What does it feel like to believe in God?

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I couldn't fall asleep until I had prayed. Always the same prayer, every night, until I turned 15. When I was 15, something terrible happened to someone I loved. After that, I only prayed that this one person would be safe. A month later, the same terrible thing happened to them again. And after that, I mostly stopped praying. At first, I think I was pretty angry, but the anger went away.