Cassie Ventura
Appearances
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
It's an infectious song. It has a weird, creepy vibe, but at the same time, it's fun to sing along to, and it's just simple.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
So tell me more about the album. What are we going to expect? I'm still actually working on it, which is kind of crazy because I've been working on it for a while, but I'm so adamant about it. Second chances are so rare, and being able to do another album is big for me, so I'm really making sure that it's perfect, as perfect as it can possibly be. So it's coming out early 2009.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
I started recording, and then I took a little break to shoot a movie, then went back to recording, and been recording and working on that album ever since.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
Oh, well, I've never been to the white party before. I don't know. I'm excited to see what's inside. I don't know what's going to happen, but I'm excited.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
I think the most real thing that I can say, and I actually have never said in an interview before, it has a lot to do with your presence at a label, you know, how well you're respected with the people that you're working with.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
If you're a kid on the internet and you're looking to find new music, you go on the internet, you go on MySpace. People find me.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
Well, I was really excited because Bad Boy itself is just a very legendary label. I mean, to be a part of that, where you think of Biggie and Faith Evans, Mary J. Blige, people like that. It's just exciting to be at such a legendary place.
Bad Rap: The Case Against Diddy
Me & U
And I remember telling people my entire life, I'm going to be famous. Like, that's just how I was. I didn't even know what that meant. I didn't know what I was gonna do or what.
Dateline NBC
Cases to watch in 2025: Sean "Diddy" Combs and Bryan Kohberger. Plus, safety tips for AI scams.
is how you frame someone. That's how you rip a person's life apart and sleep like a baby while doing it.
Dateline NBC
Cases to watch in 2025: Sean "Diddy" Combs and Bryan Kohberger. Plus, safety tips for AI scams.
At 4.55 a.m. on January 1st, he searched how long before a body starts to smell. At 4.58 a.m., how to stop a body from decomposing.
Dateline NBC
Cases to watch in 2025: Sean "Diddy" Combs and Bryan Kohberger. Plus, safety tips for AI scams.
Ventura. Tora alleges that Combs not only raped her, but over the course of a decade, physically abused her.
The Brett Cooper Show
Diddy On Trial Week 1 Bombshells & What's Next | Episode 32
He would be truly humble. humble, under God. That's what Thug means.
The Brett Cooper Show
Diddy On Trial Week 1 Bombshells & What's Next | Episode 32
In the surveillance video, Combs can be seen grabbing Ventura and throwing her to the ground. As Ventura lies on the ground, Combs then kicks her twice and attempts to drag her on the floor back to the hotel room. Ventura is seen picking up a hotel phone. Combs seems to walk back to the hotel room, then returns and appears to shove her in a corner.
The Brett Cooper Show
Diddy On Trial Week 1 Bombshells & What's Next | Episode 32
Moments later, he can be seen throwing an object in her direction.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Marijuana, ketamine, GHB... sometimes mushrooms, just whatever the drug of choice at that point.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I just felt so tired and achy and really dehydrated. And because you're up for so long, not really eating properly, Too much. I just, I just tried to drink as much water as I could, but staying up that long and taking that many drugs for that long, it's kind of, it is what it is.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Oh, emotionally? After freak-offs were just like empty. Especially if we didn't continue our schedules like Sean and I together. If I didn't stay with him or whatever, it just felt like, okay, I did my job and now I'm going about the rest of my life. Yeah, they're really empty. I definitely just felt gross. Same feelings over and over.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
When I wasn't working on my music, I was recovering from partying. That took a big chunk out of my life. The freak-offs became a job where there was no space to do anything else but to recover and just try to be normal again.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Staying up for days on end, taking drugs and other different substances, drinking, having sex with a stranger over days.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
It would depend on how long they were. They ranged anywhere from 36, 48 to 72 hours. I feel like the longest one ever was four days, maybe even more, like, odded off with breaks. So it was a significant part of the week.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Recovery from the drugs, dehydration, just staying awake all the time.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
After a while, that wears down on you. My self-worth took a hit for the entirety of the relationship. Like just trying to establish who I was. and who I wanted to be and who I was allowed to be.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
That he was going to release them. It embarrassed me. Yeah, put my career in jeopardy.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I just feared for my career. I feared for my family. Just embarrassing, all of it. It's horrible and disgusting. No one should ever do that to anyone.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
