Dr. Julie Smith

And, um, my son had a moment in a supermarket and,

that uh normally everyday life I could deal with but you know having to carry him out the supermarket screaming was not I just didn't have the capacity for it at that point and I remember getting back into the car and just all this emotion coming out and I think it was because I was carrying so much stress at that point you know the all the uncertainty and not knowing and so when those moments happened I kind of allowed that and um you know forgave myself for for all you know my kids were sort of like we've broken her

that uh normally everyday life I could deal with but you know having to carry him out the supermarket screaming was not I just didn't have the capacity for it at that point and I remember getting back into the car and just all this emotion coming out and I think it was because I was carrying so much stress at that point you know the all the uncertainty and not knowing and so when those moments happened I kind of allowed that and um you know forgave myself for for all you know my kids were sort of like we've broken her

that uh normally everyday life I could deal with but you know having to carry him out the supermarket screaming was not I just didn't have the capacity for it at that point and I remember getting back into the car and just all this emotion coming out and I think it was because I was carrying so much stress at that point you know the all the uncertainty and not knowing and so when those moments happened I kind of allowed that and um you know forgave myself for for all you know my kids were sort of like we've broken her

And it was just, you know, it's just those moments of emotion coming out. And I allowed that to happen. And my husband was great at, you know, kind of comforting me through that. And I guess, yeah, then there are moments when you're able to, Because when you're being active and forward, you're still feeling the fear. You're just choosing a different direction.

And it was just, you know, it's just those moments of emotion coming out. And I allowed that to happen. And my husband was great at, you know, kind of comforting me through that. And I guess, yeah, then there are moments when you're able to, Because when you're being active and forward, you're still feeling the fear. You're just choosing a different direction.

And it was just, you know, it's just those moments of emotion coming out. And I allowed that to happen. And my husband was great at, you know, kind of comforting me through that. And I guess, yeah, then there are moments when you're able to, Because when you're being active and forward, you're still feeling the fear. You're just choosing a different direction.

So instead of stepping back, you're stepping forward. And so it's okay to have those moments of pausing and feeling the emotion. And then it's choosing, okay, what am I going to do with this fear now? I'm going to go make that call. And I'm going to use the fear to propel me forward as opposed to kind of staying frozen in place.

So instead of stepping back, you're stepping forward. And so it's okay to have those moments of pausing and feeling the emotion. And then it's choosing, okay, what am I going to do with this fear now? I'm going to go make that call. And I'm going to use the fear to propel me forward as opposed to kind of staying frozen in place.

So instead of stepping back, you're stepping forward. And so it's okay to have those moments of pausing and feeling the emotion. And then it's choosing, okay, what am I going to do with this fear now? I'm going to go make that call. And I'm going to use the fear to propel me forward as opposed to kind of staying frozen in place.

I think it was really natural. But it surprised me that I had it at both ends of the treatment. So when it initially happens, that natural urge is to think, why me? I've always tried to be healthy, you know, exercise and I've smoked or drunk or anything like that. And so you get all of that kind of natural kind of thought process, which is unhelpful.

I think it was really natural. But it surprised me that I had it at both ends of the treatment. So when it initially happens, that natural urge is to think, why me? I've always tried to be healthy, you know, exercise and I've smoked or drunk or anything like that. And so you get all of that kind of natural kind of thought process, which is unhelpful.

I think it was really natural. But it surprised me that I had it at both ends of the treatment. So when it initially happens, that natural urge is to think, why me? I've always tried to be healthy, you know, exercise and I've smoked or drunk or anything like that. And so you get all of that kind of natural kind of thought process, which is unhelpful.

It doesn't, you know, it doesn't really help in any way.

It doesn't, you know, it doesn't really help in any way.

It doesn't, you know, it doesn't really help in any way.

I don't know. I think because we were quite quiet about, because of the children. Oh, okay. We didn't want to tell anyone until we told them. And we didn't want to tell them until we knew what the plan was and that I was going to be okay. So I think by the time we told people... Um, we knew what the plan was and we were okay.

I don't know. I think because we were quite quiet about, because of the children. Oh, okay. We didn't want to tell anyone until we told them. And we didn't want to tell them until we knew what the plan was and that I was going to be okay. So I think by the time we told people... Um, we knew what the plan was and we were okay.

I don't know. I think because we were quite quiet about, because of the children. Oh, okay. We didn't want to tell anyone until we told them. And we didn't want to tell them until we knew what the plan was and that I was going to be okay. So I think by the time we told people... Um, we knew what the plan was and we were okay.

And, um, maybe it's, maybe it's different for people who are sort of have long-term illnesses and, uh, you know, um, going up and down with it. Whereas mine was caught really early. So it was a very much, okay, here's the plan and then, then I'll be okay. And, um, So, yeah, I don't think I had much of that.