Molly O'Connell
Appearances
The Viall Files
E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Hi, thanks for having me. We're so excited.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I've been all right. I moved into a new house recently. That's new, but nothing really, nothing crazy.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah, in Charleston. We found out that my old house had black mold in the vents.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah, so... Um, my roommate saw like it coming out of the vents cause he worked out in the corner where this weird vent was. And he was like, Oh my God, there's mold here. So we had people check and we looked in every single event in the house and it had it all in the vent and the HVAC system.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Um, I always have bad allergies, but it was worse. And my roommate got diagnosed with like asthma and they were giving a bunch of inhalers over the past year. So we think it had been happening for a while and we didn't realize it.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I had to kind of like emergently move out of there really quickly. Oh, right. During the premiere of the show. And then I got asked to do watch what happens live. And I was like actively moving when I had to leave for that. So it was just a lot.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I've just been friends with all of them for a while. I think Whitney and Madison, I mean, they're my main people. So they're just like, you're friends with everybody. And they just asked me to come on.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I have not. I sent him like a meme or something.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
yes no no no i mean it's the least you could do he's heartbroken i mean i know right you know just a little you know a little boob throw him a bone no no i did not i just sent him like some i don't even remember what it was nothing crazy um or like flirty or anything just underwear oh it was not a water slide it was a water slide thing so yeah no i have not i have not checked in on him i feel like i'm just gonna let him
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I mean, I would assume so. I saw the video that he posted kind of addressing what had happened. And he was smiling, but it looked like a pained smile. A sad smile. So I felt, yeah, it was very depressing. So yeah, I mean, I'm not trying to like go jump on someone who's... healing. And we haven't been like that in years. So I'm not like, you know, how was it filming this season of Southern charm?
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
It was, it was fun. I'm, I'm really high stress, um, all the time. I'm like very high strung. So I was always like, Oh my God, am I boring? Does everyone hate me? Like every, every situation I go into, I'm like, I overthink it and I'm like, Oh no, but I actually think it went really well. Everybody was super welcoming and nice. And, um,
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I was afraid like, you know, that it may be clicky and like new people on the show, even though we're friends. I just didn't know how that was going to go. And like working, technically working with my friends now being their coworkers. But it was actually a lot easier than I thought it would be. And I've gotten super good feedback from, you know, everything that's been that's aired so far.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Oh my gosh. Yeah. I mean, he's just, he's, he's very insensitive sometimes, but we know that about him, you know, it's like, he's charming, but then also he can be like very blunt and, you know, not the most sensitive to the situation. But I think it was more of, I had just been talking about how much weight I'd gained and how uncomfortable I was. And so he was just being
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
problem solving, I guess, and being like, well, maybe the cupcake is not what you need if you're trying to lose weight. And I'm like, but people don't understand. Like if you have a bad relationship with food, you know, those kinds of comments can be very unhelpful. I don't know if they're helpful for anyone. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, not, not really. No. And just let me have a cupcake.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
It's not like I'm eating cupcakes all day long.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I might get diabetes, but yes. I had a cupcake a few days ago, so, you know, I'm still eating them.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I just started watching that. Yeah, I do. Well, I used to frequent there all the time in my 20s. That was like, it still is the place to be, you know, on King Street. And I've been there a few times. Yeah, I don't go out and drink a ton anymore, so... I'm not there like I used to be. But yeah, I was there. I walked in a little runway show that we had at Republic recently. Look at them.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I worked there for like a month. I'm just too old for that. You worked at Republic?
