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I end up calling her to check her about it and she got upset with me and she blocked me. Okay. Right? Mm-hmm. We went on, me and my friend, because I can take accountability in anything that I do. We went on Instagram and started throwing shade. This was years ago, just being a youngster.
I end up calling her to check her about it and she got upset with me and she blocked me. Okay. Right? Mm-hmm. We went on, me and my friend, because I can take accountability in anything that I do. We went on Instagram and started throwing shade. This was years ago, just being a youngster.
And that's why as an adult now, 30 years old, when I tell you it's so many different ways of things that I did when I was young that I would never do now. Right. Because I see that it gets you nowhere. It puts a halt in what you're doing.
And that's why as an adult now, 30 years old, when I tell you it's so many different ways of things that I did when I was young that I would never do now. Right. Because I see that it gets you nowhere. It puts a halt in what you're doing.
And so us being upset.
And so us being upset.
Because that's what happens in relationships and friendships when people pay you dust. Right? Us being upset, we went on Instagram throwing shade, saying different things. So that's what really put a halt in things of never being able to be reconciled again. And I get it.
Because that's what happens in relationships and friendships when people pay you dust. Right? Us being upset, we went on Instagram throwing shade, saying different things. So that's what really put a halt in things of never being able to be reconciled again. And I get it.
I'm so real to understand if she never want to talk to me again in life, I'm good. I get it. Because people who do me like that now, it's nothing for us to ever talk about. Exactly. I love you from a distance. You can be sincerely apologizing to me and I accept it, but we'll never be the same. Right. It'll never be that again. It's nothing for us to talk about.
I'm so real to understand if she never want to talk to me again in life, I'm good. I get it. Because people who do me like that now, it's nothing for us to ever talk about. Exactly. I love you from a distance. You can be sincerely apologizing to me and I accept it, but we'll never be the same. Right. It'll never be that again. It's nothing for us to talk about.
I don't wish you any harm or danger, but it's nothing for us to reconcile. So I get it. I have to be understanding and understand both sides. But I'm forever thankful.
I don't wish you any harm or danger, but it's nothing for us to reconcile. So I get it. I have to be understanding and understand both sides. But I'm forever thankful.
Always. I think one of my pet peeves with people is victimized people. Can't stand them.
Always. I think one of my pet peeves with people is victimized people. Can't stand them.
People like that, they have to get the fuck from around me.
People like that, they have to get the fuck from around me.
What did you do? Get on my last fucking nerve.
What did you do? Get on my last fucking nerve.
I don't know why a little bit. Some people may agree and they may not. I love a person that's a villain. Because I love a person that just can own it.
I don't know why a little bit. Some people may agree and they may not. I love a person that's a villain. Because I love a person that just can own it.
And I think I love people that's able to say what they did wrong in some situation. If I'm talking to you and it's a hundred stories and you're never wrong, it's something that you did wrong. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Even when you ask a person, what's your toxic trait? I'm too loving. No, no, no, baby.
And I think I love people that's able to say what they did wrong in some situation. If I'm talking to you and it's a hundred stories and you're never wrong, it's something that you did wrong. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Even when you ask a person, what's your toxic trait? I'm too loving. No, no, no, baby.
I'm good. I'm good. God is good. I'm actually honored that y'all reached out to me.
I'm good. I'm good. God is good. I'm actually honored that y'all reached out to me.
Of something that you can change that you can do better as a person. Right.
Of something that you can change that you can do better as a person. Right.
Yeah. Oh, my nurse. Oh, my God.
Yeah. Oh, my nurse. Oh, my God.
And it could be very, well, this. I'm a great worker. I'm very loyal. Oh, but sometimes I like to check my phone. I can take that.
And it could be very, well, this. I'm a great worker. I'm very loyal. Oh, but sometimes I like to check my phone. I can take that.
Because we all have our shortcomings as people. Right. Everybody has their flaws. Everybody has their shortcomings in life. So what would yours be and what would yours be? I'm going to leave. I think mine would be I'm very passionate. I'm very loyal. Mm-hmm. I just have to work on how things are said.
Because we all have our shortcomings as people. Right. Everybody has their flaws. Everybody has their shortcomings in life. So what would yours be and what would yours be? I'm going to leave. I think mine would be I'm very passionate. I'm very loyal. Mm-hmm. I just have to work on how things are said.
We love you. I think in this experience, I'd be so honored. Now, I know who I am. I'm very confident in who I am. But I'd be so honored in this experience, like, that people love me. Because I've been this way for so long of my life.
We love you. I think in this experience, I'd be so honored. Now, I know who I am. I'm very confident in who I am. But I'd be so honored in this experience, like, that people love me. Because I've been this way for so long of my life.
Because as an adult, I'm realizing that everybody doesn't take well to aggressiveness, but that's just who I am. Sometimes I can't help it. I realize once it come out my mouth, you know how you think about things that you say, and it is like you hear yourself? It been came out, and then two seconds later, I'm like, damn, that came out wrong. But I'm just so used to speaking my truth.
Because as an adult, I'm realizing that everybody doesn't take well to aggressiveness, but that's just who I am. Sometimes I can't help it. I realize once it come out my mouth, you know how you think about things that you say, and it is like you hear yourself? It been came out, and then two seconds later, I'm like, damn, that came out wrong. But I'm just so used to speaking my truth.
Because since I was young, if I wanted to say, ugh, that shit is nasty, My mother gave me lead way to say that. I didn't get in trouble for saying things like that. So now as an adult, I can't help it. If I don't like something, I don't like it. If I want to address something, I'm addressing it right now. If I want to speak my mind, I'm going to do that. So what's your toxic trait?
Because since I was young, if I wanted to say, ugh, that shit is nasty, My mother gave me lead way to say that. I didn't get in trouble for saying things like that. So now as an adult, I can't help it. If I don't like something, I don't like it. If I want to address something, I'm addressing it right now. If I want to speak my mind, I'm going to do that. So what's your toxic trait?
And not have an understanding.
And not have an understanding.
So it's just now to have people gravitate to me, I can't go anywhere without people knowing me and loving me and recognizing me. It's just like mind blowing to me because I'm just, I'm still myself.
So it's just now to have people gravitate to me, I can't go anywhere without people knowing me and loving me and recognizing me. It's just like mind blowing to me because I'm just, I'm still myself.
You know what I'm saying? I'm not really sensitive. I'm not either. If you see me crying, I got to be devastated about something.
You know what I'm saying? I'm not really sensitive. I'm not either. If you see me crying, I got to be devastated about something.
That's a tourist, baby.
That's a tourist, baby.
So it's just like, I'm thankful.
So it's just like, I'm thankful.
That's a tour. Wait. What's up? Liz. Liz, what's up? That's why I could get jiggy with tourists. Because what I've noticed with a lot of tourist people, even two of my good tourist friends, they don't mind saying, all right, This is how I feel. This is what's on my mind. And people like that I can take. Because it's better. Because this is going to be my response. So this is how I feel.
That's a tour. Wait. What's up? Liz. Liz, what's up? That's why I could get jiggy with tourists. Because what I've noticed with a lot of tourist people, even two of my good tourist friends, they don't mind saying, all right, This is how I feel. This is what's on my mind. And people like that I can take. Because it's better. Because this is going to be my response. So this is how I feel.
And everything is not an argument.
And everything is not an argument.
Everything don't have to be an argument. I do get, and that's another toxic way that I have too. I wouldn't say that I'm, I think like if you really ask my friends, I could be confrontational. Like I don't mind confrontation. I don't mind an argument. And I don't mind going back and forth. I don't mind debating because I'm a passionate person. That's all I have to say.
Everything don't have to be an argument. I do get, and that's another toxic way that I have too. I wouldn't say that I'm, I think like if you really ask my friends, I could be confrontational. Like I don't mind confrontation. I don't mind an argument. And I don't mind going back and forth. I don't mind debating because I'm a passionate person. That's all I have to say.
Yeah, and I do. I have to work on that.
Yeah, and I do. I have to work on that.
It's crazy. I went to the strip club the other day. The girls went crazy. I'm like, it's so mind blowing to me because I've always lived this experience of me being myself.
It's crazy. I went to the strip club the other day. The girls went crazy. I'm like, it's so mind blowing to me because I've always lived this experience of me being myself.
That is Leo, Leo be controlling.
That is Leo, Leo be controlling.
Yeah. So that's a little different. It's okay. Because literally, friendships is like relationships. Yeah. Just without the intimacy. You be heartbroken falling out with your friend just like it was your man. And homeboys go through, you could be gay, you could be straight, you could be female. When you go through with your friend, even if you ain't talking to your friend for a couple of weeks,
Yeah. So that's a little different. It's okay. Because literally, friendships is like relationships. Yeah. Just without the intimacy. You be heartbroken falling out with your friend just like it was your man. And homeboys go through, you could be gay, you could be straight, you could be female. When you go through with your friend, even if you ain't talking to your friend for a couple of weeks,
So it's just like, what? The fuck?
So it's just like, what? The fuck?
It be things you be wanting to talk about with them, and you can't because y'all mad at each other. I agree.
It be things you be wanting to talk about with them, and you can't because y'all mad at each other. I agree.
Yeah, and it's like, not fucking with you right now. It's mad.
Yeah, and it's like, not fucking with you right now. It's mad.
Because that's me. I can hold a grunt. When I tell you I'm a grunt, I'm a hold a grunt until I go to the grave.
Because that's me. I can hold a grunt. When I tell you I'm a grunt, I'm a hold a grunt until I go to the grave.
Yeah. And until the tourists talk about it, then you're going to hold a grudge. But I don't feel like I... But once you talk about it, you'll be good after that.
Yeah. And until the tourists talk about it, then you're going to hold a grudge. But I don't feel like I... But once you talk about it, you'll be good after that.
It just depends on what's done. Well, I'll say this about Drea.
It just depends on what's done. Well, I'll say this about Drea.
Yo, that sign shit is so... Yes.
Yo, that sign shit is so... Yes.
Real. And the thing with Taurus Su, kissing nobody's ass.
Real. And the thing with Taurus Su, kissing nobody's ass.
But you guys will always be open to talk about it. That's crazy. That sign of shit. It could be two months later. If you ready to talk, now we can talk. So we can hash it out. But kissing nobody's ass.
But you guys will always be open to talk about it. That's crazy. That sign of shit. It could be two months later. If you ready to talk, now we can talk. So we can hash it out. But kissing nobody's ass.
I got to work on that one. Yeah. Because it just depends. And that's something you really preach to me. Because that's something that I, and I've had people like my older sister who I get a lot of guidance from as well, tell me that that's a fucked up trait too because you don't do people like that.
I got to work on that one. Yeah. Because it just depends. And that's something you really preach to me. Because that's something that I, and I've had people like my older sister who I get a lot of guidance from as well, tell me that that's a fucked up trait too because you don't do people like that.
But for me, it just depends on what's done. Because I be feeling like you should know better. Yeah. And one of my things that I take as a pride and as a friendship is I'm not a chatter. If you sit here and tell me some vulnerable shit about yourself and you tell me to not say anything, I'm taking it to the motherfucking grave. Whether we follow it or not. So I expect the same thing from you.
But for me, it just depends on what's done. Because I be feeling like you should know better. Yeah. And one of my things that I take as a pride and as a friendship is I'm not a chatter. If you sit here and tell me some vulnerable shit about yourself and you tell me to not say anything, I'm taking it to the motherfucking grave. Whether we follow it or not. So I expect the same thing from you.
If I hear you doing a lot of chatting about my shit like this, you get caught off at the head. I would prefer, I promise you, people don't... People have told me I sound crazy when I give this example. What? I would prefer if you was using my goddamn debit card and I didn't know. And you came and told me, oh, sexy, I was hungry, I fucked up.
If I hear you doing a lot of chatting about my shit like this, you get caught off at the head. I would prefer, I promise you, people don't... People have told me I sound crazy when I give this example. What? I would prefer if you was using my goddamn debit card and I didn't know. And you came and told me, oh, sexy, I was hungry, I fucked up.
Opposed to the streets coming back and saying, she said this, I know this about... I would take that over that. I don't play when it comes to that shit. Because people like that just... It runs my guts. I can't stand it. Because I have seen people do that, say, oh, that's my homegirl. And as soon as she leave the room, why do I know that she's been evicted last week? That's not my business.
Opposed to the streets coming back and saying, she said this, I know this about... I would take that over that. I don't play when it comes to that shit. Because people like that just... It runs my guts. I can't stand it. Because I have seen people do that, say, oh, that's my homegirl. And as soon as she leave the room, why do I know that she's been evicted last week? That's not my business.
Sister, instantly, I be like, ooh. Fine.
Sister, instantly, I be like, ooh. Fine.
Yeah, and people get upset. And guess what? It's inevitable. As humans, we gonna talk. We gonna be like, fuck that bitch. Yeah. But it's just a certain level of where you go. I should not know personal shit that y'all went through. Yeah, you can come and tell me, she did it. That was fucked up. I'm not fucking with her. Yeah, yeah. That's because you're human. We get upset.
Yeah, and people get upset. And guess what? It's inevitable. As humans, we gonna talk. We gonna be like, fuck that bitch. Yeah. But it's just a certain level of where you go. I should not know personal shit that y'all went through. Yeah, you can come and tell me, she did it. That was fucked up. I'm not fucking with her. Yeah, yeah. That's because you're human. We get upset.
That's just what we do as people. But it's a degree of how you go about doing things.
That's just what we do as people. But it's a degree of how you go about doing things.
Or she had a BV that a nigga gave her.
Or she had a BV that a nigga gave her.
Or she would have gotten an abortion.
Or she would have gotten an abortion.
Yeah, yeah. I do not trust them. They stay 50 feet away from me.
Yeah, yeah. I do not trust them. They stay 50 feet away from me.
The drink is amazing. I don't like that lychee. Okay. It's just a weird texture.
The drink is amazing. I don't like that lychee. Okay. It's just a weird texture.
The drink. You like it? It's not even a 10 out of 10. It's a 15. Oh, come on now. It's delicious. It's the perfect amount of sugar. The perfect amount of citrus. Okay. It's delicious.
The drink. You like it? It's not even a 10 out of 10. It's a 15. Oh, come on now. It's delicious. It's the perfect amount of sugar. The perfect amount of citrus. Okay. It's delicious.
So initially I was born in the Bronx, New York.
So initially I was born in the Bronx, New York.
Then I migrated to Savannah, Georgia when I was 11 years old.
Then I migrated to Savannah, Georgia when I was 11 years old.
So I represent Savannah a lot because I grew up there. I went to middle school, high school. I graduated from high school there. I went to a little bit of college there. So I say I'm from Savannah, but I was originally from the Bronx.
So I represent Savannah a lot because I grew up there. I went to middle school, high school. I graduated from high school there. I went to a little bit of college there. So I say I'm from Savannah, but I was originally from the Bronx.
And this is the thing. It goes, I think, and I'm saying black because I'm black. You black. It goes hand in hand though, right? Because I do get how in certain areas as black gay men we can't be props. I understand that because we contribute a lot. Our slang, our fashion, our mindset, our loyalty. We love the girls and the girls love us.
And this is the thing. It goes, I think, and I'm saying black because I'm black. You black. It goes hand in hand though, right? Because I do get how in certain areas as black gay men we can't be props. I understand that because we contribute a lot. Our slang, our fashion, our mindset, our loyalty. We love the girls and the girls love us.
And we're amazing, we're innovators, we're thinkers, we're creative, we're smart as gay people, right? But I think our biggest allies, especially for me in my life as a black gay man, has been black women. So, in a sense, a prop is subjective. It's what a prop is to you. Because for me, my biggest allies has been black women.
And we're amazing, we're innovators, we're thinkers, we're creative, we're smart as gay people, right? But I think our biggest allies, especially for me in my life as a black gay man, has been black women. So, in a sense, a prop is subjective. It's what a prop is to you. Because for me, my biggest allies has been black women.
