed the tires on my car and stuff we had to go yeah we had to get we had to get a restraining order against him and his family because they were just horrible people and so um like that was my first like dating experience um so
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very intense it was horrible it was absolutely horrible but yeah so much of my life just changed constantly and then like the hurt from my parents going through those church splits and there were still trust issues from the cheating and like that carried out through their relationship and like they i in my head in my opinion it was never shown that like this was a really good healthy relationship
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Me personally, I wish they would have stayed divorced. I feel like they weren't really meant to be together. That's great that you popped out five kids, but after that, what about us? What about our mental health? What about our lives? We were just shoved into the church and expected to do things.
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for them you know like little workers you know instead of actually wanting to be there and like they didn't really care about our spirituality like they never checked in on us about how we're feeling or if we had questions it was just show up you know what i'm saying and it sucked it really sucked whoa so
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Wow, that's awesome. That's the whole point about it.
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Absolutely. Because I'm like, if this is Christianity, if this is what it's like having a relationship with God, I don't see the benefit in it. Like, what is what is God doing for us? Like when our family's crumbling, you know, and then we just keep getting excluded from church after church. So I'm like, so why aren't we welcomed anywhere? Why does that being in my own home not feel welcoming?
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You know, so I'm like, I just want to leave. You know, so I started working at 15, started working so many hours and just trying to get a car. You know, so I bought my first truck and I was like, yes, I have some freedom. But then even that, like my parents were like, you have to be home in a certain time, which is a very normal parenting tactic, you know, giving your child like curfews.
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But even so, like that, like want to leave just kept growing and growing and growing. So at like 17, I started like sneaking out of my house at night, like like super early in the morning, like 2 a.m. and coming back at like 5 a.m. and just like meeting boys or trying to meet people because I felt so sheltered, like I'm not meeting anybody but church people, you know what I'm saying?
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And I was just like, dude, I don't even feel like I get to be a kid. I just have to meet with old adults at church and that's it. You know what I'm saying? It just felt like My life sucked. That's what it felt like as a teenager. I don't, I don't even feel like I had a teenage years or even like a kid years. You know what I'm saying?
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It feels like it all left and it went by so fast and I don't know. I just, I wish it was different, you know, so badly.
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I feel that way with my parents a lot. Like, you know, if, if my dad wanted to cheat it on my mom, kind of like that hurt wouldn't have never been there to, for, to begin with and like fester it really, like they didn't receive healing from that experience. So it really carried on throughout their marriage. And so I'm like, dang, if he would have never done that to, to like our family and left.
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So I actually grew up in Illinois, like a really tiny, tiny, small town. Um, my family dynamic, I'm the middle of five children, so a total family of seven. And, you know, we weren't Christians, especially when I was a kid, but we traveled a whole bunch because I was homeschooled. And so, uh, yeah, we traveled a lot in a camper just to like kind of see a lot of America, I guess, as a family.
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Cause like when you're a kid and you're one of your parents leaves, like is no longer present in the home. it damages you so much because like you're missing that other half, that other half that's supposed to be helping you in life. And then you now feel kind of like you're on your own.
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And that's like, it's like a really scary position to be in as a kid because you just have so many questions and you want love. Like as a kid, like that's a really, all you want is your love from your parents and, But then my mom went through a really big like depression stage like while I was homeschooled and would just like stay in her room for days on end.
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And if she did come out, she was just like looked like she'd been crying, hasn't been eating kind of thing. And then like you're just like, oh, what do we do now? Like you're my teacher, too. Like I need help on schoolwork, you know.
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I mean, I'd say I was a little bit more after my dad came back. I wanted to build that relationship with my dad again. I missed him so much. And then like we did kind of have a better relationship than with when I did like with my mom. My mom and I haven't really ever had a good relationship, which I do hope it changes.
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But my dad and I got pretty close, more so in my 20s, like when I started OnlyFans.
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I did. Yeah. I wanted to be a dental hygienist.
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SCF in Florida. So yeah, they had like three locations.
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Well, I went for two years. Um, yeah. So, but then I just didn't complete my major. I dropped out because I got a job in orthopedics and I, I really liked the medical field. So I was like, cool. I have my big girl job. I have benefits. Like I don't really need to continue in college.
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Like I, cause I was full time in college and that was so much work and I was paying for college out of my own pocket. It was very expensive. So I was like, well, if I want to go get my own place, um, I need to quit college and I just need to work full time. So I did that and I felt a lot of freedom in that. Like I finally got my first apartment.
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I don't need to go to college anymore.
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Like pretty decent, like 3,500 a month.
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well i think it's pretty good that's pretty good and so so you were doing that okay keep going i didn't mean to cut you off i'm just like dang like like that i feel like not a lot of people get that circumstance i agree i agree but i worked for like two years in that job okay i just i noticed that i wasn't being promoted at all like they gave me some more responsibilities like as in like helping hire and stuff but i didn't get paid more for it
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So again, like I was like, okay, like if I need to like stick this out a little bit longer to potentially get a raise, like I'll do it. Cause I'm like a really hard worker. I'll pour my life into my work because it's like distracting, you know what I like that. So I worked for two years there. And then that's when the opportunity for only fans came along when I was like 20, 21.
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This random person on Instagram messaged me and was like, hey, you'd be great for OnlyFans. I had no idea what OnlyFans was. We were just about to get into COVID at that time, like 2019. So just about to hit it. And I had no idea who this guy was. I had no presence on social media, like maybe 10,000 followers on Instagram, but no other platform. It was on like nothing else. So I was like, huh?
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Um, and it sounded all like great, you know, like as a kid, kid, like it was, it was pretty fun. Um, and then I guess like a couple, like when I was nine, my, um, dad cheated on my mom and then they got divorced for two years. Um, and so he left, he completely left the picture and moved to Mexico. So we didn't get to see my dad for like two years.
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So I did some digging, found out what OnlyFans was. He told me some of the benefits of it, told me that I could make a bunch of money off of it. And I was like, oh, OK, like, well, what do you do? Just like sell pictures like what? Like what? He was like, well, yeah, you can do anything on there. Like it's a subscription based website. So I was like, OK, cool. So I started doing that.
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But I started off completely just selling like.
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really promiscuous pictures of myself and like making some custom videos like talking to one of the subscribers you know what I'm saying yeah like and I started making wicked money so much so that in my first month on OnlyFans I worked so hard towards it started a TikTok started a Facebook and then like started promoting it like crazy and then I made 87 grand that first month
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That's what I thought. I was like, oh, I'm quitting. Like I'm quitting this job. You know, like I was like. That's crazy.
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No, he wasn't. He was just so on OnlyFans. I don't know if it still has this, but you can refer people. And if you refer a person and they make good money on there, you get like 3% of what they make.
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So he was just out there to like recruit and make mad money.
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I never recruited under him, though, because I thought he was scamming me. So I never recruited under him. So whatever.
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a couple months go by, I'm doing the same thing, but I'm not earning more than that. So, but like what kept coming in was like requests to do more, like not like even just porn, but like other kinds of videos. And I was like, oh, well, you know, like it's okay with me. Like, I, I don't know. I just felt like I could do it and I did it and it started to really increase my revenue.