Benji Waterhouse

And as I headed back downstairs, I overheard Billy say to his mum, did you remember to get milk? In a loving kind of, what are you like kind of way. She said, yes, angel, I got you your milk. And I managed to avoid sectioning Billy on the condition that he restart taking his medication, which with much persuasion from me and his mum, we managed to make him agree to.

And back at my workplace in the hospital, I was telling my boss about how shit-scared I had been, and he told me that actually, people with schizophrenia are more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators of it.

And back at my workplace in the hospital, I was telling my boss about how shit-scared I had been, and he told me that actually, people with schizophrenia are more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators of it.

And back at my workplace in the hospital, I was telling my boss about how shit-scared I had been, and he told me that actually, people with schizophrenia are more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators of it.

He also told me that alcohol and drugs are far bigger risk factors for homicide than schizophrenia is, so actually, technically, I was safer being in a psychiatric patient's house than at a psychiatrist's house party. And it's a weird one because I am now the consultant psychiatrist with 10 years experience now. And I've seen thousands of people not dissimilar to Billy.

He also told me that alcohol and drugs are far bigger risk factors for homicide than schizophrenia is, so actually, technically, I was safer being in a psychiatric patient's house than at a psychiatrist's house party. And it's a weird one because I am now the consultant psychiatrist with 10 years experience now. And I've seen thousands of people not dissimilar to Billy.

He also told me that alcohol and drugs are far bigger risk factors for homicide than schizophrenia is, so actually, technically, I was safer being in a psychiatric patient's house than at a psychiatrist's house party. And it's a weird one because I am now the consultant psychiatrist with 10 years experience now. And I've seen thousands of people not dissimilar to Billy.

And I've had a few close shaves, but I'm yet to judo slam any patients, which is a strange thing for a doctor to boast about. And the dean of my medical school, I think, would be proud of me too, like, All of my patients, luckily, are still alive, as are the people that they've kind of crossed paths with. But I sometimes wonder at what cost.

And I've had a few close shaves, but I'm yet to judo slam any patients, which is a strange thing for a doctor to boast about. And the dean of my medical school, I think, would be proud of me too, like, All of my patients, luckily, are still alive, as are the people that they've kind of crossed paths with. But I sometimes wonder at what cost.

And I've had a few close shaves, but I'm yet to judo slam any patients, which is a strange thing for a doctor to boast about. And the dean of my medical school, I think, would be proud of me too, like, All of my patients, luckily, are still alive, as are the people that they've kind of crossed paths with. But I sometimes wonder at what cost.

Yes, with medication, Billy's voice is quietened, and we got the milk situation under control. But they took away other things. On this powerful antipsychotic medication, side effects meant that he'd sleep for like 16 hours a day. And when he was awake, the lethargy meant that he felt like a zombie. The meds also gave him obesity and later diabetes and heart disease.

Yes, with medication, Billy's voice is quietened, and we got the milk situation under control. But they took away other things. On this powerful antipsychotic medication, side effects meant that he'd sleep for like 16 hours a day. And when he was awake, the lethargy meant that he felt like a zombie. The meds also gave him obesity and later diabetes and heart disease.

Yes, with medication, Billy's voice is quietened, and we got the milk situation under control. But they took away other things. On this powerful antipsychotic medication, side effects meant that he'd sleep for like 16 hours a day. And when he was awake, the lethargy meant that he felt like a zombie. The meds also gave him obesity and later diabetes and heart disease.

And during a painfully lucid moment when I was reviewing him later in the year in clinic, he said to me through groggy eyes, I know you're going to write in the notes that I'm doing well, aren't you? Just because I'm taking my meds, but on them, I'd rather be dead. So, I'm still very much looking for the secret codes for my family and for, at the more extreme end, people like Billy.

And during a painfully lucid moment when I was reviewing him later in the year in clinic, he said to me through groggy eyes, I know you're going to write in the notes that I'm doing well, aren't you? Just because I'm taking my meds, but on them, I'd rather be dead. So, I'm still very much looking for the secret codes for my family and for, at the more extreme end, people like Billy.

And during a painfully lucid moment when I was reviewing him later in the year in clinic, he said to me through groggy eyes, I know you're going to write in the notes that I'm doing well, aren't you? Just because I'm taking my meds, but on them, I'd rather be dead. So, I'm still very much looking for the secret codes for my family and for, at the more extreme end, people like Billy.

It seems that often, you know, the solutions to people's lives aren't straightforward, and even psychiatry's modern best cures, you know, best treatments can be as disabling as the conditions that they aim to cure. And it's been weird for me, like, remembering that back then, you know, 10 years ago, the thing that really scared me was the patients.

It seems that often, you know, the solutions to people's lives aren't straightforward, and even psychiatry's modern best cures, you know, best treatments can be as disabling as the conditions that they aim to cure. And it's been weird for me, like, remembering that back then, you know, 10 years ago, the thing that really scared me was the patients.

It seems that often, you know, the solutions to people's lives aren't straightforward, and even psychiatry's modern best cures, you know, best treatments can be as disabling as the conditions that they aim to cure. And it's been weird for me, like, remembering that back then, you know, 10 years ago, the thing that really scared me was the patients.

But now, with the benefit of experience and being more informed, by far the biggest thing that I'm fearful of is that, as a psychiatrist, I am maybe causing more harm than good. But maybe if I wanted things to be black and white, I should have specialized in radiology.