So, sometimes even when people think that I'm baiting or I'm saying certain things to just get on the good side of a woman, a lot of things I feel, for real. Because when I was experiencing my bullying... When I was experiencing my hardships, it was women that was there for me.
So, sometimes even when people think that I'm baiting or I'm saying certain things to just get on the good side of a woman, a lot of things I feel, for real. Because when I was experiencing my bullying... When I was experiencing my hardships, it was women that was there for me.
Was my mother. That was accepting of who you are. And that's why when people tell me I'm trying to be like this person, I'm trying to be like my mama. I am like my mother. Yes. I think and move and operate like my mother. But for me, women have saved me. So I have a different connection with them. But I do get that sometimes we can be props.
Was my mother. That was accepting of who you are. And that's why when people tell me I'm trying to be like this person, I'm trying to be like my mama. I am like my mother. Yes. I think and move and operate like my mother. But for me, women have saved me. So I have a different connection with them. But I do get that sometimes we can be props.
So it's always, and this is the thing, and I'm tying this into just kind of what I said earlier. I've been out gay since I was about 10 or 11 years old.
So it's always, and this is the thing, and I'm tying this into just kind of what I said earlier. I've been out gay since I was about 10 or 11 years old.
And what happens is, I was talking about this on another podcast.
And what happens is, I was talking about this on another podcast.
because I was just trying to speak life into this young man, right, who had his perspective on being messy. Oh, I seen it.
because I was just trying to speak life into this young man, right, who had his perspective on being messy. Oh, I seen it.
Girl, you ain't seen, that was the light work for me. Man, that was the light work. Somebody called me up and said, hey, yeah, we got to get somebody on here that can take you because you're a lot. Yeah, I am. In real life. Because I'm very assertive and I know what I'm talking about. And even if I don't know what I'm talking about, I'm going to wing that bitch.
Girl, you ain't seen, that was the light work for me. Man, that was the light work. Somebody called me up and said, hey, yeah, we got to get somebody on here that can take you because you're a lot. Yeah, I am. In real life. Because I'm very assertive and I know what I'm talking about. And even if I don't know what I'm talking about, I'm going to wing that bitch.
And you're going to think I know what I'm talking about.
And you're going to think I know what I'm talking about.
I'm going to wing you too. I'm going to wing it down. And you're never going to box me. I'm going to always have a response.
I'm going to wing you too. I'm going to wing it down. And you're never going to box me. I'm going to always have a response.
But I think it's a two-way street, right? Because what I wanted him to understand was, You can be that stereotype of mess that they see gay men to be, right? Because all they're going to do is amp you and say, yeah, spill the tea. Yeah, stand on it. Yeah, say that. And guess what? As soon as their business is on the line, then you're going to be a sissy.
But I think it's a two-way street, right? Because what I wanted him to understand was, You can be that stereotype of mess that they see gay men to be, right? Because all they're going to do is amp you and say, yeah, spill the tea. Yeah, stand on it. Yeah, say that. And guess what? As soon as their business is on the line, then you're going to be a sissy.
And then you're going to be seen as that prop that they just throw to the side. Mm-hmm. Because it's no fun until the cat got the gun. Right. So you can sit there and laugh at another woman's pain and laugh at her business when another gay man is talking about it. But as soon as your business is on the line, then that's when the prop, yes.
And then you're going to be seen as that prop that they just throw to the side. Mm-hmm. Because it's no fun until the cat got the gun. Right. So you can sit there and laugh at another woman's pain and laugh at her business when another gay man is talking about it. But as soon as your business is on the line, then that's when the prop, yes.
That's when the prop is in play. And so that's where I can understand how people would say a lot of times we're just props. Because when things go wrong, when things go left, a lot of times a lot of gay men, when you talk to them, it's a thing in our community. It's don't trust fish, fish got bones.
That's when the prop is in play. And so that's where I can understand how people would say a lot of times we're just props. Because when things go wrong, when things go left, a lot of times a lot of gay men, when you talk to them, it's a thing in our community. It's don't trust fish, fish got bones.
Because a lot of gay men have experienced being that loyal person to women, being that rider, and when things go left, they're thrown to the side. They have been the manager. They have been the person riding. They've been the person showing up when your man was doing you in in the house, abusing you. You've been that person, that older brother, that friend figure.
Because a lot of gay men have experienced being that loyal person to women, being that rider, and when things go left, they're thrown to the side. They have been the manager. They have been the person riding. They've been the person showing up when your man was doing you in in the house, abusing you. You've been that person, that older brother, that friend figure.
And when things go left, you'll forgive him, but you'll throw your gay friend to the side. So I can get why that dynamic is very sticky and very tricky. But as for me and my experience, women have saved me.
And when things go left, you'll forgive him, but you'll throw your gay friend to the side. So I can get why that dynamic is very sticky and very tricky. But as for me and my experience, women have saved me.
I was wearing my mother fur coats and pocketbooks to school.
I was wearing my mother fur coats and pocketbooks to school.
And I was just talking to her the other day, and she was like, I can't wait until you come out with a documentary so I can actually tell people that. Yeah. You've always had this personality. You always was a preacher. You always was passionate. You have always been this same person. Yeah. So in that, it has been a struggle because you got to think about it.
And I was just talking to her the other day, and she was like, I can't wait until you come out with a documentary so I can actually tell people that. Yeah. You've always had this personality. You always was a preacher. You always was passionate. You have always been this same person. Yeah. So in that, it has been a struggle because you got to think about it.
They do. It goes both ways. It goes both ways. And the thing is, we give a lot of confidence and tips and we teach a lot of things because we do. We innovate us and we're very creative. But the same way women give it to us. I couldn't imagine a world of me living here without women. I probably would have been off myself. Right. I'm just being serious.
They do. It goes both ways. It goes both ways. And the thing is, we give a lot of confidence and tips and we teach a lot of things because we do. We innovate us and we're very creative. But the same way women give it to us. I couldn't imagine a world of me living here without women. I probably would have been off myself. Right. I'm just being serious.
I could, even when it comes to my own motherfucking community. Right. I could not imagine this earth of me here, even if it was an LGBTQ community with just men and a world with just men. I would then have gone. Yeah. I'm talking about upstairs with God hanging out. Yeah. It's women that keep me so grounded in who I am. They give me so much confidence. They give me so much genuine love.
I could, even when it comes to my own motherfucking community. Right. I could not imagine this earth of me here, even if it was an LGBTQ community with just men and a world with just men. I would then have gone. Yeah. I'm talking about upstairs with God hanging out. Yeah. It's women that keep me so grounded in who I am. They give me so much confidence. They give me so much genuine love.
I'm able to create my own table and my own lane because of women. Even with my own motherfucking community, I couldn't imagine having to kiss their motherfucking ass. Because there'd be a lot of them too that's so rooted in hate and jealousy. So it does go both ways. You guys give us a lot and we give you a lot. But I think that it just gets sticky sometimes because of different things that go on.
I'm able to create my own table and my own lane because of women. Even with my own motherfucking community, I couldn't imagine having to kiss their motherfucking ass. Because there'd be a lot of them too that's so rooted in hate and jealousy. So it does go both ways. You guys give us a lot and we give you a lot. But I think that it just gets sticky sometimes because of different things that go on.
And... So you gotta just, ooh, you gotta just let things happen organically like you said, but me personally, I don't mind. Really? I don't mind a girl saying that because we fun, we fabulous.
And... So you gotta just, ooh, you gotta just let things happen organically like you said, but me personally, I don't mind. Really? I don't mind a girl saying that because we fun, we fabulous.
They are. It's so easy. Especially when you look good, lip gloss, hair done. Lip gloss popping. You really can go down the street and get 15 numbers. And out of them 15 men, yeah, the quality is probably two good ones, but it's so easy.
They are. It's so easy. Especially when you look good, lip gloss, hair done. Lip gloss popping. You really can go down the street and get 15 numbers. And out of them 15 men, yeah, the quality is probably two good ones, but it's so easy.
Or like somebody trying to use... I think some girls, they enjoy gay men more than girls. Okay. I think sometimes.
Or like somebody trying to use... I think some girls, they enjoy gay men more than girls. Okay. I think sometimes.
It's a little weird. You think so? Yeah.
It's a little weird. You think so? Yeah.
So you feel like, of course... You hate that because that's true. Yeah. Because I'm breaking it down for...
So you feel like, of course... You hate that because that's true. Yeah. Because I'm breaking it down for...
But guess what? You know what? That's so true how you just broke that down because I think about that with gay men. Yeah. If you're a gay man and you have no gay homeboys, because it's just like I spoke about on the other podcast. It's things, yeah, you can love me as a gay man. It is things that I can give you. But it's still certain things that you and her can relate on that I know nothing about.
But guess what? You know what? That's so true how you just broke that down because I think about that with gay men. Yeah. If you're a gay man and you have no gay homeboys, because it's just like I spoke about on the other podcast. It's things, yeah, you can love me as a gay man. It is things that I can give you. But it's still certain things that you and her can relate on that I know nothing about.
So I went from New York, being fat, black, and feminine. Then I migrated to Savannah, Georgia, which was even more of a small demographic, a smaller town. Yeah. Different culture, different way people operate and think and move. So I went through it in New York, and I went through it in Savannah.
So I went from New York, being fat, black, and feminine. Then I migrated to Savannah, Georgia, which was even more of a small demographic, a smaller town. Yeah. Different culture, different way people operate and think and move. So I went through it in New York, and I went through it in Savannah.
Yeah. So as a gay black man, I got to have at least one gay black man that has lived this experience with me. If I don't have at least one gay black man that I can relate to, we've been through the same. We have different backgrounds and upbringings, but it's a lot of things as me being a black gay man that you can relate to 80% of the time. Right.
Yeah. So as a gay black man, I got to have at least one gay black man that has lived this experience with me. If I don't have at least one gay black man that I can relate to, we've been through the same. We have different backgrounds and upbringings, but it's a lot of things as me being a black gay man that you can relate to 80% of the time. Right.
Rather, it's sometimes being ostracized, people judging us, people judging us because of what we like. So you absolutely right. Yeah. Because there's certain things that women can get from each other that you can't get from a gay man. Right, right. Yeah, I may be comfort for you. You may like to hang around me because I may encourage you in a different way than your homegirl.
Rather, it's sometimes being ostracized, people judging us, people judging us because of what we like. So you absolutely right. Yeah. Because there's certain things that women can get from each other that you can't get from a gay man. Right, right. Yeah, I may be comfort for you. You may like to hang around me because I may encourage you in a different way than your homegirl.
But if you telling me you have no good homegirls, no good female friends, that is...
But if you telling me you have no good homegirls, no good female friends, that is...
Because you know what, too? Sometimes, to be fair, even though I don't live a woman's experience, sometimes, though, too, women genuinely just have a cattiness.
Because you know what, too? Sometimes, to be fair, even though I don't live a woman's experience, sometimes, though, too, women genuinely just have a cattiness.
So sometimes you, it's a lot of girls that have tried. They've tried to be a girl's girl. They've tried to get along with other girls. But it's sometimes the gay boy will be more of a cheerleader when you walk out the room. Ooh, girl, honey, yes, you look good. Sometimes you don't get that from other females.
So sometimes you, it's a lot of girls that have tried. They've tried to be a girl's girl. They've tried to get along with other girls. But it's sometimes the gay boy will be more of a cheerleader when you walk out the room. Ooh, girl, honey, yes, you look good. Sometimes you don't get that from other females.
God. I am. And like, even on, like, I'm the type of friend, it's nothing that my friend posted I'm not liking. Same. Me personally. Same. It could be some bullshit. It could be edited wrong. Me, I'm going to still like the picture.
God. I am. And like, even on, like, I'm the type of friend, it's nothing that my friend posted I'm not liking. Same. Me personally. Same. It could be some bullshit. It could be edited wrong. Me, I'm going to still like the picture.
But I've always had a big personality.
But I've always had a big personality.
I'm going to like it. That's just because I'm not intimidated. And I know that that might sound arrogant and pompous. It's not. But I'm so comfortable, contrary to what people may think.
I'm going to like it. That's just because I'm not intimidated. And I know that that might sound arrogant and pompous. It's not. But I'm so comfortable, contrary to what people may think.
Contrary to what people think they may see, I'm so comfortable in myself, and a lot of that attests to my girls. Because I could have 10 handsome, aesthetically pleasing gay friends that I'm around, and none of them are still me. And I don't mean that in an arrogant way, because they are their own person, and I can't be them. And they probably could get everything that I probably want in my heart.
Contrary to what people think they may see, I'm so comfortable in myself, and a lot of that attests to my girls. Because I could have 10 handsome, aesthetically pleasing gay friends that I'm around, and none of them are still me. And I don't mean that in an arrogant way, because they are their own person, and I can't be them. And they probably could get everything that I probably want in my heart.
So I always just knew. And you know how people say, oh, I always knew I was going to be a star. I always knew I was going to be popular. But they never really knew that for themselves. I always knew it was going to be something there. Yeah. I always knew that because I always was the gay guy in middle school and high school that would come in here, bangle earrings on. I was the best.
So I always just knew. And you know how people say, oh, I always knew I was going to be a star. I always knew I was going to be popular. But they never really knew that for themselves. I always knew it was going to be something there. Yeah. I always knew that because I always was the gay guy in middle school and high school that would come in here, bangle earrings on. I was the best.
But I still know when I walk into a room with my girls, they're going up for me. So I'm in a lane of my own. You can't do it like me. You can't walk like me. You can't move. So when you comfortable in yourself... When you have your own lane.
But I still know when I walk into a room with my girls, they're going up for me. So I'm in a lane of my own. You can't do it like me. You can't walk like me. You can't move. So when you comfortable in yourself... When you have your own lane.
You think that you can teach a person how to be a friend?
You think that you can teach a person how to be a friend?
And I think it's important, too. I think in order to have longevity in a friendship, you have to learn a person. So sometimes you're not hurting your own feelings. I say that all the time. And for example, like, I already know when my friend don't want to be bothered. Yeah. I can tell in the tone. I can tell when he don't want company.
And I think it's important, too. I think in order to have longevity in a friendship, you have to learn a person. So sometimes you're not hurting your own feelings. I say that all the time. And for example, like, I already know when my friend don't want to be bothered. Yeah. I can tell in the tone. I can tell when he don't want company.
So why even hurt my feelings of saying, I'm about to come over there when I know you don't want company right now? Yeah. You have to learn a person. I'll be wanting people to understand. I'm the type of person, if I don't deal with you, don't invite me nowhere where you're located. Mm-hmm.
So why even hurt my feelings of saying, I'm about to come over there when I know you don't want company right now? Yeah. You have to learn a person. I'll be wanting people to understand. I'm the type of person, if I don't deal with you, don't invite me nowhere where you're located. Mm-hmm.
So, as a friend, you should already know that because now you're going to be offended when I say, stop asking me that shit. Are you stupid? Yeah. Learn me. I don't want to be nowhere in the conference of where another person is at. So, you have to learn a person that you're around.
So, as a friend, you should already know that because now you're going to be offended when I say, stop asking me that shit. Are you stupid? Yeah. Learn me. I don't want to be nowhere in the conference of where another person is at. So, you have to learn a person that you're around.
So that certain times you're not hurt because that's what happens sometimes. Now, you think your friend is something personal to you and it's not. They're just not having a good day.
So that certain times you're not hurt because that's what happens sometimes. Now, you think your friend is something personal to you and it's not. They're just not having a good day.
And I'm learning that more because I'm a person that wakes up on 10. I'll say probably five days out of the week.
And I'm learning that more because I'm a person that wakes up on 10. I'll say probably five days out of the week.
I'm good. And so growing up, it would offend me if I called you and you're like, what's up? You've already thrown me. I don't even want to be around you. Now I feel like it's something that I did, but I had to realize and what my sister taught me, sometimes it's people being selfish. It's not about you today, baby. It has nothing to do with you. I'm having my own problems, my own issues.
I'm good. And so growing up, it would offend me if I called you and you're like, what's up? You've already thrown me. I don't even want to be around you. Now I feel like it's something that I did, but I had to realize and what my sister taught me, sometimes it's people being selfish. It's not about you today, baby. It has nothing to do with you. I'm having my own problems, my own issues.
