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Clark Fredericks

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Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Their report forced the hand of Jersey, and yet they're still waiting for their law.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Their report forced the hand of Jersey, and yet they're still waiting for their law.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

You know what? They gave each person five minutes and nobody could stay within the five minutes. Of course. And it was a draining all day affair. You know, everybody's like their one chance to get their story out in front of all these senators. And the senators would have to bang the gavel like your five minutes is up and people are crying and screaming, no, I'm not done yet.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

You know what? They gave each person five minutes and nobody could stay within the five minutes. Of course. And it was a draining all day affair. You know, everybody's like their one chance to get their story out in front of all these senators. And the senators would have to bang the gavel like your five minutes is up and people are crying and screaming, no, I'm not done yet.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And I'm like, we are losing these senators. I said to this teacher I went down with who was also abused, her and I would drive together. I'm like, we're losing people. I'm like, I'm going to cut my story down. And I just cut my story down to like a minute and a half. And I just gave him a gut punch. Um, of, you know, uh, waking up in a suicide cell because I had murdered my abuser.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And I'm like, we are losing these senators. I said to this teacher I went down with who was also abused, her and I would drive together. I'm like, we're losing people. I'm like, I'm going to cut my story down. And I just cut my story down to like a minute and a half. And I just gave him a gut punch. Um, of, you know, uh, waking up in a suicide cell because I had murdered my abuser.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And if, uh, if you guys don't adopt the new law, you're going to have blood on your hands and you're going to have a lot more Clarks running around who feel they have no recourse and, uh, they're going to take law into their own hands and it's going to be on all of you.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And if, uh, if you guys don't adopt the new law, you're going to have blood on your hands and you're going to have a lot more Clarks running around who feel they have no recourse and, uh, they're going to take law into their own hands and it's going to be on all of you.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah. You know, and, uh, and, and, you know, they, they voted, uh, A hundred percent. Yay. And then, uh, it had to go to the full assembly and Senate and, uh, um, that was voted yes. And then it goes to the governor and that was, yeah, to the governor and that was voted yes. Wow. And, uh, and then we had it. Wow.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Yeah. You know, and, uh, and, and, you know, they, they voted, uh, A hundred percent. Yay. And then, uh, it had to go to the full assembly and Senate and, uh, um, that was voted yes. And then it goes to the governor and that was, yeah, to the governor and that was voted yes. Wow. And, uh, and then we had it. Wow.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

So, uh, so I worked on that for a couple of years and, uh, then I, I, I stumbled into, um, my first public speaking opportunity. I got released basically the 1st of 2017. I got released December 30th. So it was like the start of 2017. And I started going to Bible class at the county jail. And this one guy that came in, I really connected with him and he wrote me when I was in prison.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

So, uh, so I worked on that for a couple of years and, uh, then I, I, I stumbled into, um, my first public speaking opportunity. I got released basically the 1st of 2017. I got released December 30th. So it was like the start of 2017. And I started going to Bible class at the county jail. And this one guy that came in, I really connected with him and he wrote me when I was in prison.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

He's like, you got to come check out our church when you get out. It's a huge church. So I went to his church And just, you know, I know we're going on for a while, but real quick. No, not at all. When I was in the county jail, like I could not pray. Like if I close my eyes to pray, I would see Jesus naked on the cross, like with his penis, everything. Like I have to shake my head out.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

He's like, you got to come check out our church when you get out. It's a huge church. So I went to his church And just, you know, I know we're going on for a while, but real quick. No, not at all. When I was in the county jail, like I could not pray. Like if I close my eyes to pray, I would see Jesus naked on the cross, like with his penis, everything. Like I have to shake my head out.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

When I would go to pray, I would see sex images from pornography I looked at. When I would go to pray, I would see the murder. I would see his dead body on the floor. When I would go to pray, I'd be a 12-year-old boy screaming. I would just have to shake my head. It was literally making me insane. I had polluted my mind so. I was so separated from God.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

When I would go to pray, I would see sex images from pornography I looked at. When I would go to pray, I would see the murder. I would see his dead body on the floor. When I would go to pray, I'd be a 12-year-old boy screaming. I would just have to shake my head. It was literally making me insane. I had polluted my mind so. I was so separated from God.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Uh, you know, I filled my mind for decades with, with rage, anger, violence, sex, drugs, alcohol, pornography, um, you name it, nothing, nothing healthy, nothing good. It was all just crap going into my system. And, uh, So I signed up for Bible study, even though I couldn't pray. I'm like, you know, this is the last ditch effort here.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

Uh, you know, I filled my mind for decades with, with rage, anger, violence, sex, drugs, alcohol, pornography, um, you name it, nothing, nothing healthy, nothing good. It was all just crap going into my system. And, uh, So I signed up for Bible study, even though I couldn't pray. I'm like, you know, this is the last ditch effort here.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And I was convinced that the guy teaching Bible study was going to be a right-wing fanatical, wagging your finger dude at me. And I'm like, this guy's an asshole. I'm just going to tell the guards, get me out of here. Like, you know, they'll take you out. And two elevators full of us go down to the floor. And I work myself to the back of the room.

Camp Gagnon
I Stabbed And Killed My Childhood Abuser

And I was convinced that the guy teaching Bible study was going to be a right-wing fanatical, wagging your finger dude at me. And I'm like, this guy's an asshole. I'm just going to tell the guards, get me out of here. Like, you know, they'll take you out. And two elevators full of us go down to the floor. And I work myself to the back of the room.