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah. Last year I worked at Republic front door. I was just like, let's do something. Let's get out of the house. I was like kind of in a mental health rut of sorts. And so I was just like, let's go work and be out around people. I turn into a hermit when I'm like, not when I'm very anxious or not doing well. And I was like very hermity. So it was good to get out of the house.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I just was like, wow, I'm like a decade older plus than all of these people I'm working with. Like, and I, You know, I take my sleep meds at like 9 p.m. now. And I was there till like 1 a.m., you know, every night. And it was just like, this is not. The schedule's thrown off. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm an old lady now.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Oh, happy birthday. Thank you. Yeah.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I mean, you were like, Oh, they're sending nudes, you know, but like, and then it was just like, well, the, um, the Craig and Austin thing definitely escalates more. And, um, the Taylor and Sally thing definitely, definitely escalates a lot more. So there's drama. I think they're just, they're, they're prepping us for what's to come.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
A little bit. I don't, you know, I don't fight anybody. Yeah. Yeah, you know, I dip my toes in a bit, but I'm friends with everyone. And so I'm like, I try to be like the neutral person, but that doesn't work.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Top model was harder, definitely. It was like 24-7 filming. They had like motion sensor cameras in the corner of our bedroom. Like the showers were like see-through except for one little frosted part. The bathrooms had a shower curtain. There was no door. So like you couldn't escape anyone. They could just come in. They didn't go if you're actually peeing. They didn't do that.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
But like if you wanted to hide from the cameras, like they'd come find you. So it was a lot and they would... Purposely messed with us. They would do interviews like really late at night for me, really long interviews. And I would get like low blood sugar attack and need food. And they would like dangle a sandwich in front of me. Just a few more questions, Molly, and then we'll feed you. What?
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Oh, yeah, it was so toxic. And they literally, I mean, it was a bit of psychological torture, if you will. I mean, I, you know, I would still do it again. It wasn't so horrible that I wouldn't do that experience all over again. But it was definitely a lot.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
God, honestly, probably Tyra and all that. Whitney just made that one comment. He doesn't say stuff like that to me often. It was just like, oh, come on, read the room. Don't say that to me. What would Tyra say? Tyra was so toxic. Well, she didn't say anything about us eating. She wasn't like, don't eat.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
But she did come and film a segment with us about healthy food to eat, like egg whites and I don't know, whatever. But I mean, the people who they would be like, oh, well, you're plus size. You're the biggest girl here. They're smaller than I am now. It was just so toxic the way they would just, I mean, Kasha on my cycle, they were like, oh yeah, you're plus size. You're really big.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And she was not big at all. It was just such a toxic time. It's still toxic in the industry, but that was, it was next level. I mean, that was 2000, the end of 2010 when we filmed.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
It's been a while. It was very fun. I had a lot of amazing experiences and photo shoots that, I mean, I'll never be able to top those photo shoots.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah, a lot of them. Almost all of them to some extent, at least like, you know, staying in touch on Instagram a bit. But I chat with Brittany, the girl who beat me. We actually lived together right after the show. Wow. We've stayed very good friends. Monique. Yeah, a lot of the girls. And I speak to Nigel Barker often. He invites me to events and stuff that he has in New York.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
We're probably going to do a photo shoot soon, which will be fun.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
He was super nice. The judges... weren't as in on the toxicity of them yeah like they were just kind of there getting paid and just they weren't dangling sandwiches did you have no that was in production and that was that was i don't know did i have what janice dickinson on your panel No, thank God. Oh my God. She would have been, I just feel like she wouldn't have liked me or something.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And it would, I would have cried. She's so mean. She was so mean. I couldn't have dealt with that. No, we had, um, I had Mr. And Mrs. J and yes. Yes.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Nothing has been like as crazy as the stuff that we did on, on top model. I mean, honestly, nothing seems weird after all of that. Right. I did like a sort of a nude simulated nude shoot where I was nude, but it wasn't like everything showing. It was like the side, but it was with a male model. Yeah.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
