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And like typically that would just kind of give you anxiety and a lot of different, stages of life. But as long as I have that in my head, kids are washable. I love that.

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I think as far as... I don't think emotionally because I think now my generation is just a little bit more evolved as far as how to treat...

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Yeah, like a little kid as far as like emotions and this. Instead of like throwing a tantrum and my mom like grabbing her chancla. You know, I've read a lot of things. You let them let it out and you make them feel that they're safe instead of like threatening. All that stuff. So I think in that sense, 100% I'm going to be different. But as far as, sorry mom. I know what you did.

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As far as the food mmm, and I mean I'm Latina so apparently like it's in our culture is what I've been told and We bathe them like twice a day. And that's not the same as your culture. What's a week?

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It's a week. And he eats everything. Well, you eat everything.

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But I make everything from scratch like my mom used to. So I think there's... I'm very heavily influencing my upbringing and culture because, I mean, he speaks Spanish.

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Anyway, this is the shit you talk about when you have a baby. All we talk about is the baby.

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It's like that trend. It's, like, the first one to talk about the baby pays the bill.

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No, honestly, so my manager's number is... Hit our... Somebody put it at the bottom of the screen.

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I love being on reality TV. I love talking about it. Yeah, I love that. Exactly. I love it. I'm not shying away from it.

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I will have a clause in there. I have to bring the entire fam. Which I do. I bring them everywhere. Like, if you see me traveling.

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Day by day. Yeah. Just day by day. And like after the show, I really just felt like, I'm very woo-woo and karmic and universal. And I was like, this brought, it brought me here for a reason. And I like it.

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I like, I can handle it too, which is, you know, coming from our show, I, the point is to find people that are just walking down the street and you think that they're going to fall in love and then that's it. But it's hard to find like a mix of the two, you know, you're, you're humble, very,

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authentic person but someone that can handle the harshness of the the other side of this life like you can have all the opportunities available but there's always going to be a group of people that don't want to see you thrive 100 and if you can push through that like just laugh your way all the way to the bank baby like to the bank okay

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So it's five years of it being released. It's seven years since I filmed.

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So I filmed in 2018. So I've been in this like, first of all, I was in limbo for two years. And then after it, got released, 2020, I think that was just such a blessing and a curse at the same time, because it, a lot of people watched it that weren't gonna watch it, and then everybody dated the same exact way, which was a real Truman Show moment.

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Yes. You're, I think, like one of the only girlies that really understands what that feels like. Yes. Which is such a blessing in disguise. Huge blessing. And it's such a, like, we dodged. Because look at us. Look at us.

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You see the Truman Show, and you're like, oh my God, am I really, is this like a simulation? So, after I wrapped my head around that, I think just the way that it's evolved is, I didn't think, that it was gonna work past my season. I was literally in the pods just telling everybody, well, eat it up because this is too unique, it's too magical. I couldn't really quite put my finger on it.

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And then it's been duplicated and things have, you know, expanded to Japan and like, Germany, Brazil, UK, everywhere. And I didn't think anybody was going to watch it. Yeah. I'm literally just in shock. Like, whoa. So just in that scale itself, like I, I'm so honored to be a part of something that's just like captured a lot of people and

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To see people believe in it, not just in the audience, but people actually being married. Yeah, and still married. It's insane. So that just blows my mind. And I've said this before. If you're going to be on the show, if you want to be on the show, don't watch the show.

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I think it'll keep you from being influenced by... outside factors, which is the entire point of the show. The entire point. At least for us, Nick and Vanessa were just like, Outside, are you really going to let outside factors decide, you know, whether you're going to be together in this? Is that your Nick impression? So guys, so guys. I love Nick.

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Yeah. Anyway, I, yeah, I've said that and I still stick true to it because season one, no one knew what was happening. And that happened. made you lead with your heart rather than everything else. Which, I don't know, season one, they're still married, so that worked.

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Well, also, I'm not like defending that, but I didn't think that it was going to be something that would work.

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So I guess that's what they think. Like, oh, I'm just going to do this thing. It's never going to work because it's never going to happen to me.