It has nothing to do with you. So I think it's important to learn people.
It has nothing to do with you. So I think it's important to learn people.
I love a good baby. Since I was young, literally, I've always known who I was. Uh-huh.
I love a good baby. Since I was young, literally, I've always known who I was. Uh-huh.
I can deal with those mopers. Y'all, that's my friend. I don't bother people with my moping. That's my moping head. She is like that. And that's fine because you're human. But I love people that's not, they're not going to take it out on you. They're just not having a good day. They're going to be vocal about it and they need their space. Yeah.
I can deal with those mopers. Y'all, that's my friend. I don't bother people with my moping. That's my moping head. She is like that. And that's fine because you're human. But I love people that's not, they're not going to take it out on you. They're just not having a good day. They're going to be vocal about it and they need their space. Yeah.
But I can't stand a person that come and on purpose want to ruin the atmosphere.
But I can't stand a person that come and on purpose want to ruin the atmosphere.
Because you're human. I'm still learning that. That is one thing that I'm still learning with people. You're human and sometimes it's nothing to do with me. Yeah. And I think as people, we take it personal. It's not about you today.
Because you're human. I'm still learning that. That is one thing that I'm still learning with people. You're human and sometimes it's nothing to do with me. Yeah. And I think as people, we take it personal. It's not about you today.
So I'll be having to build my... Yes, and I have to understand that I didn't do anything to you. Yeah. I don't know what type of way that is. It's just you in your mind today. It has nothing to do with me. And as people, we be ready to take it so personal. It's like it has nothing to do with you. That's why I like vocal people too. Yeah. Just express that and then I'll just go about my way. Mm-hmm.
So I'll be having to build my... Yes, and I have to understand that I didn't do anything to you. Yeah. I don't know what type of way that is. It's just you in your mind today. It has nothing to do with me. And as people, we be ready to take it so personal. It's like it has nothing to do with you. That's why I like vocal people too. Yeah. Just express that and then I'll just go about my way. Mm-hmm.
Everybody. That's a fact.
Everybody. That's a fact.
Oh, I always knew, baby. You was born this way. Even as an adult, I love black, handsome men. Yeah. It is like chocolate to me. And so, literally, I remember as being a young boy walking. This is why I love and adore my mother. Mm-hmm. And the day that God takes her, if it happens to be before me, call and check on me. Because I would never take it well.
Oh, I always knew, baby. You was born this way. Even as an adult, I love black, handsome men. Yeah. It is like chocolate to me. And so, literally, I remember as being a young boy walking. This is why I love and adore my mother. Mm-hmm. And the day that God takes her, if it happens to be before me, call and check on me. Because I would never take it well.
So, I have a mom that will walk around with a towel, panties, things like that. But just butt naked? Mm-mm. I ain't had no butt naked mama.
So, I have a mom that will walk around with a towel, panties, things like that. But just butt naked? Mm-mm. I ain't had no butt naked mama.
You came out your mama vagina. Yeah.
You came out your mama vagina. Yeah.
Yeah, and I get it, but it's like, I don't know what your... It's like you literally lived in her body, like... you came out between her legs.
Yeah, and I get it, but it's like, I don't know what your... It's like you literally lived in her body, like... you came out between her legs.
And I get that. I can understand.
And I get that. I can understand.
Because even though she is very based in her morals and religion, and she wants me to have a wife and kids badly, she still never ostracized me as a little boy. That's what a real parent is. And so that's why, as an adult, people don't understand the flamboyantness and the loudness and the extra-ness, and it was because I was always given that leeway to be myself. She always embraced me.
Because even though she is very based in her morals and religion, and she wants me to have a wife and kids badly, she still never ostracized me as a little boy. That's what a real parent is. And so that's why, as an adult, people don't understand the flamboyantness and the loudness and the extra-ness, and it was because I was always given that leeway to be myself. She always embraced me.
We got the same body part.
We got the same body part.
A little sticky, baby.
A little sticky, baby.
But that's the only vagina I've seen was my mama. Was your mama?
But that's the only vagina I've seen was my mama. Was your mama?
And then my sisters just maybe like busting in the bathroom and they're not dressed. Yeah. In that context. Yeah, but outside of that...
And then my sisters just maybe like busting in the bathroom and they're not dressed. Yeah. In that context. Yeah, but outside of that...
No. You don't want kids? No, not at all. I'm a goddad. I have two beautiful nieces, Summer and you, Lisa. But no, I don't desire kids. Kids is a lot. They're beautiful. They're amazing. They're adorable. But I never have baby fever. Never in my life. I've never went through a phase of being like, oh, I want kids. I love my family. Freedom. Yes. I love to be able to move and do what I want.
No. You don't want kids? No, not at all. I'm a goddad. I have two beautiful nieces, Summer and you, Lisa. But no, I don't desire kids. Kids is a lot. They're beautiful. They're amazing. They're adorable. But I never have baby fever. Never in my life. I've never went through a phase of being like, oh, I want kids. I love my family. Freedom. Yes. I love to be able to move and do what I want.
Not to say that mothers who have kids don't have freedom. Right. Because you get to a certain point in your life where you still living your best life. Yeah, yeah. You got your kids to exactly the age they need to be with, where they're able to do for themselves and move and operate and feed themselves. Now my girls be back outside living their best life. Yeah, that's true.
Not to say that mothers who have kids don't have freedom. Right. Because you get to a certain point in your life where you still living your best life. Yeah, yeah. You got your kids to exactly the age they need to be with, where they're able to do for themselves and move and operate and feed themselves. Now my girls be back outside living their best life. Yeah, that's true.
Because I've seen it happen over and over and over again. But as far as me, I don't desire children, ever.
Because I've seen it happen over and over and over again. But as far as me, I don't desire children, ever.
And you said, because I'm pretty sure you can afford a nanny now. Yeah. But you're talking about, like, a full, they're getting a six-figure paycheck. Yes. You can afford it. Okay, so I get what you're saying.
And you said, because I'm pretty sure you can afford a nanny now. Yeah. But you're talking about, like, a full, they're getting a six-figure paycheck. Yes. You can afford it. Okay, so I get what you're saying.
Maybe it'll be a lot, Puka. Yeah. You want kids?
Maybe it'll be a lot, Puka. Yeah. You want kids?
And you know grandma, they be ready.
And you know grandma, they be ready.
They gonna give it up, everything to come and do that. That's their dream, their desire. She can't wait. When you got you a good mama and a good relationship, that's your nanny. She gonna want to come, and she's gonna want to be the nanny.
They gonna give it up, everything to come and do that. That's their dream, their desire. She can't wait. When you got you a good mama and a good relationship, that's your nanny. She gonna want to come, and she's gonna want to be the nanny.
She never... Even though I knew that in her mind she may have felt how she felt, because it's inevitable. As parents... You want certain things for your children. Right. You want a certain lifestyle. Sometimes you lead in your selfishness of what you want for them, which is not always wrong. Right.
She never... Even though I knew that in her mind she may have felt how she felt, because it's inevitable. As parents... You want certain things for your children. Right. You want a certain lifestyle. Sometimes you lead in your selfishness of what you want for them, which is not always wrong. Right.
You so country. Where the hell is you from? No!
You so country. Where the hell is you from? No!
It's so pretty and country.
It's so pretty and country.
Bow, bow, bow. What should we get into the bed?
Bow, bow, bow. What should we get into the bed?
Oh, I'm a yapper, baby. I love it. I live to talk, Boca.
Oh, I'm a yapper, baby. I love it. I live to talk, Boca.
Now, let's get into this bed, baby.
Now, let's get into this bed, baby.
It's just how you envision your children that you want your son with a wife, you want your daughter with a husband. Right. And that is just what you envision for your family. So I get it. But young, when I tell you she will all, I could play with Barbie dolls. Yes. And she will be, thinking I'm lying. And she has to attest to it. She would let me play with Barbie dolls. Yeah.
It's just how you envision your children that you want your son with a wife, you want your daughter with a husband. Right. And that is just what you envision for your family. So I get it. But young, when I tell you she will all, I could play with Barbie dolls. Yes. And she will be, thinking I'm lying. And she has to attest to it. She would let me play with Barbie dolls. Yeah.
I'm just, when I tell you on this course of my life, I'm just so focused on what I'm doing. Now, it itches down there. Yeah. Bad sometimes. But I just go ahead and I itch it and I just go on about my business. But at this journey where I'm at in my life right now, I got to be focused. Yeah. Nobody's entering my body. That's not even up for debate.
I'm just, when I tell you on this course of my life, I'm just so focused on what I'm doing. Now, it itches down there. Yeah. Bad sometimes. But I just go ahead and I itch it and I just go on about my business. But at this journey where I'm at in my life right now, I got to be focused. Yeah. Nobody's entering my body. That's not even up for debate.
And I'm not allowing, I'm even at a place in my life because I like trade. Trade is like, I wouldn't necessarily say hood dudes, but they would be more on the side.
And I'm not allowing, I'm even at a place in my life because I like trade. Trade is like, I wouldn't necessarily say hood dudes, but they would be more on the side.
Yes, and I'm even at a place in my life, Trey can't even come to my house because I'm so focused on this journey. I'm so close to everything that it is that I desire and want and have been desiring for years. And so I have to be real particular about who I'm letting in my house, around me, in my body. So while I've been on this journey, I've been celibate.
Yes, and I'm even at a place in my life, Trey can't even come to my house because I'm so focused on this journey. I'm so close to everything that it is that I desire and want and have been desiring for years. And so I have to be real particular about who I'm letting in my house, around me, in my body. So while I've been on this journey, I've been celibate.
Even when I be... That's why, too, I like to just... Oh, no, I can't say that. Blah. I was about to say, what? ! Bless! I can't say that one, bless. Oh, and bless, that's why I got to work on that because it be about to slip out. I'm weak. Okay, so let me refrain. Let me refrain from saying that. So that's why I like... Oh, shit. Oh, bless that one. I'm going to slip down.
Even when I be... That's why, too, I like to just... Oh, no, I can't say that. Blah. I was about to say, what? ! Bless! I can't say that one, bless. Oh, and bless, that's why I got to work on that because it be about to slip out. I'm weak. Okay, so let me refrain. Let me refrain from saying that. So that's why I like... Oh, shit. Oh, bless that one. I'm going to slip down.
That's why I like to meet my people in clubs. I'll just say that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Because I be wanting to meet people who don't know who the hell I am so I can get in and get out.
That's why I like to meet my people in clubs. I'll just say that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Because I be wanting to meet people who don't know who the hell I am so I can get in and get out.
I'm at a place in my life I can see how sometimes when you reach the level of superstardom that you may stay with a person even though a person is doing you wrong because... Comfortable. You're comfortable and then you already know their motives.
I'm at a place in my life I can see how sometimes when you reach the level of superstardom that you may stay with a person even though a person is doing you wrong because... Comfortable. You're comfortable and then you already know their motives.
I think what I'm learning now is a lot of dudes I've been in contact with comes with, like, motives. I hate now when people know who I am.
I think what I'm learning now is a lot of dudes I've been in contact with comes with, like, motives. I hate now when people know who I am.
It turns me off because I'm like, oh, God. Okay, so it's a motive. Yeah. That's what it is. When you come up and say, you know me, it's a motive. Don't want it. It's that bad now. Yeah. Because I just feel like it's an ulterior motive behind what it is that you want out of me. Yeah. But y'all been celibate five years. Oh, my God. But the celibate to y'all mean no sucky.
It turns me off because I'm like, oh, God. Okay, so it's a motive. Yeah. That's what it is. When you come up and say, you know me, it's a motive. Don't want it. It's that bad now. Yeah. Because I just feel like it's an ulterior motive behind what it is that you want out of me. Yeah. But y'all been celibate five years. Oh, my God. But the celibate to y'all mean no sucky.
Oh, no, baby, I'd be sucking.
Oh, no, baby, I'd be sucking.
You saw you knew I'd be sucking. Yeah, I'd be sucking and masturbating.
You saw you knew I'd be sucking. Yeah, I'd be sucking and masturbating.
Don't play with this shrimp. One thing about it.
Don't play with this shrimp. One thing about it.
She would let me wear her pocketbook. She would let me wear her... So I have to even tell her as an adult, girl, it's your fault.
She would let me wear her pocketbook. She would let me wear her... So I have to even tell her as an adult, girl, it's your fault.
Okay. You say I'm a girl? No. I'm not interested in that. Like, if a guy say he want to go down on me, I'm not interested.
Okay. You say I'm a girl? No. I'm not interested in that. Like, if a guy say he want to go down on me, I'm not interested.
I'm a girl. I'm a girl. He's just a lady. Oh, my God. He's a lady. I'm a lady, too, but I like a little bit. Ah! Uh-uh. If I talk to a dude and he... Not interested. So, you're a lady in the relationship. Yes. I'm the girl.
I'm a girl. I'm a girl. He's just a lady. Oh, my God. He's a lady. I'm a lady, too, but I like a little bit. Ah! Uh-uh. If I talk to a dude and he... Not interested. So, you're a lady in the relationship. Yes. I'm the girl.
I don't like it. If a boy want to get in, I'm not interested no more. Okay.
I don't like it. If a boy want to get in, I'm not interested no more. Okay.
You like Trey. Yeah, but Trey like... Depending on who it is, they like do them a lick or two. Yeah, yeah. But it's some Trey out there who don't and them the ones I like... Like, I say predominantly I like those. Those are the ones I like predominantly. Okay. Now, I'm not saying I've never encountered one that I'd like to do licking to. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
You like Trey. Yeah, but Trey like... Depending on who it is, they like do them a lick or two. Yeah, yeah. But it's some Trey out there who don't and them the ones I like... Like, I say predominantly I like those. Those are the ones I like predominantly. Okay. Now, I'm not saying I've never encountered one that I'd like to do licking to. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
But if I could choose, I don't want mine to be no licking. Yeah, okay. I'm just not into that. Okay. Because if you're going to desire to lick on me, I'm not into that. Yeah. I want to do the licking.
But if I could choose, I don't want mine to be no licking. Yeah, okay. I'm just not into that. Okay. Because if you're going to desire to lick on me, I'm not into that. Yeah. I want to do the licking.
And I appreciate it, but it gets so under... Because, girl, you let me just be who I was. Yeah. So I have no... I don't know how to backtrack.
And I appreciate it, but it gets so under... Because, girl, you let me just be who I was. Yeah. So I have no... I don't know how to backtrack.
I've never been in a relationship in my life.
I've never been in a relationship in my life.
30 years old, I have never been in a relationship in my life. I've had little flings. Yeah. But nothing serious like me and you, we together. We locked down. I've never in my life.
30 years old, I have never been in a relationship in my life. I've had little flings. Yeah. But nothing serious like me and you, we together. We locked down. I've never in my life.
Oh, wow. I just reached a certain point of just... I think... I think that I've been, I know this may sound crazy to some people, but I think I've been scarred through a lot of other people's experiences. And seeing a lot of my female friends get hurt and a lot of my gay male friends get hurt and torn up.
Oh, wow. I just reached a certain point of just... I think... I think that I've been, I know this may sound crazy to some people, but I think I've been scarred through a lot of other people's experiences. And seeing a lot of my female friends get hurt and a lot of my gay male friends get hurt and torn up.
That's why I'm even at a place in my life I want no relationship. Okay. Where I'm at in my life, none. I don't want no relationship. I want to tap and go. Because I've seen so many relationships and I've seen so many men come into good girls' lives that have so much shit going on and fuck.
That's why I'm even at a place in my life I want no relationship. Okay. Where I'm at in my life, none. I don't want no relationship. I want to tap and go. Because I've seen so many relationships and I've seen so many men come into good girls' lives that have so much shit going on and fuck.
And when I tell you, it happens every time. I've only seen, and I have to be real. As a gay black man, I've seen my friend Flex be successful in his relationship. Yes, they have issues and problems. Uh-huh. But they still have a camaraderie. They still have a relationship. They going five years strong. That's very weird in our community.