oh my god of course and the photographer like we didn't want to like smush together because you know his junk's out and the photographer was just like put your big dick on her leg and i was like this is that's wild like he literally i quote that to my friend we joke about it yeah yeah yes it was quite yes it was a lot large um and so yeah we just smushed together you know it wasn't
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
sexual it was just like very weird um that but that was the weirdest thing I've really done everything else has been a pretty oh I guess I did one warehouse shoot where they like it was in the middle of it was January in Chicago the warehouse was not heated and they poured cold water on me from above like to simulate rain um and that was miserable but the photos were really really cool but um
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
A little torturous. I've had toxic things happen on shoots. I did a test shoot that my agency sent me on with this guy and he put his hand in my shirt and I froze. Oh my god. And he left the room and I just got all my stuff and like left. I actually left a bunch of my shoes, some of my favorite shoes that I got in Morocco filming Top Model. But yeah, I was so uncomfortable. I froze.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I'd like to think that in those situations I would like punch someone in the face, but I didn't. And I just left and like went home, was just like so uncomfortable. And I messaged my agency and they were like, oh yeah, we've heard some weird stuff about that guy before.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Maybe. So yeah, I mean, there's messed up stuff going on in the modeling industry all over the place for sure. It's still, but that was a while. I mean, that was like 2012, 2013. So you feel like it's gotten a lot better? I'm sure stuff like that's still happening. Yeah. I think the body positivity and the inclusiveness is definitely better. There's still that kind of
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
air of like i don't know just not i know that a lot of people are like annoyed like in the modeling industry are annoyed by the body positivity thing because they don't think it's like real models or real fashion and i'm like yes it is it's it's all beauty i don't know i just feel like there's there's still the toxicity it's light years ahead
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Yeah. Oh, I know that guy was doing way sketchier stuff. Like, oh, it was so skeevy and gross. I just can guarantee you that he was doing that a lot and like younger people who maybe didn't, you know, leave or, you know, I don't know, maybe it escalated. I don't know what, what's happened, but it was, it was gross. Yikes.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Oh, my God. Look, Whitney is very charming. Like, I know a lot of what you see is maybe not so charming, and especially not the cupcake comment. But, I mean, he can be really charming, and he's super fun. He's super interesting. Very weird. I like weird. Okay. I like older. Same. He's a weird older guy who's very smart and odd.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Just fun. Yeah. I don't know if he like really wants to date date. And I got that vibe pretty quickly. And so it was just more like for fun, like, you know, let's just hang out every once in a while, like for funsies. But I didn't expect to actually date. At first I did. And then I was like, oh, he's I don't think he's. trying to settle down. And I'm a crazy jealous person.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
So I don't have any expectations of anything more than just fun with Whitney, which is fine.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Well, I mean, we've seen him saying that JT... call Patricia a bitch, and then it's like, no footage found. Where's the footage? If that happened, I want to see it. Right. And, I mean, I've never heard JT say anything disparaging about a woman like that. It might be like, you know, oh, you're lying, or this or that, but, like, he doesn't call women... Out of their name. Words like that.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
He's not that kind of guy. So I was very surprised. I, at first, believed it all. And then when, like, everybody else was kind of like, I don't know. Craig lies sometimes. And then I kind of remembered, he totally does. And it just doesn't seem like on brand for JT. So I kind of tried to have his back. And especially during the Kane thing, I was telling Patricia at the Easter dinner, I was like...
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
like i really think it was just a thoughtless thing of like oh we include patricia because everybody else got a stupid cane and i'm gonna give it to her and i can understand that she didn't get that and she took it a different way but um you know i was just trying to say that's that's not he didn't mean it in a weird way um but then i was like if he did say call her the B word.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And that's just, it's like social suicide. Why would you do that?