That it could ruin everything that I worked for, just make me look like a slut. I would be shamed. And I wasn't supposed to be on those videos. I didn't want to be in them.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
It was just confusing. By that point, I was pretty messed up. I remember there being a time where I got just way too drunk to do anything and we had to leave. It's just uncomfortable when it's not something you're into. I'm not into seeing the person I'm in love with be with somebody else that's not my thing.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I have a premiere Monday for the biggest thing I've ever done in my life. I have a black eye and a fat lip. It was time for me to go. You are sick for thinking that it's okay to do what you've done. Please stay away from me.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
plugging my phone in and going to bed. You should do the same.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Yes. How often? Anytime he was physical, there would be at least some trace, a bruise or something.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Recovery was days worth. I would just kind of hide out for that period.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
His whole demeanor switched over. I remember his eyes went black. I was basically like, underneath the backseat in the Escalade, just trying to cover my face.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
The ride back to the house was short, but I mean, the whole ride was a fight until we got there. Probably like 10 minutes up the hill from the party. It was just me trying to defend myself and cover myself up. I was just being, I just... I just never experienced anything like that before, where I was just getting really, really badly beaten.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I saw my face. I just didn't look like myself at all. Just knots and bleeding, swollen, everything. I just looked horrible. And then shortly after, Sean came in and he saw me. I think I was vomiting when he came in and he kind of came to and like the person that he switched over to was now gone and like freaking out at the sight. After Sean saw your face inside the home, what happened next?
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Basically, he said that I had to go sneak out of the house out of the back with security and go to a hotel and just stay there. So I went to the London Hotel on Sunset.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
It wouldn't be safe. I mean, I understood at that point it was so early, but I understood Sean's capabilities, his access to guns. Like, and the threats he made prior to that. Yeah, I was privy.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I wasn't ready. And I was also just terrified. Like, it's not normal just constantly be bruised up by the person that you love or that says they love you. Like, You can't justify it to anyone, just especially not your mom.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I had black eyes, golf ball-sized knot on my forehead, busted lip.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Cassie said she and Diddy eventually broke up in 2018 after she gave him an ultimatum about seeing a girl she knew he'd been having an affair with for years. I said, if I catch you with her again, then I'm done. And that's what happened. They were seen out and I was in Connecticut. So I was out.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I went inside, went in the living room. He came in pretty usual, nothing weird. And then... Then he raped me in my living room.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Just, like, eyes black. I kind of said that before, just wasn't himself, the laughing and like all the things that were happening before that were not there. And it was just like somebody taking something from you, just like without. You said that you cried? I did. What did Sean do when you cried? He continued. I don't even know if he noticed, honestly.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
We've been together for over 10 years. Like, you don't just turn feelings off that way. We were very connected at that point still. I still had a good vision of who he was as a person. Like I didn't hate him.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I was actually shooting a music video with another artist. And I just kept having these horrible flashbacks. And after the video shoot, I went home. And it was late, super, super late. And my kids were asleep. And my husband was there. And I just remember telling him, you can do this without me. You don't need me here anymore. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Yeah, I couldn't take the pain that I was in anymore. And so I just tried to walk out the front door into traffic and my husband wouldn't let me.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Because I didn't think he understood. I don't think after all those years of begging for, like, sorries and just for him to actually recognize the pain, the pain that he put me through, like, I just wanted him to understand.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I think bigger. More than anything, it was his own personal shame and having to carry the things that were shameful to him.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
The sexual part, the freak offs, like I took on a lot of responsibility with that that I never should have.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