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Like previously. Oh. Like if you have a relationship or like you're like in a situation and then you're like, Well, I'm just gonna do this thing.

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It's not gonna be a big deal. And then like you're fully engaged. That's not gonna help.

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You were in something. I was in that. And then he had his own little experience, which he'll tell you about. But then I was just traveling the world and got a call while I was in like the hills of Columbia being like,

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She's brunette. So when I do think about her, Gigi, why am I going to cry?

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No, I'm really proud of her. I think... She was so hopeful. And... naive. I'm like a rose colored glasses, you know, like blind optimist. And I've always been like that. But back then I just didn't, I trusted everyone and everything. And I still do, but now I'm just wiser. But I would like to protect her a little bit more. Why am I crying? This is therapy right here, Helen.

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Oh, Jesus. I want to get your tissues. No, but she's amazing. And honestly, I'm jealous of her. I'm jealous of how open and like...

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And now I'm, I'm, and I, I made it a point. I always made it a point to always stay true to me. Like always, even if you think I'm too optimistic and like two in the cloud sometimes and all that stuff, like that's what makes me, um, Someone that can handle whatever life has thrown at her. And that didn't get taken away from me. And I didn't become bitter.

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I just think that now I've just evolved so much into the person I always wanted to be. Always. And that's a huge blessing. But it didn't come without scars and trial and tribulation and just me literally in the fetal position just being like, why? Why, why, why? And so I just think that that girl that walked into the pods did everything that she ever wanted to.

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Do you want to do this reality show and I was like, okay sure like I don't really know what this is about But it was super fun something that didn't involve my heart like I was in such a good place Where I didn't even want a relationship. Yeah And then like I walked out on the beach and I see him and his little like flowery blue shirt He's like I'm from The Bachelorette Yeah. Big Blake smile.

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yeah yeah yeah traditional things have never worked yeah for me and i've always veered left in my life whether it's like career choices or you know relationships i've always just kind of veered left and if this were to come up now while it's you know as big as it is yeah i would have done it yeah i would have had the time of my life um i would have known like What the outcome could have been.

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But I don't think that would have scared me. Yeah. If anything, I probably just would have asked, like, deeper questions. Because, yeah, by the end, by the time I met Damien, I was like, oh, yeah, maybe I should have asked you that.

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Maybe I should have figured that out first. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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You didn't, like... have like the sisterhood of the traveling pants thing. A lot of things happened where like, just in general, if you have, you know, friends in your circle that get married and are at different life stages or this or that, like you don't really relate as much anymore. And with us, it became such a close, close friendship.

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And then I think as soon as everyone got paired off and started dealing with their own things, it just kind of didn't mesh as much as it did before. But I still like everybody. I've talked to everybody still to this day.

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When it was just us, it was just us. Literally. And so now I do feel like a deeper connection with just all the cast in general. Um, cause there's like, for your, for example, like your story, like we connect on that level.

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Like I couldn't connect with, you know, other people that have gotten married and all that stuff because they weren't in a, you know, to my knowledge, they weren't in a toxic relationship for two years afterwards and got told no at the altar. Like it got very, um,

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No, so I have, like, my best friend still lives there. And he'll, you know, occasionally, like, DJ out there or something. But I don't go back, if anything, right after the altar. I just immediately said bye. I put everything in a storage unit and just, like, left. And that was just the best decision for me. But I love Atlanta so much. It just gave me everything that I ever wanted and more.

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And I was going to leave. At the moment that I was telling my girlfriends at a bar, I'm done with Atlanta. There's nothing for me here. I got a DM casting me.

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I was in the middle with my two girlfriends and I had this big, it was very bachelorette. Like this big bouquet of roses. Yeah. And I was blonde.

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You know, the whole thing, like a glittery dress. And that's it. That's the picture that changed my life. So geotag your shit.

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So I think because they're just in shock that we're not playing characters. and that we are this insane.