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
In this group, even if you do think that don't say it. What was your reaction when you found out JT wasn't coming back next season? I was, I mean, I was a bit surprised, but also not, I feel like he's been going through a lot and I feel like they kind of underplayed it a or it seemed not as serious, his accident in Costa Rica, it was pretty bad.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And I think he got a pretty bad concussion and concussions can really mess with you for a while. And so I think he's already kind of a out there guy, uh,
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
coupled with he had just gone through something pretty traumatic um and then if craig is lying craig lied about him calling patricia a bitch and so he's getting all this flack for that um and so i think maybe he just i don't know if it's mental health like he doesn't it's make stressing him out too much or what but i i'm assuming that i don't know have you checked on madison lately with everything that's going on in her life and how is she doing
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I've spoken to her a little bit lately. I know that she's been stressed about all the breath stuff and the health scares, understandably. But I think she's doing all right. We mostly talk about fashion. I'm like, is this dress going to be good for this event? Help. I'm always asking her. I'm terrible at dressing myself. It's the worst.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I mean, yeah, I think there's a possibility for sure for some co-mingling of the cast. All right. Love.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
No.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Oh, I can't, I can't, I'm not going to tell y'all who, but there, there, there will be some stuff going on. Yeah.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Going to have to tune in.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Well, speaking of the anxiety that I have, I sang a lot as a kid. I was in choir my entire life. I did musical theater in high school. I double majored in college in vocals and band with scholarships. So I really love to sing and play music. But singing in front of people, like performance, really gets me. I'll choke up and my voice won't sound as good.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And honestly, the anxiety of that kind of made me quit music for like a decade, over a decade. And I actually was, I was really not in a great place a few years ago. And I moved home and I started doing ketamine infusions for depression and anxiety. And in my first ketamine infusion, I played a bunch of 80s rock ballads.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And I was just like sitting there, you know, kind of tripping out listening to music. And I would just like have this epiphany not you know nothing just like why why would i have let something stand in the way of something that brings me so much joy and that I've done since I was five years old. And so I immediately sent off my miniature tuba to get cleaned.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And I auditioned for Charleston concert band and I made it and I started playing again. Um, and then I started singing with my friend Keith. And so, yeah, just putting out that video was so stressful for me. Like I didn't even want to watch it back. Like hearing my voice on, on, um,
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
camera i don't know it's i don't know i really need to deal with that because i love it you're very good and and i know that i don't suck no you have an incredible voice and you should be sharing that we won't ask you to sing now because i feel like oh god i would pass out and die what does that kind of mean one day So I go into a doctor's office and they hook me up to an IV and full of ketamine.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And it's, you know, I can't really explain like exactly how it helped me, but my friend who helped me, be not afraid and try it. She told me that it's like, it's like you walk outside and things are colorful again. Like the light, it lets the light into the room. Like when you're in such a dark place. And that's a good description.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
You know, I just did it and it kind of was like, just jogged, jogged my brain into being like, you need to, do things that you enjoy more, you know, life is worth living. I mean, I was truly in a, in a dark place. I, um, you know, suicidal ideation. I've had a lot of mental health struggles in my life. I have, um, CPTSD that I was recently diagnosed with.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
And, um, so it just, um, I did a lot of these infusions and now I only do them every couple of months and it just, it really helped me, um, kind of have that like vigor for life again.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Don't really have a reason. I think, well, I do have reason. I think it was really just, I've been living with undiagnosed PTSD for the majority of my life. I've been in therapy since I was in middle school and none of the therapy ever worked until someone realized that and diagnosed me with this and told me the correct therapy to go through, behavioral therapy.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I do DBT, dialectic behavioral therapy. I've been doing that for almost three years now, and it's been life-changing as well. And the ketamine kind of just got me out of that funk enough to where I could start doing self-care again, hanging out with friends again, playing music and doing things that I enjoy again, enough to where I could then...
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
be mentally well enough to deal with the really difficult task of dialectic behavioral therapy. Because it's a lot of exposure therapy, closing your eyes and going to the worst parts of your mind, thinking of the worst possible scenarios. And, you know, a lot of grief counseling and stuff that is hard to deal with. It's really like I dreaded therapy every week.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
I was like, I don't want to do this because I cry the whole time or I'm, you know, I'm thinking about all these terrible things. But once you do that hard work, it's life changing. I mean, I've the past three years of my life are just horrible. really, I'm doing a lot better. And I have the coping skills to deal with stressful things when they happen.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
it's so hard to go through life without like any emotional regulation and like just getting triggered by the littlest things. And I just didn't understand why I was so, had so much turmoil inside, why I was so angry. And it, yeah, I mean, it's just, it's helped so much. So I'm glad you found that. That's amazing.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Thank you. Thanks for having me. It was awesome talking to you.
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E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Oh, thank you. Happy birthday. Thank you.
The Viall Files
E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
Bye.
The Viall Files
E868 - TikTok Ban w/ Emily D Baker, Southern Charm w/ Molly, Diddy Updates, RHOBH & the Brad Pitt Catfish
They got it all.