He brought the concept to me when I was 22 and I would do absolutely anything for him. And I did. And it never stopped our whole relationship. And it was expected of me. And it made me feel horrible about myself. And I couldn't I couldn't get it out. Like I couldn't face him with it. I was always so numb because that is what I chose to do to get through it.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I can't carry this anymore. I can't carry the shame, the guilt, the way we will... I was guided to treat people like they were disposable. It's what's right is right. And what's wrong is wrong. And I'm here to do the right thing.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I haven't thought about that in a while. The beginning of the relationship was really fast and fast-paced. Scary, but the more time I spent with him and got to know him, his real personality or what I thought was his real personality came out and I liked who that was.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
LOL, I'm just going up to change. I'm always ready to freak off, lol, lol.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I want it and I want to give you the same. I just think I have to trust you beyond it and just being sexual. Do you know what I mean? In order for me to be more open with the things we do in bed, I need to feel safe, like home. Like this is my husband. This is the only man that will ever have this aggressive slash sexual side of me.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
The last time was a mistake, but since had made me feel a little dirty and grimy. That's the only reason I go back and forth in my mind with wanting and not wanting to do. When we used to freak off, when we were so in love, there were no questions asked. It felt right, like it literally made sense for the next step in our sex life.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I get nervous that I'm just becoming the girlfriend you get your fantasies off with, and that's it. I don't get the other part anymore, at least.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
A lot of different things happened, but he kissed me in the bathroom of his or in the bathroom of this actual suite pretty early in the morning. We had been up, all of us, pretty late.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I think it was just really confusing at the time. Again, young, new artists, like just didn't really know the lay of the land when it came to things like that. So in my confusion, just kind of cried and ran out.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I wanted to be around Sean for the same reasons as like everyone else at the time. It's just this exciting, entertaining, fun guy. Just wanted to spend time. It felt special because not a lot of people got that kind of time with him. After Miami, we really just I mean, at least from my own side of things, I really fell in love with him. I traveled with him everywhere. I was in studio.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I was just like a little shadow for a little while. You were a shadow to whom? To Sean.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
We had fun. It was just kind of like a, it's my first adult, real adult relationship, at least what I thought it was. And it was different, so different than anything, as you can imagine. But she said there came a time when the relationship changed, and she said it became controlling, and at times he was physically violent toward her. Here's Ms. Johnson again. Yes.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
If they were violent arguments, it would usually result in some sort of physical abuse and dragging, just different things of that nature.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I mean, he would mash me in my head, knock me over, drag me, kick me, stomp me in my head if I was down.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Usually pretty similar. I would get knots in my forehead, busted lips, swollen lips, black eyes. The whites of my eyes would be red, bruises all over my body, just depending.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
If I wasn't smiling at him the way he wanted it, If I just looked a certain way that he didn't like, maybe I was a brat or something like he would let me know I need to fix my face or watch my mouth. That was like those were things that were said in the relationship quite often. Fix your face, watch your mouth or you got a slick mouth.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Basically, entails the hiring of escorts. and setting up this experience that I could perform for Sean.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
The performance involved... I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It just involved watching Sean being able to watch me with the other person and actually direct us on what we were doing sexually.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
Eventually, it became a job for me, pretty much, to where I knew if that is something that he wanted to do, I had the context to set it up and get a hotel room and all of that. But in the beginning, Sean set it up. He was in charge.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
That's a great question. I wanted to make him happy. I was in a really significantly mature relationship that I don't think I was prepared for. Now when I look back at it, but yeah, I loved him. I didn't want him to think that I thought anything bad of him for it. I just wanted to make him happy.
The Trial of Diddy
“I Can’t Carry the Shame”
I just felt like it was all I was good for him. I just felt pretty horrible about myself. I felt disgusting. I was humiliated. I didn't have those words to like put together at the time, like how horrible I really felt. And I didn't. I couldn't talk to anybody about it, so.