And when I tell you, it happens every time. I've only seen, and I have to be real. As a gay black man, I've seen my friend Flex be successful in his relationship. Yes, they have issues and problems. Uh-huh. But they still have a camaraderie. They still have a relationship. They going five years strong. That's very weird in our community.
We don't see a lot of relationships that stay down, but they have a different dynamic of a relationship. They're very open and raw with each other. But for me, I've seen guys come into girls' lives and ruin them. They light up. And she was right there and getting her degree. It's one of my friends. I think that hurt me until I'm like 80.
We don't see a lot of relationships that stay down, but they have a different dynamic of a relationship. They're very open and raw with each other. But for me, I've seen guys come into girls' lives and ruin them. They light up. And she was right there and getting her degree. It's one of my friends. I think that hurt me until I'm like 80.
It is. Yeah. Because it's just made me who I am. But I think everybody experiences different. And so I think as people, we have to understand that two things can be right at the same time. And so everybody experiences different. As far as me, I only can speak from my experience. I've always known what I like.
It is. Yeah. Because it's just made me who I am. But I think everybody experiences different. And so I think as people, we have to understand that two things can be right at the same time. And so everybody experiences different. As far as me, I only can speak from my experience. I've always known what I like.
And you know how 80 in movies, they looking back on their life? Yeah. She was supposed to be a doctor. She stopped.
And you know how 80 in movies, they looking back on their life? Yeah. She was supposed to be a doctor. She stopped.
And he knew what the fuck he was doing. Yeah. He knew what he was doing. And she allowed him to get in her fucking mind and fuck her up from getting her doctorate's degree.
And he knew what the fuck he was doing. Yeah. He knew what he was doing. And she allowed him to get in her fucking mind and fuck her up from getting her doctorate's degree.
Because people are not led by God, they're led by love. People don't be letting God lead them. They be thinking that that's a God-led situation. It's not. Just like a lot of people say they have words from God and they don't. It's their own thoughts and their own bullshit that they feed themselves in their head. People be leaded by lust.
Because people are not led by God, they're led by love. People don't be letting God lead them. They be thinking that that's a God-led situation. It's not. Just like a lot of people say they have words from God and they don't. It's their own thoughts and their own bullshit that they feed themselves in their head. People be leaded by lust.
But you sitting here and you think that it's a love at first sight, that's bullshit. It's not. Not saying that it can't be because it can. Because I already know it's going to be stories out there. People say, no, I found love at first sight, and I get that. But 90% of the time, it's lust. And when you go through real shit, because I'm a believer in that, that's how we'll know it's love or not.
But you sitting here and you think that it's a love at first sight, that's bullshit. It's not. Not saying that it can't be because it can. Because I already know it's going to be stories out there. People say, no, I found love at first sight, and I get that. But 90% of the time, it's lust. And when you go through real shit, because I'm a believer in that, that's how we'll know it's love or not.
Now I do get on another spectrum that there are different things that trigger people and different experiences that they may have had in their life that has made them turn into that type of person. But for me and who I am, I've always been this way. I've never touched, licked, kissed a woman in my life.
Now I do get on another spectrum that there are different things that trigger people and different experiences that they may have had in their life that has made them turn into that type of person. But for me and who I am, I've always been this way. I've never touched, licked, kissed a woman in my life.
When real shit starts to happen, even with friendships, I've seen it. My friend was hanging out with a group of friends, and he went to go do time, and he heard from none of them but one, and the one was me. So when shit get real with people, yeah.
When real shit starts to happen, even with friendships, I've seen it. My friend was hanging out with a group of friends, and he went to go do time, and he heard from none of them but one, and the one was me. So when shit get real with people, yeah.
Because that's what it be.
Because that's what it be.
Even in my community, there's so many people that are literally settling because they don't want to be alone. And then you look at me, you look at me, and then when I say that, people think that I'm tripping or I'm over-exaggerating or something wrong with me, and it's not.
Even in my community, there's so many people that are literally settling because they don't want to be alone. And then you look at me, you look at me, and then when I say that, people think that I'm tripping or I'm over-exaggerating or something wrong with me, and it's not.
I'm just at a journey in my life where I know what I want.
I'm just at a journey in my life where I know what I want.
You never was in love? You always knew this ain't for me. Never in my life. You couldn't. That's how I be when I see Coochie. I love my girls like God love his children.
You never was in love? You always knew this ain't for me. Never in my life. You couldn't. That's how I be when I see Coochie. I love my girls like God love his children.
At all. So that's a good... They bring nothing. They have nothing to offer. My parents have been married 31 years. You niggas have nothing. My parents have been married 31 years and they tell me, if you've ever been in a long-term marriage, if you always say that you've always been in love, it's a lie. Not true. I agree.
At all. So that's a good... They bring nothing. They have nothing to offer. My parents have been married 31 years. You niggas have nothing. My parents have been married 31 years and they tell me, if you've ever been in a long-term marriage, if you always say that you've always been in love, it's a lie. Not true. I agree.
Because you go through different hurdles and different points in your relationship. Sometimes you got to create love again. Sometimes you got to create those times. My parents been together 31 years and I've seen a lot of amazing moments with them. But I've seen times where they wasn't getting along. I've seen times of walking by each other in the house because that relationship should be a lot.
Because you go through different hurdles and different points in your relationship. Sometimes you got to create love again. Sometimes you got to create those times. My parents been together 31 years and I've seen a lot of amazing moments with them. But I've seen times where they wasn't getting along. I've seen times of walking by each other in the house because that relationship should be a lot.
Yes, yes. It's so beautiful. It's so amazing. It's so agape. It's so cute. But it be real time, too. And people who have been in relationships, they can attest to that. It's a lot of work.
Yes, yes. It's so beautiful. It's so amazing. It's so agape. It's so cute. But it be real time, too. And people who have been in relationships, they can attest to that. It's a lot of work.
That is so true. And that's why for me, too, I love my Super Sense. I love my J-Lo's. I love my Holly Berry.
That is so true. And that's why for me, too, I love my Super Sense. I love my J-Lo's. I love my Holly Berry.
Get another one over and over and over again.
Get another one over and over and over again.
When I tell you I love girls so bad. I think it's so bad because I be so biased. Because I love my girls. I don't know what I would do without women. So I live to see a girl. Oh, new one. New one. Wow. I love girls who know they work. Another one. Because I got a friend. Her name is Alexis. Let me tell you something about Alexis. Good girl. Amazing. Got her own business. She's a boss. So pretty.
When I tell you I love girls so bad. I think it's so bad because I be so biased. Because I love my girls. I don't know what I would do without women. So I live to see a girl. Oh, new one. New one. Wow. I love girls who know they work. Another one. Because I got a friend. Her name is Alexis. Let me tell you something about Alexis. Good girl. Amazing. Got her own business. She's a boss. So pretty.
My girls is the best thing that has ever happened in my life. But you like, I am not attractive. I have never kissed a woman. Like, you got to really think about that. And this is how I also know a lot. Every man is not gay, contrary to popular belief.
My girls is the best thing that has ever happened in my life. But you like, I am not attractive. I have never kissed a woman. Like, you got to really think about that. And this is how I also know a lot. Every man is not gay, contrary to popular belief.
She be hurt and devastated, but she know how to move on. She go through those phases, but she's not staying and getting just dead mistreated. You know how some girls literally was staying. I'm talking about getting mistreated to the core. They don't speak up. They don't leave.
She be hurt and devastated, but she know how to move on. She go through those phases, but she's not staying and getting just dead mistreated. You know how some girls literally was staying. I'm talking about getting mistreated to the core. They don't speak up. They don't leave.
She's leaving, baby. And she's going to be devastated. But in another two months, my girl be good. Back outside. Back outside. Love my girl, baby.
She's leaving, baby. And she's going to be devastated. But in another two months, my girl be good. Back outside. Back outside. Love my girl, baby.
And I live for girls like that. Especially when you in your prime. Like, y'all in your prime. Yeah. People be thinking, like, 20s is your prime. No, 30s is really your prime. Oh, yeah. 20s is, yeah, you outside. You having fun. I think 20s, you supposed to be making your mistakes.
And I live for girls like that. Especially when you in your prime. Like, y'all in your prime. Yeah. People be thinking, like, 20s is your prime. No, 30s is really your prime. Oh, yeah. 20s is, yeah, you outside. You having fun. I think 20s, you supposed to be making your mistakes.
living reckless fun 30s is really your prime of creating who you're going to be in your 40s yeah 30s is your prime and i see so many girls in their 30s waste a good fucking years i see it over and over again not treated right not respected not supported and then you wake up and you're 60 years old and be like where the fuck where did the time go because i'll
living reckless fun 30s is really your prime of creating who you're going to be in your 40s yeah 30s is your prime and i see so many girls in their 30s waste a good fucking years i see it over and over again not treated right not respected not supported and then you wake up and you're 60 years old and be like where the fuck where did the time go because i'll
Oh, I got to make a video to that. You ain't that.
Oh, I got to make a video to that. You ain't that.
It's not true. And I think what happens is as people, because we're living that life, we experience those things. We then like to project onto other people and their experiences. All men are not gay. Right. Because you're talking to a gay man that has never even kissed a woman. Yeah. I've never touched a vagina. I've never licked. I've never seen it.
It's not true. And I think what happens is as people, because we're living that life, we experience those things. We then like to project onto other people and their experiences. All men are not gay. Right. Because you're talking to a gay man that has never even kissed a woman. Yeah. I've never touched a vagina. I've never licked. I've never seen it.
People do it every time. You not know how easy it is for Halle Berry to get a man.
People do it every time. You not know how easy it is for Halle Berry to get a man.
Could have one tomorrow. She got to mean exactly what she's saying. Do you not know how easy it would be for her to get a man? And a man that probably would genuinely love her. She's just probably very calculated on how she move. She could get a man in 2.5 seconds. The producers that were at the show that was filming that segment that day, she could have one of them be her husband tomorrow.
Could have one tomorrow. She got to mean exactly what she's saying. Do you not know how easy it would be for her to get a man? And a man that probably would genuinely love her. She's just probably very calculated on how she move. She could get a man in 2.5 seconds. The producers that were at the show that was filming that segment that day, she could have one of them be her husband tomorrow.
That ain't what she want.
That ain't what she want.
Immediately. The essence of you is beautiful. You rich, successful, single. So it's just not that.
Immediately. The essence of you is beautiful. You rich, successful, single. So it's just not that.
They are. They are. It's so easy. Especially when you look good, lip gloss, hair done. Lip gloss popping. You really can go out on the street and get 15 numbers. And out of them 15 men, yeah, the quality is probably two good ones, but it's so easy.
They are. They are. It's so easy. Especially when you look good, lip gloss, hair done. Lip gloss popping. You really can go out on the street and get 15 numbers. And out of them 15 men, yeah, the quality is probably two good ones, but it's so easy.
As long as I can see that I had a man and we was doing phone sex, then it's not weird at all.
As long as I can see that I had a man and we was doing phone sex, then it's not weird at all.
No. You got to come see that.
No. You got to come see that.
You got to come see that seafood boy on Facebook. excuse me. Stop that juicy crap. You don't get to see that on no FaceTime. You won't record me. Because I said, I think when I got in my car accident, I said, ooh, bitch, you famous. Because I, like, I just be operating like myself. So when I get to my phone that day, I seen the shade room posted. I said, ooh,
You got to come see that seafood boy on Facebook. excuse me. Stop that juicy crap. You don't get to see that on no FaceTime. You won't record me. Because I said, I think when I got in my car accident, I said, ooh, bitch, you famous. Because I, like, I just be operating like myself. So when I get to my phone that day, I seen the shade room posted. I said, ooh,
it literally gagged the fuck out of me. For real? Yeah, I don't know why. I said, what the fuck?
it literally gagged the fuck out of me. For real? Yeah, I don't know why. I said, what the fuck?
I don't know, bitch, you got to watch how you moving now. Yeah, you got to be careful.
I don't know, bitch, you got to watch how you moving now. Yeah, you got to be careful.
Yeah, you just don't want that.
Yeah, you just don't want that.
I get it. Yeah, no faith.
I get it. Yeah, no faith.
Outside of the strip club, outside of my mother. I've never seen it in that context of me making love or touching. So I know that there are men out there who don't desire another man. Because I'm a gay man who does not desire a woman. I see the beauty in her. Just like another man can see the beauty in another man. But he may not be sexually attracted to him in that way.
Outside of the strip club, outside of my mother. I've never seen it in that context of me making love or touching. So I know that there are men out there who don't desire another man. Because I'm a gay man who does not desire a woman. I see the beauty in her. Just like another man can see the beauty in another man. But he may not be sexually attracted to him in that way.
They want the clout because they be so rooted in that clout. Yes. Yes.
They want the clout because they be so rooted in that clout. Yes. Yes.
It broke the internet. Remember that was... Yes. It broke the internet. I remember... All you seen down your Twitter timeline was Blac Chyna. Because remember they made it seem like it was her revenge for calling him. I remember that.
It broke the internet. Remember that was... Yes. It broke the internet. I remember... All you seen down your Twitter timeline was Blac Chyna. Because remember they made it seem like it was her revenge for calling him. I remember that.
All them dudes that chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you. Then when you give their ass a chance, they don't give up.
All them dudes that chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you. Then when you give their ass a chance, they don't give up.
And it's like, bitch, you wanted me.
And it's like, bitch, you wanted me.
I've been seeing that happen so many times. Chased her down, begged her. Yeah. Practically. Then when she give you a chance...
I've been seeing that happen so many times. Chased her down, begged her. Yeah. Practically. Then when she give you a chance...
Yeah. He chased you for... Three years.
Yeah. He chased you for... Three years.
So that's how it was in my last one. Do you like it of a picture?
So that's how it was in my last one. Do you like it of a picture?
Do y'all have an ex that y'all would give a chance to again?
Do y'all have an ex that y'all would give a chance to again?
And it's possible for a man not to be sexually attracted to another man. Because I'm not sexually attracted to women. So I've always known who I was.
And it's possible for a man not to be sexually attracted to another man. Because I'm not sexually attracted to women. So I've always known who I was.
Because that's long for a girl. Even if a girl is talking to you for three, four weeks, something is wrong.
Because that's long for a girl. Even if a girl is talking to you for three, four weeks, something is wrong.
No, I don't have an ex. I don't have an ex. I have little flings, I have little relationships, but I don't have an ex, like a real ex where I can say, ooh, that's my ex. I don't play.
No, I don't have an ex. I don't have an ex. I have little flings, I have little relationships, but I don't have an ex, like a real ex where I can say, ooh, that's my ex. I don't play.
When I tell you I don't play, I have it bad. You don't even talk to me too loud. You can leave.
When I tell you I don't play, I have it bad. You don't even talk to me too loud. You can leave.
Don't need it. I'm telling you, I really be at peace with myself and my life. Now, do I want to be in love? Yes. Of course. Do I want a relationship? Yes. But right now in this season, I be good. Yeah. I go home. I eat my own food. I chill, put my air conditioner on, cut my teeth. I be good. Mm-hmm. When I want a nibble, I have a nibble. Yes. When I want you to leave, you be gone. You can go.
Don't need it. I'm telling you, I really be at peace with myself and my life. Now, do I want to be in love? Yes. Of course. Do I want a relationship? Yes. But right now in this season, I be good. Yeah. I go home. I eat my own food. I chill, put my air conditioner on, cut my teeth. I be good. Mm-hmm. When I want a nibble, I have a nibble. Yes. When I want you to leave, you be gone. You can go.
My sister just told me that. My sister just said that. She was like, that is one of the most peaceful things. Yeah. You can move and do what you want. He's not, oh, why you got this on? Why you going this way? Yeah, yeah. Where you going? Why you...
My sister just told me that. My sister just said that. She was like, that is one of the most peaceful things. Yeah. You can move and do what you want. He's not, oh, why you got this on? Why you going this way? Yeah, yeah. Where you going? Why you...
