Clark Fredericks

No. I would say haunted me. It haunted me throughout my life, would be the word.

No. I would say haunted me. It haunted me throughout my life, would be the word.

Yeah, like hearing my grandmother's been murdered, you know, and my friend murders himself and... You know, Jeff, my next door neighbor is like a brother to me, you know, with the three of us, you know, like they were the older big, big brothers, but he was literally like a brother. And, uh, you know, so that was devastating to me. Jeff, Jeff's death really haunted me. Um, yeah.

Yeah, like hearing my grandmother's been murdered, you know, and my friend murders himself and... You know, Jeff, my next door neighbor is like a brother to me, you know, with the three of us, you know, like they were the older big, big brothers, but he was literally like a brother. And, uh, you know, so that was devastating to me. Jeff, Jeff's death really haunted me. Um, yeah.

It was always, you know, like, let's suck it up there, big boy, and put our shoes on and go about our business, you know?

It was always, you know, like, let's suck it up there, big boy, and put our shoes on and go about our business, you know?

I won't really know, but my brother was a hard charging guy his whole life. But he was able to start a business, become very successful with his tire automotive center, get married, have a family. And one of my therapists asked me, Clark, in your 20s and 30s, did you focus on the abuse Or was it, you know, like in the peripheral vision of your mind?

I won't really know, but my brother was a hard charging guy his whole life. But he was able to start a business, become very successful with his tire automotive center, get married, have a family. And one of my therapists asked me, Clark, in your 20s and 30s, did you focus on the abuse Or was it, you know, like in the peripheral vision of your mind?

And I thought, and I'm like, you know, like I would have these triggering events that would like send me into a slide and into a depression. But I'm not necessarily equating my grandmother's murder to Dennis Peck. I did equate Jeff's suicide to Dennis. And that... You asked about the rage. That's when the rage started. Like, I just became seething. I equated Dennis killed Jeff.

And I thought, and I'm like, you know, like I would have these triggering events that would like send me into a slide and into a depression. But I'm not necessarily equating my grandmother's murder to Dennis Peck. I did equate Jeff's suicide to Dennis. And that... You asked about the rage. That's when the rage started. Like, I just became seething. I equated Dennis killed Jeff.

And that is where my... Up to that point, it was all just self-hatred. Jeff's death started the rage towards Dennis. That's when it flipped for me.

And that is where my... Up to that point, it was all just self-hatred. Jeff's death started the rage towards Dennis. That's when it flipped for me.

Yeah, like... Occasionally, like I remember like maybe home from college and going out to a bar with my friends and he happened to be in the bar and I drove and we had just gotten our beer and I turn and I see Dennis there and he's like,

Yeah, like... Occasionally, like I remember like maybe home from college and going out to a bar with my friends and he happened to be in the bar and I drove and we had just gotten our beer and I turn and I see Dennis there and he's like,

Yeah, yeah. Oh, yeah. Like, they have no shame, these predators. Like, no shame at all. And I chug my beer and I'm like to my friends, we got to go. Let's get out of here. They're like, we just got here. I'm like, there's no women here. We're going to go hit another bar where there's women. I'm driving. You can either stay or we're going. You know, like, very forceful. Like, let's rock and roll.

Yeah, yeah. Oh, yeah. Like, they have no shame, these predators. Like, no shame at all. And I chug my beer and I'm like to my friends, we got to go. Let's get out of here. They're like, we just got here. I'm like, there's no women here. We're going to go hit another bar where there's women. I'm driving. You can either stay or we're going. You know, like, very forceful. Like, let's rock and roll.

Like, I'm not staying here. They're like, all right, whatever, bro. And, you know, they chugged their beer and they're like, you know, busting me like, what the fuck, dude? What the hell? And like, got to get out of there. I dated a girl in my late 30s and 40s, and I don't even recall this, but we were headed to our friend's house together. for a party.

Like, I'm not staying here. They're like, all right, whatever, bro. And, you know, they chugged their beer and they're like, you know, busting me like, what the fuck, dude? What the hell? And like, got to get out of there. I dated a girl in my late 30s and 40s, and I don't even recall this, but we were headed to our friend's house together. for a party.

And she said, we were at a stop sign and Dennis Pegg came and made the left to come up alongside up the road by us. And I just went nuts and started spitting and punching the steering wheel and cursing. And she's like, what are you doing? I'm like, Dennis. And she's like, Dennis who? And I'm like, Pegg. And she's like, what about him? I'm like, he's a scumbag. And he just went by.

And she said, we were at a stop sign and Dennis Pegg came and made the left to come up alongside up the road by us. And I just went nuts and started spitting and punching the steering wheel and cursing. And she's like, what are you doing? I'm like, Dennis. And she's like, Dennis who? And I'm like, Pegg. And she's like, what about him? I'm like, he's a scumbag. And he just went by.