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Insane to put so much of ourselves out there on such a large scale, and we're not acting. And so I think they're literally watching them being like, how are you? You know there's a camera. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's literally what she said. So I think that's because they're just like, this can't be real.

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Yeah. Like, do you think Ariana Grande has been on your Instagram?

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We don't pretend that our past doesn't exist. I love that. Which I think is the key. I don't know if you've experienced this, but when I was dating after Love is Blind, no one trusted me. These men were just like, they thought I had an ulterior motive. Literally, I was told flat out, I don't trust you. I was like, okay. This just worked. This just worked for me. Because

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We have the same sense of humor, too. So, like, we can just joke about everything. And it's not said with, you know, a hidden intention. It's not jealousy or hidden feelings or anything like that. No, like, I genuinely understand. At this point, we can just laugh about it. And it's pretty great.

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Well, because one thing is like you do you remember the moment when you realized that your parents had a life before you?

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We were, yeah. And he asked me to be his girlfriend on the show.

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I'm like, well... I literally... Not jealous, not a jealous girl, but I just want it to be in the know. Who do I have to, er, er? Because, you know, sometimes they'll go up and like, I don't know, I want to ask questions or this or that. Again, we have evolved from the pod, so.

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Because he asked me randomly like two years ago, he goes, what kind of ring do you want?

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I don't know if this is really a secret, but I don't I don't know. Maybe you can let me know if this sort of thing happened to you. So I always say that it was presented to me like a social experiment and I felt it through and through like a social experiment. So when I was in the pods and no one's talked about this, I was in the pods. I really felt like I was just. I had epiphanies.

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I had outer body experiences. I had anxiety attacks. I was mentally going through a lot of just realizations. And I felt so in tune with my body. I was connected to everything. I felt your energy. I could see auras. I went through some crazy spiritual things.

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Awakenings in there and I was just taken out of my environment and put into something and just everything around me really just vacuum sealed me yeah, and I literally look back at that moment of those nine days in there and just being like I I like I Reached enlightenment in the pod I it was insane and

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careful yeah careful we ended up staying in a hotel yes yeah interesting but did they take the remotes and the oh yeah everything out of the room yeah no phones no nothing we had the bible so literally i would i would be like okay what's the universe gonna tell me today so like i would crack open the bible and just like read a passage yeah like i was going yeah i was going through a lot

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Before I got pregnant, you asked me what kind of ring I wanted.

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And then at the end of the day, you're also developing the sixth sense that you can like connect with this person through a wall. And so it was just like you open up so much. And if you don't. It's not going to work.

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Yeah. I wanted just to take one thing at a time. And I didn't know how I was going to feel during my pregnancy. You know, you hear all these like horror stories about like, ah, it was the worst time ever. I loved it. Like I want to have like an entire basketball team.

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Like, you're going to bite my nipple. Okay, baby. Okay. You want to pinch me?

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He likes to be early and I don't know what that means. That is very annoying. Doesn't shower.

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Doesn't shower enough. Yeah, I shower multiple times a day. She showers multiple times.

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And number three, I'm the head in the clouds. He's a realist. Yeah, I'm a realist. Okay. It's not annoying, that's it.

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To be clear. And, I mean, in hindsight, I should have been like, you know, just do it whenever you want. But I wanted to feel like me. Also, like, nothing has ever been the way that I pictured it, which has been way better than what's actually happened. But for the proposal, I was like, listen, I had this one experience and I just want to be able to feel like how I've always pictured I felt.

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That was so sweet. Okay, go ahead, Gigi. And I guess this is about me, but it's really about you. This is our relationship. This is our relationship. But he can always make me smile. Like, always. In the middle of, like, an argument. Even when I don't want to. Or just, like, he can always, always, always... me to just melt. And I've, whenever I met him, I was like, he's my sunshine.

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I love that. Don't give up. Wow, that was so nice, short, sweet, to the point. Now for my long-winded one. No, I mean, yes, 100%, but also just don't listen to other people. I mean, I had a lot of very close, close people that told me not to go towards my dreams. And now they're the ones that praise me the most. So at the end of the day, just always, always go with your instinct.