And I've talked to some girls, too, and all they realize is it's the same experience. Hell yeah. Women who are not emulating a man, how he operates, how he thinks, how he maneuvers, and she's getting the same experience.
And I've talked to some girls, too, and all they realize is it's the same experience. Hell yeah. Women who are not emulating a man, how he operates, how he thinks, how he maneuvers, and she's getting the same experience.
Oh, I have a... Oh, I know my Bob for the week. What is it?
Oh, I have a... Oh, I know my Bob for the week. What is it?
My Bob for the week is my sister, Saucy Santana.
My Bob for the week is my sister, Saucy Santana.
That's my girl. That's my sister.
That's my girl. That's my sister.
Man, we had all... So that's like, girl. And people don't even understand how much she loves me. She loves me. And I love my girl. Since the day we met, we've been... You ever had a friend that you don't talk to every day? Yeah. Talk to him every day. But every time y'all see each other, it's a vibe. What's the tea?
Man, we had all... So that's like, girl. And people don't even understand how much she loves me. She loves me. And I love my girl. Since the day we met, we've been... You ever had a friend that you don't talk to every day? Yeah. Talk to him every day. But every time y'all see each other, it's a vibe. What's the tea?
And it could be some shit that go on and y'all could pick up the phone and be like, girl, what happened? But y'all don't talk every single day. That's my girl. But I would say the song is...
And it could be some shit that go on and y'all could pick up the phone and be like, girl, what happened? But y'all don't talk every single day. That's my girl. But I would say the song is...
He just came up with a song. It's called... I'm not going to play it, right? Or do I play it?
He just came up with a song. It's called... I'm not going to play it, right? Or do I play it?
But I think why those conversations do come up, right, because it can get very sticky. Because I think especially as gay people, we've experienced a lot of DL men. And so then what happens is we then start grouping people because we said to ourselves, you know what? I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He was gay. I've seen it all too.
But I think why those conversations do come up, right, because it can get very sticky. Because I think especially as gay people, we've experienced a lot of DL men. And so then what happens is we then start grouping people because we said to ourselves, you know what? I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He was gay. I've seen it all too.
It's called Free Band Titty.
It's called Free Band Titty.
Yeah, we are. It's so crazy because, like, people mistake him for me and me for him. Yeah, I can see that. Really?
Yeah, we are. It's so crazy because, like, people mistake him for me and me for him. Yeah, I can see that. Really?
And I thought that they was only doing it to me. So I said one day, I said, because it'll be people like, saucy. And then they'll be like, no, you be sexy.
And I thought that they was only doing it to me. So I said one day, I said, because it'll be people like, saucy. And then they'll be like, no, you be sexy.
So I asked him one day, I said, do people be mistaking you for me? He said, yes, girl. This lady just did it the other day at the airport. That is crazy. I said, really? He said, yeah, that was the first time. He said, the lady said, big sexy. Yeah. And I said, baby, I'm not big sexy.
So I asked him one day, I said, do people be mistaking you for me? He said, yes, girl. This lady just did it the other day at the airport. That is crazy. I said, really? He said, yeah, that was the first time. He said, the lady said, big sexy. Yeah. And I said, baby, I'm not big sexy.
Really? I think maybe it's, like, the aesthetic. Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
Really? I think maybe it's, like, the aesthetic. Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
I can see why people. Yeah.
I can see why people. Yeah.
I love they little voice.
I love they little voice.
Man, but pop was so good.
Man, but pop was so good.
What do you think about her? I like that song. Yeah, yeah. I got to get it. She's new, so I got to get into her. I got to get more of a feel of her and her music. But I like that song because my sister, Glorilla, is on it. Yes, that's what I'm saying. So, Glorilla just added that in.
What do you think about her? I like that song. Yeah, yeah. I got to get it. She's new, so I got to get into her. I got to get more of a feel of her and her music. But I like that song because my sister, Glorilla, is on it. Yes, that's what I'm saying. So, Glorilla just added that in.
Yeah, Glorilla just rocked it on up. Yeah. Love my Glow.
Yeah, Glorilla just rocked it on up. Yeah. Love my Glow.
Yeah, that's like the hot song right now. Okay. I haven't even heard it.
Yeah, that's like the hot song right now. Okay. I haven't even heard it.
Yeah. I think he like... 26, 27, 28. See, I thought he was like 30. Yeah, YN's is 1920.
Yeah. I think he like... 26, 27, 28. See, I thought he was like 30. Yeah, YN's is 1920.
When you start giving 27, 28, 29, 30, then you know YN.
When you start giving 27, 28, 29, 30, then you know YN.
You can tell him a poor looking man. Yeah. Fine as hell.
You can tell him a poor looking man. Yeah. Fine as hell.
Who y'all celebrity? Oh, no. I can't answer that.
Who y'all celebrity? Oh, no. I can't answer that.
But I still, because even when you do a pregnancy test, even when you do a DNA test, nothing is 100%.
But I still, because even when you do a pregnancy test, even when you do a DNA test, nothing is 100%.
And he be out of the way.
And he be out of the way.
Yeah, he cute, very mature. I said... I don't think G Herbo...
Yeah, he cute, very mature. I said... I don't think G Herbo...
Yes, I like his personality.
Yes, I like his personality.
Look, I just like him.
Look, I just like him.
So I can never just say all men are bi-curious. Right. All men are gay. You can't do that.
So I can never just say all men are bi-curious. Right. All men are gay. You can't do that.
But you do have a lot of men who are bisexual. But you know in our community it's taboo. Yeah, it is. In the black community it's taboo to talk about bisexuality because we feel like it's not real. You are either gay or you are straight. It's no in between. But I think what a lot of people have to start realizing that they are bisexual men.
But you do have a lot of men who are bisexual. But you know in our community it's taboo. Yeah, it is. In the black community it's taboo to talk about bisexuality because we feel like it's not real. You are either gay or you are straight. It's no in between. But I think what a lot of people have to start realizing that they are bisexual men.
And I love your pumps. Thank you. Them is cute. I think sometimes, oh, that's a hard one, friend. I know. Because it'd be so unfortunate that when it's like out of sight, out of mind. So when you're not around a person, then you see everybody's true colors and true feelings because you're not convenient to what they have going on.
And I love your pumps. Thank you. Them is cute. I think sometimes, oh, that's a hard one, friend. I know. Because it'd be so unfortunate that when it's like out of sight, out of mind. So when you're not around a person, then you see everybody's true colors and true feelings because you're not convenient to what they have going on.
But I think that it's important to know that who's supposed to be in your life is going to be in your life. And I think it's important for people to show their true colors so that you can paint it out to be what it is that is in front of you and not try to see it for something else. So I think you just have to take that for what it is. I know it may be hurtful and I know it may be unfortunate.
But I think that it's important to know that who's supposed to be in your life is going to be in your life. And I think it's important for people to show their true colors so that you can paint it out to be what it is that is in front of you and not try to see it for something else. So I think you just have to take that for what it is. I know it may be hurtful and I know it may be unfortunate.
It may bring discomfort to know that that you were only used for conveniency. However, you have to take it for what it is. I'm a person that lives in the truth of the now. And so when a person is showing you who they are, you have to believe it. And so I feel like try and rekindle, try and reach out.
It may bring discomfort to know that that you were only used for conveniency. However, you have to take it for what it is. I'm a person that lives in the truth of the now. And so when a person is showing you who they are, you have to believe it. And so I feel like try and rekindle, try and reach out.
And as I'm preaching to y'all, I'm preaching to myself too.
And as I'm preaching to y'all, I'm preaching to myself too.
But if you are extending more than they are giving back to you, I think that it's important to just... close that door and take it for what it is. Take on the hurt, feel it and move on and understand that, you know, it's a different position that people play in everybody's life and your journey may be up with them in that moment.
But if you are extending more than they are giving back to you, I think that it's important to just... close that door and take it for what it is. Take on the hurt, feel it and move on and understand that, you know, it's a different position that people play in everybody's life and your journey may be up with them in that moment.
Because I'm a realist. Because I have certain days where I'm like, no, it's no such thing as a man being bisexual. You either like men or you like women. But when I really have those cathartic moments to myself, I'm like, you know what? I can see how somebody could like a man and a woman. It may not necessarily make sense to me. Right. But I can see how it could be possible. What you think?
Because I'm a realist. Because I have certain days where I'm like, no, it's no such thing as a man being bisexual. You either like men or you like women. But when I really have those cathartic moments to myself, I'm like, you know what? I can see how somebody could like a man and a woman. It may not necessarily make sense to me. Right. But I can see how it could be possible. What you think?
Look, she don't want to say a word.
Look, she don't want to say a word.
And that's rare when we don't know. Girl, you need to go and get what you desire, baby. Because you're never going to be happy moving forward when you're just pretending and faking and being with somebody just because you feel like that's the convenient thing or the comfortable thing to do. Maybe go and get what your heart desires. There's nothing wrong with that. Because you're craving something.
And that's rare when we don't know. Girl, you need to go and get what you desire, baby. Because you're never going to be happy moving forward when you're just pretending and faking and being with somebody just because you feel like that's the convenient thing or the comfortable thing to do. Maybe go and get what your heart desires. There's nothing wrong with that. Because you're craving something.
I guess it's tingling and inching down there. And that is never going to be fulfilled with love.
I guess it's tingling and inching down there. And that is never going to be fulfilled with love.
Do you think a man can be vibe?
Do you think a man can be vibe?
I really do. Go get it.
I really do. Go get it.
Scratch that itch, Buka. Scratch it.
Scratch that itch, Buka. Scratch it.
Girl, if you saying fingers, toys, this throbbing, this itching, scratch it.
Girl, if you saying fingers, toys, this throbbing, this itching, scratch it.
Girl, you want something. Yeah.
Girl, you want something. Yeah.
I think it's like... A liking for energy and people.
I think it's like... A liking for energy and people.
A vibe, an energy. You could be trans. You could be white, black, Puerto Rican, Mexican. Got it. Woman, man.
A vibe, an energy. You could be trans. You could be white, black, Puerto Rican, Mexican. Got it. Woman, man.
So I'm going to be on some networks coming up. I can't wait for you guys to see Baddies Africa audition. It was amazing. It was so lit. It was so turnt. They took care of me. I'm going to also be on a couple of episodes of Love & Hip Hop. That also was an amazing experience. I have a huge birthday fashion show that's coming up. This year that I do annually every year. Okay, I want my invite.
So I'm going to be on some networks coming up. I can't wait for you guys to see Baddies Africa audition. It was amazing. It was so lit. It was so turnt. They took care of me. I'm going to also be on a couple of episodes of Love & Hip Hop. That also was an amazing experience. I have a huge birthday fashion show that's coming up. This year that I do annually every year. Okay, I want my invite.
Oh, I'm sending y'all invites. That my supporters come from all over the world to have a good time. That shit was like four, I think it was like four or five thousand people showed up.
Oh, I'm sending y'all invites. That my supporters come from all over the world to have a good time. That shit was like four, I think it was like four or five thousand people showed up.
And everybody comes up and from all over the place and having a wonderful time. I have amazing content on the way. Y'all have to come do a walk. We do. We have to. We know y'all are free. Ooh, I feel like we can do it ASAP. Yeah. That's going to be fun. We got to do one. Because that's going to go up. It is.
And everybody comes up and from all over the place and having a wonderful time. I have amazing content on the way. Y'all have to come do a walk. We do. We have to. We know y'all are free. Ooh, I feel like we can do it ASAP. Yeah. That's going to be fun. We got to do one. Because that's going to go up. It is.
No, I'm serious, y'all. Me too. Let's go ahead and lock that in. Yeah, we will. Because that's going to be sickening. Yay. And I have a different concept. Like, one could go up first, pose. Then you go up, pose, and y'all pose together. Okay. I think that'll be sick. I'm ready. We need to go ahead and do that ASAP. Amazing content on the way. Stay tuned and wait till y'all see who I got coming.
No, I'm serious, y'all. Me too. Let's go ahead and lock that in. Yeah, we will. Because that's going to be sickening. Yay. And I have a different concept. Like, one could go up first, pose. Then you go up, pose, and y'all pose together. Okay. I think that'll be sick. I'm ready. We need to go ahead and do that ASAP. Amazing content on the way. Stay tuned and wait till y'all see who I got coming.
Thank you for coming and joining us. I'm honored. I couldn't wait until y'all reached out to me.
Thank you for coming and joining us. I'm honored. I couldn't wait until y'all reached out to me.
I put your picture in my mirror. Start to blush when somebody says your name. In my stomach. In my stomach. There's a pain. Walking out of action. I go another way. I start to stutter when I speak. Start to stand but my knees go weak. What's happening to me? Anybody, can you tell me what it means? I lay my head on a pillow. Got me staring at the window.
I put your picture in my mirror. Start to blush when somebody says your name. In my stomach. In my stomach. There's a pain. Walking out of action. I go another way. I start to stutter when I speak. Start to stand but my knees go weak. What's happening to me? Anybody, can you tell me what it means? I lay my head on a pillow. Got me staring at the window.
Checking how my hair and my nails look. I feel like something is on. And I get nervous when you call. So I say I'm not. I see your face and I hear my favorite song. Should I sit on your mat at home? I wonder if you know. Do you have a clue? Come on. Yeah. Babe.
Checking how my hair and my nails look. I feel like something is on. And I get nervous when you call. So I say I'm not. I see your face and I hear my favorite song. Should I sit on your mat at home? I wonder if you know. Do you have a clue? Come on. Yeah. Babe.
I'm not going to run. I'm just going to stand here and see.
I'm not going to run. I'm just going to stand here and see.
Man, when I tell you I don't want sardine, cool it down.
Man, when I tell you I don't want sardine, cool it down.
But Donna, women are the most beautiful, precious, amazing thing that God has ever created on this earth. I couldn't do nothing. Wow! You came from a sardine cookie cake. If you paid me a million dollars, I wouldn't even know where to start in dissecting a vagina. I wouldn't want to taste it, kiss it, lick it, finger it, be with it, lay with it, nothing. This lady, come on.
But Donna, women are the most beautiful, precious, amazing thing that God has ever created on this earth. I couldn't do nothing. Wow! You came from a sardine cookie cake. If you paid me a million dollars, I wouldn't even know where to start in dissecting a vagina. I wouldn't want to taste it, kiss it, lick it, finger it, be with it, lay with it, nothing. This lady, come on.
She's going to tell me one day, come on. Oh, you so handsome. You need some punani in your life. I was at Starbucks. I said, what's punani? Ooh, now you know. She said, you is just so fine. You just so big and tall. You need some punani. I said, what is punani? She said, stop playing vagina. I said, I don't want none of that. I don't need none of that. And I don't need none of that, baby.
She's going to tell me one day, come on. Oh, you so handsome. You need some punani in your life. I was at Starbucks. I said, what's punani? Ooh, now you know. She said, you is just so fine. You just so big and tall. You need some punani. I said, what is punani? She said, stop playing vagina. I said, I don't want none of that. I don't need none of that. And I don't need none of that, baby.
I'm strictly dicking meat, sausage, ribs, airlock. Ooh, not the meat sauce. I'm a barbecue. I'm a barbecue, baby. I need meats on this grill. I don't need no meat. Not to make this barbecue. Y'all, I love, I have to, sometimes I have to say, God, please just don't. Oh, I just be craving them so bad. Every time I'm just, oh, I think it's an addiction. Oh, I mean, I get it. Men be fine.
I'm strictly dicking meat, sausage, ribs, airlock. Ooh, not the meat sauce. I'm a barbecue. I'm a barbecue, baby. I need meats on this grill. I don't need no meat. Not to make this barbecue. Y'all, I love, I have to, sometimes I have to say, God, please just don't. Oh, I just be craving them so bad. Every time I'm just, oh, I think it's an addiction. Oh, I mean, I get it. Men be fine.
My girl did her piece. Oh, my girl did her research. And you know why you gagged me too? Because I'm not ashamed of anything because I love Jada. Right, right. But a lot of people only know me now for the things that I do now. Right. It's a small percentage of people that be like, I remember you were friends with Jada.