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That little, little voice, that tug, that pull, don't ignore it. To this day, whatever decision I make, when it comes to our family, when it comes to business decisions, and it's never led me astray, ever. If anything, I look back and I'm like, damn, I'm good.

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So just always listen to that little voice and your instinct because you will never put yourself in a position that you can't handle. God, the universe, will always look out for you. And yeah, whatever you're going through now, you're going to be on the other side of it. Nothing's ever going to pass you that you're not meant for. Is that the right way to say it? Yeah?

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And, yeah, you're going to be even better than you ever imagined.

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And he did a beautiful job at making all my dreams come true.

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I knew it was gonna be after I gave birth. And we travel a lot, we just, we're always on the move. And I was like, okay, it's gonna be in one of these fun spots, just because he's a hopeless romantic, and I know that he would want to do something like that. And it never happened, it never happened, it didn't happen.

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And I kept doing my nails, like the French manicure, like the simple, like, no shocking pink, no bright red, yeah, just to be ready. Exactly, for like six months. And I was starting to just be like, listen, when it happens, it happens. And in Madrid, I've been there. My family lives there. So it's a place that's very close to my heart. But we don't have any connections there.

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And I know that he knows what I like and all that stuff. So I was like, it's probably not going to be there. How is he going to pull this off? He was texting my family behind my back.

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Parque del Retiro. So it's like the central park of Madrid. Beautiful.

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Had like an engagement mood, kind of like love is wine. Engagement mood, right. So that was really sweet. And now we're just planning our wedding. Dun, dun, dun.

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We have the venue. I have the dress. So yeah, I'm super excited. And it's like nothing, I went to pick out my dress and I was like, I want to feel exactly the opposite. As what I did on Love is Blind.

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Because what? Are we okay? But let's talk about we're parents now. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me in my entire life. Like I was meant to be a mom. Oh my God. And I didn't.

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I'm not going to make it. No. I don't know how I'm like not... I'm tearing up right now because usually every single time I'm just like, I love being a mom. Heath is wonderful and he's just like... It was always him. I don't know how to explain it, but as soon as I was carrying him and as soon as I saw him, I was just like, it was always you. I'm not going to make it.

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Oh, so one thing that I haven't really said, I don't think even to you, was I don't know if you felt it. After I gave birth, there's like this super blissful period where you're just like so serene and you fall so deep in love. Oh, God, I can't.

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I just felt like so much deeper in love with him And then my baby is like the spitting image of him and just the fact that like I see them together and just It's hard for sure Yeah, it's fantastic. And it's also really hard. It's super hard. Whether you know it or not, you have certain expectations of how you're going to feel, how you're going to bond or work together.

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And having a child is so challenging. And then navigating... You know, we had Heath at two years into our relationship. So like still like learning about each other and growing together. And then now we have this little baby that's just fully dependent on you. And it was super challenging. Honestly, one of the hardest, most rewarding years of my life.

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He was waiting for me to become, like, a gremlin. Yeah, yeah.

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And then also, just like how I'm sure I am, like, You're second place now, baby. I love you so much.

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Second place in the nicest way. Yeah, of course. But it is just very immediate. It's like, like this is My priority in life.

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And I was like, he's an eggplant now. Don't you care? He's like, no. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Why don't you marry him?

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What would your biggest advice be? Honestly, one of the things that I wasn't expecting was how... terrified I am all the time. You know, like when you're about to fall asleep and then you just go, uh-huh. So that's just constant.

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Because you just want to protect them. And nothing bad in the world can ever touch them. No girl is ever going to say no to him at all. But I think now, you know, after just realizing how much I love him and how much I want to protect him. I also don't want to. And you've had this fear forever. Like he thinks I'm going to be like this bitch.

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helicopter mom to like bubble boy him and all this stuff. And that instinct is there, that urge is there, but kids are washable is the best thing that I've heard. And so I'm kind of applying that to a blanket of things, you know, whether it's like he falls and he gets hurt or he wants to, you know, just shove his hand in the spaghetti or the food.