My girl did her piece. Oh, my girl did her research. And you know why you gagged me too? Because I'm not ashamed of anything because I love Jada. Right, right. But a lot of people only know me now for the things that I do now. Right. It's a small percentage of people that be like, I remember you were friends with Jada.
And I be gagging like, excuse me? The tea is hot. Because you know what's so crazy? Me just being a realist. That whole situation, when I think about it now as an adult, oh, I just wish everything would have went so different. Because I just know, even though everything is aligned how it's supposed to be. Of course.
And I be gagging like, excuse me? The tea is hot. Because you know what's so crazy? Me just being a realist. That whole situation, when I think about it now as an adult, oh, I just wish everything would have went so different. Because I just know, even though everything is aligned how it's supposed to be. Of course.
But I know that if things would have went different, we would have been such a powerhouse friendship group. Friendship, yes. Because I learned so much from... From her. Yeah. And what people don't understand, she has always been a boss. Yeah. Young. I'm talking about sitting in a car and showing up on her phone a sale she made 70 bands. Period. At 17 years old.
But I know that if things would have went different, we would have been such a powerhouse friendship group. Friendship, yes. Because I learned so much from... From her. Yeah. And what people don't understand, she has always been a boss. Yeah. Young. I'm talking about sitting in a car and showing up on her phone a sale she made 70 bands. Period. At 17 years old.
So that's why even when I hear people say, little baby's baby mama, no, no, no, her name is Jada. Right. Because I don't care if he is on a different level of where she is now, my girl has always had her own. She's not one of those girls.
So that's why even when I hear people say, little baby's baby mama, no, no, no, her name is Jada. Right. Because I don't care if he is on a different level of where she is now, my girl has always had her own. She's not one of those girls.
That has only just been attached to a guy. Mm-hmm. And so now I think the only times that I have moments of, damn, I wish I was connected to my girls when I see her son. Because I'm like, oh, I would have been like his uncle. Yeah. Uncle world. Life goes on. I'm good. Everything was aligned for a reason. I think it was meant for me to be in her life for that season.
That has only just been attached to a guy. Mm-hmm. And so now I think the only times that I have moments of, damn, I wish I was connected to my girls when I see her son. Because I'm like, oh, I would have been like his uncle. Yeah. Uncle world. Life goes on. I'm good. Everything was aligned for a reason. I think it was meant for me to be in her life for that season.
For her to be able to teach me different things, help me build my platform, get me to where I'm at now in my life. And I could see things reconnecting later on in life. If not, God is still good. Yes. I love that. If so, God is still good.
For her to be able to teach me different things, help me build my platform, get me to where I'm at now in my life. And I could see things reconnecting later on in life. If not, God is still good. Yes. I love that. If so, God is still good.
And so, yeah, it was good.
And so, yeah, it was good.
Yeah, that's one of my... I have a lot of people who I don't deal with. I don't give a damn. There's nothing I want to talk to them about. Right. But Jada is one person who I will be open to having a conversation with outside of her platform, outside of who she is, because I watched this clip the other day, and Tyler Perry posted that Kerry Washington had interrupted the BEC Awards to thank him.
Yeah, that's one of my... I have a lot of people who I don't deal with. I don't give a damn. There's nothing I want to talk to them about. Right. But Jada is one person who I will be open to having a conversation with outside of her platform, outside of who she is, because I watched this clip the other day, and Tyler Perry posted that Kerry Washington had interrupted the BEC Awards to thank him.
And in the caption, he says he has changed lives, and he really gets a thank you. And so when I was looking at it, I'm like, what the fuck? That's crazy. Do you not know how many million dollar deals Tyler Perry has probably given out? Right. And for him to say that little clip moved him because people don't say thank you is mind blowing when you really dissect it. Yeah.
And in the caption, he says he has changed lives, and he really gets a thank you. And so when I was looking at it, I'm like, what the fuck? That's crazy. Do you not know how many million dollar deals Tyler Perry has probably given out? Right. And for him to say that little clip moved him because people don't say thank you is mind blowing when you really dissect it. Yeah.
And so for me with her, I could never be that person that doesn't give her her accolades.
And so for me with her, I could never be that person that doesn't give her her accolades.
Because Jada was doing for her family when she was 17. Yeah. It was times Jada just... Say, here, post yourself on my Instagram. And it'll run my followers up 6,000 numbers at a time. But it just was unfortunate how things ended. And I'm the type of person, because we were linked in with another person who was very special to me, and he's my brother for life, I had to ride with him.
Because Jada was doing for her family when she was 17. Yeah. It was times Jada just... Say, here, post yourself on my Instagram. And it'll run my followers up 6,000 numbers at a time. But it just was unfortunate how things ended. And I'm the type of person, because we were linked in with another person who was very special to me, and he's my brother for life, I had to ride with him.
And that's just what it was. So what happened? I picked... Okay, so without just giving, look at my girl, she's hot! Without just giving too, too, too much, because I don't want to open up no old wounds. Right, right. But it was a situation that happened with somebody who she was dealing with. Okay. They end up getting into it and things just didn't get reconciled the right way. Okay.
And that's just what it was. So what happened? I picked... Okay, so without just giving, look at my girl, she's hot! Without just giving too, too, too much, because I don't want to open up no old wounds. Right, right. But it was a situation that happened with somebody who she was dealing with. Okay. They end up getting into it and things just didn't get reconciled the right way. Okay.
I end up calling her to check her about it and she got upset with me and she blocked me. Okay. Right? Mm-hmm. We went on, me and my friend, because I can take accountability in anything that I do. We went on Instagram and started throwing shade. This was years ago, just being a youngster.
And that's why as an adult now, 30 years old, when I tell you it's so many different ways of things that I did when I was young that I would never do now. Right. Because I see that it gets you nowhere. It puts a halt in what you're doing.
And so us being upset.
Because that's what happens in relationships and friendships when people pay you dust. Right? Us being upset, we went on Instagram throwing shade, saying different things. So that's what really put a halt in things of never being able to be reconciled again. And I get it.
I'm so real to understand if she never want to talk to me again in life, I'm good. I get it. Because people who do me like that now, it's nothing for us to ever talk about. Exactly. I love you from a distance. You can be sincerely apologizing to me and I accept it, but we'll never be the same. Right. It'll never be that again. It's nothing for us to talk about.
I don't wish you any harm or danger, but it's nothing for us to reconcile. So I get it. I have to be understanding and understand both sides. But I'm forever thankful.
Always. I think one of my pet peeves with people is victimized people. Can't stand them.
People like that, they have to get the fuck from around me.
What did you do? Get on my last fucking nerve.
I don't know why a little bit. Some people may agree and they may not. I love a person that's a villain. Because I love a person that just can own it.
And I think I love people that's able to say what they did wrong in some situation. If I'm talking to you and it's a hundred stories and you're never wrong, it's something that you did wrong. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Even when you ask a person, what's your toxic trait? I'm too loving. No, no, no, baby.
I'm good. I'm good. God is good. I'm actually honored that y'all reached out to me.
Of something that you can change that you can do better as a person. Right.
Yeah. Oh, my nurse. Oh, my God.
And it could be very, well, this. I'm a great worker. I'm very loyal. Oh, but sometimes I like to check my phone. I can take that.
Because we all have our shortcomings as people. Right. Everybody has their flaws. Everybody has their shortcomings in life. So what would yours be and what would yours be? I'm going to leave. I think mine would be I'm very passionate. I'm very loyal. Mm-hmm. I just have to work on how things are said.
We love you. I think in this experience, I'd be so honored. Now, I know who I am. I'm very confident in who I am. But I'd be so honored in this experience, like, that people love me. Because I've been this way for so long of my life.
Because as an adult, I'm realizing that everybody doesn't take well to aggressiveness, but that's just who I am. Sometimes I can't help it. I realize once it come out my mouth, you know how you think about things that you say, and it is like you hear yourself? It been came out, and then two seconds later, I'm like, damn, that came out wrong. But I'm just so used to speaking my truth.
Because since I was young, if I wanted to say, ugh, that shit is nasty, My mother gave me lead way to say that. I didn't get in trouble for saying things like that. So now as an adult, I can't help it. If I don't like something, I don't like it. If I want to address something, I'm addressing it right now. If I want to speak my mind, I'm going to do that. So what's your toxic trait?
And not have an understanding.
So it's just now to have people gravitate to me, I can't go anywhere without people knowing me and loving me and recognizing me. It's just like mind blowing to me because I'm just, I'm still myself.
You know what I'm saying? I'm not really sensitive. I'm not either. If you see me crying, I got to be devastated about something.
That's a tourist, baby.
So it's just like, I'm thankful.
That's a tour. Wait. What's up? Liz. Liz, what's up? That's why I could get jiggy with tourists. Because what I've noticed with a lot of tourist people, even two of my good tourist friends, they don't mind saying, all right, This is how I feel. This is what's on my mind. And people like that I can take. Because it's better. Because this is going to be my response. So this is how I feel.
And everything is not an argument.
Everything don't have to be an argument. I do get, and that's another toxic way that I have too. I wouldn't say that I'm, I think like if you really ask my friends, I could be confrontational. Like I don't mind confrontation. I don't mind an argument. And I don't mind going back and forth. I don't mind debating because I'm a passionate person. That's all I have to say.
Yeah, and I do. I have to work on that.
It's crazy. I went to the strip club the other day. The girls went crazy. I'm like, it's so mind blowing to me because I've always lived this experience of me being myself.
That is Leo, Leo be controlling.
Yeah. So that's a little different. It's okay. Because literally, friendships is like relationships. Yeah. Just without the intimacy. You be heartbroken falling out with your friend just like it was your man. And homeboys go through, you could be gay, you could be straight, you could be female. When you go through with your friend, even if you ain't talking to your friend for a couple of weeks,
So it's just like, what? The fuck?
It be things you be wanting to talk about with them, and you can't because y'all mad at each other. I agree.
Yeah, and it's like, not fucking with you right now. It's mad.
Because that's me. I can hold a grunt. When I tell you I'm a grunt, I'm a hold a grunt until I go to the grave.
Yeah. And until the tourists talk about it, then you're going to hold a grudge. But I don't feel like I... But once you talk about it, you'll be good after that.
It just depends on what's done. Well, I'll say this about Drea.
Yo, that sign shit is so... Yes.
Real. And the thing with Taurus Su, kissing nobody's ass.
But you guys will always be open to talk about it. That's crazy. That sign of shit. It could be two months later. If you ready to talk, now we can talk. So we can hash it out. But kissing nobody's ass.
I got to work on that one. Yeah. Because it just depends. And that's something you really preach to me. Because that's something that I, and I've had people like my older sister who I get a lot of guidance from as well, tell me that that's a fucked up trait too because you don't do people like that.
But for me, it just depends on what's done. Because I be feeling like you should know better. Yeah. And one of my things that I take as a pride and as a friendship is I'm not a chatter. If you sit here and tell me some vulnerable shit about yourself and you tell me to not say anything, I'm taking it to the motherfucking grave. Whether we follow it or not. So I expect the same thing from you.
If I hear you doing a lot of chatting about my shit like this, you get caught off at the head. I would prefer, I promise you, people don't... People have told me I sound crazy when I give this example. What? I would prefer if you was using my goddamn debit card and I didn't know. And you came and told me, oh, sexy, I was hungry, I fucked up.
Opposed to the streets coming back and saying, she said this, I know this about... I would take that over that. I don't play when it comes to that shit. Because people like that just... It runs my guts. I can't stand it. Because I have seen people do that, say, oh, that's my homegirl. And as soon as she leave the room, why do I know that she's been evicted last week? That's not my business.
Sister, instantly, I be like, ooh. Fine.
Yeah, and people get upset. And guess what? It's inevitable. As humans, we gonna talk. We gonna be like, fuck that bitch. Yeah. But it's just a certain level of where you go. I should not know personal shit that y'all went through. Yeah, you can come and tell me, she did it. That was fucked up. I'm not fucking with her. Yeah, yeah. That's because you're human. We get upset.
That's just what we do as people. But it's a degree of how you go about doing things.
Or she had a BV that a nigga gave her.
Or she would have gotten an abortion.
Yeah, yeah. I do not trust them. They stay 50 feet away from me.
The drink is amazing. I don't like that lychee. Okay. It's just a weird texture.
The drink. You like it? It's not even a 10 out of 10. It's a 15. Oh, come on now. It's delicious. It's the perfect amount of sugar. The perfect amount of citrus. Okay. It's delicious.
So initially I was born in the Bronx, New York.
Then I migrated to Savannah, Georgia when I was 11 years old.
So I represent Savannah a lot because I grew up there. I went to middle school, high school. I graduated from high school there. I went to a little bit of college there. So I say I'm from Savannah, but I was originally from the Bronx.
And this is the thing. It goes, I think, and I'm saying black because I'm black. You black. It goes hand in hand though, right? Because I do get how in certain areas as black gay men we can't be props. I understand that because we contribute a lot. Our slang, our fashion, our mindset, our loyalty. We love the girls and the girls love us.
And we're amazing, we're innovators, we're thinkers, we're creative, we're smart as gay people, right? But I think our biggest allies, especially for me in my life as a black gay man, has been black women. So, in a sense, a prop is subjective. It's what a prop is to you. Because for me, my biggest allies has been black women.
So, sometimes even when people think that I'm baiting or I'm saying certain things to just get on the good side of a woman, a lot of things I feel, for real. Because when I was experiencing my bullying... When I was experiencing my hardships, it was women that was there for me.
Was my mother. That was accepting of who you are. And that's why when people tell me I'm trying to be like this person, I'm trying to be like my mama. I am like my mother. Yes. I think and move and operate like my mother. But for me, women have saved me. So I have a different connection with them. But I do get that sometimes we can be props.
So it's always, and this is the thing, and I'm tying this into just kind of what I said earlier. I've been out gay since I was about 10 or 11 years old.
And what happens is, I was talking about this on another podcast.
because I was just trying to speak life into this young man, right, who had his perspective on being messy. Oh, I seen it.
Girl, you ain't seen, that was the light work for me. Man, that was the light work. Somebody called me up and said, hey, yeah, we got to get somebody on here that can take you because you're a lot. Yeah, I am. In real life. Because I'm very assertive and I know what I'm talking about. And even if I don't know what I'm talking about, I'm going to wing that bitch.
And you're going to think I know what I'm talking about.
I'm going to wing you too. I'm going to wing it down. And you're never going to box me. I'm going to always have a response.
But I think it's a two-way street, right? Because what I wanted him to understand was, You can be that stereotype of mess that they see gay men to be, right? Because all they're going to do is amp you and say, yeah, spill the tea. Yeah, stand on it. Yeah, say that. And guess what? As soon as their business is on the line, then you're going to be a sissy.
And then you're going to be seen as that prop that they just throw to the side. Mm-hmm. Because it's no fun until the cat got the gun. Right. So you can sit there and laugh at another woman's pain and laugh at her business when another gay man is talking about it. But as soon as your business is on the line, then that's when the prop, yes.
That's when the prop is in play. And so that's where I can understand how people would say a lot of times we're just props. Because when things go wrong, when things go left, a lot of times a lot of gay men, when you talk to them, it's a thing in our community. It's don't trust fish, fish got bones.
Because a lot of gay men have experienced being that loyal person to women, being that rider, and when things go left, they're thrown to the side. They have been the manager. They have been the person riding. They've been the person showing up when your man was doing you in in the house, abusing you. You've been that person, that older brother, that friend figure.
And when things go left, you'll forgive him, but you'll throw your gay friend to the side. So I can get why that dynamic is very sticky and very tricky. But as for me and my experience, women have saved me.
I was wearing my mother fur coats and pocketbooks to school.
And I was just talking to her the other day, and she was like, I can't wait until you come out with a documentary so I can actually tell people that. Yeah. You've always had this personality. You always was a preacher. You always was passionate. You have always been this same person. Yeah. So in that, it has been a struggle because you got to think about it.
They do. It goes both ways. It goes both ways. And the thing is, we give a lot of confidence and tips and we teach a lot of things because we do. We innovate us and we're very creative. But the same way women give it to us. I couldn't imagine a world of me living here without women. I probably would have been off myself. Right. I'm just being serious.
I could, even when it comes to my own motherfucking community. Right. I could not imagine this earth of me here, even if it was an LGBTQ community with just men and a world with just men. I would then have gone. Yeah. I'm talking about upstairs with God hanging out. Yeah. It's women that keep me so grounded in who I am. They give me so much confidence. They give me so much genuine love.
I'm able to create my own table and my own lane because of women. Even with my own motherfucking community, I couldn't imagine having to kiss their motherfucking ass. Because there'd be a lot of them too that's so rooted in hate and jealousy. So it does go both ways. You guys give us a lot and we give you a lot. But I think that it just gets sticky sometimes because of different things that go on.
And... So you gotta just, ooh, you gotta just let things happen organically like you said, but me personally, I don't mind. Really? I don't mind a girl saying that because we fun, we fabulous.
They are. It's so easy. Especially when you look good, lip gloss, hair done. Lip gloss popping. You really can go down the street and get 15 numbers. And out of them 15 men, yeah, the quality is probably two good ones, but it's so easy.
Or like somebody trying to use... I think some girls, they enjoy gay men more than girls. Okay. I think sometimes.
It's a little weird. You think so? Yeah.
So you feel like, of course... You hate that because that's true. Yeah. Because I'm breaking it down for...
But guess what? You know what? That's so true how you just broke that down because I think about that with gay men. Yeah. If you're a gay man and you have no gay homeboys, because it's just like I spoke about on the other podcast. It's things, yeah, you can love me as a gay man. It is things that I can give you. But it's still certain things that you and her can relate on that I know nothing about.
So I went from New York, being fat, black, and feminine. Then I migrated to Savannah, Georgia, which was even more of a small demographic, a smaller town. Yeah. Different culture, different way people operate and think and move. So I went through it in New York, and I went through it in Savannah.
Yeah. So as a gay black man, I got to have at least one gay black man that has lived this experience with me. If I don't have at least one gay black man that I can relate to, we've been through the same. We have different backgrounds and upbringings, but it's a lot of things as me being a black gay man that you can relate to 80% of the time. Right.
Rather, it's sometimes being ostracized, people judging us, people judging us because of what we like. So you absolutely right. Yeah. Because there's certain things that women can get from each other that you can't get from a gay man. Right, right. Yeah, I may be comfort for you. You may like to hang around me because I may encourage you in a different way than your homegirl.
But if you telling me you have no good homegirls, no good female friends, that is...
Because you know what, too? Sometimes, to be fair, even though I don't live a woman's experience, sometimes, though, too, women genuinely just have a cattiness.
So sometimes you, it's a lot of girls that have tried. They've tried to be a girl's girl. They've tried to get along with other girls. But it's sometimes the gay boy will be more of a cheerleader when you walk out the room. Ooh, girl, honey, yes, you look good. Sometimes you don't get that from other females.
God. I am. And like, even on, like, I'm the type of friend, it's nothing that my friend posted I'm not liking. Same. Me personally. Same. It could be some bullshit. It could be edited wrong. Me, I'm going to still like the picture.
But I've always had a big personality.
I'm going to like it. That's just because I'm not intimidated. And I know that that might sound arrogant and pompous. It's not. But I'm so comfortable, contrary to what people may think.
Contrary to what people think they may see, I'm so comfortable in myself, and a lot of that attests to my girls. Because I could have 10 handsome, aesthetically pleasing gay friends that I'm around, and none of them are still me. And I don't mean that in an arrogant way, because they are their own person, and I can't be them. And they probably could get everything that I probably want in my heart.
So I always just knew. And you know how people say, oh, I always knew I was going to be a star. I always knew I was going to be popular. But they never really knew that for themselves. I always knew it was going to be something there. Yeah. I always knew that because I always was the gay guy in middle school and high school that would come in here, bangle earrings on. I was the best.
But I still know when I walk into a room with my girls, they're going up for me. So I'm in a lane of my own. You can't do it like me. You can't walk like me. You can't move. So when you comfortable in yourself... When you have your own lane.
You think that you can teach a person how to be a friend?
And I think it's important, too. I think in order to have longevity in a friendship, you have to learn a person. So sometimes you're not hurting your own feelings. I say that all the time. And for example, like, I already know when my friend don't want to be bothered. Yeah. I can tell in the tone. I can tell when he don't want company.
So why even hurt my feelings of saying, I'm about to come over there when I know you don't want company right now? Yeah. You have to learn a person. I'll be wanting people to understand. I'm the type of person, if I don't deal with you, don't invite me nowhere where you're located. Mm-hmm.
So, as a friend, you should already know that because now you're going to be offended when I say, stop asking me that shit. Are you stupid? Yeah. Learn me. I don't want to be nowhere in the conference of where another person is at. So, you have to learn a person that you're around.
So that certain times you're not hurt because that's what happens sometimes. Now, you think your friend is something personal to you and it's not. They're just not having a good day.
And I'm learning that more because I'm a person that wakes up on 10. I'll say probably five days out of the week.
I'm good. And so growing up, it would offend me if I called you and you're like, what's up? You've already thrown me. I don't even want to be around you. Now I feel like it's something that I did, but I had to realize and what my sister taught me, sometimes it's people being selfish. It's not about you today, baby. It has nothing to do with you. I'm having my own problems, my own issues.
It has nothing to do with you. So I think it's important to learn people.
I love a good baby. Since I was young, literally, I've always known who I was. Uh-huh.
I can deal with those mopers. Y'all, that's my friend. I don't bother people with my moping. That's my moping head. She is like that. And that's fine because you're human. But I love people that's not, they're not going to take it out on you. They're just not having a good day. They're going to be vocal about it and they need their space. Yeah.
But I can't stand a person that come and on purpose want to ruin the atmosphere.
Because you're human. I'm still learning that. That is one thing that I'm still learning with people. You're human and sometimes it's nothing to do with me. Yeah. And I think as people, we take it personal. It's not about you today.
So I'll be having to build my... Yes, and I have to understand that I didn't do anything to you. Yeah. I don't know what type of way that is. It's just you in your mind today. It has nothing to do with me. And as people, we be ready to take it so personal. It's like it has nothing to do with you. That's why I like vocal people too. Yeah. Just express that and then I'll just go about my way. Mm-hmm.
Everybody. That's a fact.
Oh, I always knew, baby. You was born this way. Even as an adult, I love black, handsome men. Yeah. It is like chocolate to me. And so, literally, I remember as being a young boy walking. This is why I love and adore my mother. Mm-hmm. And the day that God takes her, if it happens to be before me, call and check on me. Because I would never take it well.
So, I have a mom that will walk around with a towel, panties, things like that. But just butt naked? Mm-mm. I ain't had no butt naked mama.
You came out your mama vagina. Yeah.
Yeah, and I get it, but it's like, I don't know what your... It's like you literally lived in her body, like... you came out between her legs.
And I get that. I can understand.
Because even though she is very based in her morals and religion, and she wants me to have a wife and kids badly, she still never ostracized me as a little boy. That's what a real parent is. And so that's why, as an adult, people don't understand the flamboyantness and the loudness and the extra-ness, and it was because I was always given that leeway to be myself. She always embraced me.
We got the same body part.
A little sticky, baby.
But that's the only vagina I've seen was my mama. Was your mama?
And then my sisters just maybe like busting in the bathroom and they're not dressed. Yeah. In that context. Yeah, but outside of that...
No. You don't want kids? No, not at all. I'm a goddad. I have two beautiful nieces, Summer and you, Lisa. But no, I don't desire kids. Kids is a lot. They're beautiful. They're amazing. They're adorable. But I never have baby fever. Never in my life. I've never went through a phase of being like, oh, I want kids. I love my family. Freedom. Yes. I love to be able to move and do what I want.
Not to say that mothers who have kids don't have freedom. Right. Because you get to a certain point in your life where you still living your best life. Yeah, yeah. You got your kids to exactly the age they need to be with, where they're able to do for themselves and move and operate and feed themselves. Now my girls be back outside living their best life. Yeah, that's true.
Because I've seen it happen over and over and over again. But as far as me, I don't desire children, ever.
And you said, because I'm pretty sure you can afford a nanny now. Yeah. But you're talking about, like, a full, they're getting a six-figure paycheck. Yes. You can afford it. Okay, so I get what you're saying.
Maybe it'll be a lot, Puka. Yeah. You want kids?
And you know grandma, they be ready.
They gonna give it up, everything to come and do that. That's their dream, their desire. She can't wait. When you got you a good mama and a good relationship, that's your nanny. She gonna want to come, and she's gonna want to be the nanny.
She never... Even though I knew that in her mind she may have felt how she felt, because it's inevitable. As parents... You want certain things for your children. Right. You want a certain lifestyle. Sometimes you lead in your selfishness of what you want for them, which is not always wrong. Right.
You so country. Where the hell is you from? No!
It's so pretty and country.
Bow, bow, bow. What should we get into the bed?
Oh, I'm a yapper, baby. I love it. I live to talk, Boca.
Now, let's get into this bed, baby.
It's just how you envision your children that you want your son with a wife, you want your daughter with a husband. Right. And that is just what you envision for your family. So I get it. But young, when I tell you she will all, I could play with Barbie dolls. Yes. And she will be, thinking I'm lying. And she has to attest to it. She would let me play with Barbie dolls. Yeah.
I'm just, when I tell you on this course of my life, I'm just so focused on what I'm doing. Now, it itches down there. Yeah. Bad sometimes. But I just go ahead and I itch it and I just go on about my business. But at this journey where I'm at in my life right now, I got to be focused. Yeah. Nobody's entering my body. That's not even up for debate.
And I'm not allowing, I'm even at a place in my life because I like trade. Trade is like, I wouldn't necessarily say hood dudes, but they would be more on the side.
Yes, and I'm even at a place in my life, Trey can't even come to my house because I'm so focused on this journey. I'm so close to everything that it is that I desire and want and have been desiring for years. And so I have to be real particular about who I'm letting in my house, around me, in my body. So while I've been on this journey, I've been celibate.
Even when I be... That's why, too, I like to just... Oh, no, I can't say that. Blah. I was about to say, what? ! Bless! I can't say that one, bless. Oh, and bless, that's why I got to work on that because it be about to slip out. I'm weak. Okay, so let me refrain. Let me refrain from saying that. So that's why I like... Oh, shit. Oh, bless that one. I'm going to slip down.
That's why I like to meet my people in clubs. I'll just say that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Because I be wanting to meet people who don't know who the hell I am so I can get in and get out.
I'm at a place in my life I can see how sometimes when you reach the level of superstardom that you may stay with a person even though a person is doing you wrong because... Comfortable. You're comfortable and then you already know their motives.
I think what I'm learning now is a lot of dudes I've been in contact with comes with, like, motives. I hate now when people know who I am.
It turns me off because I'm like, oh, God. Okay, so it's a motive. Yeah. That's what it is. When you come up and say, you know me, it's a motive. Don't want it. It's that bad now. Yeah. Because I just feel like it's an ulterior motive behind what it is that you want out of me. Yeah. But y'all been celibate five years. Oh, my God. But the celibate to y'all mean no sucky.
Oh, no, baby, I'd be sucking.
You saw you knew I'd be sucking. Yeah, I'd be sucking and masturbating.
Don't play with this shrimp. One thing about it.
She would let me wear her pocketbook. She would let me wear her... So I have to even tell her as an adult, girl, it's your fault.
Okay. You say I'm a girl? No. I'm not interested in that. Like, if a guy say he want to go down on me, I'm not interested.
I'm a girl. I'm a girl. He's just a lady. Oh, my God. He's a lady. I'm a lady, too, but I like a little bit. Ah! Uh-uh. If I talk to a dude and he... Not interested. So, you're a lady in the relationship. Yes. I'm the girl.
I don't like it. If a boy want to get in, I'm not interested no more. Okay.
You like Trey. Yeah, but Trey like... Depending on who it is, they like do them a lick or two. Yeah, yeah. But it's some Trey out there who don't and them the ones I like... Like, I say predominantly I like those. Those are the ones I like predominantly. Okay. Now, I'm not saying I've never encountered one that I'd like to do licking to. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
But if I could choose, I don't want mine to be no licking. Yeah, okay. I'm just not into that. Okay. Because if you're going to desire to lick on me, I'm not into that. Yeah. I want to do the licking.
And I appreciate it, but it gets so under... Because, girl, you let me just be who I was. Yeah. So I have no... I don't know how to backtrack.
I've never been in a relationship in my life.
30 years old, I have never been in a relationship in my life. I've had little flings. Yeah. But nothing serious like me and you, we together. We locked down. I've never in my life.
Oh, wow. I just reached a certain point of just... I think... I think that I've been, I know this may sound crazy to some people, but I think I've been scarred through a lot of other people's experiences. And seeing a lot of my female friends get hurt and a lot of my gay male friends get hurt and torn up.
That's why I'm even at a place in my life I want no relationship. Okay. Where I'm at in my life, none. I don't want no relationship. I want to tap and go. Because I've seen so many relationships and I've seen so many men come into good girls' lives that have so much shit going on and fuck.
And when I tell you, it happens every time. I've only seen, and I have to be real. As a gay black man, I've seen my friend Flex be successful in his relationship. Yes, they have issues and problems. Uh-huh. But they still have a camaraderie. They still have a relationship. They going five years strong. That's very weird in our community.
We don't see a lot of relationships that stay down, but they have a different dynamic of a relationship. They're very open and raw with each other. But for me, I've seen guys come into girls' lives and ruin them. They light up. And she was right there and getting her degree. It's one of my friends. I think that hurt me until I'm like 80.
It is. Yeah. Because it's just made me who I am. But I think everybody experiences different. And so I think as people, we have to understand that two things can be right at the same time. And so everybody experiences different. As far as me, I only can speak from my experience. I've always known what I like.
And you know how 80 in movies, they looking back on their life? Yeah. She was supposed to be a doctor. She stopped.
And he knew what the fuck he was doing. Yeah. He knew what he was doing. And she allowed him to get in her fucking mind and fuck her up from getting her doctorate's degree.
Because people are not led by God, they're led by love. People don't be letting God lead them. They be thinking that that's a God-led situation. It's not. Just like a lot of people say they have words from God and they don't. It's their own thoughts and their own bullshit that they feed themselves in their head. People be leaded by lust.
But you sitting here and you think that it's a love at first sight, that's bullshit. It's not. Not saying that it can't be because it can. Because I already know it's going to be stories out there. People say, no, I found love at first sight, and I get that. But 90% of the time, it's lust. And when you go through real shit, because I'm a believer in that, that's how we'll know it's love or not.
Now I do get on another spectrum that there are different things that trigger people and different experiences that they may have had in their life that has made them turn into that type of person. But for me and who I am, I've always been this way. I've never touched, licked, kissed a woman in my life.
When real shit starts to happen, even with friendships, I've seen it. My friend was hanging out with a group of friends, and he went to go do time, and he heard from none of them but one, and the one was me. So when shit get real with people, yeah.
Because that's what it be.
Even in my community, there's so many people that are literally settling because they don't want to be alone. And then you look at me, you look at me, and then when I say that, people think that I'm tripping or I'm over-exaggerating or something wrong with me, and it's not.
I'm just at a journey in my life where I know what I want.
You never was in love? You always knew this ain't for me. Never in my life. You couldn't. That's how I be when I see Coochie. I love my girls like God love his children.
At all. So that's a good... They bring nothing. They have nothing to offer. My parents have been married 31 years. You niggas have nothing. My parents have been married 31 years and they tell me, if you've ever been in a long-term marriage, if you always say that you've always been in love, it's a lie. Not true. I agree.
Because you go through different hurdles and different points in your relationship. Sometimes you got to create love again. Sometimes you got to create those times. My parents been together 31 years and I've seen a lot of amazing moments with them. But I've seen times where they wasn't getting along. I've seen times of walking by each other in the house because that relationship should be a lot.
Yes, yes. It's so beautiful. It's so amazing. It's so agape. It's so cute. But it be real time, too. And people who have been in relationships, they can attest to that. It's a lot of work.
That is so true. And that's why for me, too, I love my Super Sense. I love my J-Lo's. I love my Holly Berry.
Get another one over and over and over again.
When I tell you I love girls so bad. I think it's so bad because I be so biased. Because I love my girls. I don't know what I would do without women. So I live to see a girl. Oh, new one. New one. Wow. I love girls who know they work. Another one. Because I got a friend. Her name is Alexis. Let me tell you something about Alexis. Good girl. Amazing. Got her own business. She's a boss. So pretty.
My girls is the best thing that has ever happened in my life. But you like, I am not attractive. I have never kissed a woman. Like, you got to really think about that. And this is how I also know a lot. Every man is not gay, contrary to popular belief.
She be hurt and devastated, but she know how to move on. She go through those phases, but she's not staying and getting just dead mistreated. You know how some girls literally was staying. I'm talking about getting mistreated to the core. They don't speak up. They don't leave.
She's leaving, baby. And she's going to be devastated. But in another two months, my girl be good. Back outside. Back outside. Love my girl, baby.
And I live for girls like that. Especially when you in your prime. Like, y'all in your prime. Yeah. People be thinking, like, 20s is your prime. No, 30s is really your prime. Oh, yeah. 20s is, yeah, you outside. You having fun. I think 20s, you supposed to be making your mistakes.
living reckless fun 30s is really your prime of creating who you're going to be in your 40s yeah 30s is your prime and i see so many girls in their 30s waste a good fucking years i see it over and over again not treated right not respected not supported and then you wake up and you're 60 years old and be like where the fuck where did the time go because i'll
Oh, I got to make a video to that. You ain't that.
It's not true. And I think what happens is as people, because we're living that life, we experience those things. We then like to project onto other people and their experiences. All men are not gay. Right. Because you're talking to a gay man that has never even kissed a woman. Yeah. I've never touched a vagina. I've never licked. I've never seen it.
People do it every time. You not know how easy it is for Halle Berry to get a man.
Could have one tomorrow. She got to mean exactly what she's saying. Do you not know how easy it would be for her to get a man? And a man that probably would genuinely love her. She's just probably very calculated on how she move. She could get a man in 2.5 seconds. The producers that were at the show that was filming that segment that day, she could have one of them be her husband tomorrow.
That ain't what she want.
Immediately. The essence of you is beautiful. You rich, successful, single. So it's just not that.
They are. They are. It's so easy. Especially when you look good, lip gloss, hair done. Lip gloss popping. You really can go out on the street and get 15 numbers. And out of them 15 men, yeah, the quality is probably two good ones, but it's so easy.
As long as I can see that I had a man and we was doing phone sex, then it's not weird at all.
No. You got to come see that.
You got to come see that seafood boy on Facebook. excuse me. Stop that juicy crap. You don't get to see that on no FaceTime. You won't record me. Because I said, I think when I got in my car accident, I said, ooh, bitch, you famous. Because I, like, I just be operating like myself. So when I get to my phone that day, I seen the shade room posted. I said, ooh,
it literally gagged the fuck out of me. For real? Yeah, I don't know why. I said, what the fuck?
I don't know, bitch, you got to watch how you moving now. Yeah, you got to be careful.
Yeah, you just don't want that.
I get it. Yeah, no faith.
Outside of the strip club, outside of my mother. I've never seen it in that context of me making love or touching. So I know that there are men out there who don't desire another man. Because I'm a gay man who does not desire a woman. I see the beauty in her. Just like another man can see the beauty in another man. But he may not be sexually attracted to him in that way.
They want the clout because they be so rooted in that clout. Yes. Yes.
It broke the internet. Remember that was... Yes. It broke the internet. I remember... All you seen down your Twitter timeline was Blac Chyna. Because remember they made it seem like it was her revenge for calling him. I remember that.
All them dudes that chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you, chase you. Then when you give their ass a chance, they don't give up.
And it's like, bitch, you wanted me.
I've been seeing that happen so many times. Chased her down, begged her. Yeah. Practically. Then when she give you a chance...
Yeah. He chased you for... Three years.
So that's how it was in my last one. Do you like it of a picture?
Do y'all have an ex that y'all would give a chance to again?
And it's possible for a man not to be sexually attracted to another man. Because I'm not sexually attracted to women. So I've always known who I was.
Because that's long for a girl. Even if a girl is talking to you for three, four weeks, something is wrong.
No, I don't have an ex. I don't have an ex. I have little flings, I have little relationships, but I don't have an ex, like a real ex where I can say, ooh, that's my ex. I don't play.
When I tell you I don't play, I have it bad. You don't even talk to me too loud. You can leave.
Don't need it. I'm telling you, I really be at peace with myself and my life. Now, do I want to be in love? Yes. Of course. Do I want a relationship? Yes. But right now in this season, I be good. Yeah. I go home. I eat my own food. I chill, put my air conditioner on, cut my teeth. I be good. Mm-hmm. When I want a nibble, I have a nibble. Yes. When I want you to leave, you be gone. You can go.
My sister just told me that. My sister just said that. She was like, that is one of the most peaceful things. Yeah. You can move and do what you want. He's not, oh, why you got this on? Why you going this way? Yeah, yeah. Where you going? Why you...
And I've talked to some girls, too, and all they realize is it's the same experience. Hell yeah. Women who are not emulating a man, how he operates, how he thinks, how he maneuvers, and she's getting the same experience.
Oh, I have a... Oh, I know my Bob for the week. What is it?
My Bob for the week is my sister, Saucy Santana.
That's my girl. That's my sister.
Man, we had all... So that's like, girl. And people don't even understand how much she loves me. She loves me. And I love my girl. Since the day we met, we've been... You ever had a friend that you don't talk to every day? Yeah. Talk to him every day. But every time y'all see each other, it's a vibe. What's the tea?
And it could be some shit that go on and y'all could pick up the phone and be like, girl, what happened? But y'all don't talk every single day. That's my girl. But I would say the song is...
He just came up with a song. It's called... I'm not going to play it, right? Or do I play it?
But I think why those conversations do come up, right, because it can get very sticky. Because I think especially as gay people, we've experienced a lot of DL men. And so then what happens is we then start grouping people because we said to ourselves, you know what? I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He was gay. I've seen it all too.
It's called Free Band Titty.
Yeah, we are. It's so crazy because, like, people mistake him for me and me for him. Yeah, I can see that. Really?
And I thought that they was only doing it to me. So I said one day, I said, because it'll be people like, saucy. And then they'll be like, no, you be sexy.
So I asked him one day, I said, do people be mistaking you for me? He said, yes, girl. This lady just did it the other day at the airport. That is crazy. I said, really? He said, yeah, that was the first time. He said, the lady said, big sexy. Yeah. And I said, baby, I'm not big sexy.
Really? I think maybe it's, like, the aesthetic. Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
I can see why people. Yeah.
I love they little voice.
Man, but pop was so good.
What do you think about her? I like that song. Yeah, yeah. I got to get it. She's new, so I got to get into her. I got to get more of a feel of her and her music. But I like that song because my sister, Glorilla, is on it. Yes, that's what I'm saying. So, Glorilla just added that in.
Yeah, Glorilla just rocked it on up. Yeah. Love my Glow.
Yeah, that's like the hot song right now. Okay. I haven't even heard it.
Yeah. I think he like... 26, 27, 28. See, I thought he was like 30. Yeah, YN's is 1920.
When you start giving 27, 28, 29, 30, then you know YN.
You can tell him a poor looking man. Yeah. Fine as hell.
Who y'all celebrity? Oh, no. I can't answer that.
But I still, because even when you do a pregnancy test, even when you do a DNA test, nothing is 100%.
And he be out of the way.
Yeah, he cute, very mature. I said... I don't think G Herbo...
Yes, I like his personality.
Look, I just like him.
So I can never just say all men are bi-curious. Right. All men are gay. You can't do that.
But you do have a lot of men who are bisexual. But you know in our community it's taboo. Yeah, it is. In the black community it's taboo to talk about bisexuality because we feel like it's not real. You are either gay or you are straight. It's no in between. But I think what a lot of people have to start realizing that they are bisexual men.
And I love your pumps. Thank you. Them is cute. I think sometimes, oh, that's a hard one, friend. I know. Because it'd be so unfortunate that when it's like out of sight, out of mind. So when you're not around a person, then you see everybody's true colors and true feelings because you're not convenient to what they have going on.
But I think that it's important to know that who's supposed to be in your life is going to be in your life. And I think it's important for people to show their true colors so that you can paint it out to be what it is that is in front of you and not try to see it for something else. So I think you just have to take that for what it is. I know it may be hurtful and I know it may be unfortunate.
It may bring discomfort to know that that you were only used for conveniency. However, you have to take it for what it is. I'm a person that lives in the truth of the now. And so when a person is showing you who they are, you have to believe it. And so I feel like try and rekindle, try and reach out.
And as I'm preaching to y'all, I'm preaching to myself too.
But if you are extending more than they are giving back to you, I think that it's important to just... close that door and take it for what it is. Take on the hurt, feel it and move on and understand that, you know, it's a different position that people play in everybody's life and your journey may be up with them in that moment.
Because I'm a realist. Because I have certain days where I'm like, no, it's no such thing as a man being bisexual. You either like men or you like women. But when I really have those cathartic moments to myself, I'm like, you know what? I can see how somebody could like a man and a woman. It may not necessarily make sense to me. Right. But I can see how it could be possible. What you think?
Look, she don't want to say a word.
And that's rare when we don't know. Girl, you need to go and get what you desire, baby. Because you're never going to be happy moving forward when you're just pretending and faking and being with somebody just because you feel like that's the convenient thing or the comfortable thing to do. Maybe go and get what your heart desires. There's nothing wrong with that. Because you're craving something.
I guess it's tingling and inching down there. And that is never going to be fulfilled with love.
Do you think a man can be vibe?
I really do. Go get it.
Scratch that itch, Buka. Scratch it.
Girl, if you saying fingers, toys, this throbbing, this itching, scratch it.
Girl, you want something. Yeah.
I think it's like... A liking for energy and people.
A vibe, an energy. You could be trans. You could be white, black, Puerto Rican, Mexican. Got it. Woman, man.
So I'm going to be on some networks coming up. I can't wait for you guys to see Baddies Africa audition. It was amazing. It was so lit. It was so turnt. They took care of me. I'm going to also be on a couple of episodes of Love & Hip Hop. That also was an amazing experience. I have a huge birthday fashion show that's coming up. This year that I do annually every year. Okay, I want my invite.
Oh, I'm sending y'all invites. That my supporters come from all over the world to have a good time. That shit was like four, I think it was like four or five thousand people showed up.
And everybody comes up and from all over the place and having a wonderful time. I have amazing content on the way. Y'all have to come do a walk. We do. We have to. We know y'all are free. Ooh, I feel like we can do it ASAP. Yeah. That's going to be fun. We got to do one. Because that's going to go up. It is.
No, I'm serious, y'all. Me too. Let's go ahead and lock that in. Yeah, we will. Because that's going to be sickening. Yay. And I have a different concept. Like, one could go up first, pose. Then you go up, pose, and y'all pose together. Okay. I think that'll be sick. I'm ready. We need to go ahead and do that ASAP. Amazing content on the way. Stay tuned and wait till y'all see who I got coming.
Thank you for coming and joining us. I'm honored. I couldn't wait until y'all reached out to me.
I put your picture in my mirror. Start to blush when somebody says your name. In my stomach. In my stomach. There's a pain. Walking out of action. I go another way. I start to stutter when I speak. Start to stand but my knees go weak. What's happening to me? Anybody, can you tell me what it means? I lay my head on a pillow. Got me staring at the window.
Checking how my hair and my nails look. I feel like something is on. And I get nervous when you call. So I say I'm not. I see your face and I hear my favorite song. Should I sit on your mat at home? I wonder if you know. Do you have a clue? Come on. Yeah. Babe.
I'm not going to run. I'm just going to stand here and see.
Man, when I tell you I don't want sardine, cool it down.
But Donna, women are the most beautiful, precious, amazing thing that God has ever created on this earth. I couldn't do nothing. Wow! You came from a sardine cookie cake. If you paid me a million dollars, I wouldn't even know where to start in dissecting a vagina. I wouldn't want to taste it, kiss it, lick it, finger it, be with it, lay with it, nothing. This lady, come on.
She's going to tell me one day, come on. Oh, you so handsome. You need some punani in your life. I was at Starbucks. I said, what's punani? Ooh, now you know. She said, you is just so fine. You just so big and tall. You need some punani. I said, what is punani? She said, stop playing vagina. I said, I don't want none of that. I don't need none of that. And I don't need none of that, baby.
I'm strictly dicking meat, sausage, ribs, airlock. Ooh, not the meat sauce. I'm a barbecue. I'm a barbecue, baby. I need meats on this grill. I don't need no meat. Not to make this barbecue. Y'all, I love, I have to, sometimes I have to say, God, please just don't. Oh, I just be craving them so bad. Every time I'm just, oh, I think it's an addiction. Oh, I mean, I get it. Men be fine.
My girl did her piece. Oh, my girl did her research. And you know why you gagged me too? Because I'm not ashamed of anything because I love Jada. Right, right. But a lot of people only know me now for the things that I do now. Right. It's a small percentage of people that be like, I remember you were friends with Jada.
And I be gagging like, excuse me? The tea is hot. Because you know what's so crazy? Me just being a realist. That whole situation, when I think about it now as an adult, oh, I just wish everything would have went so different. Because I just know, even though everything is aligned how it's supposed to be. Of course.
But I know that if things would have went different, we would have been such a powerhouse friendship group. Friendship, yes. Because I learned so much from... From her. Yeah. And what people don't understand, she has always been a boss. Yeah. Young. I'm talking about sitting in a car and showing up on her phone a sale she made 70 bands. Period. At 17 years old.
So that's why even when I hear people say, little baby's baby mama, no, no, no, her name is Jada. Right. Because I don't care if he is on a different level of where she is now, my girl has always had her own. She's not one of those girls.
That has only just been attached to a guy. Mm-hmm. And so now I think the only times that I have moments of, damn, I wish I was connected to my girls when I see her son. Because I'm like, oh, I would have been like his uncle. Yeah. Uncle world. Life goes on. I'm good. Everything was aligned for a reason. I think it was meant for me to be in her life for that season.
For her to be able to teach me different things, help me build my platform, get me to where I'm at now in my life. And I could see things reconnecting later on in life. If not, God is still good. Yes. I love that. If so, God is still good.
And so, yeah, it was good.
Yeah, that's one of my... I have a lot of people who I don't deal with. I don't give a damn. There's nothing I want to talk to them about. Right. But Jada is one person who I will be open to having a conversation with outside of her platform, outside of who she is, because I watched this clip the other day, and Tyler Perry posted that Kerry Washington had interrupted the BEC Awards to thank him.
And in the caption, he says he has changed lives, and he really gets a thank you. And so when I was looking at it, I'm like, what the fuck? That's crazy. Do you not know how many million dollar deals Tyler Perry has probably given out? Right. And for him to say that little clip moved him because people don't say thank you is mind blowing when you really dissect it. Yeah.
And so for me with her, I could never be that person that doesn't give her her accolades.
Because Jada was doing for her family when she was 17. Yeah. It was times Jada just... Say, here, post yourself on my Instagram. And it'll run my followers up 6,000 numbers at a time. But it just was unfortunate how things ended. And I'm the type of person, because we were linked in with another person who was very special to me, and he's my brother for life, I had to ride with him.
And that's just what it was. So what happened? I picked... Okay, so without just giving, look at my girl, she's hot! Without just giving too, too, too much, because I don't want to open up no old wounds. Right, right. But it was a situation that happened with somebody who she was dealing with. Okay. They end up getting into it and things just didn't get reconciled the right way. Okay.